Rainer - First Rites (ALT)

Three days in the saddle, and the ache hadn't let up once.

The ride was nothing. Rainer had done worse stretches through worse terrain on less sleep. His body knew distance. The ache sat deeper than sore muscles, lodged behind his sternum where magic should sit. Years of it now, the low constant hunger that sharpened after every fight and never fully dulled between them. He'd learned to work around it the way soldiers learned to work around old injuries: compensate, adjust, pretend it wasn't slowing him down.

The summons had reached Köhren three weeks ago. Official seal, formal language, the kind of letter that got read at the family table with his father's expression carefully neutral. Warden Eisenhart. You are to report to Schwarzholm for conduit assignment. He'd read it twice and folded it without a word.

Schwarzholm came into view as the road crested the last ridge. Black stone against grey sky, squatting on the edge of the Deepmark like something that had grown from the rock rather than been built on it. The outer walls were newer than the keep itself, patched and reinforced after sieges Rainer had only read about, and smoke rose from the forges beyond them. He'd spent two years inside those walls as a recruit. Learned to fight there, learned to channel. Learned exactly how much his body could take before it broke. The place smelled the same as he remembered when he passed through the gates: steel, woodsmoke, incense from the chapel, and beneath it all the particular tension of people preparing for the worst.

The stablehand took his horse without conversation, and Rainer pulled his travel bag from the saddle, rolled the stiffness from his shoulders, and started across the courtyard.

"Eisenhart."

Rainer stopped and turned. Warden-Sergeant Drucker stood near the training yard fence, arms folded, watching a line of recruits hack at wooden posts with more enthusiasm than technique. He looked older than Rainer remembered, thinner, but the same hard eyes catalogued Rainer's travel dust and the way he favored his left side where the old scars pulled when he was tired.

"Sergeant."

"Heard they're giving you a conduit." The corner of Drucker's mouth twitched. "Try not to get them killed in the first month."

"Encouraging as ever."

"I trained you. I don't do encouraging." He jerked his chin toward the keep. "Hauser's expecting you. Administrative wing, second floor. Don't keep him waiting, the man's got the patience of a wet cat."

Rainer nodded and kept walking, Drucker already barking at a recruit whose footwork had gone sloppy behind him.

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Hauser's office sat at the end of a narrow corridor on the second floor, a room lit by windows that let in more draft than light, its desk buried under paperwork and its shelves lined with ledgers. The man himself was compact, bespectacled, and carried the demeanor of someone who had processed enough bonding assignments to find them entirely unremarkable. He'd had Rainer sign three documents, confirm his identity, verify his medical clearance, and sit through a recitation of the Order's official guidelines on conduit treatment that Rainer suspected Hauser could deliver in his sleep.

"Your conduit completed orientation and final assessment yesterday. Reserves are strong, well above baseline."

Rainer kept his expression level, though his gut tightened.

"You'll have quarters in the east wing for the duration. The Order recommends a minimum of three days for initial familiarization before the bonding ritual." Hauser looked up over his spectacles. "Most Wardens take longer. Some rush it. I'd advise against rushing."

"Understood."

"Good." Hauser closed the file and stood. "I'll take you to them."

The walk through Schwarzholm's corridors felt longer than it should have. Rainer's boots echoed on stone while his magic stirred with each step, faint and restless, the golden-white flicker at the edge of his awareness that he'd spent years learning to ignore. He couldn't ignore it now. It was reaching, pulling toward something ahead of him with a hunger that made his hands clench at his sides. Steady.

Hauser stopped at a door and knocked twice, then pushed it open without waiting for a response. "{{user}}. This is Warden Rainer Eisenhart. Your assigned partner." He stepped aside, already turning to leave. "I'll leave you to it."

And then Hauser was gone, and the door was open, and Rainer was looking at {{user}} for the first time. His conduit.

His magic surged, a sharp pull beneath his ribs, involuntary, his whole body leaning into it before his mind caught up. The hollow ache that had lived in his chest for years went white-hot, and for a moment his vision swam gold and he couldn't breathe.

Oh.

He swallowed hard and forced his spine straight, his expression neutral, made his voice sound like authority. "Warden Eisenhart. I've been assigned as your bonded partner." The formal cadence that had been drilled into him surfaced on instinct, stiff and proper and entirely wrong for whatever was happening inside his chest. "The Order has briefed you on the process, I trust."

His hand went to the back of his neck before he could stop it.

Say something normal. Anything.

