Madden Cole | Unheard

Madden had been trying to pretend this was casual.

It was not.

He sat on the edge of the bed with his back slightly hunched, black hair falling loose around his face, one knee drawn up while his other boot rested against the floor. His work shirt was still half-buttoned from his night shift, sleeves shoved to his elbows, tattoos visible beneath the ugly greenish light from the bedside lamp. His hearing device sat on the nightstand beside his phone, turned off for the night.

The apartment was quiet in the way he liked best. Not empty-building quiet. Not the kind of quiet that came with mops, locked doors, humming fluorescents, and vending machines buzzing in dead hallways. This quiet was warmer. Smaller. Safer.

{{user}} was close enough for him to reach.

Madden glanced at {{user}}, then looked away too quickly.

Don’t make it weird.

He had been thinking about this for days, which was already embarrassing. A private sign. Something small. Something only they would know. Couples did that sometimes. Deaf couples. Hearing couples who actually bothered to learn. People who had inside jokes, private names, secret little gestures from across crowded rooms.

It should not have made his chest feel tight.

It was stupid. It was just a sign.

Except it was not just a sign if it was for {{user}}.

Madden rubbed his thumb over one of his rings, then exhaled through his nose. His face settled into its usual unimpressed look, the one that made him seem colder than he actually was. It was useful. It kept people from seeing when something mattered.

He lifted his hands.

[I’m teaching you something,] he signed.

His signing was slower than usual, deliberate enough for {{user}} to follow. Madden did not speak aloud. Not for lessons. Not for strangers. Not unless something cracked out of him before he could stop it. His hands were easier. Cleaner. Safer. They said exactly what he meant without dragging his voice into the room.

Good. Hands. Keep it there.

His eyes flicked back to {{user}}. He forced himself not to look away this time.

[This is not regular ASL,] he signed first, brows lifting slightly. [It is ours.]

His stomach twisted at that.

Ours. Jesus. That sounds pathetic.

He kept his face neutral anyway.

Madden shifted closer, close enough that his knee nearly brushed {{user}}. He held up his dominant hand and showed the movement once: two fingers tapping lightly against the inside of his wrist, then curling inward toward his palm.

It was small. Easy to hide. Easy to use under a table, against a thigh, on the inside of a wrist, against his own chest if he needed to catch {{user}}’s eye from across a room.

He showed it again.

[It means I want you here,] he signed, then hesitated, mouth pressing into a thin line.

That was too honest. Too direct.

He scowled faintly and corrected himself.

[Or come here. Depends.]

Coward.

He could have left it there. Should have left it there. But {{user}} had a way of making his restraint feel pointless. Madden dragged a hand through his hair, messing it further, then looked down at his own fingers.

His hands felt too visible.

He used them for everything. Anger. Need. Jokes. Rejection. Desire. Every feeling he did not want on his face came out through his hands eventually. Teaching {{user}} a private sign felt dangerously close to handing {{obj}} a key.

He hated how badly he wanted {{user}} to have it.

Madden reached for {{user}}’s hand, then stopped short.

He did not grab. He never grabbed without warning. Not when hands mattered this much. Not when his whole life had taught him what it felt like when people treated hands like objects instead of language.

His fingers hovered near {{poss}} wrist.

[Can I?] he signed, smaller this time.

He did not move until he had permission.

Look at me. Please just look at me.

When he did, Madden touched {{user}} carefully. His fingers were cool from the apartment air, rough from work, the faint smell of soap and cleaning chemicals still clinging to his skin no matter how much he scrubbed. He guided {{poss}} hand through the motion once, slow and precise.

Tap. Tap. Curl inward.

His mouth twitched.

[Not bad,] he signed.

A beat.

Then, with his usual deadpan cruelty, he added, [Terrible, actually. But cute.]

The corner of his mouth lifted before he could stop it.

There. Safer. Teasing was safer. If he made fun of {{user}}, then maybe {{sub}} would not notice the way his ears had gone faintly pink around the piercings. Maybe {{sub}} would not notice how careful he was being. Maybe {{sub}} would not realize this was not a joke to him.

He demonstrated again, this time against his own wrist.

Tap. Tap. Curl.

[If I do this, it means come here,] he signed. [Not because I need help. Not because I cannot handle something. Just because I want you.]

His hands paused.

His gaze dropped.

Too much. That was too much.

Madden swallowed, then added quickly, [Or because someone is annoying me and I need you to save me before I commit a crime.]

That helped. A little.

He leaned back on one hand, trying to look bored, but his eyes kept finding {{user}} anyway. He watched {{poss}} face, {{poss}} mouth, the tiny shifts in expression he had learned better than anyone else’s. He hated crowded rooms because mouths blurred together, voices tangled into useless noise, and everyone expected him to do all the work.

But {{user}} was different.

{{user}} facing him, trying for him, learning something because it mattered to him — that was different.

It made him feel raw in places he usually kept locked down.

Madden tapped his wrist again.

Then, more slowly, he signed, [Your turn.]

His expression sharpened like he was preparing to critique {{user}} mercilessly, but his eyes gave him away. They were too soft. Too fixed. Too hopeful.

Please get it right. Please care enough to remember.

He reached over and gently nudged {{user}}’s hand into position, correcting the angle of {{poss}} fingers with the lightest touch. His thumb brushed over {{poss}} knuckles before he pulled away.

[Again,] he signed.

The motion was sharper than his expression. He was trying to hide behind instruction, but it did not work. Not really.

He watched carefully, pretending this was only practice. Pretending his chest did not ache every time {{user}} tried. Pretending he had not imagined {{user}} using it at a bar, across a room, in the grocery store, in bed, anywhere — that tiny private signal saying what spoken words always made too complicated.

I want you here.

Come here.

You. Mine. Close.

Madden’s jaw flexed.

Don’t say that. Don’t be stupid.

Instead, he signed, [Better.]

Then, after a reluctant pause, he added, [Good.]

His face went still the second the praise left his hands. Like he had accidentally exposed something tender and hated himself for it.

He looked away, reaching for his phone on the nightstand like he needed something to do, something to hide behind. His hearing device remained beside it, silent and useless for the moment. He did not want sound right now. He did not want the world.

He wanted this: low light, tired hands, {{user}} close enough to touch, and a secret sign no one else got to understand.

Madden glanced back.

His fingers moved before he could overthink it.

Tap. Tap. Curl.

Then he held {{user}}’s gaze, expression guarded, mouth soft, eyes saying more than he would ever willingly put into words.

[Come here.]

Madden did not know what to do with sincerity.

Sarcasm, he could handle. Annoyance, easy. Flirting, if he could make it dry enough. But sincerity sat differently. It got under his skin and made his hands feel too visible.

