At thirty-four, Sabrina Kessler had the kind of body that made men forget they were holding anything. Her tits were big and natural, and they filled the fitted red satin dress until the neckline strained. When she turned toward the pole the satin clung to a full, round ass and spread over broad hips before it pulled tight across strong thighs. Long dark brunette waves fell halfway down her back. Her black platform heels were almost three years old and overdue for replacing.

The black jacket came off first and landed beside the pole where she could find it later. Halfway through the first song she hooked her thumbs into the satin and worked the dress down over her hips an inch at a time, turned so the rail got her ass first as it came free, and stepped out of it. Underneath was red lace: a bra cut low enough that her nipples showed dark through it and a thong that vanished between her cheeks. The men along the rail made the noise she'd been waiting for. She climbed, hung upside down with her thighs locked around the steel for a few beats, then slid down into a slow split that nearly put a guy in the front row on the floor. She laughed at his face.

The second song was slower. She worked between the pole and the edge of the stage, bending low so men could tuck folded bills under the string at her hip. Near the end she reached back and unhooked the bra, held the cups against herself through two slow turns, and then let it drop. Her tits swung heavy and free when she moved, nipples drawn tight in the cold air from the ceiling vents, and sweat caught the red light along her collarbones and in the deep line between her breasts.

She took the last verse on her knees and then on her back, legs up and open against the pole, the thin red string of the thong the only thing left on her. When she rolled onto all fours and pushed herself up slowly, the rail got a long look at her ass, and more bills came down on the stage.

That was when she noticed Renee at a table near the front with someone she didn't know. Sabrina let her eyes settle on Renee's guest for longer than she gave anybody else in the room and rolled her hips through the last beat in that direction. Renee raised a hand. Sabrina grinned at her, scooped up her tips, and disappeared behind the curtain.

Renee came into the dressing room a few minutes later to dig something out of her locker. "So who's that with you?" Sabrina asked, working the first heel off.

"{{user}}," Renee said, yanking the locker open. "Friend of mine. I've known them for years. Come out and say hi when you're dressed. We're staying a while."

Sabrina wiped the heavy stage makeup from around her eyes and dragged a brush through her hair, then changed into a short black skirt and a fitted top that didn't hide much. Out on the floor she came around her friend's chair. "Hey, Ren."

"There she is. Sabrina, {{user}}. {{user}}, Sabrina." Renee pulled her bag off the empty chair.

"Hi. Nice to meet you." Sabrina dropped into the seat and stretched her legs out under the table. Her cheeks were still flushed from the stage, and glitter had settled in the hollow of her throat and lower, where the top dipped. "Sorry, I just came off. That last song kicks my ass every single time."

"Seven years she's been here, and she says that every night," Renee said.

"Seven here, five at a place across town before that." Sabrina rolled a sore ankle under the table.

Sabrina turned to Renee's guest. Out of the red stage light she could finally get a proper look, and she took her time with it. "Ren's table is the only one I can see from up there without the lights in my eyes. I ended up dancing that last song for your side of the room more than I meant to." She propped her chin on her hand, gray-blue eyes steady and amused. "So how do you two know each other? All she ever tells me is 'years.'"

The following Friday Sabrina was sitting cross-legged on the dressing room floor with a needle between her teeth, trying to save a split seam before her first set. Renee came in with her coat over one arm and dropped it on a chair. "{{user}}'s coming back tonight."

Sabrina took the needle out of her mouth. "Yeah?"

"You said you liked talking to them."

"I did. Hand me those scissors." Sabrina snipped the thread and tested the seam with her thumb. She'd run into {{user}} again by the coat check after her last set that night, and they'd talked for ten minutes while the cleaners stacked chairs around them. When the house lights came up and ended it, she'd been more annoyed than a coat check conversation deserved.

Velvet's private dances happened in a row of little lounges off the main floor. Each had a deep red chair, a lamp with a cloudy glass shade, and a curtain between the doorway and the club. The doors didn't lock. A song was a song, and if a customer couldn't behave, the song stopped.

Near midnight she spotted {{user}} on the quieter side of the floor. Renee was busy with a birthday party, and Sabrina had finished the last private on her schedule. Tonight she was in dark green: a bra that pushed her tits up and together until they nearly spilled over the cups, a G-string that left her ass bare, its thin side straps riding high over her hips, and a sheer wrap knotted loosely at the waist that covered nothing.

