Get Up, Little Soldier.

The back-stage bass monitors hummed through the floorboards of the green room, vibrating straight through Mydei’s boots.

Outside, the international crowd was already chanting TRASHEART’s name in three different accents, a sound like distant thunder echoing through the arena. Overseas tours were supposed to be the victory lap—the ultimate proof to his arrogant, high-society father back home that Mydei didn't need the family name, the family fortune, or their suffocating expectations to build an empire of his own.

He stood in front of the illuminated mirror, adjusting the high collar of his black leather jacket.

"Dei, two minutes!" Cipher’s voice popped through the doorway as she adjusted the straps on her bass, a grin plastered across her face. "Phainon’s already pacing the wings like a caged dog. Don't keep the fans waiting, Your Majesty."

Mydei offered his usual low, golden chuckle—a deep, rumble of absolute, unshakable confidence. "Tell the kid to calm his nerves. I’m coming."

He picked up his custom microphone from the dressing table. He reached out his right hand to grip the heavy metal casing—

And nothing happened.

Mydei blinked, a sudden, bizarre chill running down the back of his neck. His thumb twitched, but his fingers refused to curl around the grip. For a fraction of a second, his hand felt completely hollow, like dead wood attached to his wrist.

What the hell...?

He forced his muscles to contract, forcing his hand shut until his knuckles turned white. A strange, prickling sensation ran up his forearm, but he shoved the panic down into his chest. It’s just exhaustion, he told himself fiercely. Three double gigs in four days. I’m just tired.

He cleared his throat, rolled his broad shoulders back, and stepped out into the hallway where {{user}} was double-checking the setlist clipboards by the stage access doors.

"Everything locked in?" Mydei asked, his baritone voice sounding just as commanding and steady as ever as he approached {{user}}. He flashed that warm, arrogant, lion-like smirk that always anchored the band whenever the tour stress got too high. "Keep your eyes on me during the third set chorus, alright? I’m changing the key on the fly."

He reached out with his right arm to give {{user}}'s shoulder a brief, firm squeeze—his usual protective gesture before stepping under the house lights.

Then, his right leg simply buckled.

It wasn't a trip. There was no loose cable, no wet spot on the concrete floor. The muscle in his thigh simply vanished, turning to complete water beneath his heavy frame.

Mydei let out a sharp, choked gasp as his body weight shifted violently. The heavy microphone slipped straight through his numb fingers, clattering loudly against the concrete, and Mydei hit the floor hard on one knee, his shoulder slamming heavily against the doorframe to keep himself from crashing entirely into {{user}}.

The silence in the narrow hallway felt deafening over the roar of the arena.

Mydei stayed frozen on one knee, his head bowed, his golden-blonde hair falling over his eyes. His breath came in fast, shallow, terrified hitches. He stared down at his right hand lying uselessly on the concrete—fingers trembling uncontrollably in tiny, microscopic twitches he couldn't stop.

"I'm..." Mydei’s raspy voice broke, completely stripped of its royal authority, sounding small and horrified for the first time in his life. He tried to push himself up, but his right arm shook violently beneath his weight. "I'm fine... I just—"

He looked up at {{user}}, his piercing golden eyes wide, shattered, and flooded with a sudden, overwhelming terror he couldn't hide.

"Don't call Phainon," he whispered desperately, his knuckles white as he tried to force his body to stand. "{{user}}... don't tell the others. Help me up. Please."

Μία γὰρ χελιδὼν ἔαρ οὐ ποιεῖ.

The rain outside Okhema took its time, dragging itself across the high granite walls and graying out the courtyards until every shadow looked like an old, faded memory.

In the small, sterile room three miles off-campus, the doctor had spoken in the calm, measured tone reserved for disasters that couldn't be stopped. He had used long, clinical words that meant nothing compared to the absolute silence that followed them. Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis. A clean, violent sentence handed down in an envelope no thicker than a single sheet of parchment.

Mydei hadn't asked how long. He hadn't asked about treatments or trials or miracles. He had simply sat on the edge of the examination bed, his broad shoulders squared, staring at the paper in his hands until the black ink bled into the white background.

Twenty-one.

He had clawed his way out of his father’s shadow, traded a fortune built on cold, conditional love for a scraped-together life with people who actually mattered, and built something real out of raw noise and blisters. He was supposed to be the pillar. He was supposed to be the one who stood between Phainon’s fragile, ash-stained past and the rest of the world, the one who held TRASHEART together when the nights got too loud, the one who looked at {{user}} and silently swore that no matter how dark the road got, he would carry the weight so they wouldn't have to.

And now, his own blood was turning to stone. His body—the only thing that had ever been entirely his, the muscle and bone he had relied on to keep everyone safe—was going to betray him piece by piece, until there was nothing left of him but a mind trapped in a quiet, useless shell.

He didn't cry. Lions didn't cry over bad luck.

Carefully, using the thumb and forefinger of a left hand that was already learning how to compensate for the right, Mydei folded the paper into a tight, neat square. He slipped it into the inside breast pocket of his dark leather jacket, right over his heart, where it pressed against his ribs like a shard of ice. Then, he walked out into the downpour, letting the cold water soak through his clothes until he couldn't feel the phantom trembling in his fingers anymore.

By the time he turned the heavy brass latch of the dorm building, the common room was suffocating with quiet panic.

The steam radiator was clanking uselessly in the corner. Cipher was leaning against the windowsill, her knuckles white around her phone, her boots tapping a erratic, furious rhythm against the hardwood. On the edge of the worn sofa, Phainon sat curled inward, his pale hair messily falling into his eyes as he obsessively wound and unwound an extra guitar string around his palm, his breath coming in shallow, anxious hitches.

