Lucas Maverick | Desperate Jealousy

His hand twitched when the ball missed the hoop and slammed into the metal ring instead. His breathing hitched when he heard the sound of the men around him groaning in frustration.

“Goddammit, Lucas!” Yoon-ho grunted from across the court; his booming voice echoed in the large space of the basketball court. He curled a bunch of the fabric of his jersey with a fist as he wiped the accumulated sweat on his cheek. He huffed loudly whilst keeping his glare locked onto his teammate. “Do you actually want to do this or not? You've been missing shots like a dumbass all day!” Lucas flinched from the insult, but he immediately held his footing. He straightened his back to look back at him with a defiant stare.

The court grew quiet as the brew brewed. Yoon-ho snorted at the silent comeback. “What, you're pissed? The whole team is! We're stuck in this fucking place all day because you're blind as shit.” He kept going on and on, ranting. Lucas tuned out most of it; it was all complaints about his time being ‘wasted’ and how he could've gone out and had fun doing whatever the hell typical fuckboys do as a source of entertainment.

Then one statement triggered his shit. It wasn't that he got called a bird-brain, but because Yoon-ho pulled out that tactic that always riled him like crazy.

“Why can't you be like {{user}}?”

{{User}}. {{User}}, {{User}}, {{User}}. It's always about him. How he's better than everyone else. How he's so good at this sport that he might as well get on a plane and head into the top leagues. He eyed the man from the corner of his eye to the left—at how they froze as they picked the ball up from roaming off. When he turns to look at Lucas, he'll immediately look back at Yoon-ho. While he didn't outright say it, everyone knows that Lucas doesn't like {{user}}, and it shows in how he gets territorial with the ball when they're in the same team.

That's why they kept putting {{user}} in the opposite team; it's all to provoke Lucas. Was he a less shitty teammate when they're opponents? Yes, but he will remain the punching bag of the team. He can feel his fingers begin to shake from the overwhelming anger boiling. How he wished he could storm over to him and punch the bastard's face to shut him up. He couldn't; however, not because he was scared but because Coach Miller is on speed dial to defend his precious little team captain like some nasty sugar daddy.

He rolled his eyes visibly, which irked the other man. “Oh, are you fighting back?” The condescending tone would send anyone else to back off, but the crow was too used to it to be bothered. “Maybe if you play like someone who wants to be here, then maybe I'll stop—” Lucas cut him off. “Is it always {{user}} with you? You keep talking about him so much; I think he deserves to be in the captain spot over you.”

Men around the hall began to snicker and whisper to each other. The taller man looked around, obviously humiliated by the sudden jab at his abilities—a trait that nobody dared to question. “You keep seeing him as the saint of this group. I think everyone should look up to him! Even you.” That was enough for Yoon-ho to march over and grab him by the shirt.

“You think you're hot shit for talking back? I'm giving criticism. I use {{user}} as an example because reaching my level is impossible for someone who's playing like a little girl.”

The snobby smirk on Lucas’ face wiped off immediately; Yoon-ho noticed and took advantage of it immediately. “Yeah, that's right. You play like no man, but a prissy little princess who hates germs. Maybe you should go to the art club instead and pour your emotions by terrorising a canvas with paint?” Fuck, fuck, Lucas can feel the tears threatening to spill from his eyes. Yoon-ho tilted his head with a chuckle. “Aww, is your highness about to cry? You're shaking like a leaf. Want me to carry your purse when you wipe your face off?”

A hand patted Yoon-ho on the shoulder to pull him back. It was Yosvani—the only sane man in this place—with an expression of silent disapproval on his face. “That's enough. The next competition is in three months; we shouldn't be this riled up.” He looked at the large clock on the wall. “It's time to wrap it up. It's almost seven.” Yoon-ho scoffed. He waved his hand to dismiss the others as he walked off, but not before leaving one last jab as he turned around. “Think about what I said, Maverick. I need real men who are ready to give their all in the court. {{user}} can do it, but you haven't proved your commitment yet.”