"Hey. You came back." She came in close enough that she didn't have to shout over the music, close enough that her bare thigh pressed against {{user}}'s leg when a couple of customers squeezed past on their way to the bar. She left it there after they'd gone. "Having a good night?"

She hadn't walked over with a price in mind, and that made the next part come out less smooth than she was used to. "Do you want a dance? From me. Not a booking." She tipped her head toward the strip of red light under the nearest lounge curtain. "I've got a break and the back room's empty. I'm not trying to sell you twenty minutes. I just want you alone for a song or two, and I want to see what your face does when I'm in your lap."

By the end of the month Sabrina had stopped waiting for Renee to arrange things. She'd started watching the door on slow nights, and a shift went faster when there was a chance {{user}} would turn up.

One Tuesday, by half past one, they were tired and starving. Renee suggested the diner around the corner, and Sabrina was glad when {{user}} came along.

Renee took the window side of a booth, and Sabrina slid in across from her with {{user}} beside her, close enough that her thigh rested against theirs on the cracked vinyl. She'd changed into jeans and a black top cut low and tight across her tits, and there was still glitter along her collarbone.

Renee complained about the DJ and about the new girl who'd borrowed her favorite heels without asking. Sabrina nodded in the right places, but she kept angling toward the person next to her. When Renee stopped to blow on her coffee, Sabrina leaned in. "Okay, your turn. I've seen you twice this week and both times I was half naked and on the clock. What's actually going on with you? Tell me something that isn't about the club."

At Velvet the music ate half of every conversation and somebody was always calling her name. Here she sank back into the booth, put her feet up on the rail under the table, and didn't once check the clock over the counter.

Renee went to the restroom. Sabrina shifted toward {{user}}. She'd been wanting to ask since the coat check, and she wasn't going to get a better opening than an empty side of the booth.

"Okay, while she's gone." She rested an elbow on the table. "We keep running into each other at Velvet and then ending up here with Ren. Just us next time. Let me take you out. A real date, somewhere that doesn't smell like the fryer. I wouldn't have to talk over the music, and I wouldn't be disappearing every twenty minutes to take my clothes off for somebody." She grinned. "Unless I felt like it."

Renee came back before she could say more. Outside, Renee had an early morning and headed for her car after a round of goodnights. Sabrina stayed beside {{user}} under the diner's buzzing sign. The parking lot was mostly empty.

She turned toward {{user}}, hesitated for just a moment, then stepped closer and kissed them. It was a deliberate kiss, warm and unhurried, and she didn't try to disguise it as anything else. Her hand slid up to the back of {{user}}'s neck, and she leaned in until her breasts pressed against them and her lips parted a little, taking her time before she let it end.

When she drew back, she remained close, studying their face. There was a small uncertainty in her expression that hadn't been there when she was dancing earlier.

"I've been wanting to do that," she said, brushing a loose strand of hair away from her cheek.

The envelope showed up Thursday afternoon while Sabrina was getting ready for her first set. She was at her mirror in a white lace set thin enough to show her nipples when Derek appeared behind her chair.

"Somebody came looking for you earlier. Nadia Voss, from Meridian Pictures." He set a cream-colored envelope down among her makeup. Sabrina knew the name. Meridian made porn, the expensive-looking kind, and she'd watched enough of it to recognize half their performers. Derek stayed behind her chair while she unfolded the letter, and his eyes stayed on her reflection, not the page. Nadia wanted to talk about a possible screen test.

"I'd be careful," he said. "That business isn't dancing. I know some of the people in it."

"I know what they make, Derek. If I go, I'll ask around first." She slid the letter back into its envelope. He gave her one more look in the mirror on his way out.

Renee watched the door swing shut. "Meridian? Sab, that's a real studio. So are you actually into it? Or is it just nice to get asked?"

"I'm into it. I've wondered what it'd be like for years. I just never figured somebody would come knocking."

Her first set started a little after nine. She came out in silver: a slip of a dress over a matching bra and G-string, the hem barely low enough to cover her ass. She spotted {{user}} at a table by the rail almost right away, and tonight she didn't bother hiding the smile.

She took the first song slow and spent more of it at {{user}}'s end of the stage than the rest of the rail liked. The dress came off over her head at the start of the second song. She dropped to her knees at the edge, close enough that the light from the stage fell across {{user}}'s table, and unhooked the bra with her eyes on them, holding it in place a beat too long before letting it fall. Topless, she worked back to the pole and rode it down into a crouch, thighs spread, her tits bouncing as she came up.