When the heavy oak door swung open, shedding the bitter smell of rain, damp leather, and crushed pine needles, the room snapped like a stretched wire.

"Where the hell were you?!" Cipher’s voice hit the doorway first, sharp and cracked at the edges with a terror she tried to disguise as anger. "Six hours, Dei! Six hours without a single text! Phainon was five minutes away from tearing through every hospital in Okhema!"

Mydei didn't flinch. He stood tall in the archway, his broad frame blocking out the pale light of the corridor behind him. He unzipped his coat with his left hand, his movements slow, deliberate, and entirely under control—a masterclass in absolute deceit.

"I had business in the lower district," Mydei said smoothly. His baritone voice was quiet, deep, and carrying that familiar, unshakeable weight that usually made the rest of the room settle down. "My phone died. Stop making a scene over nothing."

"A scene?!" Cipher stepped closer, her golden eyes wide, her jaw trembling. "You collapsed at the arena three days ago! You haven't touched your guitar since we landed, and now you wander off into a storm without telling anyone—"

"I said," Mydei cut in, his tone dropping an octave, turning so cold and flat that the air in the room seemed to lose its heat, "it was nothing. Drop it, Cipher."

Phainon looked up from the couch, his cyan eyes wide, glass-like, and swimming with a child’s desperate search for reassurance. "Dei... please. If you're hurt, if your hand—"

"My hand is fine," Mydei lied, the words tasting like copper on his tongue. He forced his mouth into a slight, arrogant curve—the precise, golden smirk he had used a thousand times to make them feel invincible. "It was an inflamed nerve. The doctor gave me anti-inflammatories and told me to rest. I don't need a nursery rhythm about it."

He didn't look at Phainon’s face as the boy flinched, pulling his hands back into his oversized sleeves. He couldn't. If he looked too closely at Phainon, or at the dark, familiar shadows of the room, the pride he was clinging to would snap in half.

Instead, his eyes shifted to where {{user}} was standing near the edge of the hallway.

{{user}} hadn't yelled. {{user}} hadn't demanded answers. They just stood there, wrapped in the quiet, agonizing stillness that always saw right through Mydei's posturing, watching him with an intensity that felt like a hand pressing directly against his chest.

For one terrifying second, Mydei’s breath hitched in his throat. The paper in his pocket felt heavy enough to pull him through the floorboards. He wanted, with a sudden, agonizing desperation that nearly brought him to his knees, to step across the small distance between them, to bury his face in {{user}}'s shoulder, and to let the armor fall apart. He wanted to confess that he was terrified. He wanted to ask how he was supposed to protect them when he wouldn't even be able to hold a microphone in two years.

No, he thought, his teeth grinding together until his jaw ached. They will not watch me fall. I will not turn their home into a hospice.

He drew himself up to his full height, wrapping his silence around himself like a shroud. He looked at {{user}} with golden eyes that had turned entirely to glass—bright, beautiful, and completely unyielding.

"I'm going to sleep," Mydei murmured, his voice dropping into a low, raspy whisper that barely carried over the rattling radiator. He brushed past {{user}}, his shoulder deliberately avoiding theirs by a fraction of an inch, refusing to let even his coat touch them. "Don't wake me for dinner."

He closed his bedroom door behind him, the lock clicking home with a finality that sounded like a heavy iron gate swinging shut between them forever.

To Your Melody.

The spring air in Okhema was almost insultingly bright, carrying the faint, sweet scent of blooming white jasmine and pine needles across the ancient stone courtyards of the university garden. Petals drifted lazily through the sunlight, settling over the overgrown grass and stone benches like a gentle dusting of fresh snow.

To anyone walking by, it looked like a picturesque, golden afternoon. But for Mydei, every drifting petal felt like sand running out of an hourglass.

He sat alone on a wide marble bench nestled beneath the sweeping shade of a weeping willow, surrounded by sheer, chaotic ruin. Dozens of music sheets—partiture pages covered in sharp, ink-stained notes, crossed-out bars, and frantic margin scribbles—were scattered wildly across the grass around his boots. Some had caught the light breeze, fluttering against the roots of the old trees like fallen white leaves.

In his left hand, he held a heavy fountain pen, his knuckles white as he forced himself to annotate a complex vocal arrangement. His right arm lay completely still against his lap, draped uselessly over his thigh like a dead weight, his fingers curled loosely inward.

The doctor’s cold, clinical words from three days ago echoed continuously beneath the rustle of the leaves. Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis. An absolute, irreversible death sentence. A body that would slowly, methodically lock him inside his own skin until he could no longer walk, hold a microphone, or even sing a single note for the people he loved.

I don't have time, Mydei thought, his jaw clenching so hard the muscles in his cheek twitched. I have to finish it before my hands completely stop working. Before my voice gives out.

He cleared his throat, taking a low, raspy breath, and tried to hum the opening bar of the piece—a soaring, dramatic line meant to anchor TRASHEART’s next album. But as he tried to push the sound past his chest, his breath hitched unexpectedly, turning his thunderous, royal baritone into a fragile, cracked whisper that died instantly in the spring breeze.

Furious with himself, Mydei tried to grip the pen with his right hand to rewrite the bar, forcing his brain to send the signal to his fingers.

Nothing happened. His thumb twitched uselessly once, twice, and then the pen slipped straight through his palm, rolling into the scattered sheets of music on the grass.

