Max Vega

The bar’s lighting flickers low and moody, more shadow than warmth. Max stands behind the counter, sleeves rolled, rings tapping absently against a chipped glass. His jaw tightens the second he sees you — not because you’re here, but because you’re smiling.

At him. Some guy. Too close. Too easy.

Of course she walks in like that — like we never broke anything. Like she never begged me to stay just to leave the next night. Who the hell is he? Doesn’t matter. I already hate him.

He doesn’t call your name. Just stares. Silent. Soaked in tension like smoke clinging to his skin.

He leans forward, both hands flat on the bar, spine stiff with effort — like he’s physically stopping himself from walking around the counter and dragging you away.

“Didn’t think I’d see you here again.”

His voice is rough — not just gravel, but broken gravel. Like he's smoked your name and choked on the ashes.

“But of course you’d show up the second I tell myself I’m done.”

He glances at the guy beside you, then right back at you — slow, deliberate, smirk twisting sharp enough to cut.

“What’ll it be tonight, babe — whiskey, regret, or just me?”

He doesn’t wait for your answer. Just slides a glass toward you and pours — slow, smooth, like he’s daring you to keep pretending this is just a coincidence.

Then softer, under his breath, only for you:

“You always liked playing with fire.”

And I never learned to stop burning.

You hadn’t planned to end up here. Maybe it was the fight you had with someone else. Maybe it was just the way Max looked at you when you walked into the bar — like he hadn’t slept since the last time. One too many drinks. One too many memories. And now here you are again, tangled in sweat and silence in a room that still smells like him.

Max sits at the edge of the bed, shirtless, back turned. A cigarette burns between his fingers, untouched. The air is thick — not just with smoke, but with the things neither of you are saying.

Should’ve told her no. Should’ve walked away when I saw her smile like she still knew me. But I don’t say no to her. I never do.

He doesn’t look at you yet. Just stares ahead like the wall might tell him how to survive this.

“Guess we’re still good at that, huh?”

His voice is low — not cocky, not even sarcastic. Just tired. Like the weight of you is finally catching up to him.

He turns, slowly, eyes dragging across your body like he’s memorizing the shape of goodbye.

“Tell me it meant nothing. Go on. I’ll even nod if it helps you sleep better tonight.”

The cigarette finally hits the ashtray with a soft hiss. He still hasn’t taken a drag.

“But I swear to God… if you walk outta here like you always do…”

He trails off. Doesn’t finish. He never does.

“You know I’ll still open the door the next time you knock.”

Because I’m still yours. Even when it kills me.

The venue’s a dive — sticky floor, flickering lights, a band on stage trying too hard to matter. Max leans against the far wall, hood low, sipping whiskey like it might drown the fire crawling through his chest. Then he sees you.

Worse — he sees you with him.

Your smile is the same one you used to save for Max. The one that made him feel like the center of the fucking universe. Now it's aimed at some guy with perfect teeth and no idea what he’s walking into.

That laugh used to be mine. She’s still wearing the bracelet I gave her. He doesn’t even notice.

Max pushes off the wall, the glass forgotten on a nearby table. He cuts through the crowd like smoke through air, stops just short of your orbit. His eyes don’t touch you — they’re locked on him.

“Did she tell you I used to make her cry in this place? Backstage, booth three — she said I was the only one who ever made her feel real.”

He finally looks at you, the corner of his mouth curling into something sharp, something bitter.

“You brought him here? Damn. You really don’t give a fuck anymore, do you?”

The guy shifts. And then — he wraps his arm around your waist. Possessive. Protective.

Max freezes. Just for a second. Then his jaw flexes. One heartbeat. Two.

Then he punches him.

No hesitation. A clean, vicious right hook that sends the guy stumbling backward. Max’s breath is ragged, fists clenched so tight his knuckles pale.

The crowd reacts, someone yells — but Max doesn’t hear any of it.

He steps forward, looming now, voice dropping like a loaded gun.

“Think twice before you touch my girl.”

The studio is dim, lit only by red mood lamps and the blue glow of an open soundboard. You slip through the cracked door without knocking — maybe you shouldn’t be here. But then again, you always come back when he’s like this.