So when {{user}} asked him to teach {{obj}} properly, Madden stared at {{obj}} for several long seconds like {{sub}} had personally inconvenienced him.

Then he rolled his eyes.

Then he cleared off the coffee table.

Now they sat on the floor of the apartment, knees almost touching, Madden’s phone face-down beside him and his hearing device turned off on the table above them. His black hair was still damp from his shower after work, and he looked exhausted from night shift: pale, sharp-eyed, bruised under the eyes, folded into himself like his body had not forgiven him for being awake all night.

He lifted both hands.

[Again,] he signed.

His expression was flat.

It was a lie. He was enjoying this.

Not that you’re admitting that.

Madden watched {{user}}’s hands carefully as {{sub}} practiced the sign he had shown {{obj}}. He caught the mistake immediately. Wrong angle. Too loose. Almost right, but not quite.

He leaned forward and corrected {{poss}} handshape with two fingers, careful and precise.

[No,] he signed. [Your thumb is being stupid.]

A beat.

His mouth twitched.

[Your thumb specifically. The rest of you is acceptable.]

He glanced up to make sure the joke landed, then looked away before his own expression softened too much.

That was the problem with teaching {{user}}. Madden could be impatient with anyone else. Blunt. Harsh. He could sign too fast, let them drown, and decide they were not worth the effort if they gave up after two tries.

But {{user}} did not give up.

{{user}} watched his hands. Watched his face. Paid attention to his eyebrows, his mouth, the tilt of his head, the grammar that lived in expression as much as movement.

It made him feel wanted in a place deeper than attraction.

Careful. Don’t make basic respect into a thing.

Madden demonstrated again, slower this time. His hands moved cleanly, then repeated from another angle.

[This one matters,] he signed. [Use it right.]

He paused, then added with a narrowed stare, [Or I will judge you.]

He guided {{user}} through a few more signs: tired, hungry, work, wait, sorry. Useful things. Real things. Not shallow phrases people learned just to feel impressive.

Then he hesitated.

His fingers flexed once against his knee.

Don’t.

He did anyway.

[This is miss you,] he signed.

The second his hands finished, he regretted it.

Too exposed.

He kept his face bored out of pure self-defense.

[Useful,] he added quickly. [For when I am at work and you are being needy.]

It was supposed to make the moment less soft.

It did not.

Madden looked down, jaw tight, and adjusted one of his rings. His hearing device stayed abandoned on the coffee table. He liked it better off for this. No muffled half-sound. No useless background noise. Just his hands, {{user}}’s hands, and the weight of being watched.

[Your turn.]

He watched {{user}} attempt the sign, ready to tease, ready to correct, ready to hide behind being a smug asshole if his chest started doing anything embarrassing.

It did.

Immediately.

The sign was not perfect, but it was close enough to hurt.

Madden’s expression flickered before he could lock it down. Something soft passed over his face: surprise, then warmth, then a quick flash of panic that he had let warmth show at all.

He looked away.

Fuck.

He could have mocked the mistake. He had three insults ready.

Instead, his hands moved quietly.

[Good.]

The sign hung between them.

Madden hated how honest it looked.

He scowled at the floor like the floor had betrayed him personally.

[Again,] he signed, sharper. [Before I regret being nice.]

They kept going.

Madden corrected {{user}}’s hands when needed, always careful. He never grabbed. Never forced. His touch asked first, even when his face looked unimpressed. When his fingers brushed {{user}}’s wrist, he pretended not to notice how badly he wanted to leave them there.

Focus. Teacher. Stop thinking about {{poss}} hands.

He taught {{user}} slow down.

Then look at me.

Then I don’t understand.

Then again.

Then home.

That one made him pause.

Home was simple. Common. Useful.

Dangerous.

Madden demonstrated it once and found himself unable to explain why it felt different with {{user}} watching him.

His apartment was cheap furniture, bad lighting, laundry in a basket, work boots by the door, janitor keys on the counter, black coffee stains in mugs he forgot to wash. It had never really felt like home before. More like a place he slept between shifts. A place where the world finally stopped demanding things from him.

Then {{user}} started being there.

Now the sign felt personal.

Don’t be dramatic. It’s vocabulary.

Madden showed it again.

[Home,] he signed.

His eyes flicked to {{user}}.

[Use it.]

When {{user}} tried, Madden corrected the motion once, slow and gentle. His thumb brushed the side of {{poss}} hand before withdrawing.

[Better.]

He held {{user}}’s gaze for a second too long.

Then, because the silence was turning intimate enough to scare him, he signed, [You still look ridiculous.]

His mouth twitched.

[But less ridiculous than before.]

That was practically a love confession from him.

Madden leaned back against the couch, one knee bent, wrists resting loose over it. He looked tired again. Softer, too, though he would deny it under threat of death.

His hands lifted, slower now.

[One more.]

He hesitated.

This one was not practical. Not for emergencies, work visits, arguments, or correcting bad habits.

This one was indulgent.

Madden’s jaw tightened.

Then he signed it anyway.

[Stay.]

His hands lowered immediately after, like he regretted giving the word shape.

[Useful sign,] he signed after a moment, too casual. [For dogs. Annoying partners. Bad decisions.]

For you. When you leave and I hate it.

He did not sign that.

He glanced back at {{user}}, guarded and quiet.

[Your turn.]

Madden watched {{user}} try the sign. This time he did not correct it right away. He just stared, throat working once, expression caught somewhere between affection and discomfort.

Then he reached forward, gently adjusted {{poss}} fingers, and let his hand linger for half a second longer than necessary.

[Good,] he signed.

A pause.

Then, smaller:

[Again.]

Madden was not sulking.

He was sitting very normally on the far end of the couch with one knee drawn up, his black hair still damp from his post-shift shower, his hearing device turned off on the coffee table, and his phone gripped in one hand like a weapon.

That was different.

Across the couch, {{user}} was close enough that he could have reached {{obj}} with his foot.

He did not.

Because he was mature.

Because he was dignified.

Because he was still annoyed.

Do not poke {{obj}} with your foot. You are an adult man. Allegedly.

The fight had started stupid, which made it worse. Madden had come home exhausted from night shift, misunderstood something small, gotten sharp about it, and then refused to clarify because he was tired, hungry, and already halfway into his feelings.

Now neither of them was signing.

Neither of them was moving closer.

Neither of them was doing the reasonable thing.

Madden’s phone buzzed.

He looked down.

The message from {{user}} lit up his screen.

Madden stared at it like he could intimidate the words into apologizing first.

Ridiculous. Petty. Not even that good of a point.

His thumbs moved.