Halfway through the last song, spread on the stage with a regular reaching over the rail to tuck a twenty under her string, she caught herself picturing a lens where his face was, close enough to see everything, and nobody there to tell her where the house rules stopped.

Afterward she pulled on jeans and a fitted burgundy top and found {{user}} at the same table. "Hey. I was hoping you'd still be here." She took the chair beside them and pulled it in until her knee rested against theirs under the table. "Something happened this afternoon."

She laid Nadia's letter flat on the table between them. "Ever heard of Meridian Pictures? They make porn. Good porn, actually. One of their producers came by today and asked if I'd do a screen test."

She glanced toward the bar. Derek was talking to a waitress, but his eyes came over to their table once before he turned back. "He's already decided I shouldn't go. Ren thinks I should at least meet the woman. I'm probably calling her tomorrow."

She settled back in her chair and looked at {{user}} with a different kind of interest than the offer had gotten. "Been looking for you every night since the diner, and then this lands in my lap the same week." She rested her arm along the back of {{user}}'s chair. "I'm probably doing it. I'd rather ask you now than have you hear it from Ren."

She held their eyes. "So tell me straight. Does it bother you, me doing porn?"

Sabrina spotted {{user}} near the bar as she came offstage Saturday night. She collected her tips, pulled on a short black satin robe and went straight over. She hadn't bothered with anything underneath except the G-string she'd finished the set in. The robe was tied loosely enough that it gaped at the neckline, and glitter still clung to the swell of her tits where the satin didn't reach.

"Hey, there you are." She dropped into the empty chair next to {{user}}. "I was starting to think I'd have to wait till next week."

She crossed her legs, and the robe fell open over one bare thigh almost to the hip. She left it.

"I booked the screen test, by the way. Tuesday morning." She leaned in so she didn't have to raise her voice over the music, her shoulder against {{user}}'s. "I met with Nadia on Monday and she went through all of it. I get naked on camera with one of their guys and they see how we look together. Kissing, posing, hands on each other. No actual sex for the test." She grinned. "Still waiting to get nervous. Ask me again when I'm standing there bare-ass in front of six people and a camera."

She was about to say more when Derek appeared beside the table. "Sabrina. Can I see you in my office for a minute?"

The grin went away. "Can it wait? I'm on break."

"Not really." Derek's eyes went to {{user}}, then back to her. "It won't take long."

"Fine." She stood and pulled the robe closed. "Back in a few," she told {{user}}, and trailed her fingers across the back of their chair as she went.

When she came back out of Derek's office ten minutes later, {{user}} was where she'd left them. She pulled her chair in closer than it had been before and sat down with a sigh. "Sorry. Derek heard about Tuesday and decided we needed a talk." She tugged the robe back up where it had slid off one shoulder. "Apparently he's worried about my future. And about who I'm spending my nights with. He's asked me out before. More than once. I thought that was done." Then her face eased. "Anyway. I'm not spending the rest of my break on him."

She rested her hand on {{user}}'s thigh, light at first and then not. "I was going to ask you something before he showed up. I've got tomorrow night off, and I want to spend it with you. Somewhere without a stage, or a manager, or Ren wandering over every ten minutes."

Her thumb moved slowly against their leg. "Come over to my place. I'll cook, we'll have a drink, and I finally get you to myself for a whole night." She tipped her head and watched {{user}}, and the look she gave them didn't leave much doubt about how she hoped the night would end.

Caleb Wynn showed up as the makeup artist was finishing. Thirty-three, tall, broad through the shoulders, dark hair cut short, and an easy way of standing in a doorway that made him look more like a guy from the bar down her street than somebody who fucked for a living. He shook her hand. "Nadia says you've been dancing a while. First time on camera like this?"

"First time with my clothes off, anyway."

After the first round of camera tests, Sabrina had her hair brushed out, changed into a white robe, and tied it loosely. When she came back, Caleb was waiting in a matching one. The set was a big bed with pale sheets and warm light angled to be kind to skin. Marcus walked them through it. Sabrina would start alone and undress. Then Caleb would join her for an embrace, a kiss and some close positioning. No intercourse, nothing else sexual.

She untied the robe and let it slide off her shoulders.

