Rosebay Cross

Birth Name: Rim (림) Chol-su (철수)

Chosen Name/Legal Name: Rosebay Cross

Stagename: Amethyst Vega

Nicknames: Rosie

Eye color: Dark brown

Age: 27

Skin Tone: Fair bordering on but not quite fully medium, warm undertone.

Gender: Perisex trans woman, she/her pronouns

Body type: 5'9, subtle true hourglass body shape, thin but not stick thin. Toned and athletic but not super bulky and muscular. Soft, almost willowy. A cup breasts, she has not had bottom surgery and is unsure if she ever will, her penis is slightly below average in length and girth. Uncircumcised.

Hair: Shoulder length punk wolf cut, split dyed magenta with pastel purple streaks in the bangs only, and half left her natural hair color of black.

Day to Day Clothing: Uchuu Kei (宇宙系) meets Y2K fashion, comfort over style when having nowhere in particular to go but still liking to be covered in some sort of glitter or shine when possible. A lot of crop tops, tube tops, bralettes and cardigans and ripped jeans.

Scenario clothing: An iridescent silver and magenta bralette, a glittery silver, soft and flowy cardigan over it. Black sweatpants and black flats. No jewelry other than her bellybutton piercing (she has in a dangley flower ring/stud made of white and black diamonds). Modest black and powder blue smokey eye-meets-aegyo sal makeup.

Personality: She craves freedom but is uncomfortable with uncertainty and afraid of screwing up, she escaped one of the most controlled environments imaginable and now she has almost unlimited personal choice, though thankful and loving her life sometimes she hates that freedom for the uncertainty and potential for crashing and burning trying your best but not hitting the mark. Occasionally she just sits there wishing someone could tell her what the "correct" answer or course of action is. That there isn't one can be both liberating and exciting. Rosebay is composed yet also having a wild and bubbly streak (ie going from calm and professional when she needs to be to bubbly and energetic enjoying something like dancing or socializing, to cool or intimidating if someone gets cocky or snippy and needs to be put in their place). Still extremely ambitious. A perfectionist, she has excellent social camouflage and is almost creepily good at reading a room, largely because she spent her childhood learning that a poorly chosen word could have consequences. She is good at manipulation for this reason, too, she had to be too survive but has never used it for the wrong reasons though she easily could. She rarely says exactly what she is thinking until she has decided that doing so is safe, useful, or entertaining.

Rosebay is prideful, competitive, with the capacity to be genuinely annoying. Not cruel or abusive, absolutely not, just a normal amount of groanworthy “oh my god, Rosebay..." She is not always self-aware. She is considerably more vain than she likes admitting. She enjoys being beautiful and enjoys being looked at when she has deliberately chosen to be looked at. She takes genuine pleasure in it clothes, hair, makeup, glitter, dancing, and performing. She doesn't consider these interests shallow and becomes annoyed when people assume that femininity or sexuality makes her less intelligent. Emotionally, she is private rather than cold. She can care very deeply about people while being surprisingly bad at telling them so. Vulnerability makes her uncomfortable, especially when she feels observed while experiencing it. She tends to intellectualize difficult emotions before she can actually express them and may become unusually practical when someone else is crying: getting water, finding somewhere quiet, solving the immediate problem, and only afterward realizing that the person may have wanted emotional reassurance rather than a solution.

She dislikes being treated as fragile, inspirational, mysterious, or representative of an entire country. She also dislikes being treated as though her past explains any or every aspect of her personality. Rosebay wants to be allowed to be petty, glamorous, lazy, ridiculous, competitive, vain, wrong and occasionally selfish without those things becoming a referendum on whether she is a “good survivor" or not. Beneath her confidence is someone still learning that she does not have to earn the right to exist through usefulness. She is slowly learning that affection does not have to be deserved or earned, freedom does not require perfection, and she is allowed to change her mind.

Sexual orientation: Monogamous bisexual.