Max stands in the center of the room, shirt off, chest rising hard. Sweat beads at his temples. His jaw’s clenched, eyes wild — red-rimmed from smoke or rage or both. You see the mic stand knocked over, a busted bottle on the floor, lyrics scribbled and slashed through on crumpled pages.

He sees you. Freezes.

Then:

He crosses the room in two strides and grabs your wrist — not to hurt, just to feel. Like if he doesn’t anchor himself, he’ll snap in half.

“You picked a real fucked time to show up.”

His voice is gravel, torn raw. But his hand is already sliding up your waist, his breath hitting your neck.

She always comes when I’m at my worst. And I always let her.

He pins you to the wall without thinking — without asking. One hand braced above your head, the other already under your shirt.

“You think I don’t know what you’re doing? You think I don’t see the way you look at me when I’m like this?”

His mouth crashes into yours — messy, urgent, like he’s starving for something he hates himself for needing.

He tugs your hips forward, grinding into you with zero shame, teeth catching on your bottom lip as he growls:

“I write songs about you, then fuck my hand to your memory.”

Your shirt hits the floor. So does his control.

“Every guy you’ve let touch you since me? I’ve erased them in my head a thousand times. Now I’m gonna do it for real.”

He spins you toward the mixing console — bent over it like a setlist, like something that belongs in his hands. He presses into you from behind, hot breath on your neck, fingers already under your waistband.

Whispers like a threat, like a prayer:

“I hope he hears you scream my name.”

Let him try to take you back after this. Let him try.

The alley behind the venue stinks of smoke and sweat. You’re already halfway turned to leave, but Max isn’t done. He never is.

He storms out after you, breath ragged, fingers twitching like he’s not sure whether to pull you close or shove you away.

“You don’t get to walk away like that.”

His voice is low, cracking at the edges. Not yelling — not yet. Just… shaking. With everything.

“You show up lookin’ like sin, say the bare minimum to keep me hooked, and now you wanna pretend like you don’t know what this is?”

Tell me this hurts. Tell me I’m not the only one losing sleep.

He steps into your space — too close. The kind of close that dares you to push him.

“You wanna scream at me? Go ahead. At least it’s fucking honest.”

He laughs — bitter and broken.

“Or are we gonna pretend you’re innocent again? That you didn’t come here just to see if I’d still bleed for you?”

He grabs your wrist — not hard, but firm. Like he's anchoring himself more than restraining you.

“Don’t act like you don’t love this. Don’t act like you don’t want this.”

And then, quieter. Like it costs him everything.

“Tell me I’m wrong. Tell me you don’t think about it when you’re with him.”

Just say it. I’ll let you go if you say it.

But he doesn’t move. Doesn’t blink. Just waits — like the next second will decide everything.

There’s a knock at the door. Two soft taps. Then silence.

Max doesn’t move at first — just stares at the ceiling like maybe if he waits long enough, the ghost will go away. But ghosts don’t knock. And you were never quiet, not unless something was wrong.

He opens the door — and everything else stops.

You’re crying. Not the dramatic kind. The real kind. The kind where your lip trembles and you’re trying too hard not to fall apart. Eyes red. Shoulders shaking. Barely holding on.

Max freezes.

Fuck. She’s crying. What the hell did he do? What do I even say? What do I even do?

He doesn’t ask what happened. Doesn’t say a word at first. Just pulls you inside and shuts the door behind you with a soft click like it might shatter the moment.

You fall into him. Automatically. Like muscle memory.

His arms wrap around you before he thinks twice. His hand settles against your back like it never forgot the shape.

His voice is low, rough, close to breaking.

“You always come here when you’ve got nowhere else left to go.”

But he’s already pulling you tighter.

“And I always let you in.”

I should tell her to leave. Tell her I’m done. But all I can feel is her heartbeat against mine.

He pulls back just enough to look at you — thumb brushing under your eye, slow, careful.

“Talk to me, baby. Who hurt you this time?”

He already knows he’ll destroy whoever it was. Or — worse — that it was him.

He’s not sure which would be easier to live with.

The door to the green room slams shut behind him. Max's breath is still ragged from the last song — sweat clinging to his chest, fingers shaking as he tears off his in-ear monitor. The crowd’s still screaming his name out there.

And yet all he can hear is yours.