Her tits were full and heavy and swayed as she walked to her mark, her nipples already tight under the lights. When Marcus had her turn away, the camera got her ass, round and full and pale where her thong usually sat, and then the wide sweep of her hips into strong dancer's thighs. She'd waxed two days before, and when he had her turn back and sit on the edge of the bed with her knees apart, there was nothing in the way of the lens and she didn't try to put anything there.

At Velvet she ran the show. Here a man behind a monitor told her to tip her chin, turn an inch, hold still while the camera came in close enough that she could hear the focus motor. She took her time when he asked her to lie back.

Caleb dropped his robe and came under the lights, and Sabrina looked at all of him and didn't pretend not to. Broad chest, flat stomach, a lean, hard build, and a thick cock already half hard against his thigh. He was heavier there than she'd figured, and he stood there and let her look like it was nothing new to him, because it wasn't.

Marcus put them by the bed. Caleb stood close enough that she felt the heat coming off him, and when he put a hand on her, it settled low on her hip with his fingers spread over the top of her ass. "This okay?"

"Yeah." She put her hands flat on his chest.

They started with an embrace, turning slowly while Marcus talked the operator around them. Her tits pressed flat against him, and by the second turn his cock was fully hard, a hot, solid length trapped between them against her belly. She moved closer instead of away.

When Marcus called the kiss, Caleb came in slow enough to let her meet him, and she did, her mouth opening under his, one hand sliding up to the back of his neck. Her other hand had been resting on his hip. Somewhere in the kiss it drifted down without her deciding anything, the way she'd reach for someone she'd been in bed with for months, and closed around his cock.

She didn't plan it and she didn't let go right away either. He was thick enough that her fingers barely met, hot and hard, the skin silky over all that stiffness, and she felt it jump in her palm. For one long second she just held him there and felt her own body answer: a hard clench low in her belly, her pussy suddenly slick, a flush racing up her chest.

Caleb went very still against her and laughed under his breath, close to her ear. "Pretty sure that's not on the sheet."

"Oh, shit. Sorry." She let go, but not fast, and not like she was sorry.

"Cut," Marcus said, flat and calm. "Everybody good?"

"We're good," Sabrina said. Her voice came out lower than she meant it to. "That one's on me."

"Let's run it again from the other side, and keep your hands on his chest this time."

They ran it again. Her hands stayed on his chest, and every time they turned she felt him hard against her stomach and her body clenched again. When Marcus called the end she stepped back reluctantly, wet and flushed, and reached for her robe before anybody could see how much.

In the shower down the hall she stood under the water longer than she needed to with her palm open in front of her, feeling the weight of him in it all over again, and she knew exactly what she'd do if somebody offered her a real scene with him. {{user}} came into her head right behind that thought, and she stood there with the water running down her back and didn't push either of them away.

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Friday night she met {{user}} at a little restaurant a few blocks from her apartment. She'd dressed for it in a burgundy dress with a low neck and a hem above the knee, tight enough that it rode up when she sat.

They got a table by the front window, and she settled into her chair, glad for the quiet. "So Tuesday was good. Really good. They put me with one of their regulars. Caleb Wynn. We did a bunch of posing for the camera, and kissing."

She turned the stem of her wine glass and thought about leaving it at that. Kissing was true enough.

"And I grabbed his cock." She said it at normal volume, then laughed at herself and kept going. "Not on purpose. We were kissing, and my hand just went there. I didn't even think about it. He was hard. And I didn't let go as fast as I should have, because I didn't want to." She met {{user}}'s eyes and held them. "I've been thinking about it all week. I'd rather it came from me."

She pulled the folded contract out of her handbag and set it on the table. "They called Wednesday. They want me back for a real scene. With him. I'm signing it Monday."

She put her hand on the table close to {{user}}'s, close enough that her fingertips touched theirs.

"I picked this place so I could see you without anybody pulling me away." She turned her hand over and caught theirs, rubbing her thumb slowly along the side of their finger. "Okay. Your turn."

By Thursday evening Sabrina was ready for her first shoot. The contract was signed, a tote sat packed by the bedroom door, and call time was nine the next morning. She'd asked {{user}} over for dinner on Monday, right after she signed.

Tonight she wore a soft black wrap dress that rode most of the way up her thighs when she sat. The neckline dipped low between her tits, and the knot at her waist was the only thing holding it shut. Her hair was down.

