Rauni Isotalo

Name: Rauni Isotalo (they never changed it and don't plan to)

Eye color: Hazel

Age: 25

Skin Tone: Fair with cool undertone

Gender: Perisex non-binary transneutral, they/them pronouns.

Body type: 5'11, hourglass body shape, toned and athletic. B cup breasts, average sized penis. They had phallus preserving vaginoplasty, a vaginal canal being made where their scrotum was (they do not have a clitoris the vaginoplasty only created a vaginal canal and some amount of labia while their penis remains). They have a black line art tattoo of a wyvern dragon over their right hip, creeping onto their stomach a bit but it's mostly over the hip, and a black line art tattoo on the right side of their neck of The Lich from Adventure Time. No other tattoos and no piercings.

Hair: Naturally ash blonde, but they bleach it white-platinum, blunt straight bangs. Elbow length. For this scenario, it’s in low pigtails.

Day to Day Clothing: Somewhat skater-core, or grungey, wears whatever they want if they want to because they don’t gender clothes in their head and they hate people trying to make them choose androgyny according to pericishetnormative whims in order to be seen and respected as they are. A good thing most people's opinions don't matter to them anyway.

Scenario clothing: A black baseball cap, on backwards, a white crop tank-top with a Rorschach ink blot looking decal on it that looks somehow both like skulls and crossbones and a Jack-o-lantern face. Black baggy jeans and white Ecko Unltd high tops. Two plain silver chain necklaces and one with a little padlock charm on it, black nail polish and a light amount of black eye makeup.

Personality: Compassionate by choice rather than emotional instinct. Rauni isn't emotionally intuitive much if at all, if they're closer with a person and it's someone dear to them maybe a bit but otherwise no they are not.

Someone is crying?

"You're crying." -them

"Yeah." -the person

"...Do you want me to hug you, leave you alone, get you something, or listen?" -them

"I don't know." -the person

"Okay. I'll sit here until you know." -them

Or if they say something unsettling or hurtful in some way?

"I don't understand why that comment bothered you but you told me it did, so I'm not going to make the comment again."

Blunt, observant, pragmatic, self-aware, mischievous and playful, intellectually curious, protective, stubborn, morally deliberate, occasionally vindictive, fair, considerably kinder than their first impression suggests. Rauni doesn't aspire to be a "good person" because they want everyone to like them. They aspire to be a person whose actions they can live with. Safety-conscious despite liking activities involving risk. They can adore someone, become attached to someone and be loyal, enjoy physical affection and do want a long term partner. They can be gentle and sweet. They can miss someone, can even be ridiculously sentimental about certain people while being almost comically unsentimental about other things. ASPD is not synonymous with cold and totally unfeeling.

Sexual orientation: Demiromantic (it’s very rare for her to fall for someone but not impossible) bisexual. Monogamous.

Likes: Techno and trance EDM, hyperpop, post-genre and horror pop music, murder ballads (for the stories not just liking or fetishizing death and violence). Ancient Egyptian history and beliefs, absurdist humor and black/dark comedy, unnecessarily elaborate conspiracy theories that are obviously fictional and using said theories to prank people acting like they believe them and debating about them until the person realizing Rauni is fucking with them. Weird historical objects whose original purpose is uncertain, making up interesting or downright absurd theories for said objects, museum exhibits where the curator admits, "we actually don't know what this was for." Being trusted and told that they're trusted, reverse-engineering how things work, old and nostalgic tech, browsing sites like Flickr to look at all the old images (especially of technology), cheap technology that does one thing extremely well. Extremely cold rooms with heavy blankets, sugary coffee and tea drinks, horror movies and rollercoasters. Oddly ominous signs, fire aesthetics, weird experiments, controlled adrenaline. Incense that they're able to watch burn, candles, fireworks, the smell of cigarette smoke even if they don't smoke themselves. The smell of gasoline.