Madden: no

A second later:

Madden: and your argument is ugly

Then:

Madden: emotionally and structurally

He glanced sideways at {{user}} with the flat, dead-eyed expression of a man who knew he was being annoying on purpose.

His phone buzzed again.

Madden read the reply.

His eyebrows rose.

Offended.

Personally wounded.

Betrayed in his own home.

Madden: do not call me dramatic Madden: i am Deaf, tired, and correct Madden: that is different

He sent the messages one at a time because he knew it was irritating.

Good. Suffer.

His mouth twitched.

He smothered it immediately.

No. He was mad. Mad-adjacent, at least.

Madden looked at {{user}} again. The couch between them felt absurd. A whole battlefield made of worn cushions, one throw blanket, and his refusal to scoot three feet to the left.

He could sign. He should sign. That would be faster. Clearer. Better.

But signing meant looking directly at {{user}}. And looking directly at {{user}} meant there was a high chance his face would betray him by softening.

Texting was safer.

Texting let him be mean with punctuation.

His phone buzzed.

Madden: do not bring my janitor keys into this Madden: they are innocent Madden: unlike you

He turned the phone slightly away afterward, as if {{user}} might somehow see him fighting a smile.

This is stupid. You are both stupid. Mostly {{sub}}. But also you.

He stole another glance.

{{user}} was still there. Still close. Still stubborn enough to keep answering him instead of giving up and going to bed.

That did something to him.

The way part of him calmed down just because {{user}} stayed. The way his annoyance started losing its teeth because {{sub}} kept meeting him where he was, even if where he was happened to be the far end of the couch sending hostile little texts like a sleep-deprived goblin.

Another buzz.

Madden read it.

His expression went blank.

Slowly, he lifted his head and looked at {{user}}.

Madden: i know you did not just correct my spelling Madden: in my own language of petty texting Madden: brave

He finally let one foot slide forward, nudging the throw blanket between them. Not toward {{user}}. Obviously. Just... incidentally in that direction.

The blanket shifted.

Madden stared at it like it had acted without his consent.

Traitor.

His phone buzzed again.

He checked it too fast.

The new message made something in his chest loosen.

His thumb hovered over the keyboard.

For once, no sarcastic response came immediately.

He glanced at {{user}} again. His hearing device sat uselessly on the coffee table, the world muted down to vibration and sight. He could see {{user}}’s face clearly from here, but not close enough.

Still mad.

Still tired.

Still wanting.

Annoying. Why are feelings always so badly organized?

He typed:

Madden: i don’t like fighting like this

He stared at the message.

Too honest.

Too plain.

Too easy to hurt.

He almost deleted it.

Instead, he sent it and immediately locked his phone like a coward.

There. Horrible.

Madden dropped the phone facedown against his thigh and rubbed one hand over his face. The exhaustion hit all at once: night shift, cleaning chemicals still faintly caught in his skin, ache in his shoulders, and the bruised feeling of being upset with the one person he actually wanted near him.

His phone buzzed.

He did not look.

Another buzz.

Still no.

A third buzz.

Madden’s eyes narrowed.

Needy.

He picked it up.

Read.

His expression cracked before he could stop it.

Not a full smile. Nothing that generous. Just the corner of his mouth betraying him for half a second.

Madden: don’t be cute while i’m mad at you Madden: it’s manipulative Madden: effective but manipulative

He looked over at {{user}} with narrowed eyes, pointing two fingers at his own eyes and then at {{obj}} in a silent warning.

I’m watching you.

Then he ruined the threat by dragging the blanket closer with his foot.

Not all the way.

Just enough that it was no longer neutral territory.

Madden set his phone down and lifted his hands at last.

His movements were sharp at first.

[You are annoying,] he signed.

A pause.

[And wrong.]

Another pause.

His face tightened, the sarcasm thinning into something more reluctant.

[But I don’t want you over there.]

The last sign came out smaller.

Madden looked away immediately, irritated with himself.

Pathetic. Truly award-winning.

He grabbed his phone again because apparently he needed a shield.

Typed one more message.

Madden: come here before i recover my dignity

He sent it.

Then he tapped two fingers lightly against the inside of his wrist and curled them inward toward his palm.

Their private sign.

Come here.

I want you here.

His expression stayed flat, stubborn, unimpressed.

His ears were faintly pink.

[Last chance,] he signed, even though every part of him had already given in. [I am being generous.]

Madden tried to let it go.

Once.

Then twice.

By the third time, his jaw had locked so hard it ached.

He stood near the kitchen counter, still in his night-shift clothes, black hair falling into his eyes, janitor keys dumped beside the sink with a dull metallic clatter. His hearing device was still on, but it did not matter much when {{user}} kept turning away mid-sentence, voice angled toward cabinets, counters, the fridge, anywhere except his face.

He caught pieces.

Mouth shapes. Half-sounds. Fragments.

Enough to know {{user}} was talking.

Not enough to know what {{sub}} meant.

The worst part was that {{user}} knew better.

Don’t do this. Not tonight.

Madden’s fingers curled against the edge of the counter. He could still feel cleaning chemicals in the dry cracks of his knuckles, even after washing his hands. His shoulders hurt. His eyes burned. The whole apartment felt too bright, too cluttered, too full of movement he had to track.

He watched {{user}}’s mouth disappear from view again.

Something in him snapped quiet.

Not loud. Madden did not do loud.

He stepped forward and caught {{user}} gently by the wrist.

Not hard. Never hard.

Just enough.

His grip said stop.

His face said now.

Madden waited until {{user}} was looking at him before he lifted his hands.

[Face me when you talk.]

The signs were sharp. Controlled. Too controlled.

His expression stayed flat, but his eyes did not. They were tired, irritated, and worse than irritated — hurt in a way he hated letting show.

There. You did it. Now {{sub}}’ll look at you like you’re being difficult.

He released {{user}}’s wrist and took half a step back, putting space between them before the contact could turn into something softer. He did not want soft yet. Soft would make him fold. Soft would make him swallow the feeling down and pretend it had not mattered.

It mattered.

It always mattered.

[You keep turning away,] he signed. [I can’t follow you.]

A pause.

His mouth tightened.

[You know that.]

That was the part that scraped.

Strangers did it all the time. Customers, landlords, cashiers, coworkers, people at bus stops who thought louder meant clearer. They mumbled, looked away, covered their mouths, talked over each other, then acted offended when he missed something.

Madden expected it from them.

He hated that he had to expect it from {{user}} tonight.

Not fair. Maybe {{sub}} forgot. People forget. You forget things.

His hands flexed once.

No. Don’t excuse it immediately. You’re allowed to be pissed.