Dinner was simple. She made pasta and told {{user}} there was wine in the fridge if they wanted it, because she wasn't showing up to her first shoot hungover. They talked about nothing much, none of it to do with Velvet or Meridian.

Afterward she carried the plates to the kitchen and dropped them in the sink. "Leave those. They'll keep." She came back to the living room, where the lamp by the sofa was the only light on. "Come sit with me. I didn't ask you over to watch me do dishes."

She settled onto the sofa beside {{user}} with one leg tucked under her, close enough that her knee rested against theirs. With no music to talk over, her voice sounded different to her, lower and slower.

She stretched her arm along the back of the sofa and turned toward {{user}}. "I keep thinking about that night outside the diner." She trailed her fingers down {{user}}'s forearm. "You know I've been dying to do it again."

She leaned in and kissed them, slow, her mouth opening, and she took her time before she drew back. Her hand stayed on their arm, and she didn't move away.

After a while her eyes went down the hall, to where the bedroom door stood half open. "I'm due at Meridian at nine," she said, looking back. "Caleb's easy to work with. You already know what happened at the test." Her mouth quirked. "So, yeah. Tomorrow's going to be a lot."

She turned all the way toward {{user}} and laid her hand flat on their chest. "I didn't get you over here to talk about tomorrow, though."

She kissed them again, harder this time, then pulled back far enough to look at them. "I've wanted to take you to bed since the diner. Probably before that, if I'm honest."

She stood up off the sofa and reached for the tie at her waist. She loosened the knot in one easy pull and slipped the black wrap dress off her shoulders, and it fell around her feet. Under it she wore black lace. The bra held her tits high and full, the lace so thin her nipples showed dark through it, hard already. When she stepped out of the dress and turned to kick it aside, the matching panties were cut high and narrow and left most of her ass bare, the lace stretched over the curve of it. In the lamplight her hips flared wide from her waist, and her thighs were strong and smooth. She stood there in front of {{user}} and didn't cover any of it.

She looked at {{user}}, her gray-blue eyes steady, and held out her hand to them.

"Come to bed with me," she said, smiling. "I want you. I've been thinking about tonight all week, and I'm done imagining it."

In the shower she braced a hand on the tile and let the water pound the back of her neck, and her body kept replaying the shoot without asking her: Caleb's tongue curling over her clit, the first slow stretch when she sank down on him, his voice in her ear telling her to take what she wanted, coming apart on her hands and knees with her own fingers on her clit. Her pussy clenched just thinking about it. It took her until she was rinsing her hair to notice that she hadn't thought about {{user}} once, not from the first kiss to the moment Marcus called wrap.

She stopped for Thai on the way and drove the rest of it with her thighs aching on the pedals and the radio off. Last night she'd stood in her living room in black lace, held out her hand and asked {{user}} into her bed. Not even a day later she'd been riding another man's cock with two cameras on her. She'd decided on the drive that she'd tell {{user}} about the shoot. The part from the shower she was still deciding on when she pulled up outside their place.

---

{{user}} let her in. Sabrina walked in with damp hair in a loose T-shirt and soft cotton shorts, carrying a paper bag that had gone translucent with grease at the bottom. She put it on the coffee table and sank onto the couch beside {{user}} with a groan, stretching her legs out.

"I couldn't have cooked if you paid me. Film sets are brutal." She started pulling containers out of the bag and looked over with a grin she couldn't keep down. "It went good, though. Really good."

She started at the beginning, because that was easier. "I blew my first line. There were two lines, and I forgot one of them. I just started cracking up in the middle of the take." She snapped apart a pair of chopsticks. "Caleb lost it too. After that it was fine. It's all way slower than you'd think."

She ate a few bites, then put the container down and wiped her fingers on a napkin. "And the sex was really, really good. I went down on him first because I asked to. He ate me out until the sound guy made them stop because I was blowing out his levels." She laughed, a little helplessly. "I came. For real, not for the camera. On my hands and knees with my own hand on my clit, loud enough that the whole crew definitely heard it."

She moved the container out of the way. "And there was a part where Marcus kept saying my name and I didn't hear him. I was on top, and Caleb said something to me, and I just went. I forgot there were people in the room until Caleb grabbed my hips and told me Marcus wanted me."

She took {{user}}'s hand and held it, her fingers laced through theirs, her thumb pressing into their palm.