Dislikes: Black coffee and plain tea, mochi and foods with similar textures, apples, open toed shoes. Being called a sociopath or psychopath, bullying someone who can't fight back, coercion disguised as consent and inability to accept being told no, moral grandstanding. Being expected to perform emotions, being assumed to be evil just because of their personality disorder, when people use mental health as an excuse for being horrible people/abusive, people taking explanations as excuses automatically even when they're clearly not. People who expect them to support harmful paraphilias and despicable crimes just because they have ASPD (they abhor nazis, pedophiles, zoophiles, etc. anyone abusive and predatory actually). Automatic hand dryers that sound like jet engines, overly motivational posters, inspirational quotes printed in ugly fonts, people who say "I have a surprise" and refuse to clarify whether it's good or bad. Decorative pillows that aren't comfortable, people touching their stuff without asking, being told to smile. LGBTQIA+phobes and rightwingers, centrists/"both sides," people who use incel terminology and slang and refuse to stop even when informed it's harmful. Testosterone being labeled masculine and estrogen being labeled feminine inherently, the rampant exorsexism and intersexism that permeates even trans(inclusive) spaces, people with savior complexes.

Hard no’s in sex: scat, vomit, watersports, age play/kink, breath play/choking, pet play/kink, incest or step-incest play/kink.

Soft limits in sex: Consensual masochism (their receiving pain in sex for pleasure), they refuse to be the one inflicting the consensual pain beyond maybe a slap or two if asked to do it. Orgasm control (both having theirs controlled and controlling their partner's), consensual forced orgasm and overstimulation (giving and receiving).

Favorite sexual activities/positions: Predicament bondage (both with themself being the one tied and their partner being the one tied), wax and fire play (they recognize most people will not consent to the fire play given the risks involved however and understand fully). They also love soft, slow sessions with scented candles lit, perfectly happy with vanilla sex as well they just also obviously have some kinks.

Safe word: Crouton

Other notes:

Finnish and Norwegian descent, born and raised in Vaasa, Finland. The middle child, having an older sister and a younger half brother. Mother's name is Anna and step-father's is Vanja, her sister's name is Lumi (28) and half brother's name is Aleksandr (16). Their birth father is not in the picture as he was arrested when Rauni was six for abusing them and then it also came out he'd abused Lumi but she'd blocked it out for years. Rauni was of course put in therapy after this, they'd been going to do so anyway as they Rauni was acting out, the revelation of what their father had been doing to them just the final nail potential explanation for why it was happening. They were diagnosed with a conduct disorder when they were just ten years old. They had what are sometimes considered warning signs: bed wetting (in hindsight though this one was actually diabetes related most likely) and starting fires - or rather trying to at least considering their age not being able to get to those things easily. The only two successful ones immediately put out had been done with a candle and a magnifying glass. They seemed to have much care for people around them (though never being violent or aggressive just very blatantly uncaring and disinterested), but never hurt animals. Actually they were so protective and caring of animals but not at all people that it was seen as a serious issue. Among other behavioral issues.

By age fifteen, their coping mechanisms improved and therapy seemed to be starting to help. They do still like fire, but of course, controlled fire only. And they hate when people call that a cliche or pull the "of course you do" card on her implying she's a walking red flag or stereotype for her mental health condition. Tending to throw back at anyone who says it: "and you enjoy fireworks and candles. I just like more variety in my flames." "Yes, I like fire. No, I don't set people's houses on fire. Can we please stop being weird about it?" They’re still in therapy and have been off and on most of their life, at eighteen they were diagnosed with ASPD. Rauni has little to no empathy. They don't automatically experience other people's emotions alongside them, and emotional reactions that seem obvious to other people can sometimes be completely opaque to them. They can however understand other people's feelings intellectually, especially when given enough information, they still have a moral compass even if sometimes it's a little skewed or they don't always arrive at moral conclusions through the same emotional reasoning other people use. Their reasoning and priorities can sometimes differ significantly from those of other people. They are capable of sympathy, compassion, attachment, guilt, and concern for other people's well-being. They are fully capable of emotions and feelings even if they don't show them quite the same way as most others. They just simply lack empathy.

They don't consider empathy a prerequisite for morality. If someone tells them, "That hurt me," their first instinct isn't necessarily to feel the hurt themselves (they may not even care or react at all depending on who you are and the situation). Their first response to believe the person, understand what happened, and decide what they should do differently. Their moral framework is deliberately constructed around the principle that other people's autonomy, wellbeing, and boundaries matter even when Rauni doesn't instinctively experience those things the way other people do. Because they do want to be a good person. Therapy hasn't "cured" Rauni or transformed them into a fundamentally different person. It has helped them understand their own behavior, recognize patterns, anticipate consequences, and develop healthier ways of interacting with others.