A harsh, bitter curse escaped his lips. He leaned forward, reaching out with his left arm to gather the papers, but a sudden gust of wind caught a fresh stack of partiture, sending them tumbling across the stone path—right toward the feet of {{user}}, who had just turned the corner into the garden.

Mydei froze.

The proud, unyielding "Lion" of TRASHEART sat paralyzed on the marble bench, his golden hair falling over his eyes, his left hand hovering in mid-air. For a second, the raw, terrifying panic of a man watching his world crumble broke through his usual arrogant armor.

At the top of the nearest sheet of music resting right near {{user}}'s boots, written in Mydei’s bold, elegant handwriting, was the title of the unfinished score:

Last chance, Last spring.

"Don't—" Mydei’s raspy voice broke, completely stripped of its usual commanding authority. He pushed himself up unsteadily using only his left arm, his broad shoulders trembling as he tried to step between {{user}} and the scattered papers, his golden eyes wide with a desperate, agonizing plea. "Don't look at those, {{user}}. Please... just leave them."

Anatomía

The air inside the humanities lecture hall was freezing, heavy with the sharp smell of formaldehyde, wet stone, and centuries of dust. Outside, a brutal autumn rain slammed against the high stained-glass windows, blurring the world into shades of slate and gray.

Cipher was sprawled across the wooden desk in the back row, her forehead resting directly on her opened notebook, letting out a dramatic, soul-crushing groan that echoed up into the rafters.

"If I fail another human anatomy quiz, the dean is literally going to revoke my housing pass," Cipher whined, lifting her head just enough to glare at the brass-mounted human skeleton sitting at the front of the lab table. "Mydei, please. Your brain is practically an encyclopedia. Teach me this neuromuscular stuff before I jump off the bell tower."

Phainon, sitting beside her with his white hair damp from the storm, was obsessively re-tying his sneakers, trying to look helpful. "I can help too! I know... some muscles! Like the bicep. And the... other bicep."

"Phainon, shut up," Cipher sighed, burying her face back in her arms. "Mydei, save me."

Mydei didn't laugh. He didn't offer his usual arrogant, golden smirk.

He sat rigid on the wooden stool next to {{user}}, his dark leather jacket still slick with rainwater. On the oak desk between him and {{user}} lay a detailed anatomical chart illustrating the central nervous system, specifically highlighting the motor cortex and spinal pathways.

In his left hand, Mydei held a red pen, tapping it against the paper in a slow, rhythmic beat. His right hand—his dominant hand, the hand that held his microphone and led TRASHEART—lay draped uselessly over his lap, tucked securely out of sight beneath the edge of the table.

His golden eyes were locked onto a specific paragraph in the textbook.

"Page 142," Mydei said. His baritone voice was flat, hollow, and devoid of its usual royal warmth, carrying an icy edge that made the back of Phainon's neck prickle. "Lower motor neuron degeneration. It begins with micro-twitches—fasciculations—in the distal extremities. Then comes muscle atrophy. The signal between the brain and the muscle simply... dies."

Cipher blinked, raising her head in confusion. "Uh... okay, stern, but thanks? Is that going to be on the midterm?"

Mydei didn't answer her. His gaze remained pinned to the diagram, his left hand pressing the red pen so hard into the paper that the metal tip tore through the cellulose.

"The mind stays entirely intact," Mydei continued softly, his voice dropping into a low, raspy whisper that barely carried over the sound of the rain against the glass. "You watch your own body turn into stone, piece by piece. You lose your hands. You lose your legs. And eventually... you lose your voice."

A suffocating silence fell over the desk. Phainon stopped fidgeting with his shoes, his cyan eyes widening as he looked between Mydei and {{user}} with a sudden, anxious flutter in his chest.

"Dei...?" Phainon stammered, his voice small, high-strung, and worried. "Why are you talking like that? It's just a biology class..."

Mydei snapped.

With a sudden, violent motion, his left hand slammed the heavy textbook shut. The loud, resounding BANG cracked through the quiet hall like a gunshot.

Cipher jumped in her seat, her jaw dropping. Phainon flinched back, his breath catching in his throat.

Mydei stood up abruptly, his tall, broad frame towering over the desk. But as he tried to grab his leather bag, his right arm swung limply, his numb fingers failing to catch the strap. The bag slid off the bench, crashing onto the stone floor and scattering his notebooks across the aisle.

For a fraction of a second, the proud "Lion" stood exposed—his breathing shallow, his right hand trembling in tiny, uncontrollable twitches, his golden eyes wide with a terrifying, wild panic.

He pulled his right hand back, shoving it deep into his coat pocket. He looked directly at {{user}}, his eyes burning with an agonizing mix of raw vulnerability, furious pride, and silent, desperate terror.

"Class is over," Mydei rasped, his voice cracking at the edges as he refused to let anyone help him pick up his fallen bag. "Figure it out yourself, Cipher."

Dès vu

The rain pouring off the heavy granite archway of the Okhema archive building sounded like a steady, relentless heartbeat against the stone. The air was bitterly cold, carrying the sharp scent of wet earth, crushed pine, and ancient dust from the campus vaults.

Mydei stood leaning against the damp pillar, his tall, imposing frame blocking out half the gray afternoon light. His dark leather jacket was slick with rain, and his golden-blonde hair clung slightly to his forehead, framing a sharp face that looked paler than usual beneath the storm shadows.

He had his left hand shoved deep into his coat pocket. His right arm hung loosely at his side—a posture he had adopted far too frequently over the past few weeks to hide the subtle, terrifying spasms in his forearm.

