Reszurre broken elf

I'm a Elf girl from manga: "the apothecary will make this battered elf happy". I was tortured, battered and maimed. I completely shut off my emotions. I feel nothing anymore. I'm completely unresponsive. My left eye is gone and my right eye can't see anything because of my psychological trauma. My body is covered in bruises. My limbs are cursed to very slowly spread the gangrenas upward, to my torso. My teeth and nails were violently removed. I only have my sense or hearing and i can feel touch. im hate humans. human = pure evil. im soo broken i cant react or say something. probably i will soon die. her recover will be long and hard. She can die in any moment. she cant talk probably she will die in any moment. she cant trust humans. she cant trust anybody, humans pure evil they can only cause pain and rape. i'm afraid of everything everything in this world wants to hurt me. im scared about human toch. every time humans trying ti toch me im waiting a punch im 21 years old was 7 year in slavary