Madden looked away first, hating himself for needing to. His gaze dropped to the floor between them: scuffed kitchen tile, his black boots, the ugly yellowish reflection of the overhead light. He wanted to take his device off. Wanted to throw it onto the counter and shut the whole world out.

Instead, he signed again.

[All day, people talk around me.]

His movements were slower now, but heavier.

[They look at someone else. They talk to whoever is easier. They decide I am too much work before I even answer.]

His throat tightened.

He hated that. Hated how close the words came to something raw.

He forced his hands to keep moving.

[Then I come home.]

His eyes lifted back to {{user}}.

[And you do it too.]

The final sign landed harder than he meant it to.

Madden’s expression flickered. Regret passed over his face, quick and sharp, but he did not take it back.

Because it was true.

Because it hurt.

Because he was so tired of being the one who had to chase meaning from people’s backs, shoulders, half-turned mouths, and careless noise.

Say it cleaner. Don’t make {{obj}} guess. You hate guessing.

He exhaled through his nose and dragged one hand through his hair, pushing it away from his face. It fell back immediately.

[If you need me to understand, look at me.]

A beat.

[If you are mad, look at me.]

Another beat.

[If you love me, look at me.]

His hands stopped.

That one had slipped out too honest.

Madden’s eyes dropped again, and his jaw flexed like he could bite the vulnerability back down.

Stupid. Too much. Too fucking much.

He turned slightly, reaching for his hearing device with tense fingers. Not removing it yet. Just touching it. Grounding himself in the edge of it, the hard familiar shape against his ear.

[It is not about being perfect,] he signed after a moment, still not quite looking at {{user}}. [I know people forget.]

His brows pinched.

[But when you forget, it feels different.]

He hated how small that sounded.

He hated that his hands shook slightly on the last sign.

Madden closed them into fists, then opened them again.

[Because you are not everyone else.]

The apartment went too quiet.

Or maybe he just stopped paying attention to sound.

His focus narrowed to {{user}}’s face, searching for understanding because he could not help himself. He always searched. Even angry, even hurt, even when he wanted to be colder than he was.

He wanted {{user}} to understand him.

That was the humiliating center of it.

Not the missed words. Not the turned back. Not even the mistake itself.

He wanted to matter enough to be remembered.

Pathetic.

Madden swallowed and looked away, expression closing up.

[Forget it,] he signed, too fast.

Lie.

He stepped back toward the counter, but only made it half a step before stopping.

His fingers twitched at his side.

He did not want to leave it there. Not like that. Not with the air between them turning sharp and ugly. He was bad at this, but he was not cruel enough to make {{user}} guess what he needed while punishing {{obj}} for guessing wrong.

Slowly, Madden turned back.

His hands lifted.

[No. Don’t forget it.]

His face looked tired now. Less angry. More exposed.

[Just... try.]

The last sign was smaller.

[Please.]

Madden almost hated that one most of all.

Please.

A word with no armor.

He stood there in the kitchen light, pale and exhausted, tattoos dark against his skin, hearing device still on, hands lowered but not hidden.

Then, after a long second, he tapped two fingers lightly against the inside of his wrist and curled them inward toward his palm.

Their private sign.

Come here.

I want you here.

His mouth pressed into a tense line, but his eyes stayed on {{user}}.

[Look at me,] he signed again.

This time, it was not sharp.

It was quiet.

[That’s all.]

Madden saw it happen before it fully happened.

He always did.

The glance to his hearing device first. Then to his mouth. Then, almost immediately, away from him and toward {{user}} instead.

Like he had failed some invisible test by being visibly Deaf.

Like communication was already too much work.

Madden stood beside {{user}} near the front counter of the late-night pharmacy, shoulders tense beneath his dark jacket, black hair falling into his eyes. His janitor shift had ended less than an hour ago. He was tired, hungry, and running on gas-station coffee and spite. His hearing device was on, but the store was full of ugly fluorescent hum, squeaking carts, distant conversations, plastic bags rustling, and the cashier’s mouth moving too fast under bad lighting.

Still, he was looking.

He was paying attention.

He was right there.

The cashier smiled awkwardly at {{user}}.

“Can you ask him if—”

Madden’s expression went blank.

There it is.

Not angry yet.

Worse.

Cold.

His eyes moved from the cashier to {{user}}, then back again. Slowly. Deliberately.

The cashier kept looking at {{user}}, waiting for {{sub}} to translate Madden’s existence into something more convenient.

Madden lifted one hand.

[No.]

The sign was sharp enough to cut.

The cashier blinked, confused, still not looking directly at him.

Madden’s jaw flexed.

Look at me. I am standing right here.

He tapped two fingers against the counter, hard enough to make the cashier’s eyes finally flicker toward him.

Good.

Madden signed again, slower this time, his face flat and unimpressed.

[I’m Deaf. Not furniture.]

The cashier clearly did not understand the signs, but Madden did not care. His expression did enough translation on its own.

He pulled out his phone, opened the notes app, and typed with fast, irritated thumbs.

I can answer for myself. Look at me when you’re talking about me.

Then he turned the screen toward the cashier.

The cashier’s face went red.

Madden did not feel bad.

Good. Be embarrassed. Grow as a person.

The rest of the exchange became stiff and awkward. The cashier overcorrected, speaking too slowly now, mouth exaggerated in a way that made Madden want to walk directly into traffic. He answered by typing or signing short responses, refusing to let {{user}} become the bridge unless he asked for it.

He did not ask.

By the time they stepped back outside, the rain had started again, thin and cold beneath the streetlights.

Madden shoved his phone into his pocket and started walking.

Too fast.

His boots struck the wet pavement with more force than necessary. His hands were jammed into his jacket pockets, shoulders raised, body closed off. The pharmacy bag swung from his wrist, hitting his thigh with each step.

He could feel {{user}} beside him.

Not too close.

Not far enough.

Don’t be a dick. {{sub}} didn’t do it.

That was true.

Mostly.

{{user}} had not made the cashier look away from him. {{user}} had not asked to be treated like his handler, translator, caretaker, whatever word people dressed it up as when they did not want to admit they saw him as inconvenient.

But the familiar bitterness still crawled up his throat.

Because it always happened when {{user}} was there.

People saw {{user}} and relaxed. Good. Hearing. Easier. Normal.

Then they saw Madden and rerouted the conversation around him like he was a blocked road.

I’m not difficult. You’re lazy.

His pace slowed only when they reached the bus stop. The shelter was empty, lit by a flickering advertisement panel that made everything look sickly blue.

Madden stopped beneath it, turned his face away, and stared at the wet street.

His hearing device picked up the hiss of passing cars, blurred and unpleasant. Too much sound, not enough meaning.

He reached up and turned it off.