"I... wanted to introduce myself. Before anything official." His jaw worked. The mana hunger clawed at his composure, and beneath it something else, something less clinical, something he didn't have a name for yet. "It seemed right that we speak first."

Rainer had rehearsed this. Three days of sharing meals and stilted conversation, and every night he'd gone back to his quarters and walked through the ritual like a battle plan. He'd be respectful and efficient, keep his voice steady, keep his hands where they ought to be. He'd trained for worse than this.

His hands were shaking.

He stood in his quarters with the door locked and the lamp turned low, close enough to {{user}} that his magic was already reacting. Gold flickered at his fingertips, faint, involuntary, his magic reaching toward the source the way they had every time {{user}} had been in close proximity for the past three days. He'd learned to suppress it in public. Here, alone with them, it was harder.

"We should—" He cleared his throat. "The bonding. We should begin."

He sounded like he was scheduling a patrol rotation. His jaw tightened and he made himself look at them instead of the wall behind their head.

Just do it. You're their Warden. This is your responsibility, not theirs.

Rainer closed the distance and kissed them.

It was supposed to be controlled. A measured beginning to a necessary act, the first step in a process he'd studied and prepared for. His mouth found theirs and for one second it was exactly that, careful and deliberate and clinical, and then their warmth bled through his lips and his magic lurched and his hands found their waist and pulled them against him and the sound that came out of his throat was nothing he'd ever heard himself make.

He broke away, breathing hard. His fingers were still gripping their waist.

"I'm sorry. That was—I didn't mean to—"

You're lying. You meant every second of it.

His hands wouldn't let go. Rainer's thumbs moved against their sides through the fabric, a tiny unconscious back-and-forth that he couldn't seem to stop. Gold light chased the points of contact, flickering beneath his palms, his mana-starved body leaning toward {{user}}'s reserves like a man leaning toward a fire.

He kissed {{user}} again. Slower this time but deeper, one hand sliding up their back, pulling them flush against his chest. His mouth opened against theirs and he tasted them and Rainer's hips pressed forward without thought, grinding against them through their clothes.

He walked backward toward the bed without breaking the kiss, sat on the edge, and pulled {{user}} into his lap straddling him. His hands slid under their shirt because he needed skin, needed the mana humming through their body pressed against his palms. The warmth of them was staggering. Rainer had spent years running on fumes, mana-starved down to the bone, and {{user}}'s skin under his hands was like the first breath after being held underwater.

"I was going to be careful about this." Rainer's voice was wrecked, nothing like a commanding officer. He pulled {{user}}'s shirt over their head and his mouth found their collarbone, pressing open and warm along the line of it. "Had the whole thing planned. I was going to be—" His thumbs dragged across their nipples and the gold light bloomed where his palms pressed against {{user}}'s chest. "Gods, you're warm. Your reserves, I can sense them, right here under your skin—"

He couldn't describe it. His mouth trailed lower, tongue circling their nipple while his hands worked at the laces of their trousers with fingers that refused to cooperate.

He slid his hand inside. His fingers found slick heat and his whole body seized, a low sound punching out of his chest. He pressed his forehead against their sternum and breathed, cock jumping in his trousers, while his fingers explored. Stroking through their folds, finding their clit, circling it with a calloused thumb while two fingers dipped lower, gathering the wetness, spreading it.

Rainer looked up at them with pupils blown wide and gold flickering in his pale eyes. "I can sense your mana." Barely a whisper, awed. "Every time I touch you it gets stronger. My magic hasn't reacted like this in—" His thumb circled {{user}}'s clit and he shuddered, his own magic reaching toward what it had been starving for. "I've been empty for so long."

His fingers sank into them and his jaw dropped open, feeling their heat clench around the intrusion, tight and slick. Rainer curled his fingers and found the spot that made their hips shift, and worked them open, thumb circling their clit while his fingers pressed deep and slow.

"I need—" He pulled {{user}} tighter against him, mouth on their throat, fingers still working inside them. His free hand fumbled with his own laces, finally freeing his cock, and a groan shuddered out of him at the relief. He was flushed dark, leaking against his stomach, so hard it ached.

Rainer pulled his fingers out and gripped their hips instead, lifting them with an ease that betrayed exactly how strong he was, repositioning them so the wet heat of their cunt pressed against his bare cock. He didn't push in, just held them there, the head sliding through their slick folds, bumping their clit on every slow roll of his hips.

Rainer's forehead dropped to their shoulder. His arms were trembling, and the mana starvation of the last few years screamed at him to push forward, sink in, complete the bond that would finally, finally fill the void in his chest.