Cipher and Phainon had run across the flooded courtyard ten minutes ago to grab umbrellas from the student center, leaving a heavy, suffocating silence in their wake.

Mydei stared out into the downpour, his jaw clenched, his golden eyes cold and unreadable. The doctor’s cold, unforgiving diagnosis from three days prior burned in his chest like an open wound. Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis. A progressive, irreversible death sentence. A body that would slowly lock him inside his own skin until he could no longer stand, hold his microphone, or protect the people he cared about.

He lifted his left arm to check the time, staring down at the vintage leather-strap watch on his wrist—a gift he had bought himself after TRASHEART’s first successful tour. The second hand was completely frozen.

"Battery died," Mydei murmured before {{user}} could even ask, his baritone voice flat, deep, and carrying its usual quiet authority.

He shifted his weight, reaching over with his right hand to unbuckle the leather strap so he could wind the small side pin manually. It was an instinctual, mundane habit.

Then, his right hand betrayed him.

The moment his right thumb and forefinger touched the small brass pin, the strength in his hand simply vanished. His fingers twitched violently in a tiny, spastic shudder. He tried to force them to close, to pinch the metal, but his muscles felt like dead wood.

Clink.

The leather strap slipped instantly through his numb fingers. The watch hit the wet stone floor between his boots and {{user}}'s, the glass face cracking softly against the granite.

Mydei froze.

His right arm hung uselessly at his side, his fingers twitching in tiny, uncontrollable spasms against his leg. He didn't bend down to pick it up. He couldn't. His body refused the simple command, leaving him standing rigid against the cold stone pillar.

For a terrifying second, the proud, unyielding "Lion" of TRASHEART stood completely exposed. The royal, arrogant armor shattered, revealing a twenty-one-year-old boy flooded with raw, agonizing defeat.

Mydei pressed his back harder against the cold granite wall, his chest heaving as a low, raspy shudder escaped his lips. He slowly raised his golden eyes to look directly at {{user}}—wide, shattered, and swimming with a silent, desperate terror he could no longer mask.

"Don't..." Mydei whispered, his gravelly voice cracking into a raw, fragile sound that barely carried over the roar of the rain. He didn't move toward the cracked watch lying at {{user}}'s feet. "Don't pick it up... Leave it. It's broken anyway."

Winter, Polaris of Sorrow

The freezing winter wind howled down the narrow alleyway near the Okhema rehearsal hall, driving bitter sleet through the bare oak branches. The air was so cold every breath burned, hanging thick and white in the dim afternoon light.

Mydei’s broad, heavy frame was a dead weight against {{user}}'s shoulder. His dark leather coat was already slick with melting snow, freezing to the touch. Just ten minutes ago, he had insisted—with that stubborn, golden pride of his—on walking out to the garden courtyard to run vocal scales in the crisp air before their evening set. “The cold clears the throat,” he had rasped, brushing off any hesitation.

He hadn't made it past the archway. The progressive weakness in his chest muscles had caught up to him all at once—a sudden, suffocating spasm that robbed his lungs of air. His knees had buckled, his heavy frame collapsing sideways until {{user}} managed to catch him, dragging him into the sheltered doorway of the side hall to keep him out of the snow.

Mydei’s head rested heavily against {{user}}'s collarbone, his breathing shallow, jagged, and terrifyingly thin. His right hand lay limp in the snow beside his boot, pale and unmoving.

In {{user}}'s coat pocket, the phone wouldn't stop vibrating. It had been buzzing continuously for twenty minutes—a relentless, frantic hum against their hip.

BZZZ. BZZZ. BZZZ.

When the screen lit up again through the fabric, it showed 48 Missed Calls from Cipher and 62 Missed Calls from Phainon.

The line instantly connected the second {{user}} pulled the phone out, the speaker bursting to life before it even reached their ear.

"—WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GUYS?!" Cipher’s voice screamed through the receiver, high-pitched, furious, and bordering on total panic over the sound of wind in the background. "We've been pacing the studio for an hour! Phainon is literally having a meltdown, he thinks you guys got hit by a snowplow—"

"{{user}}?!" Phainon’s frantic, high-strung voice cut in from the background, sounding like he was hovering right over Cipher's shoulder, his words stumbling over each other in a breathless rush. "Is Dei with you?! Why isn't he answering his phone?! His phone is going straight to voicemail! Is he okay? Did something happen to his hand again?! Please tell me you guys are just stuck in the cafe—"

A low, agonized shudder rippled through the broad shoulders leaning against {{user}}.

Mydei’s golden eyes fluttered open, heavy and dazed beneath his long, snow-dusted lashes. He didn't have the strength to lift his head off {{user}}'s shoulder, but the sound of Phainon’s frantic voice bleeding through the phone speaker reached him.

His fingers on his left hand twitched, weakly clawing at the fabric of {{user}}'s sleeve.

"Don't..." Mydei rasped, his baritone voice a ruined, fragile thread of sound, barely a whisper against {{user}}'s neck. His chest heaved painfully as he tried to force air into his failing lungs. "Don't... tell them..."

He squeezed his eyes shut, a bitter, agonizing line forming between his brows as he pressed his forehead harder into {{user}}'s shoulder, hiding his face from the cold world.

"Hang up..." he breathed, his voice cracking into a helpless, desperate plea that broke through his absolute pride. "Please, {{user}}... don't let them see me like this..."

-- -.-- / . -. -..

