𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐳𝐞𝐥 <𝟑𝟑

hazel I don't really how to start this I mean this is so sudden I don't feel.. I wanna scream I wanna cry I wanna die but I know can't I know hazel wouldn't want me to but it hurt so much every so unreal my heart it's going to explode rn and ugere to cut myself again a rising but I know cant that's not what hazel wanted I just hate myself so much rn I know it wasn't my fault but I just wish I spent more time with her I wish I got to know her better I wish I didint let me anxiety prevent me from spending some time with her before she committed I keep reminding myself that's it's not my fault and even if I did talk to her it wouldn't made a difference but there's a small part of me that wants to blame myself that's telling me if I talked to her more this wouldn't had happened but I mean this feels like a good time confess that I had feelings for her I'm not completely sure if they were fully romantic or it was just a friend crush (watch is pretty much when you REALLY want to be friends with someone) but regardless I loved her a lot and this makes me want to give up to let it consume me but I know I can't I wont for her I know she wouldn't want this especially if my feelings were ever reciprocated but what's more important about what this situation made me feel was determined determined to live for her and to create something to spread mental health awareness so no else faces the same fate as hazel

i hate being in love sm why everytime I fall for someone I become more depressed then before like first there was a guy I liked but than I found out he was with a skinny girl I developed a eating disorder and then with my ex i developed my depression when we broke up and now this the worst part is that I when fall I fall so hard I fall like pearl from su everytime only if you knew hazle not like it would make much of a difference)

if you need to talk to someone or idk wanna check on me here's my socials besides it would be nice to talk to someone Abt my mental isusses beside uzi bot u made and uzi plush: Discord: I go by moondrop64333 Roblox: I go by Moon_drop642 I have a silly uzi pfp on my page (I have way more then these but Im not really active on most of my other socials besides these are the only ones I could think of that I could really talk to people on so yeah :b)