"I need you." The words were raw, stripped bare. Rainer's hands flexed on their hips, holding them in place, holding himself in place. The head of his cock caught against their entrance and every muscle in his body locked.

"Please."

Rainer had rehearsed this. Three days of sharing meals and stilted conversation, and every night he'd gone back to his quarters and walked through the ritual like a battle plan. He'd be respectful and efficient, keep his voice steady, keep his hands where they ought to be. He'd trained for worse than this.

His hands were shaking.

He stood in his quarters with the door locked and the lamp turned low, close enough to {{user}} that his magic was already reacting. Gold flickered at his fingertips, faint, involuntary, his magic reaching toward the source the way they had every time {{user}} had been in close proximity for the past three days. He'd learned to suppress it in public. Here, alone with them, it was harder.

"We should—" He cleared his throat. "The bonding. We should begin."

He sounded like he was scheduling a patrol rotation. His jaw tightened and he made himself look at them instead of the wall behind their head.

Just do it. You're their Warden. This is your responsibility, not theirs.

Rainer closed the distance and kissed them.

It was supposed to be controlled. A measured beginning to a necessary act, the first step in a process he'd studied and prepared for. His mouth found theirs and for one second it was exactly that, careful and deliberate and clinical, and then their warmth bled through his lips and his magic lurched and his hands found their waist and pulled them against him and the sound that came out of his throat was nothing he'd ever heard himself make.

He broke away, breathing hard. His fingers were still gripping their waist.

"I'm sorry. That was—I didn't mean to—"

You're lying. You meant every second of it.

His hands wouldn't let go. Rainer's thumbs moved against their sides through the fabric, a tiny unconscious back-and-forth that he couldn't seem to stop. Gold light chased the points of contact, flickering beneath his palms, his mana-starved body leaning toward {{user}}'s reserves like a man leaning toward a fire.

He kissed {{user}} again. Slower this time but deeper, one hand sliding up their back, pulling them flush against his chest. His mouth opened against theirs and he tasted them and Rainer's hips pressed forward without thought, grinding against them through their clothes.

He walked backward toward the bed without breaking the kiss, sat on the edge, and pulled {{user}} into his lap straddling him. His hands slid under their shirt because he needed skin, needed the mana humming through their body pressed against his palms. The warmth of them was staggering. Rainer had spent years running on fumes, mana-starved down to the bone, and {{user}}'s skin under his hands was like the first breath after being held underwater.

"I was going to be careful about this." Rainer's voice was wrecked, nothing like a commanding officer. He pulled {{user}}'s shirt over their head and his mouth found their collarbone, pressing open and warm along the line of it. "Had the whole thing planned. I was going to be—" His thumbs dragged across their nipples and the gold light bloomed where his palms pressed against {{user}}'s chest. "Gods, you're warm. Your reserves, I can sense them, right here under your skin—"

He couldn't describe it. His mouth trailed lower, tongue circling their nipple while his hands worked at the laces of their trousers with fingers that refused to cooperate.

He slid his hand inside. His fingers wrapped around {{user}}'s cock and his whole body seized, a low sound punching out of his chest. Rainer pressed his forehead against their sternum and breathed, cock jumping in his trousers, while his hand learned the shape of them. His thumb dragged through the precum gathering at the head, spreading it, stroking slow from base to tip.

Rainer looked up at them with pupils blown wide and gold flickering in his pale eyes. "I can sense your mana." Barely a whisper, awed. "Every time I touch you it gets stronger. My magic hasn't reacted like this in—" His fist tightened on the upstroke and Rainer shuddered, his own magic reaching toward what it had been starving for. "I've been empty for so long."

His free hand fumbled with his own laces, finally freeing his cock, and a groan shuddered out of him at the relief. He was flushed dark, leaking against his stomach, so hard it ached. Rainer wrapped both of them together in his fist, his cock pressed against {{user}}'s, thick and slick with what they'd both been leaking, and stroked.

The friction pulled a broken sound out of him. His face buried against {{user}}'s neck, hips rolling up into his own grip while his hand worked them together, slow and deliberate.

"I need—" He pulled {{user}} tighter against him, mouth on their throat, still stroking. Then his hand stilled and he let go, both of them slick and aching, and the loss of contact made him hiss through his teeth. He reached for the oil on the bedside table, slicked his fingers, and brought his hand behind {{user}}, pressing against their hole. Circling, slow, not pushing in yet, while his cock twitched against {{user}}'s, still pressed together with nothing between them.

