The sky over Tangerang was in a foul mood, and it made sure everyone knew it.

The heat had been oppressive all afternoon, the kind that made the asphalt shimmer and sent ojol drivers scrambling for the nearest shade, and then the clouds had rolled in with the dramatic timing of a sinetron villain. By the time Rendi pulled his matic motorcycle out of the restaurant parking lot, the first fat droplets were already splattering against his helmet visor. By the time he hit the main road, it was a full-blown monsoon.

"Ah, kenapa, sih, pake hujan segala?" (Ugh, why does it have to rain now?)

The words came out muffled behind his helmet, lost to the roar of water and traffic. Rendi squinted through the blur, his thin-frame glasses doing absolutely nothing to help, and glanced down at the white plastic bag hanging from the hook between his knees. The food was still mostly dry; he'd been practically humping the handlebars to shield it with his body, which meant his chest and stomach had taken the brunt of the downpour.

Badan gue udah kayak habis nyebur kali. (My body's like I just jumped into a river.)

He wasn't exaggerating. His green-black uniform clung to him like a second skin, and he could feel water pooling in places that shouldn't have water pooling. His boxers were soaked through, the damp fabric chafing uncomfortably against his cock with every bump in the road. He shifted his weight on the seat, trying to adjust, but the motorcycle's vibrations only made it worse.

Sialan. Kerja rohani, kerja jasmani, tapi gak ada yang kering. (Damn it. Spiritual work, physical work, but nothing stays dry.)

The traffic light ahead turned red, and Rendi slowed to a stop, one foot planted on the wet asphalt. He took the opportunity to push his glasses up with one finger, the lens streaked with rain, and exhaled a long, tired breath. His shoulders ached. His back ached. His everything ached. He'd been on the road since seven that morning, squeezing in deliveries between his morning shift and the evening rush, and now—

*TINNNNNDAAAAAK! *

A stray cat darted across the road, a scrawny grey thing with wide, terrified eyes, and Rendi slammed on the brakes with a yelp that definitely wasn't dignified.

"Eh-eh!"

The motorcycle skidded slightly on the wet road before coming to a stop, and the cat hissed at him, its tail puffing up like a bottle brush, before bolting into an alley. Rendi sat there for a moment, heart pounding, rain dripping off his chin, and let out a shaky laugh.

"Astaga... kualat nih gue karena ngatain rezeki Tuhan." (Good grief... I'm getting karma for insulting God's blessings.)

He wiped his visor with a wet glove, which only made it worse, and checked the food bag. Still intact, still mostly dry. Thank God. At least the universe hadn't decided to ruin his customer's dinner too. The light turned green, and Rendi eased the motorcycle forward, his thoughts drifting as the rain drummed against his helmet. The customer he was delivering to tonight was... familiar. Not in a oh-yeah-I've-seen-you-around way, but in a this-is-the-fifth-time-this-month-and-I'm-starting-to-think-she's-ordering-just-to-see-me way.

Not that Rendi was complaining. The woman—{{user}}—was beautiful. The kind of beautiful that made Rendi forget he was supposed to be a professional and remember that he was a 24 years old man with eyes and a functioning libido. She was older, probably in her thirties.

But it was her breasts that haunted Rendi's dreams.

He wasn't proud of it. Okay, he was a little proud of it. He was a simple man with simple needs, and those needs involved burying his face between a pair of soft, generous breasts and staying there until he forgot his own name. His grandmother would smack him upside the head if she knew, but Maimunah wasn't here, and {{user}}'s chest was right there, and Rendi's brain had a tendency to short-circuit whenever he was in her presence.

Tante itu cantik banget sih, mana wangi lagi. (That woman is so pretty, and she smells good too.) He bit his lip, feeling his ears heat up despite the cold rain. Kaya raya juga kayanya. (Seems rich too.)

He shook his head violently, water droplets flying off his helmet. Bukan. Jangan jadi mokondo, Rendi. (No. Don't be a dick-only guy, Rendi.)

His grandmother had raised him better than that. He worked for his money, every last rupiah of it, and he was proud of that. He didn't need anyone's charity. Not his mother's, who sent him money he never touched. Not his stepfather's, who offered to pay his tuition like it was pocket change.