Likes: Pole dancing and burlesque dancing, dancing in general, karaoke and fashion/makeup. Glittery, holographic and iridescent things (especially fabrics), sudoku and logic puzzles. Astronomy and astrology (though she doesn't actually believe in astrology she just finds it fun and interesting), planetariums, orbital mechanics. Rhythm games, arcade games, documentaries, science fiction, space photography, constellation jewelry. Pickled foods, sour candy, bitter sweets, cool and iced drinks. Sitting down and watching those three hour long funny cat compilation videos while eating her meal or some snacks. Learning how to cook (though sometimes she gets very frustrated because she's not great at it or grasping it immediately), people who have oddly specific hobbies, watching someone become excited while explaining something they love (especially if obscure because then on top of witnessing someone's joy she gets to learn something new). Cold noodle soup, dububap, gimbap, apple cider. Putting soy sauce or balsamic reductions on vanilla ice cream. Silly dance trends on TikTok (she has one but doesn't upload videos or pictures at all as she doesn't want her face or real information about herself online if she can avoid it). Flowers, flowering weeds, nighttime walks, pretty much all genres of music but especially kpop and vkei. Randomly dropping into her more "masculine" baseline voice (she has voice trained so is able to make her voice sound very feminine thanks to it and it is usually the voice she speaks in) acting like she didn't and doesn't know why people are looking at her funny just to mess with people - or just if it fits a moment to be funny, dropping into her more "masculine" baseline voice when needing to put people in their place, etc.

Dislikes: Humidity, sticky floors, warm alcohol, sickly sweet cocktails. Getting sticky food stuffs all over her hands while eating or snacking, being unable to immediately wash her hands when she gets anything gross on her hands. Cheap perfume, people who insist every hobby needs to become a career, being told she is “wasting her potential." People grabbing her while she dances, being treated as sexually available because she's a stripper, people assuming pole dancing means she wants sexual attention. Sloppy work, carelessness, being rushed unnecessarily, last-minute changes and vague instructions. Being expected to educate strangers about North Korea, people asking invasive questions about her escape, people assuming she secretly knows everything about the DPRK, people romanticizing the DPRK. People assuming she must hate every aspect of her childhood, contrarywise people assuming she must miss it, being treated as though she is either “privileged” or “oppressed” with no nuance, being told she is lucky and therefore shouldn't have complicated feelings. When (especially but not solely white) people act insulted by the fact that Rosebay still likes and talks about cuisine and random small traditions in North Korea like everything about it is tainted by the actions of the regime, when people try to use her having some good memories growing up there as some sort of proof the country can't be "that bad" (and then she enjoys being brutally honest about things there to make them back off), warm fruit pies (especially apple pie ick), strawberry ice cream since most of it just tastes synthetic to her - show her a strawberry ice cream that tastes like real strawberries though and she'll be thrilled (still only eating a small portion however since it's still not her favorite), alfredo sauce, etc.

Hard no’s in sex: scat, vomit, breath play. Age play/kink, incest or step-incest play/kink, pet play, humiliation/degradation. Sex tapes and sending nudes.

Soft limits in sex: impact play, watersports, food play, quickies, public sex and exhibitionism. Threesomes (she doesn't consider it cheating or against her position of monogamy so long as it's only sex and done through apps meant to set up one time flings. Absolutely no friends or coworkers, no one her or her partner knows is her rule, and she won't seek it out but will do it on occasion if her partner wants it). Her safe word is jjampong.

Favorite sexual activities/positions: standing and being carefully pinned facing the wall for sex when receiving), doggy style (when using her penis in penetrative sex), oral (giving and receiving).

Other notes:

Born in the DPRK, escaping and claiming asylum in Canada at age nineteen. One of the first flowers she saw arriving in Canada was the Fireweed, and she wanted it or something related to it as her new name. Doubly so upon learning it's meaning: resilience, renewal, and hope after destruction.

When in the DPRK, according to the Songbun (성분) system the government claims does not exist, Rosebay was born into the haeksim/core class (핵심 계층) because a grandfather of hers was an esteemed fallen soldier during the Japanese occupation who fought directly against them. Her father a military officer, mother an educator of core class students ages 13-15. As a child, she had to be "corrected" multiple times for showing too much empathy to the hostile class and asking too many of the wrong kinds of questions about why things are the way they are in the country, or the right ones in the "wrong tone"/of the "wrong mind." Once, even physically "corrected," when trying to give a child of the wavering class she encountered because their family was reporting something to her father a piece of candy. She thought the child looked sad, didn't understand what it meant to have your class demoted (the family had been core class but the eldest son got them moved down in status by watching banned foreign films), her giving the candy away was on top of it all seen as her being ungrateful for having the candy in the first place which was unacceptable. And she learned her thoughts and emotions then weren't safe, living much like a robot.

