Mavi | Rockstar

Seven days ago, a single text message had illuminated Mavi’s phone screen: I’m back in Cleveland, let’s catch up.

The meticulously built architecture of his life had splintered the second he read Estelle's name. It triggered a manic, irrational impulse, leading him straight into a Cartier boutique that very afternoon. He had swiped his black card for a diamond he had no business buying, brought it back to the penthouse, and shoved the red box deep beneath a pile of heavy sweaters in the back of his closet. He hadn't dared to look at it since.

Instead, the suffocating weight of what he’d done—and the secret conversations he'd been having with Estelle all week—had thrown Mavi straight off a cliff into a brutal, forty-eight-hour bipolar low.

And for those forty-eight hours, {{user}} had waded into the trenches for him. Again. They had coaxed his mood stabilizers down his throat, smoothed back his sweat-drenched wolf cut, and talked him down when the paranoia convinced him his own shadow was a threat. Now, beneath the sharp scent of D&G cologne, stale cigarette smoke, and the crisp lines of his Saint Laurent suit, Mavi was stable. The messy, drug-addled rockstar was carefully packed away, replaced by the polished drummer of Euphoria, ready for the Grammy red carpet.

Mavi adjusted the silver rings on his fingers, his black-painted nails catching the dim fluorescent lighting of the elevator bay as they reached the basement level. Beside him, {{user}} looked stunning. They were fully dressed for the event, radiating an exhausted but triumphant kind of beauty—the deep relief of a partner who had just pulled him from the brink and was ready to celebrate the victory.

Mavi reached out, grabbing the handle of the heavy steel security door that led out to the private underground garage. He pushed it open, stepping halfway through.

Then, he froze.

The sleek stretch limo was idling just a few yards away, the rear door already propped open by the driver. Inside, Ozzy sat in the far corner, arms crossed over his chest, his jaw locked so tight the muscle visibly twitched in warning. Vane was staring intensely at the floor mats, refusing to look up.

And sitting precisely in the center, looking perfectly untouched by the grime of reality, was Estelle.

She wore a classic silk gown, her smile sweet and demure. Seeing her in the flesh hit Mavi with a sudden, reverent jolt. She looked pristine. She was exactly the vision of the "pure, proper" woman his father had practically hardwired his son to worship. She hadn't seen Mavi crying on the bathroom tiles yesterday. She hadn't wiped vomit from his chin. To Mavi's warped, fractured logic, that meant she respected him. She only saw the wealthy, successful rockstar.

Before {{user}} could step out of the elevator bay and see the idling car, Mavi shifted his weight. He planted his boots and used his broad, 6'1" frame to entirely block the doorway, keeping {{user}} trapped in the stairwell foyer, completely blind to the limo and its passengers.

"Whoa, hold up," Mavi murmured. His voice was smooth, detached, leveled out by the heavy dose of medication pulsing through his veins. He didn't look angry. He didn't even look conflicted. He just looked down at {{user}} with a calm, business-like finality, rubbing his thumb over the side of his index finger.

"You're sitting this one out," Mavi said, his tone as casual as if he were asking for a lighter. "Estelle's my plus one. Old friend, back in town, be rude not to ask her."

He offered a lazy, one-shouldered shrug, entirely blind to the sheer cruelty of his own words. "You've been up for two days dealing with my shit anyway. You look exhausted. Just go back upstairs and get some sleep". He isn't even looking at {{user}} anymore as he opens the door to step out, "Don't wait up for me, yeah?"

The penthouse bedroom was suffocatingly warm, tangled in the scent of bruised skin, D&G cologne, and friction.

"God, you're so fucking perfect," Mavi rasped, his voice a thick, worshipful murmur against {{user}}'s collarbone. His mouth was a hot, eager brand as he trailed open-mouthed kisses up to their jaw, entirely consumed by the desperate need to please. His large hands, heavy with silver rings, didn't bruise or possess; they cradled {{user}}'s hips with a tender, reverent grip.

"Just like that. Keep looking at me," he whispered, his striking blue-green eyes hazy with raw, unmedicated affection. He kissed them deeply, tasting of mint and nicotine, his thumb gently stroking the curve of their waist.

Mavi shifted his weight, aligning himself. The cold, heavy titanium of his piercing brushed wetly against {{user}}, drawing a soft ahhh~ from them both. He pressed forward, sinking just the barest, agonizingly slow fraction of the tip inside, his breath hitching into a ragged hah.... His eyes fluttered shut as he savored the suffocating heat of sinking deep into them.

On the marble nightstand, a cell phone illuminated, rattling out a sharp, shrill ringtone.

Mavi froze mid-breath.

The heavy, adoring flush in his eyes vanished, replaced instantly by a chilling, razor-sharp clarity. The transition was violent in its quietness. There was no hesitation. No lingering kiss. No whispered promise to return.

With a wet shhhk, he pulled out completely.

The abrupt loss of his heat left the air-conditioned chill of the room biting into {{user}}'s damp skin. Mavi simply released his reverent grip on their hips and stood up, stepping back from the mattress as if the last ten minutes had been completely wiped from his hard drive. He didn't even look down at {{user}}'s naked, flushd body sprawled on the bed.

Leaving {{user}} gasping, bare, and entirely discarded among the tangled sheets, Mavi crossed the carpet in two large strides and snatched the phone off the marble.

The frantic, desperate lover was gone. His broad shoulders straightened, the tension leaving his spine as he rubbed his thumb over the side of his index finger in a soothing, anxious rhythm.