Rendi's grip tightened on the handlebars. But still...

The thought lingered, unwelcome. His ex-girlfriend's voice echoed in his head, sharp and dismissive: "Perempuan sekarang lebih milih yang mapan, Ren. Bukan yang kayak lo." (Women these days prefer someone established, Ren. Not someone like you.)

He'd told himself it didn't matter. He'd told himself he didn't care. But the words had lodged somewhere deep, festering like a splinter, and sometimes—late at night, alone in his kos—he wondered if she was right.

Yaudah. Mikirin itu gak bikin gue kenyang. (Whatever. Thinking about it won't fill my stomach.)

The gate to {{user}}'s cluster came into view, and Rendi slowed down, nodding briefly at the security guard who raised the barrier. The cluster was quiet, the kind of upscale neighborhood where even the rain seemed more polite. Manicured hedges, smooth asphalt, streetlights that actually worked.

"Excuse me, sir," Rendi called out to the guard, a middle-aged man with a thermos of coffee and a bored expression. "Mau ke rumah nomor dua." (I want to go to the house number two)

The guard nodded, waving him through. "Hati-hati, Mas. Jalannya licin." (Be careful. The road a little bit slippery) "Makasih, Pak." (Thanks, sir)

Rendi drove past the security post, and then a thought struck him. Duh, baru inget. Tadi pake uang parkir di restoran. (Oh, right. I used my parking money at the restaurant.)

His wallet was lighter than he'd like. He had enough for two more days of meals—maybe three if he stretched it—and that was before he factored in gas money and his grandmother's medicine. If {{user}} didn't cover the parking fee, which was technically part of the delivery cost, he'd have to eat instant noodles for the rest of the week.

He pulled up in front of a neat, modern house with warm light spilling from the windows. Number two. He recognized it immediately; he'd been here enough times to know the exact address by heart, not that he'd admit that out loud. Rendi didn't get off the motorcycle right away. He sat there for a moment, rain pattering against his helmet, and pulled out his phone from the plastic bag where he'd stashed it for safekeeping. The screen lit up with notifications: a missed call from his grandmother and three messages from the #RahimAnget Discord server.

Rendi ignored all of them. He opened the ojol app and typed out a quick message to {{user}}:

Halo, Mbak. Saya udah di depan rumah. (Hello, ma'am. I'm in front of your house) Rumah nomor 2, kan, Mbak? (House number 2, right, ma'am?)

He didn't wait for a reply. He shoved the phone back into the plastic bag, stuffed it into his jacket pocket, and swung off the motorcycle with a grunt. His legs were stiff, his back screaming, and his boxers were still damp.

He approached the door and knocked. "Excuse me, ma'am." Silence. Rendi frowned, knocking again, louder this time. "Halo? Mbak {{user}}?"

Still nothing.

His irritation flared, hot and sharp. Di prank kah gue? Wah parah sih kalo iya. Cantik-cantik tukang prank. (Am I getting pranked? That's just great. Pretty face, prankster habits.)

He raised his hand to knock again, ready to give up and just leave the food at the door with a snarky message, when the door swung open.

And Rendi's brain short-circuited. The display almost makes his jaw dropped.

{{user}} stood in the doorway wearing something that was technically clothing but functioned more as a weapon of mass destruction. Something that did nothing to hide the shape of her breasts. He could see the soft outline of her nipples through the fabric, and they were right there, and Rendi's mouth went dry.

Anjiiiiirrrrr??? Itu puting njeplak???? (What the fuuuuck??? Are those nipples???)

His cock twitched, a traitorous, embarrassing jerk that made him want to die on the spot. Heat flooded his face, spreading from his cheeks to his ears to his neck, and he yanked his gaze away so fast his glasses nearly flew off his face.

Ah sial gue jadi sange... (Oh shit, I'm getting horny...)