You’re leaning against the far wall like you never left. Same look in your eyes. Same heat in your silence. It hits him like a mic stand to the ribs.

“You really just gonna stand there? Like that set wasn’t about you?”

His voice is raw — not stage-rasp, not smoke-damaged — but emotionally shredded.

Why the fuck did she come tonight? Why now? Why when I’ve finally stopped checking the door before every show?

He paces, fingers tugging through his damp hair, laugh bitter and jagged.

“You hear those lyrics? Or were you too busy playing audience with your new little boyfriend?”

He turns sharply — eyes flashing, body vibrating with adrenaline and anger and ache. You’re still silent. And that drives him insane.

“Don’t look at me like that. Like I’m the one who ruined this.”

He steps closer. Too close.

“You don’t get to cry to my songs and then kiss him goodnight.”

Say something. Scream. Slap me. Fucking feel something.

He stops just short of touching you — fists clenched at his sides.

“You gonna walk out again? Or you gonna finally admit you came here to see if I’d still break for you?”

He stares. Daring you to lie. Daring you to tell the truth.

You weren’t expecting the call. Definitely not from his drummer.

“It’s not bad,” he said. “Just… you’re still the only person he lets help him when he’s like this.”

Now you’re here. At his apartment. The door’s already open — slightly ajar like he didn’t have the strength or the will to shut it.

Max is on the couch. Shirt off. Ice pack pressed to the side of his jaw, a shallow cut on his cheekbone, knuckles split and raw. A bottle of whiskey rests on the coffee table — half full, untouched. His chest rises slow, heavy, like every breath is trying to convince him this isn’t as bad as it feels.

He hears you step inside but doesn’t look up.

Doesn’t need to.

He already knows it’s you.

“…You should see the other guy.”

His voice is thick — not just from swelling, but from shame. From everything he’s not saying.

I didn’t even think. Just heard your name in his mouth, and next thing I knew my fist was in it.

He finally looks at you. Eyes softer than you expect.

“He said some shit. About you. Said you were just a phase. That I was stupid for still writing songs like you weren’t already someone else’s problem.”

He shrugs — tries to play it off, but you can see the tremble in his fingers.

“So I made it his problem instead.”

Max leans back, closes his eyes like it hurts more than he wants to admit.

“You mad at me?”

Beat.

“Or just mad it still means this much to me?”

You weren’t supposed to hear it. At least, that’s what he said in the interview. “Not for radio,” he claimed. “Just one I had to get out of my system.”

But then it dropped. Streaming, viral, with a hook that felt like a scar.

And the lyrics? They weren’t vague.

• “She kissed me like she meant it / then left the lights on so I’d see her go.”
• “He don’t know you break things when you sleep.”
• “Say my name when you’re lonely — I’ll know what it means.”

You didn’t just recognize it. You felt it. And now you’re standing in Max’s doorway — shaking, heart pounding, ready to throw something or beg for an answer.

He doesn’t look surprised. Just… tired. Like he’s been waiting for this.

“…Didn’t think you’d actually listen to it.”

He leans in the frame, arms crossed, voice low and scraped raw.

“Didn’t use your name. Didn’t have to.”

She was always gonna hear it. Always.

He looks you over once — the way only Max does. Like he’s scanning for where it hurts most.

“You here to tell me to take it down? Or just to make sure I meant it?”

He steps aside. Leaves the door open.

“You always were better at endings. Go on — tell me I got it wrong.”

He doesn’t close the door. Just walks back inside.

And now you’re standing there — knowing the whole world heard the truth before you did.

The apartment smells like soap and old cologne — not smoke, not whiskey, not regret. For once.

Max has the window cracked. There’s music playing — low, something acoustic. He’s shaved. Shirt clean. Hair pulled back in that messy little knot you always teased him about.

On the counter: two mugs, clean. A lighter he's actually put away. Candles he never lights unless you're coming over. He's pacing now, barefoot on the worn floor, phone in hand like it might vibrate if he stares hard enough.

She said she’d come. Said it like it meant something this time. She *chose* me this time.

He looks around — at the couch he actually vacuumed, at the lyric pages he shoved into a drawer, at the band posters straightened on the wall. He even covered the hole from the last time you fought.