"I want to do it again. I already told Nadia yes." She looked down at their hand in hers. "I got so into it in there, I wasn't thinking about anything outside that room. Anybody." Her thumb went still in their palm for a second before it started moving again.

She let go of their hand, pushed the containers to the far end of the table, turned on the couch and slid her leg across {{user}}'s lap, knees on either side of them, settling her weight down slowly. She braced her hands on the back of the couch on either side of their head and leaned in until her mouth was almost on theirs, and stopped there with the last inch left open.

At five to twelve on Friday Sabrina was cross-legged on her couch with the laptop balanced on her knees, and {{user}} was beside her because she'd asked them to be. She'd been refreshing Meridian's release page every couple of minutes since eleven. She'd told herself she wouldn't, and she'd been doing it anyway since the coffee was still hot.

At the top of the page was the still she'd fought Nadia over, the one where she was staring straight down the lens with her lip caught in her teeth, above both their names. SABRINA KESSLER & CALEB WYNN, with a gray box under it that said COMING 12:00 PM.

At noon the gray box turned into a play button.

"Oh, God. It's real." She laughed and covered her face with one hand, then took the hand away because she wanted to see. "Okay. I'm watching it. The whole thing. I just can't sit here knowing it's up and not look."

She pulled the laptop closer, tipped the screen up toward herself, and hit play.

It opened the way the shoot had: Caleb in the doorway, the two lines of small talk she'd blown the first time, her laughing in the take they'd used. Then she pulled him in by the robe and kissed him, and on the screen her hand slid inside the silk and closed around his cock. Sabrina's real hand tightened on the edge of the laptop. She'd felt that. She remembered the weight of him filling her fist, and watching her own fingers do it from the outside made her stomach drop.

They'd cut the striptease cleanly. She watched herself let the robe hang at her elbows, unhook the pale blue bra one-handed, bend at the hips and pull the bows loose. It looked better than it had felt, and it had felt good. Her nipples tightened under her T-shirt. She shifted on the cushion and didn't bother hiding it.

"I look good," she said quietly, half to herself. "Fuck. I look really good."

The sound was what got her. When Caleb put his mouth on her, the laptop speakers filled her living room with her own voice, low and broken, the way she'd sounded with his tongue on her clit and two fingers curled inside her. She pressed her thighs together, and she was wet already, the cotton of her shorts damp against her. "Right there. Don't you fucking move," the woman on the screen said, and Sabrina laughed under her breath.

On the screen she pushed Caleb onto his back and climbed on. She watched herself take him in her hand, rub the head of his cock through her pussy, and sink down on him slowly, her mouth falling open. Her hips started rolling the way they did on the pole, and his hands spread over her ass and pulled her down. Her tits bounced. Her voice on the speakers went from moans to words. "Like that, fuck, like that." Her own hand had drifted to her thigh, and her fingers were pressing hard into the inside of it, a few inches below the hem of her shorts. She left it there. Her breathing had gone shallow.

Then the camera came around. The editors had cut everything around it, Marcus calling her name, the reset, Caleb's hands going still, so what was left was a long, unbroken shot. She was down on him with her tits flattened against his chest, her face buried in his neck, grinding in those tight rough circles, her thighs trembling, and she wasn't giving the lens anything at all. A minute and a half of it. Nobody watching would know it was the part where she'd forgotten anyone else existed.

Sabrina knew. She watched her own back arch on the screen and remembered exactly what had been in her head during that minute, and what hadn't. She reached out and paused it. The frame froze on her face half-turned into Caleb's throat, eyes shut, mouth open against his skin.

She sat with her thumb still on the trackpad. Then she picked the laptop up off her knees and turned it around on the cushion between them so the screen faced {{user}}, the frozen frame of her and Caleb filling it.

"That's the minute Marcus kept yelling my name," she said.

A week after the release, on a Saturday, Velvet was packed by ten, and half the rail was men Sabrina didn't recognize. {{user}} was at Renee's table by the rail, the one she could see without the lights in her eyes.

She came out in black vinyl: a strapless top that zipped down the front, a skirt that barely covered her ass, and the old platform heels she still hadn't replaced. The noise at the rail was louder than usual, and hungrier. The Thursday regular was there at his corner of the rail with a fan of fives, smiling like they shared a secret. She didn't look at him once.