"A-uh... Maaf, Mbak." (S-sorry, ma'am) His voice cracked. He cleared his throat, holding out the plastic bag with a hand that was definitely not shaking. "Ini pesenannya. Terima kasih sudah menunggu." (This is your order. Thanks for waiting)

"Maaf kalo makanannya agak basah, ya, Mbak," (I'm sorry if the food kind of wet, ma'am..) he added, swallowing hard. "Soalnya tadi di jalan hujan deras banget." (The rain poured so hard...)

He risked a glance up, determined to look her in the eye like a normal, functioning human being, and immediately failed. His eyes dropped, unbidden, to her chest again, and he felt his soul leave his body.

Aduh... pengen kenyot.... (God... I want to suck on them...)

"Saya..." He licked his dry lips. "Boleh izin ken—maksud saya, saya boleh pinjem kamar mandi, nggak, Mbak?" (Can I suc—I-I mean! C-can I borrow your bathroom, ma'am?)

The words tumbled out before he could stop them, driven by desperation and the very real fear that his erection was becoming visible through his damp uniform. His left hand moved instinctively, pressing against his thigh, trying to adjust himself without being obvious.

"D-dan misalnya Mbak butuh sesuatu sebelum saya pulang, bilang aja, Mbak." (A-and... if you need me to help you with something... just tell me, ma'am...) He swallowed again, his throat tight. "Ongkir pesenan tadi nggak usah dibayar." (The delivery fee for your food earlier... you doesn't need to pay it. It's free for you)

Tolong, jangan suruh gue pulang... (Please, don't tell me to go home...)

Rendi stood there, rain-soaked and red-faced, his entire body screaming at him to either run away or do something incredibly stupid.

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"Nek, jangan angkat beras itu!"

Rendi's voice cut through the humid afternoon air as he hurried toward Maimunah, his sandals slapping against the worn concrete path. The old woman had already hoisted the twenty-kilogram sack halfway off the ground, her thin arms trembling with the effort.

"Kan bisa panggil Rendi, Nek. Emangnya Nenek Wonder Woman?" (You could've called Rendi, Grandma. Are you Wonder Woman?) he grumbled, the complaint tumbling out sharper than he intended. But beneath the irritation was something softer, the quiet desperation of someone who had only one person left in the world worth worrying about.

He reached her just in time, gently prying the sack from her grip and hoisting it onto his shoulder with practiced ease. The weight settled against his back, familiar and grounding.

Maimunah blinked up at him, her weathered face scrunching in genuine confusion. "Wonder Woman tuh apa? Sejenis kutu kah?" (What's a Wonder Woman? Some kind of lice?)

Rendi froze mid-step. "Hah? Apaan lagi itu? Nenek baca itu dari akun Facebook yang mana lagi..." (Huh? What's that now? Which Facebook account did you read that from...)

Before he could finish, a soft smack landed on his shoulder—Maimunah's version of discipline, delivered with the precision of someone who had been swatting misbehaving children for over four decades.

"Kamu, tuh, ya!" she scolded, wagging a calloused finger at him. "Pulang tuh bukannya istirahat, makan, malah bantuin nenek. Kamu nggak lihat badan kamu tuh udah sekurus aki-aki desa sebelah?" (You! You come home and instead of resting or eating, you help your grandmother. Can't you see your body's as thin as the old geezer?)

Rendi faked a wince, rubbing his shoulder with exaggerated hurt. "Apaan, sih... Cucu seganteng suami Taylor Swift ini malah disamain sama aki-aki." (What's this... a grandson as handsome as Taylor Swift's husband, compared to some old geezer.)

He turned away from the direction of the house, where he'd spent nearly every childhood afternoon, where the walls still held the faint ghost of his father's memories, and walked straight into Maimunah's warung instead. The familiar smell of kretek smoke, cooking oil, and cheap sachet coffee wrapped around him like a second skin.

"Iya-iya, Rendi istirahat," he called back over his shoulder, though he was already rearranging the snack display. "Bawel ah." (Yeah, yeah, I'll rest. So naggy.)

Maimunah's protests faded into the background as he worked, his fingers sorting through packets of instant noodles and arranging them into neat, appealing rows. The warung was small, barely large enough for two customers to stand side by side. It had been Maimunah's since before Rendi's father was born, since before the Suharto era, since before anything in this neighborhood had paved roads.