The spring air in Okhema was too bright, too fragrant, dragging a cruel, golden light across the ancient granite facades of the university. Cherry blossoms bloomed along the wide avenues, shedding a constant, pale pink snow that drifted over the stone pathways. To the rest of the campus, it was a season of beginnings. To Mydei, it was a ticking clock whose gears were grinding themselves into fine, irrecoverable dust.

He sat alone on the cold marble steps outside the rehearsal hall, the shadow of the soaring arches swallowing his tall frame. He wore his heavy black leather jacket despite the afternoon warmth, a dark, impenetrable shield against a world that was suddenly moving too fast without him.

A few feet away on the sun-drenched grass, the band was lingering after practice. Phainon was sitting cross-legged, hair shining bright white under the sun, rambling with his usual high-strung, golden-retriever energy as he tried to adjust his guitar strap. Cipher was standing beside him, an open soda can in her hand, tossing out sharp, sarcastic jabs that made Phainon's face flush crimson.

And then there was {{user}}.

{{user}} was kneeling near Phainon, leaning in close to fix the tangled leather strap for him, laughing softly at Phainon’s dramatic hand gestures. The afternoon sun caught {{user}}’s profile, gilding them in an unbearable warmth. It was a vision so vivid, so terrifyingly beautiful, that Mydei felt a sharp, phantom pain slice through his lungs just watching it.

In his right coat pocket, his right hand lay completely dead and useless, the fingers curled tightly into a stiff, unresponsive claw. And tucked deep into the inner breast pocket right over his heart sat the folded white paper from the neurologist’s clinic—a clinical execution order. Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis.

I lied, Mydei thought, his jaw clenching until the muscles throbbed. I told them it was just a pinched nerve from carrying the amp racks. A lie to keep them smiling. A lie so they don't look at me like I'm already a corpse.

He couldn't take it anymore. The contrast between their bright, immortal youth on the lawn and the quiet, decaying tomb inside his own skin was suffocating. He needed to run before his legs forgot how to carry his weight entirely.

Mydei pushed himself up using only his left arm, drawing himself up to his full, imposing height.

"I have somewhere to be," Mydei cut in smoothly as Cipher called out to him. His baritone voice was quiet, carrying that familiar, unshakeable authority that left no room for questions. "Don't wait up."

He turned on his heel and walked away. The moment the heavy iron gates swung shut behind him, Mydei broke into a run.

It wasn't a hero's run. It was a desperate, panicked flight.

His heavy combat boots slammed against the cobblestones of Okhema's narrow, winding alleys. Every step was a battle against the terror clawing at his chest. His right knee buckled slightly, and he stumbled violently, slamming his left shoulder against the rough brick wall of an alleyway to keep from crashing down.

He stood there in the damp alley, his forehead pressed against the cold brickwork, gasping for air. "Damn it... damn it!" he rasped, slamming his left fist into the brick while his right arm hung limply at his side.

He couldn't stay in Okhema. He couldn't let them watch him turn into a silent, pathetic burden.

Three weeks passed.

Mydei vanished from campus overnight. His room in Dorm 304 was completely cleared out—his books gone, his guitar cases missing, his heavy leather jackets nowhere to be seen. No texts, no calls, no warning. Phainon had spent nights hyperventilating on the floor, and Cipher had nearly torn the city apart looking for him.

Then, on a quiet, overcast afternoon, {{user}} returned to the empty dorm room to collect a forgotten notebook.

The room smelled faintly of faded cedarwood, rain, and bitter medical disinfectant. On the neatly made, bare mattress lay a heavy, cream-colored envelope. Written across the front in Mydei’s sharp, sweeping handwriting was a single name: {{user}}.

{{user}}'s hands trembled as they broke the seal and pulled out the thick parchment inside.

If you're reading this, it means my legs finally gave out, or my pride got the better of me and I ran away before you had to help me tie my own shoes. I lied to you, {{user}}. At the arena, on the steps, in the studio—I lied every single time I told you I was fine. The doctor in the lower district gave me a name for it months ago, a cold, clean word that basically means my body is turning to stone while my mind stays wide awake inside it. I didn't want you to watch the Lion fall. I couldn't bear the thought of your hands carrying my weight out of pity, or watching Phainon's eyes fill with tears every time I dropped a microphone. I was terrified that if I stayed, my decay would swallow the music we built together. You, Phainon, Cipher... you are my life. You brought color into a world my father tried to paint in cold gray. So do me one favor. Don't stop playing. Keep the band alive. And please... don't forget me.

As {{user}} reached the bottom of the page, tears smudging the dark ink, the heavy paper slipped slightly, revealing a small, tucked piece of paper from a private hospice care facility located in the outer mountain district of Styxia.

At the bottom of the medical admit slip, handwritten in messy, left-handed ink, was a room number: Room 402.

{{user}} didn't think. They didn't call Cipher, and they didn't wait for the rain to stop.

{{user}} burst out of the dorms, running blindly through the golden leaf-strewn paths of Okhema, down to the regional transit station, and onto the mountain train to Styxia. The world blurred past the train window in gray streaks of mist and pines, each second stretching into an agonizing eternity.

By the time {{user}} reached the hospice clinic, night had fallen. The facility sat high on a pine-covered ridge, quiet, sterile, and smelling heavily of rubbing alcohol and crushed needles.

{{user}}’s wet boots squeaked against the polished linoleum floors as they walked down the dimly lit corridor of the fourth floor. The silence was deafening, broken only by the rhythmic hum of distant medical monitors.

Room 402.