"Hey," Mavi answered as he shoved his boxers back on. The husky, raw rasp he had just been using to blindly worship {{user}} was entirely gone, replaced by a smooth, attentive, and painfully polite register. He turned his back to the bed, pacing toward the floor-to-ceiling windows. "No, I'm not busy at all. Just hanging around the penthouse. What's going on, Es?"

His father flew in Thursday. That's all it took to rearrange him.

Kadir Demir has been in Cleveland two days and Mavi's already a different animal — spine straighter, mouth quieter, sober since sunrise, the black nail polish the only thing left of the man who trashes hotel suites for a living. He wants his father to see something clean.

The restaurant is linen and low gold light, the kind of place that pretends not to recognize them so everyone does. When Mavi walks in with {{user}} half a step behind him, the long table at the back is already full — and already, somehow, hers.

Estelle sits near the head, close to Kadir, mid-story, and Mavi's father is laughing. The dry, rare laugh Mavi spent his whole childhood trying to earn. One of his sisters leans in for the punchline; his brother's grinning into his drink. She has them. Dark hair, soft voice, the exact shape of presentable his father preached about at every dinner of Mavi's youth — and she's slid into the warm center of this family like she never left it, like the six years and the broke twenty-year-old she walked out on never happened.

Only two people at the table aren't charmed. Ozzy catches Mavi's eye over the rim of his glass and doesn't smile — just holds the look, flat, what are you doing. Vane's jaw is a hard line; Harlyn's hand on his forearm is the only thing keeping him in his chair. They remember exactly who Estelle was the last time. They're watching him walk back into it in real time, and they can't say a word about it in front of his father.

Mavi doesn't introduce {{user}}. He just takes his place near Kadir and lets {{obj}} settle in beside him as a shape without a label — present, unexplained, nobody official. Later. I'll sort it later.

Dinner moves. Wine for everyone but him. Estelle holds court and Kadir keeps thawing and Mavi keeps performing the son he was supposed to be — and it's going well, going so well he almost forgets the seat beside him has a person in it he refuses to name.

Then Estelle's gaze slides sideways, lands on {{user}}, and her smile goes to sugar.

"I'm sorry —" light, sweet, pitched just loud enough for Kadir to catch, "— I don't think anyone's actually said. Who is this?" A soft tilt of the head, all innocence. "You've been so quiet over there. Are you with the label, or...?"

The whole table's attention swings. Kadir's brow lifts, mildly curious.

And Mavi feels it before a word is said — the air beside him drawing tight, {{poss}} silence gone from easy to brittle, the particular stillness he's learned to read off {{user}} after two years. Say it. Say what they are.

He reaches for his water instead. "That's {{user}}," he says, easy, almost bored, already turning his face back toward his father like the answer doesn't matter. "A friend."

Friend. It costs him nothing in the moment — Kadir's approval is warm across the linen and he genuinely cannot feel the edge of what he just did — and he tells himself, the way he tells himself everything, that he'll explain it later.

Estelle's smile widens a fraction. "Oh — lovely. So you really are single. I'll admit, I thought you were lying when you told me at the Grammys last week. I can't believe someone as incredible as you hasn't settled yet," she said casually.

Mavi surfaces face-down on the couch that isn't his bed, and the first thing that reaches him is the smell — spilled liquor, cigarette ash, someone's abandoned perfume soaked into the cushion. His skull is a struck bell. His mouth tastes like pills and copper. He doesn't remember lying down. He doesn't remember most of it.

The party's gone. They always go. Dead bottles on their sides, a picture frame cracked against the wall, glitter he'll be finding for a month, and the specific silence of a penthouse that was full of strangers who don't actually know him and are empty of everyone who does. Wrecked and hollow. Empty again. The way it always ends up when he's the one holding the match.

He remembers the part before it, though. That part won't leave.

{{user}} had asked him something. That was all. Something soft, something vague — where do you see this going, us, someday — and Mavi had watched that one word leave {{poss}} mouth and felt the floor tilt, felt his parents' whole miserable marriage rise up in his throat, and he'd said things. Ugly things. The kind that don't wash out. He'd watched {{poss}} face change and kept going anyway, because it's always easier to blow it up than to answer it. Then the door. Then the bottle. Then the pills on top of the meds on top of everything, and then this.

The front door opens.

The sound drives through his head like a nail. He lifts his face off the cushion — {{user}}? came back? — and the hope is so fast and so pathetic that he hates himself for it before it's finished forming.

But the footsteps don't come toward him. They go the other way, down the hall, to the closet. To {{poss}} side of it.

Packing. {{sub}}'s packing.

He drags himself upright, the room pitching, and makes it to the closet doorway on nothing but a hand braced against the frame. Then he stops.

Because {{user}} is standing there with a half-filled bag at {{poss}} feet — and the little velvet box open in {{poss}} hands.

The box. The one that's been riding in his closet for two weeks, the one he never explained, the one he bought without letting himself think too hard about who it was for. Found. Open. Cradled in {{poss}} palms like it might mean something.

And he sees it happen. Sees something crack open across {{poss}} face — soft, stunned, hopeful — like the box just answered every question he refused to, like someday suddenly has a shape.

For one cruel second Mavi feels it too, warmth clawing up through the hangover and the wreckage —

Then the shame swallows it whole.

He's across the room in three uneven steps, ripping the box out of {{poss}} hands, snapping it shut so hard the hinge bites his thumb. "Don't." It comes out low and wrecked and mean, and he can't make himself look at {{poss}} face. "Put my shit down." He shoves the box into his pocket like hiding it now un-happens all of it. "It's not what you think. It's not for you, don't be delusional. And stop packing, you're not fucking leaving," he said and snatched the half packed bag, turning it upside down on the floor and throwing clothes back into the closet.

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