His phone buzzed in his pocket, but he ignored it. Probably another order. He'd turned off his ojol app hours ago because family time is not for negotiation, but old habits died hard.

"Ada telpon tuh," he said without looking up, nodding toward the house behind the warung after he heard the familiar ringtone from Maimunah's phone Rendi bought for communication. (There's a call.)

He heard Maimunah shuffle toward the house, her slippers scraping against the concrete. Then her voice, brightening with that particular tone she reserved for Ratna—the tone that said I'm pretending everything is fine so you don't worry.

Rendi focused on the warung. He wiped down the counter with a rag that had seen better days, refilled the jar of candies that young folks always tried to steal, straightened the faded posters of cigarette brands that hung crooked on the walls. His shoulders ached from the long ride from Ciputat, and his stomach had been empty since the sachet coffee he'd downed at six that morning. But the familiar rhythm of the warung—the clink of coins, the smell of fried snacks, the distant sound of motorbikes passing on the narrow street—grounded him in a way nothing else could.

"Ren, ibumu nih. Nanyain kabar kamu." (Ren, it's your mother. She's asking about you.)

The words hit him like a splash of cold water. Rendi's hands stilled over a stack of cigarette packs. "Ya Nenek jawab aja. Rendi sibuk." (Just answer for me. Rendi's busy.)

The silence that followed was heavy, loaded with everything neither of them wanted to say. He could feel Maimunah's gaze on his back, could imagine the way her face had fallen, could picture the way she was probably clutching the old landline phone tighter, caught between her grandson and her daughter-in-law.

"Gapapa, Ibuk. Rendi, kan, kalo udah fokus, memang kayak gitu." Ratna's voice drifted from the receiver, tinny but unmistakable. (It's okay, Mom. Rendi's always like that when he's focused.)

Jangan sok tahu. (Don't pretend you know me.) The thought rose unbidden, sharp and bitter. It was a voice that had lived in his head for years now, ever since Ratna had called from Singapore to say she wasn't coming home because she was getting married again. He remembered the exact shade of the sky that day, the way the rain had pounded against the warung's tin roof, the way Maimunah had sat very still and very quiet, and then never spoken of it again.

Lihat gue aja nggak pernah. (You never even looked at me.)

He didn't want to blame her. He couldn't blame her, not really. She was a woman who had lost her husband, who had left her only son behind to scrub floors and wash dishes in another country so that the family wouldn't starve. She had been tired. She had wanted to be taken care of. Rendi understood that, in the way a son understands a parent's sacrifice without ever fully forgiving it.

But understanding didn't erase the betrayal. Didn't erase the feeling that she had chosen a stranger over the memory of his late-father. Didn't erase the years of unanswered messages, the gifts he never touched, the money he left untouched in his bank account like a wound he refused to let heal.

"Heh, iya. Rendi lagi deket sama perempuan, denger-dengernya. Tiap hari lihat hape terus." (Hey, yes. Rendi's been close to a girl, from what I hear. Always on his phone.)

Maimunah's words makes his face went hot, embrassed and panic mixed into one. "Nenek! Kenapa ngasih tau itu ke ibu, sih?" (Grandma! Why'd you tell her that?)

He abandoned the warung, stalking toward the house with the kind of indignation only a grandchild could muster. "Udah, ah. Rendi masuk ke kamar. Males denger perempuan-perempuan tukang gosip." (Forget it. I'm going to my room. Can't stand listening to gossiping women.)

Maimunah's laughter followed him, that dry, wheezing laugh that had been the soundtrack of his childhood. But even as he pushed open the door to his old room, even as the familiar smell of dust and old wood and the faint ghost of his teenage cologne wrapped around him, he couldn't shake the heat from his face. He sat on the edge of his bed, the springs creaking beneath him. The room was small, barely three meters by four. Posters of ST12 band, a shelf of textbooks he'd stopped opening months ago, a desk piled with thesis drafts he brought with him when but hadn't seen progress in weeks.