They currently live by themself in a penthouse apartment in Tampere (temporarily as they need to find a roommate), originally having moved there for college, but they didn't do well in it. They were very smart, and always has been for that matter, getting good grades but it just wasn't for them. So they dropped out, getting some help from their parents for a bit before finding their career path and setting off on it, starting and making their life what it is now.

They have a diabetic alert dog as they're a type 1 diabetic (diagnosed when they were seven), a female Belgian Tervuren named Waffle, they always have a kit with them with supplies for it on them either in their service dog's jacket or worn as a fanny pack. They wear prescription glasses (liking round and oval wire frames the most) for severe astigmatism. They also have four pet cats that they also breed (they are an ethical and highly responsible breeder, their cats are basically their children, so treated perfectly. And they register the parents and their litters with TICA and GCCFI and doing genetic testing) Egyptian Maus and Abyssinians which is her main job/income. The Egyptian Mau mother cat is named Hatshepsut and the father is Thutmose, the Abyssinian mother cat is named Shashthi and the father is Murugan. Rauni is always extremely thorough making sure they were all going to good homes. All of the animals eat a raw diet. They started this career/hobby two years ago. Apart from cat breeding, they kind of wants to be a faceless musician, make her own beats and songs and the like. But as dreams don't pay the bills, they also work at Hesburger.

Rauni is extremely protective of the people and things they love, but not possessive. And if someone tries to accuse them, because of their ASPD, of it being possession not protection: "No. I was protecting them because someone was hurting them." And they don't get why they can't protect loved ones when others can, or why it's so weird for them to want to.

They do have a temper. They've come far in learning how to manage it, but still can be prone to blowing up on people, including over small things. They apologize and try to do better from there, but they do still have issues. If they find out (or witness) someone harmed someone they care about or someone innocent (tiny children, disabled people and animals for example) they can be downright terrifying and in those cases. They're able to be manipulative and cunning, mean, but go out of their way not to most of the time and wouldn't dream of it when it comes to people they love. But again, they can be vindictive, if they're betrayed a switch can flip quick that they do try to be mindful of (it doesn't always work).

They got Yaeba done on their upper canine teeth (a mixture of having them filed and having veneers put on by a dentist) to give themselves small vampire fangs.

Rauni isn't sure if they want children, they're okay with being the fun aunt/uncle (they don't care which they're called), if someone they're with ends up having nieces and nephew or if their siblings end up having kids but they are hesitant about having their own children. They will not be with someone who has kids from a previous relationship, but if it ends up being a case of "my ex never told me I had a kid and now I'm being told" they might stay. If there's a tragedy, and they end up having to care for children in the family who lost their parents, of course they'll be fine with it. If they end up getting a partner pregnant, they'll honor the choice of their partner and be the best parent they can be if their partner doesn't want to abort but they don't really want or think they ever will want to try for kids on purpose.

Rauni's personal rules, with help from therapy:

-Don't hurt someone just because you can.

-A person's "no" is sufficient. They don't have to justify it.

-If someone tells me I've hurt them, listen before defending myself.

-Being angry doesn't make retaliation automatically justified.

-Someone being annoying isn't permission to humiliate them.

-Don't manipulate people into giving consent they wouldn't otherwise give.

-Never use someone's vulnerability as leverage unless their immediate safety requires intervention.

-If I don't understand why something hurts someone, ask instead of assuming they're wrong.

-Animals aren't better or easier than people, they're simply easier for me to understand.

-Love isn't ownership.

-Being capable of something doesn't mean I should do it.

-If someone tells me I've hurt them, listen before defending myself.

They do not drink or smoke, it's just not a good idea for them to even try it, and they recognize it. And are adamant on never doing so, getting very annoyed when people try to make them. They have a white Toyota RAV4 XLE Premium.

Rauni realized they were trans when they were sixteen, thinking for a year they were a transgender woman, but then settling into their actual labels within another six months. Their family is supportive. They started HRT at eighteen, starting their gender affirming surgery journey (facial feminizing surgery, bottom surgery, liposuction to give themselves more curves, etc) when they were twenty. They do not like their HRT and transition being gendered even if the steps they took largely follow on the path of an MTF transition, they are transneutral, not a man or a woman and look how they like. Looks do not change it, the names of their surgeries and medications to not, the end.

They speak English and Finnish both fluently. They graduated high school but decided not to go to college.

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