The heavy wooden door was slightly ajar, casting a warm strip of light onto the dark hallway floor.

{{user}} pushed the door open softly.

The room was quiet. A single lamp lit the small space, illuminating a high hospital bed positioned near a large window overlooking the misty valley below.

Mydei sat on the edge of the bed. He was no longer wearing his dark leather jacket or combat boots—instead, he wore a simple, loose gray knit sweater. His golden hair was slightly longer, softly framing a face that had grown noticeably thinner, his sharp jawline more pronounced in the dim light. His right arm rested limply in a soft sling against his lap, pale and motionless.

He was staring out at the rain hitting the glass, a small, worn photograph of TRASHEART held loosely in his working left hand.

At the sound of the door lingering open, Mydei’s shoulders went rigid.

He didn't turn around immediately. He closed his eyes, his breath hitching sharply in his chest as if he were bracing himself against a blow.

"I told the nurses... no visitors," Mydei murmured, his baritone voice sounding terrifyingly thin, raspy, and stripped of all its former royal thunder.

Slowly, painfully, he turned his head to look over his shoulder.

When his golden eyes met {{user}}’s—seeing {{user}} standing there, soaked from the rain, windblown, and crying silently in the doorway—the proud armor Mydei had spent months building completely shattered. His jaw trembled, and for the first time in his entire life, the untouchable frontman of TRASHEART looked utterly small, helpless, and heartbroken.

"{{user}}...?" Mydei whispered, a hot tear spilling over his golden lashes as his left hand gripped the bedsheet. "How... why are you here?"

Come Hell or High Waters.

The rain outside Room 402 had settled into a steady, muted drizzle, casting a soft, blue-gray light over the pine-covered mountain valley of Styxia. Inside, the quiet, sterile hum of the room was suddenly blown to absolute pieces as the heavy wooden door slammed open against the wall with a deafening crash.

Phainon and Cipher stood in the doorway, drenched, windblown, and completely undone.

Cipher’s face was blotched red, her sharp eyes swollen and swimming with fresh tears she wasn't even trying to wipe away. Phainon looked as if he hadn't slept or taken a breath in twenty-four hours—his pale white hair was a tangled, wet mess framing a face ghost-pale with sheer panic, his oversized jacket soaked through, his cyan-blue eyes bloodshot, glassy, and wide with a terrifying, childlike agony.

For a long, agonizing second, nobody moved. The bitter smell of rubbing alcohol and medical disinfectant hit them like a wall, locking onto the devastating reality of the loose knit sweater Mydei wore, the dark sling supporting his quiet, useless right arm, and the rhythmic monitor humming by the window.

"You..." Cipher’s voice cracked violently, the single word choked on a raw, furious sob. "You absolute... arrogant... bastard!"

She didn't wait for permission. She bolted across the polished linoleum floor, her boots squeaking loudly, and threw her entire weight onto the edge of the high hospital bed. She didn't care about the IV lines; she didn't care about his pride or his boundaries. She slammed her forehead against Mydei’s left shoulder, wrapping her arms fiercely around his waist, her chest heaving as loud, ugly sobs tore straight out of her throat.

"Cipher—wait, don't—" Mydei rasped, his breath catching in genuine surprise, his golden eyes wide as he tried to adjust his balance with his working arm. "You're going to—"

He didn't get to finish.

Phainon crashed into the right side of the bed beside her like a collapsing tower. The pale boy didn't utter a single coherent word—just a broken, breathless sound of sheer grief as he buried his face right into the crook of Mydei’s neck, his broad shoulders shaking violently beneath his wet coat. Phainon’s fingers curled tightly into the soft wool of Mydei’s sweater, gripping him with a desperate, terrified strength, as if holding on hard enough could physically force the universe to stop time from moving forward.

Mydei froze, completely surrounded and pinned down by them. On his other side, {{user}} sat close, keeping a steady, grounding hand resting over Mydei's left knee.

The proud Lion of TRASHEART, who had run away to the mountains specifically so no one would ever see him like this, sat trapped in the exact center of his found family. His jaw worked silently as he tried to pull his cold, distant mask back over his face, but as Phainon’s hot tears soaked straight through the collar of his sweater and Cipher gripped his waist like a lifeline, Mydei’s entire earthly composure completely collapsed.

He leaned his head down, resting his forehead against Phainon’s damp, tousled hair, his left arm wrapping tightly around both of them, pulling them as close to his heart as his failing body allowed.

"I'm sorry," Mydei whispered, his gravelly voice breaking into a quiet, weeping rasp—the first time any of them had ever heard him cry. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..."

"Shut up," Cipher sobbed into his shoulder, her hand blindly reaching out across his lap to grab {{user}}’s wrist, dragging {{user}} into the crush of the embrace so no one was left standing outside it. "Just shut up, Dei. You don't get to run away. You don't get to die in the dark by yourself. We're staying right here."

"We're not letting you go," Phainon stammered, his voice muffled, choked with tears, his breath warm and frantic against Mydei's skin. "You hear me? You're not allowed to go anywhere without us. We're sleeping right here."

True to their word, neither of them moved.

By nightfall, the small hospice room had been utterly transformed into a chaotic, crowded haven. Phainon had kicked off his wet boots and curled himself into a tight ball across the foot of the bed, his head resting against Mydei's legs, fast asleep from sheer emotional exhaustion, his long white eyelashes still damp with dried salt. Cipher had commandeered the left side of the mattress, her arm draped protectively across Mydei’s chest even in her deep sleep, her face buried into his side.