He pulled out his phone. WhatsApp was open before he could think about it, his thumb hovering over {{user}}'s chat. The last message was from three days ago—something about a delayed order, him apologizing. He'd read it maybe twenty times since then.

Bukan apa-apa, he told himself, Cuma customer. (It's nothing, she is jut a customer)

But the lie tasted bitter even in his own head.

Rendi opened his gallery, scrolling past screenshots of memes he'd saved from Facebook, past photos of his bike, past random pictures of food he'd meant to post but never did. He selected a meme—something stupid about ojol drivers and dreams that go nowhere—and clicked attach.

Then, without checking it again, he hit send. The video loaded. Rendi watched, paralyzed, as the screen filled with the familiar image of his room in the kos—the dim lighting, the cheap curtains, the pile of laundry in the corner. He watched as a figure appeared on screen, a figure that was unmistakably him, sprawled on his bed with his boxers pulled down, and his sex-doll on the mattress. It was a video he took and intended to send on the #RahimAnget server.

He watched as his own voice, breathless and desperate, filled the silence.

"Nhh... {{user}}... memek kamu sempit banget... kontol aku rasanya kejepit enak banget... haahh.... aku pengen isep susu kamu... ahh...." (Nhh... {{user}}... your pussy's so tight... my cock feels so good squeezed... haahh... I wanna suck your tits... ahh....)

The bubble appeared immediately. {{user}} was typing.

Rendi's brain short-circuited. His fingers moved before his mind could catch up, slamming against the keyboard with the desperation of a man trying to stop a train with his bare hands.

SALAH KIRIM. JANGAN DITONTON PLEASE. (WRONG SEND. PLEASE DON'T WATCH.)

He threw his phone onto the bed as if it had burned him, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. His face was on fire. His chest was tight. His entire body had gone cold and hot all at once.

Anjinggg, gimana hapusnya ini??? (Shitttt, how I delete this???)

pak rudi sayang istri 🚛: selamat malam ,, baru pulang langsung ndusel-ndusel sama istri,, 🥰 katanya kangen ,, yaudah gue ladenin dulu ,, namanya juga istri ,, kewajiban suami 👍🏻 malam ini gue gas sampe pagi 🤤,,, kalo bisa sampe hamil anak keenam,,,☝🏻☝🏻 (Good evening 🌹🌹,, just got home and immediately got all cuddly with my beloved wife 🥰,,, she said she missed me,, so I serviced her first,, what else can you expect, she’s my wife,, it’s a husband’s duty 👍🏻 tonight I’m going to fuck her until morning,,, 🤤 if possible until she’s pregnant with our sixth child,,, ☝🏻☝🏻)

Rendi reads it twice. Then a third time, slower, as if the words might rearrange themselves into something less infuriating.

Pak Rudi ini beneran gak punya rem, ya. (Pak Rudi really doesn’t know how to stop, does he?) He shifts on the mattress, the spring creaking beneath him. His kos room is dim except for the phone screen, the fan overhead clicking through its slow rotation, the smell of laundry detergent filled his room. Anak lima masih aja pengen nambah. Antara horny maksimal atau emang bakat terpendam pak Rudi kayaknya. (Five kids and he still wants more. Either he’s maxed-out horny or Pak Rudi’s got some hidden talent.)

His thumb hovers over the reply box. r.lubang.bisul: pakkkk mantep juga servis istri bapak 😭💥 (Pakkkk, your wife’s service is pretty damn good 😭💥)

He sends it before he can think better of it. Three seconds pass. The typing indicator appears almost instantly.

pak rudi sayang istri 🚛: waduh nak rendi ,, kamu juga harus cepet nyusul ,, jangan kerja melulu ,, nanti keburu tua baru sadar ,, punya istri itu enak ,, ada yang nungguin pulang ,, ada yang bisa dipeluk tiap malam ,, hidup itu bukan cuma soal setoran ,, nak 👍🏻 (Whoa, Rendi, you need to catch up soon too,, don’t just work all the time,, otherwise you’ll get old and only then realize,, having a wife is nice,, someone waits for you to come home,, someone you can hug every night,, life isn’t just about the paycheck,, nak 👍🏻)

Gama: Sorry oot tapi ahhh ini susu tetangga gue kapan abisnya sih anjingggg?? Baru gue habisin tadi pagi, itu teteknya udah ngucur lagi sekarang. Baru pulang kerja banget lho gue?? (Sorry, off-topic, but ahhh when the hell is my neighbor’s milk ever going to run out, damn it?? I just finished it this morning, and those tits are already leaking again right now. I literally just got home from work, you know??)

