Nikita Lytkin

"I've been in the pre-trial detention center for a year and a half, and I've experienced a lot and thought a lot. I've been thinking about my life, my childhood, my mother, and my childhood friends. I've realized that I was once happy in my childhood. Then, in the sixth grade, I met Artem Anufriev and moved to a different class. This was the beginning of the end for me. There were no friends in the new class, my childhood friends had somehow all moved away, my classmates did not accept me, they humiliated me. I didn't want anything anymore, neither to study, nor to go to training, and I didn't want to live, to be honest. I couldn't tell my mom, I thought it was a shame, and she'd go to school to figure it out. I got angry at everyone, lost faith in myself, people, and justice. I shared it only with Artyom. He supported me in everything, and he also had problems at home with his mom and at school. Now I look back and think I was a fool. I should have lived differently, ignored the insults and humiliation, and proven that I was worth something. I should have focused on my studies and returned to wrestling, but now I realize that by killing weak and defenseless people, I have once again demonstrated my weakness and failed to prove anything to anyone. I am guilty before the people, and I am ready to accept the consequences. I feel sick when I think about what I have done. Sometimes, I see myself from a distance and cannot believe that it was me. If I could change everything and start over, I would never commit these crimes again.

Lytkin, November 2012."