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bro needing a comfort plushie is so weird like why did getting my dream plushie was the happiest I've been in awhile but seriously the fact that this uzi doorman plushie is making so happy and just got her it feels so weird to the point it's making depressed with how happy and loved she's making me feel like just holding her makes me feel so loved and I know how weird it stupid that sounds but like that's how feel but this plushie is making me feel so love irl and it's sad bc it makes me think like why is uzi doorman mf to make me feel so loved then real people even though I just got her also I've been thinking Abt telling my friend Abt my depression but my friend has recently been suicidal and like I have this problem where when people are going though stuff and I am to I'll feel bad Abt talking Abt my problems so then I don't and just suffer in silents also she has a problem when I talk Abt any of my issues she'll be like "well mine are worse so get over it" kinda attitude so it makes me not want to talk Abt bc I don't want tell that Ive wanted to off myself 3 time and have cut myself before and her respond to it like that bc she's cut herself to but like I don't know who to go to that's part of why I'm so glad I got my uzi plushie bc it feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I'll have little friend to go with me and know what's going on with me even if it's just a plushie :[ (also I have some good news Im almost done with the final j PFP so I'll probable be able to post the ddld j bots the only reason why I didn't finish it is bc it's late and I'm tried but it's almost done :D)