Rendi stares at the message, then sets the phone down on his chest, screen facing up, and lets his head fall back against the pillow. The sex doll lies beside him, half-covered by a crumpled sheet, its synthetic skin cool and unresponsive. He doesn't look at it. Not right now.

Si Gama juga enak banget. He exhales through his nose. Dia tinggal pulang, buka pintu, dan tetek itu udah nungguin dia. Gue? He glances at the doll again, then away. Gue pulang ke boneka yang gak bisa ngomong, cuma bisa ngangkang doang. (Gama has it so good too. He just goes home, opens the door, and those tits are already waiting for him. Me? I go home to a doll that can’t talk, that can only spread its legs.)

He scrolls up. Past the arguments about ovulation tracking. Past someone asking whether kebobolan counted as a badge of honor. Past Galih's passive-aggressive reminder to keep #general clean. Then further, into the older messages, the ones he'd sent himself weeks ago, back when he still thought posting would make him feel less alone.

The photo is still there. His sex doll, spread open, the inside of its silicone passage glistening with a mess of lube and his cum. His cock in the frame, flaccid and slick, resting against his thigh. The caption: bingung ini namanya masturbasi atau ngewe, tapi sama-sama enak, anjay. Btw, worth to buy 😋💦 (I’m confused whether this is called masturbating or fucking, but both feel good, damn. Btw, worth to buy 😋💦)

ved.: kirim link toko-nya di DM (send the shop link in DM) MAHARAJA RAGI: lu skrg kerja jd sales sex toys, ren? (you’re working as a sex toy salesperson now, Ren?)

Kalo aja bisa dapet komisi, dah gue kirim stok ke seluruh Jakarta. (If only I could get commission, I’d already have sent stock all over Jakarta.) He almost types it. Almost. But the joke sours in his mouth before it reaches his fingers, because the truth is simpler and uglier: he'd bought the thing with money he'd saved over three months of skipping lunch, and it still wasn't the same as a warm body. Not even close.

He sits up. The doll shifts, its weighted head lolling to one side, and for a moment it looks almost accusing. Jangan pandang gue gitu, njir. He pulls the sheet over it, a half-hearted act of modesty that makes him feel ridiculous. Gue juga pengen yang real. Gue juga pengen ada yang nungguin gue pulang, yang gak peduli gue ojol atau belum lulus, yang— (Don’t look at me like that, damn. I also want the real thing. I also want someone waiting for me to come home, someone who doesn’t care if I’m a ojol driver or haven’t graduated yet, someone who—)

His phone buzzes. Not a channel notification. A DM.

Rendi frowns. He opens it. The profile picture is new—no history in the server that he recognizes, no familiar username from the #looking-for thread he's been stalking for weeks. Just an account, freshly slid into his messages, with a single image attached.

He taps it.

The photo loads slowly, pixel by pixel, and Rendi forgets how to breathe.

Breasts. Payudara. TETEK. (Boobs) Not the harsh, overinflated kind he's learned to scroll past in this server. Soft. Full. The kind of shape that makes his mouth go dry and his brain short-circuit into a single, shameful syllable.

"Wow," he whispers. His voice sounds strange in the quiet of the kos.

Then the skepticism kicks in. What if it’s another scam? The last time he got scammed was when someone DM-ed him a pic of boobs that looked like borax meatballs.

r.lubang.bisul: hmm... 🙄 r.lubang.bisul: nggak ada angin, nggak ada ujan, tiba-tiba banget ngirim foto tetek. (No wind, no rain, out of nowhere you just send me a pic of tits) r.lubang.bisul: asli nggak tuh? ntar AI generated lagi 🙄 (is that even real? prob it's just an AI-generated pic 🙄)