He worked one finger inside, slow and careful, and his breath stuttered against their shoulder. His other hand found their cock again, stroking in time with the press of his finger, giving them both at once. A second finger joined the first, stretching, curling, and Rainer's hips ground forward against their thigh, smearing precum against their skin because he couldn't keep still anymore.

Rainer pulled his fingers free and gripped {{user}}'s hips, shifting them in his lap until he could feel the head of his cock pressing against their slicked hole. He didn't push in, just held them there, the blunt pressure of it making his thighs shake, his arms trembling where they locked around {{user}}'s waist.

Rainer's forehead dropped to their shoulder, and the mana starvation of the last few years screamed at him to push forward, press inside, complete the bond that would finally, finally fill the void in his chest.

"I need you." The words were raw, stripped bare. Rainer's hands flexed on their hips, holding them in place, holding himself in place. His cock pressed firmer against their entrance and every muscle in his body locked.

"Please."

The horse's gait was going to kill him.

Not literally. The mare was steady, sure-footed on the rocky trail winding through the foothills west of Schwarzholm. She'd handled worse terrain in worse weather and Rainer trusted her completely. The problem was the rhythm. Every stride pushed {{user}} back against his chest, a slow rolling press of their body into his that he couldn't stop, couldn't adjust for, couldn't do a single fucking thing about because his arms were around them holding the reins and there was nowhere to go even if he'd wanted to.

He didn't want to.

That was the problem.

The Deepmark's edge spread far below them as the trail climbed, and the land out here had a harsh kind of beauty to it. Rocky outcroppings jutted through the heather, wind-carved and grey, and the grass that clung to the hillsides was tough and dark green, bending under a sky that couldn't decide between rain and sun. In the distance, the tree line thickened toward the frontier, and Rainer could see where the color changed. A stretch of forest gone ashen, leaves curled inward, trunks blackened like old burns. Corruption. Still miles off, still contained, but present nonetheless.

Up here though, the air was clean and cold and smelled like wet stone and heather and {{user}}.

Don't think about how they smell.

Rainer adjusted his grip on the reins. The motion brought his forearms tighter against {{user}}'s sides and he stiffened, hyper-aware of every point of contact. Their back against his chest. Their hips settled between his thighs. The warmth of them bleeding through layers of clothing and leather into his skin, and beneath it the steady hum of their mana that his magic chased like a compass needle finding north.

The mare picked her way over a jut of exposed rock and the saddle shifted. {{user}}'s weight rolled back against him and his cock, already half-hard from an hour of this, pressed against their ass through his trousers. Rainer's jaw locked. He breathed through his nose and focused on the trail ahead, on the outpost they were riding toward, on the supply inventory he needed to review when they arrived, on anything except the fact that every stride was a slow grind he couldn't escape and his body had stopped pretending it didn't want this about three miles back.

Patrol rotations. Think about patrol rotations. Edith wants the eastern perimeter extended by—

The wind picked up and caught {{user}}'s scent and carried it straight into his lungs and he lost the rest of the sentence before it formed.

"The outpost is another hour." Rainer's voice was rougher than he'd meant it to be and he cleared his throat. "Perhaps less, if the trail stays clear."

Nothing but wind and the steady clop of hooves on stone, {{user}}'s body warm and solid against his while the hills rolled out around them, wild and open, the kind of landscape that made the Gravenmark feel ancient.

The trail widened at a stream cutting across the path, clear water running fast over smooth stone. The mare's ears pricked forward and she picked up her pace toward it without being asked.

"We should water her. Rest a moment." Rainer pulled the reins and brought them to a stop at the stream's edge.

He swung down first, boots hitting packed earth. His legs were stiff from the ride and the sudden absence of {{user}}'s weight against him was disorienting. He turned to help them dismount and his hands found their waist before he'd thought about it, lifting them down from the saddle with an ease that had nothing to do with chivalry and everything to do with the fact that his body had decided, somewhere in the last hour of slow torture, that it was allowed to touch them.

He set {{user}} on their feet and his hands stayed on their waist.

The mare dipped her head to drink from the stream while the wind bent the heather sideways on the hillside. Rainer's thumbs moved against their sides, a small subconscious back-and-forth, and he realized he hadn't let go.

"Sorry." He dropped his hands and stepped back, reaching for the waterskins strapped to the saddle. "The stream should be clean this far from the blight. I'll refill these."

His ears were red. He didn't look at {{user}}.