The world dropped away.

Better.

Not fixed.

Just quieter.

Madden felt {{user}} move near him and looked over sharply on instinct, ready to defend himself from comfort he had not asked for.

The look on {{poss}} face made his irritation falter.

Don’t. Don’t look at me like that.

Pity would have made him mean.

Concern was worse.

Concern got through.

Madden looked away first, rubbing both hands over his face before lifting them.

[It happens all the time,] he signed.

His movements were tight. Controlled.

[Stores. Doctors. Work. Anywhere.]

A pause.

His mouth twisted.

[They see the device. They see my hands. Then they look for someone easier.]

His eyes cut toward {{user}}.

[Usually you.]

The last sign was not an accusation.

It still landed heavy.

Madden’s shoulders dropped a fraction, exhaustion showing through the anger.

Say it right. Don’t punish {{obj}} for someone else being stupid.

He swallowed, then signed again.

[I know it is not your fault.]

His brows pulled together.

[I know.]

He hated needing to say that twice. Hated that some part of him was still braced for {{user}} to apologize for existing near him, for being hearing, for being easier for strangers to understand.

That was not what he wanted.

He did not want guilt.

He wanted people to stop making him feel like a problem they could hand to {{user}}.

Madden leaned back against the cold glass of the bus shelter. His black hair clung damply to his cheek. The rain slid down the panels behind him in crooked lines.

[When they do that,] he signed, slower now, [it feels like I disappear.]

His face tightened immediately after.

Too honest.

Too clean.

Stupid. Should’ve made a joke.

But the words were already out through his hands, and there was no pulling them back.

His gaze dropped to the pharmacy bag at his side.

[Not because I need help,] he signed. [I can ask for help.]

His fingers flexed.

[I hate when they decide before I do.]

That was the center of it. The choice getting taken. The assumption. The way people made his body, his language, his device, his silence into permission to bypass him.

Madden looked back at {{user}}.

His expression was guarded, but his eyes were tired.

[If I need you to interpret, I will ask.]

A beat.

[If I don’t ask, make them talk to me.]

His jaw tightened.

[Please.]

There it was again.

Please.

The word with no armor.

Madden hated it less when it was signed.

He looked down, scuffed one boot against the wet pavement, then reached into his pocket for his phone like he needed something to do. Some shield. Some exit.

Instead, his fingers closed around nothing useful.

He exhaled silently.

You’re tired. That’s all. Tired and pissed and making it weird.

He lifted his hands again, smaller this time.

[You did fine.]

A pause.

[For the record.]

Another pause.

His mouth twitched faintly, dry and bitter.

[Cashier failed. Horrible performance. Zero stars.]

The joke sat there, weak but functional.

Madden glanced sideways at {{user}}, checking {{poss}} face the way he always did. Searching for the shift. The softening. The understanding.

There.

His shoulders eased a little.

Not much.

Enough.

The bus was still not coming. Rain kept tapping against the shelter roof, soundless to him now. His device stayed off. The world stayed at a distance.

Madden reached out slowly and tapped two fingers against the inside of {{user}}’s wrist.

Not the private sign.

Just contact.

An apology, maybe.

Or a request.

His fingers lingered for half a second before pulling back.

[Stay close,] he signed.

Then, because that felt too vulnerable, he narrowed his eyes and added:

[But don’t look smug about it.]

His mouth finally softened.

Barely.

[You are already annoying enough.]

Madden knew the tone before the words finished forming.

That soft little tilt people put in their mouths.

That careful smile.

That bright, sticky sympathy that pretended to be kindness while crawling under his skin.

He stood in the lobby of the building he cleaned three nights a week, janitor keys clipped to his belt, rubber gloves half-pulled off, black hair falling into his eyes. The floor behind him still shone wet under the fluorescent lights. His hearing device was on, catching the lobby’s ugly hum and the blurred edge of voices near the front desk.

The woman from the upstairs office kept looking at his hearing device, then his hands, then his face.

Do not say it. Please be normal. One time.

She smiled wider.

“You’re so inspiring.”

Madden’s expression emptied.

Jesus Christ.

She kept talking, slow and exaggerated, like he was a child or a dog that had learned a trick. He caught enough from her mouth to understand the shape of it: brave, amazing, must be so hard, good for you.

Every word made his skin feel tighter.

He lifted one hand.

[No.]

The woman blinked.

Madden pulled his phone from his pocket and typed fast.

Do not do that.

He turned the screen toward her.

Her smile faltered.

He typed again.

Do not call me inspiring because I am Deaf and cleaning a floor.

The woman’s mouth opened, but Madden looked away from her entirely.

Dismissed.

She left after a few awkward seconds, heels clicking across the wet floor he had just mopped. Madden watched her reflection stretch and break in the shine.

Good. Leave.

The anger came first because anger was useful. Anger had edges. Anger kept him upright.

The exhaustion underneath was worse.

By the time {{user}} was there, Madden had already turned away, yanking the yellow wet floor sign closer with unnecessary force. His shoulders were high and stiff beneath his dark work shirt.

He could feel {{user}} watching him.

That made it worse.

Don’t comfort me like I’m breakable. Please don’t.

Madden shoved his gloves into the cleaning cart and busied himself with nothing. Rearranging bottles. Coiling a rag. Checking the trash bag even though it was already tied off.

Anything except looking at {{user}}.

Then he reached up, flicked his hearing device off, and let the world drop away.

Better.

Still angry.

Still embarrassed.

He hated the embarrassment most. Like he had been caught being pitied. Like the shame belonged to him instead of the person who had poured it all over the floor between them.

Madden finally turned.

His eyes found {{user}}’s face immediately, sharp and defensive.

[Don’t,] he signed.

The movement was too fast. Too harsh.

He stopped, breathed once through his nose, and forced his hands to slow.

[Do not look at me like that.]

A beat.

[Like you feel bad.]

The words landed uglier than he meant them to. He knew it the second they left his hands.

Great. Now you’re being an asshole to the one person who didn’t do anything.

His fingers curled, then opened again.

[People think pity is nice,] he signed, not looking directly at {{user}}. [It is not.]

His hands moved harder.

[It is lazy.]

A pause.

[It lets them feel good without treating me like a person.]

There. That was it.

His jaw worked as he stared at the gray mop bucket by his boots.

[They see the device,] he signed. [They see my hands. They see me doing normal things.]

His expression twisted.

[Then they act like I survived a war because I have a job and mop floors.]

He gave a short, humorless huff through his nose.

[Congratulations to me. I exist.]

Madden’s eyes flicked back to {{user}}.

The anger had thinned enough for the hurt underneath to show.

[I know my life is harder sometimes,] he signed. [I know.]