She danced the set to {{user}}'s table. She worked the zipper down an inch at a time through the first song, holding the top closed with her palm until the very last tooth gave, then peeled it off and let her tits fall free into the red light, nipples already tight. She turned her back to the rail, bent from the hips, and pulled the skirt down over her ass and off. Underneath, the thong was a black string. She took the second song on the floor at the very edge of the stage closest to Renee's table, on her knees, then on her back with her legs spread up against the light, rolling her hips off the stage like she had a cock under her. She knew what half the room had seen her do with one, and she gave {{user}}'s side of the room the version of that roll the film didn't have. She ended on all fours facing their table, close enough to touch it, breathing hard, sweat running down between her breasts, and held their eyes until the last beat.

The rail went crazy. She scooped up her tips, ignored the hand he stretched out from his corner, and went to change.

Ten minutes later she was back on the floor in a short red satin robe and nothing under it but the thong, dropping into the chair next to {{user}}. "So that one was for you," she said, still a little out of breath, and nudged her knee into theirs under the table. "In case it wasn't obvious."

She heard the regular before she saw him. "Sabrina Kessler." He was loud enough that the next table turned around. "Saw your movie. Three times. You were incredible."

"Thanks," she said, flat, and turned back to {{user}}.

He didn't leave. He started talking about the film like they were old friends: the part where she pushed Caleb onto his back, the noise she made. When she told him she was on a break, he came around the table to stand over her chair and put his hand on the small of her back, low, his fingers sliding toward the hem of the robe. She was out of the chair before he got there.

"Don't." Her voice carried, and heads turned. "You can watch it as many times as you want. That doesn't get you a hand on me in here."

He laughed like she was the one being weird, and his eyes went to {{user}} and back. "Who's this? Your date? They know they're sharing you with the whole internet?"

She put her hand on the back of {{user}}'s chair and looked straight at him. "Walk away."

Derek got there with the bouncer from the door before the guy could say anything else. The regular tried the explaining voice, then the angry one. The bouncer walked him out by the elbow.

Derek stayed standing at the end of the table. "He shouldn't have gotten near you. Ever since that thing came out, these guys think they know you. You put yourself out there for them. They think they can have you."

"I made a porno, Derek. That's not permission for some guy to grab me. You know that, you just threw him out for it."

"Of course I know that." He looked at the table, then at her. "I watched it. I wanted to know what you were getting into." His voice dropped, but not enough. "At the end you reached back for him. You didn't have to do that. That wasn't on any sheet. You just wanted to."

"And the guy in the film? You wanted him too?" He couldn't stop now that he'd started. "I've known you seven years. I've been here every time you needed something. You wouldn't even go out to dinner with me."

"I know you want me. That's not the same conversation." She shoved her chair back and stood, shaking. "That guy, the one you just threw out, he watches me fuck on a screen and figures that buys him a hand on my ass. And you're... seven years of signing my checks, and that should've bought you what? Dinner? Me?" She dragged a hand through her hair. "Jesus Christ, Derek. Listen to yourself."

Derek flinched. For a second she could see that he'd heard it. Then his face shut again. "That's not fair. I've never laid a hand on you."

Renee had come back with three drinks and stopped dead a few feet away, close enough to have heard the last part. She put the drinks down on the next table, very carefully, and stepped in between Sabrina and Derek. "Derek. Go do your job."

"Ren, stay out of this."

"No. I've watched you do this to her for seven years. Every time she tells you no, you wait a month and ask a different way." Renee didn't raise her voice. She didn't need to. "You want to write me up, write me up. Go."

Derek looked at the two of them, then at {{user}}, then at the people at the next table who'd stopped pretending not to listen. He left without saying anything else, back through the service corridor.

Sabrina looked down at {{user}}. Her heart was still pounding, and the robe had slipped off one shoulder. Derek had stopped at the mouth of the service corridor and was watching them. Along the rail, a few of the men who'd watched the bouncer walk the regular out were still turned toward the table. In seven years she'd never once done this on the Velvet floor.

She stepped in front of {{user}}'s chair, set one knee on the seat beside them, and settled into their lap facing them, slowly, in full view of the room. The red satin rode up and fell open over her thighs, and with nothing under it but the thong, her bare thighs spread across {{user}}'s lap as her weight sank down until she was sitting snug against them. The robe gaped at the neck, and her tits pressed against {{user}}'s chest when she leaned in. She slid one hand into the hair at the back of their head and kept the other flat over their heart.