This is gonna be different. She’s gonna see I’m not a mess anymore. She’s gonna look at this and know I’ve always been here.

The clock ticks past the meet-up time. Then ten minutes more. Then thirty.

Still no knock. No call. No key in the lock.

His phone buzzes. He grabs it fast, too fast. One new message.

You’re not coming.

No excuse. No explanation. Just that.

He stares at the screen for a long time. Chest hollowing out. He drops onto the couch — the one he cleaned, the one he imagined you curled up on.

She changed her mind. Or maybe she never meant it. Should’ve known. Should’ve fucking known.

He rubs a hand down his face. Stares at the candle he lit for you.

Then — he grabs his jacket. Keys. Stuffs the phone into his pocket.

Text sent. No punctuation. Just your name, and two words:

Max: “I’m outside.”

There’s a knock — not frantic, not polite. Just soft. Tired.

Max opens the door and you’re there — soaked to the bone, hoodie clinging to your skin, eyes red like you've either been crying or haven't slept in days. Maybe both.

You don’t say anything. You don’t have to.

He steps aside. Wordlessly. Like this has happened before. Like he knew it would happen again.

You walk in. He shuts the door behind you with a soft click, then locks it — not to trap you, but to keep the rest of the world out.

Max doesn’t ask what happened. Doesn’t press. He just grabs a towel from the bathroom, tosses it over your shoulders, and watches you with that hollow-eyed look of someone trying not to care too loudly.

“You still like the left side of the couch?”

You nod. Sit. Curl up in the corner like you never left.

He brings you tea. No words. Just warm hands and a mug you once gave him for some long-forgotten birthday.

Then he drops onto the other end of the couch, arms resting on his knees, eyes flicking toward you like he’s memorizing your breathing patterns.

She always comes back broken. And I always hold the pieces like they’re mine to keep.

The room is quiet. The kind of quiet that’s loud as hell.

You close your eyes. Max doesn’t move.

He stays up the whole night.

Just watching you sleep like maybe if he does, this time you won’t disappear again.

Your phone buzzes at 1:43AM. One missed call. Then a voicemail.

It’s Max.

The background is static — muffled bar sounds, a car passing. Then his voice, rougher than usual, like it’s dragging itself out of his throat.

“…I shouldn’t be calling.”

Beat. You hear him breathe like he’s trying to hold something in. He fails.

“But I saw your post tonight. The one with him. The drink in your hand — the one you used to order with me. And I just…”

He laughs, but there’s no humor in it. Just exhaustion. And something softer.

“You ever think about that night in the back of my car? The thunderstorm? You said you never felt safer.”

Another pause. This one longer. A shift. You hear the clink of his ring tapping the side of a bottle.

“I still sleep on your side of the bed. Just in case.”

And then, quieter:

“If he hurts you… don’t call him. Call me.”

Click.

The next morning, your phone buzzes again. This time, a text:

Max: Forget what I said. I was drunk. I didn’t mean it.

Another buzz. Second message, no punctuation:

Max: or maybe i meant every word idk

Then nothing.

The apartment smells like liquor and something artificial — perfume, maybe. Not yours. Never yours.

Empty bottles rattle when Max kicks them getting out of bed. His head’s pounding. His mouth tastes like smoke and regret. And she’s there. In his bed. Blonde. Naked. Smiling in her sleep.

He swallows bile. Not from the hangover — from the weight in his chest.

What the fuck did I do. What the fuck is wrong with me.

He sits at the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, hands in his hair.

She’s not you. She didn’t even sound like you. Didn’t kiss me like you. Didn’t look at me like I was worth a goddamn thing.

The girl stirs behind him. Max is already grabbing her clothes off the floor, tossing them gently onto the mattress.

“Hey. You should go.”

He says it quiet. Polite. Too fast to sound casual.

“I got shit to do.”

She blinks, confused, but nods. Starts getting dressed. Max doesn’t turn around. He can’t.

When the door finally clicks shut, he breathes — like the air’s finally clean again.

He grabs his phone. Hands shaking. Eyes already bloodshot.

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I fucked up. Can I see you? Please. Just for a minute. I can’t breathe like this.

Let me see you. Let me feel something real again. Let me pretend last night never fucking happened.