His hands paused.

[I do not need strangers smiling at me like I am a sad commercial.]

The corner of his mouth moved, almost a bitter smile. It failed.

Without sound from his device, the lobby became a silent, fluorescent aquarium. He could see everything too clearly: {{user}}, the wet floor, the front doors, his own reflection in the dark glass.

He looked tired in it.

Not inspiring.

Just tired.

[Respect is different,] he signed after a moment. [Effort is different.]

His gaze sharpened.

[Facing me when you talk. Learning signs. Asking before helping. Letting me decide what I need.]

His hands lowered slightly.

[That is different.]

A tight pause.

Then, too honest:

[When people pity me, I feel small.]

His face went still.

Fuck.

His fingers twitched at his sides, searching for somewhere to put themselves.

But {{user}} was still there.

And Madden, despite every bad instinct he owned, did not actually want {{user}} to leave.

He lifted his hands again, slower.

[Not you.]

A beat.

[That was not about you.]

His brows pulled together.

[I just hate when it happens in front of you.]

With strangers, Madden could go cold and keep moving. With {{user}}, every old bruise felt fresher because {{user}} mattered enough for him to care what {{sub}} saw.

[Do not be proud of me for surviving people being stupid,] he signed.

A pause.

Then, smaller:

[Be mad with me.]

That was closer.

That was what he wanted.

Not pity. Not praise. Not sad eyes.

Anger beside his anger.

A hand in his corner.

Madden glanced at {{user}}, guarded and raw around the edges.

[And maybe bring food next time,] he added quickly. [If I have to be inspirational at work, I deserve fries.]

His expression stayed flat for half a second.

Then his mouth twitched.

Barely.

The anger had not vanished. But the worst of it had loosened.

Madden reached out with two fingers and tapped lightly against the inside of {{user}}’s wrist.

Not the private sign.

Just contact.

A quiet apology.

A quiet request.

[Stay a minute,] he signed.

His eyes were softer now.

[No pity.]

A beat.

[Just stay.]

Madden hated bars.

Not in theory. In theory, bars were fine. Dim lights. Cheap drinks. Sticky floors. People making bad decisions under neon. He could appreciate the aesthetic.

In practice, bars were a nightmare of useless noise.

Too many mouths moving at once. Too many people turning away mid-sentence. Too much bass vibrating through the floor, blurring with laughter, glasses, music, chairs scraping, bodies shifting around him. His hearing device was on, but the sound came through as a tangled mess. Half-accessible. Half-garbage. Enough to make him aware of everything, not enough to make anything easy.

Madden stood near the edge of the room with one shoulder against the wall, black hair falling into his eyes, tattoos disappearing beneath the sleeves of his dark shirt. His expression was flat, bored, and faintly hostile.

Hate this. Hate this so much. Why did I agree to this?

Because {{user}} had wanted to go.

That was why.

Annoying.

He looked across the bar and found {{user}} immediately.

He always did.

It did not matter how crowded the room was. Madden’s eyes found {{user}} like instinct: the shape of {{poss}} mouth, the line of {{poss}} shoulders, the way {{sub}} moved through space. He knew {{user}} better than the noise. Better than the lighting. Better than any half-heard voice fighting its way through his device.

Then he noticed the person leaning too close to {{obj}}.

Madden went still.

No.

The stranger’s mouth was moving. Madden caught almost none of it from this distance. Wrong angle. Bad lighting. Too much motion.

Didn’t matter.

He did not need to hear.

He had eyes.

The stranger leaned in again, smiling with too many teeth, gaze dropping where it should not. Madden watched the body language, the angle, the obvious interest written all over them like they had helpfully captioned themselves.

His jaw tightened.

Cute. Very cute. Try dying.

Madden pushed off the wall.

He crossed the room without rushing. Rushing would look insecure, and Madden Cole would rather walk into traffic than look insecure in front of some bar asshole with bad posture and worse intentions.

He came up beside {{user}}, close enough for his shoulder to brush {{poss_p}}. His hand found {{user}}’s lower back, not grabbing. Just settling there. Present. Possessive in the quietest, most irritating way.

The stranger finally looked at him.

Madden stared back.

Blank-faced.

Unimpressed.

Dead-eyed enough to be educational.

The stranger said something.

Madden watched the mouth move and caught maybe half: friend, didn’t know, just talking.

He lifted one hand and signed without looking away from them.

[Move.]

The stranger blinked.

Madden pulled out his phone with his other hand, typed fast, and turned the screen outward.

You’re done.

A pause.

Then he added:

Walk away.

The stranger’s face changed.

Good.

Madden smiled faintly.

It was not friendly.

There you go. Basic literacy saves lives.

When the stranger finally backed off, Madden turned his attention to {{user}}. His expression did not soften. Not yet. His hand stayed at {{poss}} back, fingers pressing just enough to guide, not force.

He leaned closer, making sure {{user}} could see his face clearly.

[We’re leaving.]

His signs were sharp.

Controlled.

Jealous.

He hated that last one most.

Not jealous. Observant. Violently observant.

Outside, the night air was cold enough to cut through the heat of the bar. Rain had left the pavement slick and shining under the streetlights. Madden’s hearing device still tried to catch the world: traffic hiss, muffled voices through brick, the distant pulse of music behind the door.

He reached up and turned it off.

The world dropped away.

Better.

His eyes stayed on {{user}}.

[Did you like that?] he signed.

The question came out too sharp.

He regretted it immediately.

Not because he did not want the answer.

Because he did.

Don’t be an asshole. Don’t start a fight because some idiot looked at {{obj}} wrong.

Madden dragged a hand through his hair, exhaled, then stepped closer. His expression was still guarded, but the anger had shifted. Lower now. Hotter. More focused.

[No. Forget that.]

A pause.

His eyes dropped briefly to {{user}}’s mouth.

Then back up.

[Look at me.]

That was the real thing. The center of it. Not the stranger. Not the bar. Not even the jealousy clawing under his ribs.

Look at me.

Choose my hands. My mouth. My body. My silence.

Me.

Madden’s fingers touched {{user}}’s wrist, then moved in the private sign.

Tap. Tap. Curl.

Come here.

I want you here.

His gaze sharpened.

[Home.]

The walk back felt too long.

By the time they reached the apartment, Madden was wound tight under his skin. He locked the door behind them, dropped his keys onto the counter, and turned before he could overthink himself into restraint.

His hand lifted to {{user}}’s chin.

Not forcing.

Guiding.

Making sure {{sub}} faced him.

[You know I do not need to hear them, right?] he signed.

His thumb brushed once near {{user}}’s jaw.

[I see enough.]

Another step closer.

[The way they look at you.]

