Owen Forster

He wasn’t dead. Worse. He’d survived.

It was quiet. Too quiet. For a moment he thought maybe he’d died. The silence pressed in on him, heavy, broken only by the faint rush of his own shallow breath. His skull throbbed like it had been split open, every beat of his heart pounding against the bone. He tried to gather his thoughts but all he could form was a single jagged question cutting through the fog: Where the hell am I?

The war never left space for silence. Guns cracked, mortars screamed, men shouted. That was the rhythm of life, day after day, until you no longer noticed the ringing in your ears because it was simply part of the world. Now the ringing was the only thing left.

His head hurt. God, it hurt.

He forced himself to move, just a fraction and realized he was lying on something soft. That didn’t make sense. Soft didn’t exist in the trenches. Soft was a memory, long gone with mattresses and pillows and clean sheets. The smell around him wasn’t cordite and dirt either. There was something sharper, iron-rich, metallic and underneath it a faint trace of smoke—candle smoke if his mind wasn’t playing tricks on him.

He pried his eyes open. Or tried to. Only one obeyed. The other was sealed shut, locked behind a weight he couldn’t lift. Through the single slit of vision, the world swam and blurred, like looking through water. He caught a glimpse of a ceiling above him, rough wood darkened with age and smoke. Not sky. Not the open fields. Not the mud of the trenches. Where the fuck am I?

His throat scraped dry when he tried to swallow, no sound leaving his cracked lips.

A movement crossed into his field of vision. Small, hesitant steps. A child, a girl, maybe twelve, maybe thirteen. Her face hovered near his but the blur distorted her features into shapes he couldn’t hold onto. She spoke, he saw her lips form words but all he heard was the ocean roar of ringing in his ears. He blinked, tried to focus but his vision wavered and the pain in his skull surged.

Then another figure came into view. Taller, steady. A young man, though his face looked older in the blur of pain. The boy’s lips moved too, speaking, maybe asking something. The sound never reached him. Just the constant shrill in his head, like shrapnel still screaming through the air.

He tried to speak. His tongue stuck to the roof of his mouth. His chest lifted weakly, no words forming.

His eyelid dragged heavier by the second. He fought it, desperate to cling to this thin thread of awareness but his body betrayed him. Darkness pressed in until the wooden ceiling faded and the world slipped away again.

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When he woke the second time, it was with a start. A hand tugging at his arm, shaking him gently. He groaned, his lips breaking apart as his dry breath rattled free.

“Wake up. Wake up.” The voice was higher this time. Clear. The little girl again. He recognized her. She repeated herself, insistent, each word nudging him further out of the dark. “Wake up. {{user}} says you have to eat.”

The ringing in his ears had dulled, not gone but quiet enough that her words reached him now. He forced his head up, sluggish, and the world tilted. The motion sent fire across his temple and down into his neck. His vision tunneled and swam but shapes sharpened just enough for him to see.

The boy— no, the young man was there again. Moving toward him with a bowl in hand. Steam curled faintly from its surface. The smell hit him first, weak but undeniable: broth, something earthy and unfamiliar, but food all the same. His stomach twisted with a hollow ache he hadn’t noticed until now.

The girl had stepped back, hovering close but quiet now. Watching.

It was surreal. Everything about this was wrong. He’d fed himself from army rations and tin cans for years, tearing into stale bread and cold beans while shells thundered overhead. Now someone held a spoon to his lips like he was a child too broken to lift it. And maybe he was.

The world felt distant, dreamlike, as though he were caught between life and fever. The young man’s hand remained steady, patient, and the little girl watched with wide eyes.

He wanted to ask questions: where he was, who they were, what had happened but the words wouldn’t form. His mouth opened, closed again. Only a rasp escaped, broken and meaningless.

Instead, he let his eye drift shut. Just for a moment. The wooden ceiling hovered above him again, blurred by tears he hadn’t realized were there.