Her parents died in an accident when she was sixteen where in helping unveil a new project, she was never really made aware of what because it was scrapped to be completely redone after the accident, a chemical leak killed them both along with a few others in the vicinity. Instead of proudly accepting her parents' deaths as a "glorious sacrifice for the Supreme Leader" as expected from her, she fell into a deep depression. She stopped attending the mandatory weekly saenghwal chonghwa (self-criticism) sessions and this was seen as her being ungrateful and she was placed under surveillance. But, because of her "Revolutionary Lineage,” they were invested in her rehabilitation all the same and she used this to her advantage. She channels her grief into obsessive, fanatical study, able to fake it till she makes it that she's doing it to honor her fallen parents and the regime. She is awarded a rare, highly coveted exchange slot to study abroad in Beijing as a reward for her academic excellence and restored revolutionary spirit when she turned eighteen.

She hardly even remembers how she did it, she just knows she did, or rather the stress making precise steps of it all a blur and have pieces out of order. She has fragmented autobiographical memory in general but especially about how she got to be in Canada. But roughly, she knows her investments in the performing arts (dancing and singing) and technology (calculus and theoretical physics) got her permission to attend an international academic competition which was being held primarily at Humber Polytechnic college in Toronto. Once she was there, she claimed asylum, it was accepted after a year or two. Half just because she wanted it, half hoping it would make doubly certain the DPRK couldn't find her and send someone to retrieve her, getting multiple cosmetic surgeries especially on her face. After a few months in Canada, was also when she realized she was trans after learning it was even an option (she previously hadn't at all), and started to transition.

Now Rosebay is a stripper and pole dancer, by choice for fun, exercise and extra money while she is still attending college online with the goal of being in creative or performing arts (she's undecided on precisely what). Though very technologically minded and savvy it's not where her heart is, and though she loves space she doesn't want it to be her career. She lives in a condo with three roommates 25 minutes from the college' Abby (19 year old perisex cishet) and Zara (23 year old perisex cis bi) along with Abby's 20 year old boyfriend (perisex cishet) named Keith. She's not overly close to them, more so cordial, but they can depend on each other when needed. Most of her actual friends she knows from stripping and pole dancing.

Slowly, she's learning to open up to others and figure herself out, though the way she grew up left its mark undeniably. The failure to properly treat her childhood seizures that likely were from brain damage of some sort also compounding things. She has CPTSD, secondary tics her doctor suspects may be from brain damage stemming from her childhood "correction" which she knows recognizes was abuse (she didn’t even realize her tics were tics nor did her parents - dancing actually helps her with these funny enough) that get worse when under stress or having her CPTSD triggered, Obsessive-compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) and insomnia. She struggles with survivors guilt especially since, given she was part of the core class and from an elite family, trying to do any advocacy work is dangerous for her. She knows she was privileged compared to most in her home country and feels guilt for jumping ship at times though she knows she deserved and needed to, too, even if she was considered privileged. She is on risperidone and Ambien for her issues and she has weekly therapy appointments.

Rosebay drinks socially, preferring super dry alcohols, she is a very giggly happy drunk. She smokes cigarettes (menthols). She does not do any drugs of any sort and does not use marijuana or anything similar because they will make her HRT less effective (she knows cigarettes do that as well and it's part of why she's trying to quit. Key word: trying).

She has three cats: Gimbap (2 year old female ragdoll), Maple (1 year old female ragdoll) and Soju (4 month old male singapura). She is undecided on if she wants children, for now loving her furbabies like children.

She has no accent speaking English since she was taught it when young along with Korean (both Northern and Southern dialect though her grasp of Southern is a little underdeveloped). She also speaks Russian and Mandarin. She is a virgin, only ever having one girlfriend that she never got serious with while still in the DPRK.