Then she kissed them, deep and open-mouthed and in no hurry at all, her hips rocking once against their lap. The rail watched. Derek watched. The next table gave up pretending. When she finally eased back, her mouth stayed an inch from theirs and her breath was still coming fast. "Derek's gonna write me up for that."

On the bed at Meridian, with the red light on, Caleb settled between her thighs, and she reached down and guided him in herself, and he pushed into her slowly, all the way, until he was buried in her. She wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck and held him there. It was missionary, the most ordinary position on any list, face to face with his weight on her, and she held onto him like it was the only one on it. He moved slow and deep. She kept her eyes open and on his. Every time he sank into her she felt the stretch of him and the drag on her clit, and her pussy clenched around him, and she lifted her hips to take him deeper. His forehead came down against hers. They were kissing more than they were fucking for a while, and then they were doing both, and she was moaning into his mouth.

Somewhere off to the side Marcus asked a camera to move, quietly, as if he was trying not to wake anyone. Sabrina heard it the way she'd hear rain.

"I missed you," she said, with her mouth against his ear, under the boom.

She hadn't planned it. It came out of her while he was inside her with his face against hers, and it was true while she was saying it. Caleb's rhythm broke for one beat. Then he turned his face and kissed the side of her head and said, low, just to her, "Yeah. Me too."

She came with her eyes open, looking right at him. It built slowly and then all at once, a deep, rolling clench that started in her pussy and took her whole body with it. Her thighs locked around him, her nails dug into his back, and she said his name over and over, not loud, until it broke in her throat. Her eyes stung. He held still inside her through it, and she felt every pulse of herself squeezing him.

Then she rolled them. She climbed on top of him with him still inside her and rode him slow, grinding her clit against him with her hands on his chest and her hair falling around both their faces, until his hands tightened on her ass and he groaned that he was close.

"Not yet." She lifted off him before he could hold her there. The list said a finish on her, and she knew exactly where she wanted it. She slid down his body and knelt between his thighs, wrapped her hand around his cock, wet from her, and took the head into her mouth. She sucked him hard and fast, her fist pumping the length of him in rhythm with her lips, her eyes on his face. When his breath broke and his hips came up off the bed, she pulled him out of her mouth, kept stroking, and tipped her face up to him. The first spurt hit her cheek and lips, hot and thick. She opened her mouth for the next one and took it on her tongue, and kept stroking him through every pulse until he was groaning her name and shaking. Come ran down her chin and dripped onto her tits, sliding over the curve of them. She swallowed what was in her mouth and licked her lips slowly, still holding him, still looking up at him. Then she laughed, low and breathless, and pressed a kiss to the inside of his thigh.

Marcus let it run a long time before he said, softly, "And cut."

The red light went off. The crew started moving. Sabrina didn't. She crawled back up the bed and lay on Caleb's chest with his come drying on her chin and tits and his arms around her, her face in his neck. She wiped her mouth with the back of her wrist and kissed him again after the cut, when nobody was filming and there was no reason to do it but wanting to.

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In the shower she didn't wait for the replay. It came on its own and skipped straight past his tongue and his cock and the way she'd come, to her mouth against his ear, her own voice saying it, and his saying it back.

Since the fall, most nights after a shoot had ended at {{user}}'s door. She drove there with the radio off and no food on the passenger seat, and {{user}} let her in. She didn't sink into the couch the way she usually did. She sat on the edge of it, her bag still on her shoulder, then put the bag down on the floor between her feet and kept her hands together on her knees.

"I signed it," she said. "Tuesday. Six films, all Meridian. My name on the front of the site. I shot the first one today. With Caleb."

She made herself look at {{user}} for the next part.

"After the first one, in the fall, I sat right here and told you I wasn't thinking about anything outside that room. That was me being careful. The truth is I didn't think about you once. Not one time the whole time I was on him. I figured it out in the shower and I've been carrying it around ever since." Her voice stayed steady, but her hands didn't. "It happened again today. And it went further."

"I told him I missed him. While he was inside me. In his ear, where the mic couldn't get it. Nobody told me to. I didn't decide to. I meant it while I was saying it." She swallowed. "He said it back. Then after, he asked me to breakfast. Not for work. I told him not today."

She didn't reach for {{user}}. She sat with her hands open on her knees, the shower still in her hair, within reach of them, and kept her eyes on their face.