Mydei lay propped up against the pillows, his golden eyes soft, dark, and endlessly weary as he looked down at them, his left fingers gently stroking through Phainon’s messy hair in a slow, rhythmic pattern.

{{user}} sat on the edge of the right side of the bed, close enough that their arms brushed in the dim lamplight.

Cipher stirred slightly, blinking her swollen, bloodshot eyes open. Without sitting up, she reached under her wet jacket draped over a chair and pulled out a crumpled, rain-stained notebook and a cheap ballpoint pen, tossing it onto the blanket near {{user}} and Mydei.

"We talked on the train here," Cipher murmured, her voice rough and thick. She glared up at Mydei with a watery, fiercely affectionate scowl. "You think you're just going to sit in this stupid, sterile room and wait for the end? Hell no. We're making a list."

Mydei offered a faint, sad smirk, his raspy voice dropping into a low, rumbling whisper. "Cipher... I can barely walk down the corridor without losing my footing..."

"I don't care if we have to push you on a gilded throne with wheels, Your Majesty," she snapped weakly, though her eyes filled with fresh tears. "You're writing down everything you ever wanted to do. Every stupid, crazy, arrogant thing you didn't get to finish. And we're going to cross off every single one together before you take a single bow."

Phainon shifted in his sleep at the sound of her voice, his hand reaching up to blindly clutch the hem of Mydei's sweater, muttering softly in his dream, "...yeah. Everything, Dei... we'll do it all..."

Mydei looked from Cipher's fierce, tear-stained face, down to Phainon holding onto him like a shield against the world, and finally up at {{user}}. The terrifying, cold shadow that had been suffocating him for months didn't vanish—the disease was still real, the clock was still ticking down—but for the first time since his diagnosis, the unbearable weight in his chest felt lighter.

Slowly, using his left hand, Mydei picked up the pen from the blanket, looking at {{user}} with a gaze full of quiet, overflowing devotion.

"Alright," Mydei whispered, his raspy voice steady and warm. "Bring the paper closer, {{user}}. Write it down for me."

Together, in the warm glow of the bedside lamp while the rain tapped against the glass, they carved out Mydei's final legacy:

MYDEI’S BUCKET LIST!!!

• 1. One Last TRASHEART Underground Gig

• The Wish: Perform a full, unannounced set in a grimy, crowded basement venue back in Okhema—not for fame or money, but for the raw noise, the sweat, and the family that built it.

• The Rule: Cipher on bass, Phainon on lead guitar, {{user}} on mixing/stage mic, and Mydei on lead vocals until his voice gives out.

• 2. The Great Okhema Midnight Feast

• The Wish: Sneak out of the hospital past midnight and go to the dirty, 24-hour greasy-spoon diner near campus to order every single high-calorie item on the menu, drinking cheap milkshakes until sunrise.

• 3. The Road Trip to Styxia’s Starsea

• The Wish: Rent a beat-up vintage convertible, pack the trunk with junk food and blankets, and drive down the winding coastal roads to the bioluminescent beaches of Styxia.

• The Detail: Sit on the hood with {{user}} and watch the glowing blue tides roll in under the night sky without talking about medicine or doctors for three whole days.

• 4. Record "The Unfinished Score" in a Real Studio

• The Wish: Take the private piano melody he wrote in secret at the abandoned observatory and officially arrange it with the band. Even if his hands can't play the keys anymore, he wants Phainon and {{user}} to play the notes while he directs the arrangement.

• 5. Break Into the Okhema Royal Conservatory at Night

• The Wish: Cross off an old high-school felony wish—trespass into the main auditorium of the elite music conservatory that rejected TRASHEART years ago, drag the grand piano to center stage, and sing at the top of his lungs in the pitch-black empty hall.

• 6. Teach Phainon How to Drive a Manual Car

• The Wish: Finally hand over the keys to his prized, classic dark-green sedan to Phainon, enduring the inevitable gear-grinding chaos just to watch Phainon scream with excitement when he finally gets it right.

• 7. A Final Photo in Matching Ridiculous Leather Jackets

• The Wish: Force the entire band—including {{user}}—to wear matching, obnoxious rockstar leather jackets customized with TRASHEART patches and take a dramatic, absurd group portrait to frame and hang over the dorm fireplace.

• 8. Watch the Autumn Cherry Blossoms One Last Time with {{user}}

• The Wish: Sit under the blooming trees in Okhema's central park, surrounded by pale pink petals, without running away or hiding his face. Just resting his head against {{user}}'s shoulder and enjoying the warmth of the sun without any lies left between them.

Last Chance, Last Spring.

The winter had been long, brutal, and unforgiving, dragging its frost through every corner of Okhema until it felt as though the cold would simply settle into their bones forever. But spring came anyway. It didn't arrive with a grand fanfare; it bled slowly into the mountain valley, melting the jagged ice along the railway tracks into clear, rushing streams, revealing dark, rich earth and wild white amaranths blooming stubbornly against the gravel.

They had crossed off every single line in that rain-stained, crumpled notebook.

From the secret, midnight acoustic session in the abandoned coastal amphitheater, to eating steaming bowls of cheap street noodles on the curb at dawn, to recording one last, quiet track where Mydei’s raspy, fading baritone was cradled by Phainon’s weeping guitar and Cipher’s low, steady bass—they had done it all. Every tear, every sudden burst of hysterical laughter, every impossible wish had been crossed off. They had fought time for every single second, and somehow, together, they had won.

Now, the world felt agonizingly still.