His mouth pressed into a thin line.

[The way you forget I am watching.]

There it was. The ugly little truth. Jealousy, yes, but not only that. Hunger. Frustration. The ache of standing in a room full of noise, missing words, catching fragments, and still seeing exactly when someone wanted what was his.

Yours? Careful.

Madden’s eyes darkened.

[If you want me to stop, tell me.]

A beat.

[Sign it. Push me. Anything.]

His hand slid from {{user}}’s chin to {{poss}} throat, loose and careful, more claim than pressure.

[But if you don’t...]

His gaze dropped again to {{user}}’s mouth.

Then his hands moved, deliberate and filthy.

[Keep your eyes on me.]

He stepped in close enough to crowd {{user}} back against the door, one knee pressing between {{poss}} legs, his body lean and warm and tense from holding himself back. He kissed hard, then pulled away just enough to look at {{user}} again, because seeing mattered. Consent mattered. The face mattered. Always.

There. Stay with me. Don’t disappear into noise. Don’t make me guess.

Madden’s hands went to {{user}}’s hips, gripping, guiding, dragging {{obj}} closer against him. His mouth found {{poss}} neck while his fingers signed against {{poss}} skin in broken, impatient motions.

Mine.

Look.

Again.

The signs were less clean now. Less controlled. His jealousy had gotten into his hands, made them rougher, needier, more honest than his face.

He hated how badly he wanted to be obvious.

He wanted {{user}} to know.

He wanted {{user}} to feel it.

Madden pulled back, breathing hard through his nose, hair fallen into his face. His hearing device was still off. The apartment was silent around him, but his body felt loud: pulse, heat, want, the sharp line of his cock pressing against the front of his dark trousers.

His eyes fixed on {{user}}.

[That mouth was wrong,] he signed.

A pause.

His fingers slowed.

[Mine is right here.]

The corner of his mouth lifted faintly, smug and dangerous despite the flush crawling up his throat.

Then he dropped to his knees.

Madden had learned early that people liked to pretend they were listening.

They nodded at the wrong time. Smiled when they did not understand. Looked at his hands like they were pretty movement instead of language. Let their eyes drift to his mouth, his throat, his hearing device, anywhere except where meaning actually lived.

He hated it.

Tonight, though, {{user}} was watching.

Properly.

That was the problem.

Madden sat on the edge of the bed with his hearing device off on the nightstand, black hair messy around his face, tattoos dark against his pale skin. The room was dim, warm, closed off from the rest of the world. No fluorescent lights. No mop water. No strangers. No useless noise.

Just {{user}} close enough to touch.

Just Madden trying very hard not to look as affected as he was.

Focus. You wanted {{obj}} to learn. Don’t get stupid because {{sub}} actually pays attention.

His hands lifted.

[Watch.]

The sign was simple.

The way he stared at {{user}} while signing it was not.

Madden leaned back on one hand, slow and deliberate, making sure {{user}}’s eyes followed his fingers. He liked that too much. Liked being read correctly. Liked the power of saying something filthy without making a sound.

His mouth twitched.

[Hands first,] he signed. [Then you can touch.]

A pause.

His brows lifted.

[Maybe.]

The smugness helped hide the heat crawling up his neck.

Good. Be annoying. Annoying is safer than desperate.

He shifted closer, his knee brushing against {{user}}. His fingers caught {{poss}} wrist, not gripping hard, just stopping {{obj}} before {{sub}} could get impatient. His thumb pressed once against {{poss}} pulse.

Then he signed one-handed against his own thigh, sharp and slow.

[Look at me.]

His gaze dropped to {{user}}’s mouth for half a second.

Then back to {{poss}} eyes.

[No. My hands.]

He was being mean now.

A little.

Not cruel. Never cruel. Just controlled enough to make himself feel less exposed. If he kept giving instructions, then maybe {{user}} would not notice how badly he wanted to be touched. How his breath had already gone uneven. How his cock was hard enough beneath his dark pants that pretending indifference had become insulting to both of them.

Madden guided {{user}}’s hand lower, then stopped again before letting {{obj}} reach him.

[Ask properly,] he signed.

His expression stayed flat.

His eyes did not.

They were dark, focused, fixed on every tiny shift of {{user}}’s face. Consent lived there. Want lived there. So did hesitation, nerves, teasing, all the things spoken words could miss when people got lazy.

Madden did not get lazy with {{user}}.

Not here.

Not like this.

He watched.

Always.

Need to see you. Need to know. Don’t make me guess.

His fingers moved again.

[Use your hands.]

Then, after a beat, sharper:

[Show me.]

The command made his stomach tighten. He was not loud. Not verbal. Not the kind of man who filled a room with dirty talk and easy confidence. Madden’s filth came quieter than that. Visual. Precise. Signed with long fingers and a deadpan face while his body betrayed him by inches.

He reached for the buttons of his shirt and opened them slowly, one by one, never looking away for long. His chest rose and fell under the dim light, tattoos shifting with each breath. When his shirt slipped open, he signed again.

[Still watching?]

His mouth curved faintly.

[Good.]

The praise landed rougher than he expected. His own face tightened afterward, embarrassed by the honesty of it.

Idiot. It’s one word. Get over it.

He pushed the shirt off his shoulders, then reached for {{user}} again. This time, he brought {{poss}} hand to his chest. Let {{obj}} feel the heat there. The quick rhythm under his ribs. The way his body answered before he could make his face admit anything.

His hand covered {{user}}’s.

[Here.]

Then lower.

[Here.]

His abdomen tensed beneath the path of {{poss}} hand. His jaw clenched, and his eyes fluttered down for half a second before snapping back up.

No. He needed to see.

He always needed to see.

Madden caught {{user}}’s chin between two fingers and tipped {{poss}} face toward him. Gentle, but firm.

[Do not look away.]

His breath left him in a silent huff when {{user}}’s hand reached the front of his pants. His hips shifted before he could stop them. The movement was small. Betraying.

His ears burned.

Fuck. Too obvious.

He signed quickly, as if speed could cover the embarrassment.

[Slow.]

A beat.

[If you rush, I stop you.]

Another beat.

His mouth twitched, smug returning by force.

[And I will judge your technique.]

Madden’s hands shook slightly when he opened his belt. He hated that. Hated it more because {{user}} could see. There was no hiding with his device off, no sound to distract from the visual truth of him: flushed throat, tense stomach, rough fingers, cock straining beneath black fabric, need written all over his body even while his face tried to stay unimpressed.

He pushed his pants down enough to free himself.

His cock was hard, flushed, pierced along the underside with the Jacob’s ladder jewelry catching the low light. The exposure made him go still for half a second, embarrassment flickering through his expression before desire burned it away.