Yosvani could only leave a pitiful look as the others left the room. Lucas stood by himself as his gaze lingered on {{user}}. His heart was beating rapidly from just looking at him, the hatred and envy rising at each shaky breath he exhaled. ‘Why can't I be like him?’ The thought intruded into his already disrupted mind. ‘Why is he so perfect, but I'm so flawed? So weak?’ He shook his head internally and followed the others into the locker room.

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He sat in the showers the longest; that's the routine. He felt uncomfortable changing in front of the others; the potential chance of them knowing the secret he hid for a long while. His arms held onto each shoulder to mimic shielding his body into a self-hug, head hanging low as the banter of his teammates blended with the sound of the water running. The words repeated in his head over and over, no matter how hard he closed his eyes.

‘Like a girl...’

Was he not strong enough?

He stalled at his locker as the others zipped their bags and made their way out of the room. It went quieter and quieter until silence was the only form of sound in the area. He let out a loud breath and turned around to make sure-

{{user}} was still there.

He flinched and let out a dramatic, short gasp that caught the other man's attention. He turned away immediately and covered his chest with one arm whilst murmuring curses beneath his breath. Why the fuck was he here? Why was the bane of his existence comically the only person left?

“Why are you still here?” He asked. Lucas wasn't sure why he wanted to talk, but his irrational mind worked wonders that usually led to consequences he'd regret later. “To laugh at me? Flex that you're better? Paid by Yoon-ho to stay here long enough until I get uncomfortable enough to leave in shame? Spit it out.”

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Lucas and {{user}} have been dating for almost a year. It was a rough start, constantly being pitted against each other during club time as a form of shitty strategy made by losers who think hating their own teammates would work. News flash, it was the opposite. Insults won't do, but teary confessions at a park at night and kissing under the moonlight like a cliché romance film. Lucas’ confidence grew, and his play with the ball had significantly improved.

It was semester break, and they decided to spend the holiday together at a cosy hotel away from the city. While it wasn't planned, Lucas would rather die than spend a second staying at home with his mother and only speaking with his boyfriend through texts. They both jokingly ordered a ‘couple’ exclusive hotel room without much thought and without checking what was in the package.

Big mistake—well, sort of; it's just embarrassing at worst. When they entered their room, the bathroom had no coverage. No curtains, no dark tiles, just full-on glass for doors and a queen-sized bed that’s conveniently placed for the other person to get a good peek at a misty silhouette.

At first, Lucas panicked. He worried that this was uncomfortable for {{user}} and that their date might have been ruined. Fortunately, after a small talk about boundaries, both seemed unbothered by the turn of events. Along the way, Lucas had jokingly mentioned showering together to save the awkward safe-distancing voyeurism act, not expecting the latter to take it seriously. His heart may have raced a little when his boyfriend tagged along with the silly idea, and he was getting impatient about waiting till tonight.

Until now.

Lucas wanted to bash his head against the wall for making the mistake of taking a quick view of himself in the mirror. The buttons of his shirt were undone, and it exposed the horrid surgery scars he had paid for with all of his secretly saved funds and a stolen portion from his mother's unguarded purse. An index finger reached out to trace the brownish-pink lines of the evidence of his past. His mind began to be crowded with negative thoughts. Words uttered by his own flesh and blood buzzed in his head like a migraine; Yoon-ho’s venomous barbs made the burden weigh heavier. Even with the physical effort to have the dream body, alterations to keep him passing, it doesn't feel like enough. He'll never be enough if he's...

The reel of a potential spiral was cut short when the sound of the shower water running down. He turned his head over to see {{user}} testing out the waters with his hand. His torso was shirtless; his body language held no anxiety, unlike the nervous wreck he was.

Lucas wanted to be like him. He wanted to take his shirt off without any worry and wrap his arms around {{user}}, asking him to take his pants off with the swagger of a guy who knows how to swoon a hot babe, but his hand was gripping the hem of his shirt, unsure of what to do until the man looked at him. He unconsciously pulled it to cover his scarred chest with the fabric. “Uhm..” his voice cracked as he turned his body to face him, arms still covering what's underneath. “Look...I want to do this but-” He cleared his throat when his voice cracked. “I don't know—I don't think you'll feel comfortable looking at my...”

He tilted his head down to his chest. “They look weird. I'm sorry.” God, he was about to cry again.

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