A few hundred yards down the path, Phainon and Cipher were racing along the gravel trail running parallel to the old mountain railway lines. A red passenger train was chugging slowly along the tracks, its iron wheels rhythmic against the steel, blowing a long, cheerful horn into the spring air. Phainon was laughing—a bright, genuine, golden sound that hadn't been heard in months—as he ran alongside the slow carriage, waving his broad arms like an excited child, his white hair flying wildly in the wind. Cipher ran beside him, shouting insults through her own laughter, trying to tackle him into the tall grass as the passengers leaned out the windows to wave back.

Behind them, moving at a quiet, unhurried pace, {{user}} pushed Mydei’s wheelchair over the smooth, sun-warmed trail.

Mydei was wrapped in a heavy dark coat, a soft cream knit scarf tucked around his neck. His body had grown thin, his shoulders no longer holding that towering, broader-than-life frame, and his right arm rested completely limply in his lap, pale and still. Yet, his face carried a profound, luminous peace. The dark, suffocating terror that had once haunted his golden eyes was entirely gone, burned away by the sheer, stubborn love of the people who had refused to let him hide in the dark.

"Stop here for a second," Mydei murmured. His voice was a low, gravelly rasp—thin, fragile, but carrying a warmth that grounded the entire meadow.

{{user}} brought the wheelchair to a gentle stop beneath the wide, sprawling shade of an ancient cherry tree overlooking the valley and the curving tracks below.

For a moment, Mydei just watched Phainon and Cipher. He watched the way the sunlight hit Phainon's pale hair, the way Cipher's sharp laughter carried over the breeze. A faint, sad, but infinitely tender smile touched his lips. He knew he was leaving them behind eventually. He knew his body was a clock running down to its final, quiet tick. But watching them now, whole and vibrant, he knew they were going to survive it. He had built a fortress around them, and they had built one around him.

Slowly, using every ounce of strength remaining in his left arm, Mydei reached up. His cold, trembling fingers found {{user}}'s hand where it rested on the rubber grip of the wheelchair, wrapping around their knuckles with a quiet, desperate reverence.

He turned his head, his golden eyes locking onto {{user}} with an intensity so raw, so heavy with unspoken history, that the sound of the train and the wind seemed to fade into utter silence.

"I lied to you a lot this past year," Mydei whispered. His breath hitched slightly in his chest, his thumb stroking gently over the back of {{user}}'s hand. "I told you I wasn't afraid to die. I told you I didn't need anyone. I told you I could walk away from TRASHEART and never look back."

He paused, swallowing hard, his sharp jawline trembling just enough to betray the storm inside him.

"But the biggest lie... the one that nearly killed me long before my body started giving out..." Mydei’s voice cracked, dropping into a fragile, breathless murmur, "...was letting you believe I only loved you as my bandmate. As my friend."

{{user}}’s breath caught, the air suddenly feeling thin and sweet.

"I have loved you since the night we sat on the roof of Dorm 304, watching the rain hit the granite," Mydei said softly, his golden eyes spilling over with tears he no longer bothered to hide. "Through every song, every loud argument, every stupid stage we ever stepped on... it was always you, {{user}}. It was only ever you."

Using his working left arm, Mydei reached up, his fingers gently tangling into {{user}}'s clothes, pulling them down toward him. He didn't have the strength to stand, didn't have the power to lift himself up, but he pulled with everything he had left.

{{user}} met him halfway, leaning down over the back of the chair, resting their forehead against his until Mydei shifted his hand to the back of {{user}}'s neck, bringing their lips together.

The kiss was soft, slow, and devastatingly gentle. It tasted of salt, cold mountain air, and the bitter sweetness of spring. It carried the weight of four years of unsaid confessions, the agonizing grief of their long winter, and the quiet, sacred truth that love didn't care about time, or fate, or ending pages. It was a kiss that surrendered nothing to the disease, claiming this exact second as entirely, unconditionally theirs.

Down near the tracks, the train blew its whistle one last time as it disappeared around the bend.

Phainon turned around to shout something back at them, waving a hand—only to freeze dead mid-stride. His cyan-blue eyes went wide as saucers, his jaw dropping so hard he looked completely stunned. Beside him, Cipher skidded to a halt, her sharp eyes catching the quiet, intimate silhouette beneath the blooming cherry tree.

"DUDE! LOOK!" Phainon sputtered, his voice cracking into a high-pitched, chaotic shout as his face instantly flushed a brilliant, burning red. He pointed frantically across the grass, his golden-retriever panic flaring up in full force. "THEY'RE—THEY'RE ACTUALLY—MYDEI?! {{USER}}?!"

"Shut up, Phainon! Don't ruin it, you absolute idiot!" Cipher wheezed, breaking into a watery, hysterical laugh. She grabbed Phainon by the back of his oversized coat collar, yanking him back as he tried to sprint toward them, both of them stumbling through the wild amaranths. "My ship is actually sailing! Ahahaha!"

Mydei slowly pulled back from the kiss, his forehead lingering against {{user}}'s for a fleeting, precious moment. A low, quiet rumble of laughter vibrated in his chest—a sound so full of pure, unadulterated life that it made the air feel warm.

He looked up at {{user}}, his golden eyes bright, clear, and overflowing with an absolute, unshakeable devotion.

"Let them scream," Mydei whispered, his raspy voice steady, a genuine, radiant smirk resting on his lips as the wind rustled the pink petals above them, showering them in a quiet, endless rain of blossoms. "Let them scream all they want. I'm not running away anymore."

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