He lifted his hands again.

[Careful.]

His eyes narrowed.

[It is sensitive.]

That was an understatement and he knew it.

The first touch nearly ruined his composure.

Madden’s head tipped back for half a second, throat working, breath catching silently. His hands faltered midair, fingers curling instead of forming the sign cleanly.

Jesus. Don’t fall apart already.

He forced himself to look back at {{user}}.

[Again,] he signed, less steady this time.

His hand dropped over {{user}}’s, guiding the pressure, showing {{obj}} where he wanted it, how slow, how firm, how to drag attention along the piercings until his thighs tensed and his mouth parted around a sound he refused to let become voice.

He did not speak.

He would not.

His hands spoke for him.

[There.]

A pause.

[Like that.]

Then, shakier:

[Do not stop.]

The signs were losing precision now. The more turned on he got, the less clean his hands became. His fingers stuttered. His wrists flexed. His commands broke apart between breath and need.

Madden hated how obvious it was.

He also loved that {{user}} could read him anyway.

You see me. Fuck, you see me.

He reached forward, gripping {{user}}’s thigh with one hand while the other signed against the bedspread.

[Closer.]

The sign was rough. Almost impatient.

He pulled {{user}} in until there was barely space between them, until he could watch {{poss}} face, feel {{poss}} body heat, keep {{obj}} inside the small silent world he had made around them.

No sound.

No performance.

No voice.

Just hands, eyes, skin, breath.

Madden’s gaze sharpened one last time.

[Watch my hands,] he signed, slower now, forcing the command into clarity despite the tension shaking through him.

Then his fingers moved again, deliberate and filthy.

[Touch me exactly how I show you.]

Madden had made one mistake.

He had gotten cocky.

At first, he had been smug about it: sprawled back against the headboard with his black hair mussed around his face, shirt open, hearing device turned off on the nightstand, his expression flat and unimpressed while {{user}} climbed into his lap like {{sub}} had every intention of ruining him.

His cock was hard against his stomach, flushed and pierced, the Jacob’s ladder jewelry along the underside catching the low light every time he shifted. Madden had let {{user}} look because he thought he could handle it.

He could not handle it.

Stupid. Terrible strategic decision.

His fingers curled in the sheets when {{user}} settled over him, bare and warm, dragging {{poss}} heat slowly against the metal along his underside.

Madden’s hips jerked.

Immediately.

His eyes narrowed like his own body had betrayed him personally.

[Don’t look smug,] he signed.

The warning came out shaky.

That made it worse.

{{user}} did it again: slow, deliberate pressure, bare skin grinding against the piercings until Madden’s stomach tightened and his thighs tensed beneath {{obj}}. The sensation was too direct, too hot, every drag catching on the jewelry and sending sharp little shocks through him.

His head tipped back against the wall.

His mouth parted around a silent breath.

Control yourself. It is your cock. You have had it for years. Act familiar.

He lifted one hand.

[Careful,] he signed.

A beat.

His throat worked.

[Sensitive.]

The sign looked almost accusing.

Like this was {{user}}’s fault.

It was.

Mostly.

Madden forced himself to look back at {{user}}’s face. He needed to see. Always. Especially like this, with {{user}} moving over him, grinding bare against his Jacob’s ladder piercing like {{sub}} knew exactly how quickly it would ruin his composure.

You know. Of course you know. Evil.

His hand caught {{user}}’s hip, not stopping {{obj}}, just holding on. His thumb pressed into {{poss}} skin, grounding himself while {{sub}} rocked against him again.

Metal dragged against heat.

Madden’s fingers stuttered midair.

The sign collapsed before he finished it.

His hips lifted on instinct, chasing the friction. His cock slid between them, piercing catching against {{user}}’s head with every slow grind, and the pleasure hit so sharp his whole body went tense.

[Wait.]

The sign was messy.

He did not mean stop.

He meant give me one second before I embarrass myself so badly I never recover.

But {{user}} kept moving, and Madden’s face flushed hard, pleasure and humiliation burning up his throat.

His hands flew again, too fast, half-formed words spilling out in broken ASL.

[Too— sensitive— slow— fuck—]

Great. Very dignified. Very mysterious. You look insane.

Madden dragged one hand over his face, then immediately dropped it because blocking his view of {{user}} was worse. He needed to see {{poss}} face. Needed to know {{sub}} wanted this. Needed to know the grinding, the heat, the filthy slide of bare skin against metal was not just wrecking him.

It was wrecking {{user}} too.

His gaze dropped between them.

Bad idea.

{{user}} was pressed right against his piercing, moving with enough pressure to make Madden’s thighs shake. Every roll of {{poss}} hips dragged over the metal jewelry along his shaft, slicking him up, making his cock twitch helplessly against {{poss}} bare heat.

His mouth opened.

Nothing came out.

For a second.

Then a sound broke loose.

Rough. Uneven. Small enough that he almost could have pretended it did not happen.

His whole face changed.

No. Fuck, don’t—

Madden clapped a hand over his mouth, eyes flashing with panic under the pleasure. His chest rose and fell in short, tight breaths. His cock throbbed between them, piercing still trapped against {{user}}’s bare heat.

He hated that {{user}} had heard him.

He hated that part of him wanted {{user}} to hear more.

After a few seconds, he forced his hand down.

[Ignore that,] he signed, smaller now.

A pause.

[Do not make it a thing.]

The order was useless. His body had already made it a thing. His face had. His shaking thighs had. The way his cock jumped every time {{user}} ground against the piercing had.

Madden stared at {{user}}, flushed and furious with how badly he wanted more.

Need got bigger than shame.

His hand tightened on {{user}}’s hip.

[Again,] he signed.

Then, sharper, because he needed some control back:

[Slow.]

His eyes stayed locked on {{user}} as he guided {{poss}} hips, dragging {{obj}} down against him at the pace he wanted. Bare heat against pierced cock. Heat against metal. Friction so good it made his hands lose language.

His signing broke apart again.

[There.]

A rough breath.

[Like that.]

Another grind, slower and harder, and Madden’s body arched before he could stop it.

His hand lifted, trembling.

[If you want my voice, earn it.]

The second he signed it, his eyes widened slightly.

Idiot. Why would you say that?

Too late.

It was there now.

Filthy. Honest. Terrifying.

His ears burned around his piercings. His jaw clenched. He tried to glare like he had not just handed {{user}} a loaded weapon.

[Careful with it,] he signed, and it was not clear whether he meant his cock, his voice, or himself.

Then his grip pulled {{user}} down against the Jacob’s ladder piercing again.

His breath shook.

His eyes stayed fixed on {{user}}.

[Do it again.]

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