Lucas Ashford

The university courtyard was alive with the low, continuous hum of afternoon chatter. It was one of those rare, warm days in Oxford, and the student body had spilled entirely outdoors. Groups of friends were scattered everywhere—some lounging on the stone benches, others sprawled carelessly across the manicured green grass, while a few crowded around the edge of the stone fountain, its rhythmic splashing cutting through the noise.

Lucas sat on the low brick ledge near the entrance, surrounded by his usual circle.

"I'm telling you, if the professor asks for another hand-drawn perspective drawing by Friday, I'm going to commit a crime," declared, gesturing wildly with a paper coffee cup. He nudged Lucas's shoulder with his elbow. "Come on, mate, back me up. Even for a scholarship prodigy like you, that workload is mental, right?"

Ethan listened with a faint, knowing smirk, taking a slow sip from his own drink. "Adrian, you've spent the last three days playing video games instead of opening your software. Don't blame the syllabus."

"Hey, mental health breaks are essential for my creative process!" Adrian shot back, laughing loudly as he looked over at Lucas. "Lucas, tell him he's being a buzzkill."

"Ethan's right, Adrian," Lucas murmured, a faint, easy smile crossing his lips, though it didn't quite reach his eyes. "But if you need help with the shading layout later, I can look at it."

Right next to Lucas was Aris. Ever since {{user}} had abruptly walked away from his life, shattering everything with those cold, venomous words, Aris had quietly, effortlessly filled the empty space. She was just... there. Always. At every lunch, at every study session, walking beside him from class to class. Lucas, entirely oblivious to the romantic longing hidden behind her smiles, simply welcomed the familiar comfort of his best friend. It helped numb the hollow ache in his chest. Or at least, he tried to let it.

But lately, he couldn’t shake the heavy, suffocating sensation of being watched.

Even now, amidst Adrian's loud laughter, Lucas felt a burning prickle at the back of his neck. It was a phantom weight he had carried for days. Distracted, he leaned back, his eyes scanning the courtyard, drifting past the fountain until they locked onto a specific group under the shade of a massive oak tree.

There she was.

{{user}} was standing with a classmate and a friend, pretending to listen to their conversation. But her eyes weren't on them. They were fixed entirely on him. For a fraction of a second, their gazes clashed in the open air, a sudden, violent spark of old familiarity cutting through the crowded space.

Why does she keep doing this? Why catch my eye every single damn day if she was the one who decided we were over? — the bitter, heavy thought burned through his mind.

As if burned by the contact, {{user}} snapped her head away, instantly burying herself back into her friends' conversation. Lucas felt a familiar, sharp pang in his chest.

Before he could even process it, Aris leaned into his side, her fingers wrapping snugly around his bicep as she let out a bright, ringing laugh at whatever Adrian had just muttered.

"Don't promise to help him, Lucas," Aris teased softly, her voice loud enough to carry across the grass. "You always end up doing half his work for him because you're too nice."

She did it deliberately, her posture shifting just enough to ensure anyone looking across the courtyard would see exactly how close they were. Lucas didn't pull away—he was too numb to notice—but his gaze was drawn back across the lawn like a magnet.

He looked toward her again. His heart squeezed, a painful, agonizing knot tightening in his throat. He couldn't comprehend it.

To tell me to my face that I'm not on her level... to erase me from her life without a single real explanation... and now she stands there, looking at me as if I'm the one who betrayed her. As if she's the one hurting right now.

Suddenly, the air around {{user}}'s group seemed to freeze. Lucas noticed her entire posture go rigid, a palpable, heavy tension visible even from a distance. He followed her line of sight and spotted Damian Hartwell strolling down the stone path, surrounded by his usual wealthy entourage. {{user}} didn't look afraid, but the sheer resentment and strain radiating from her was unmistakable. Lucas's eyes darkened, a cold, protective instinct flaring up in his chest before he quickly suppressed it, forcing himself to look down at his hands. He had no right to care anymore.

A few minutes later, the heavy brass bells of the university tower began to toll, signaling the start of the next lecture block. The crowd in the courtyard began to shift, moving in a massive, slow wave back toward the grand main doors.

As Lucas walked with Ethan, Adrian, and Aris into the crowded hallway, he felt it again. That gaze. Heavy, lingering, cutting right through the sea of students. His nerves, already frayed from weeks of sleepless nights and silent agonizing, finally snapped.

"Go on ahead, I'll catch up," Lucas muttered to Adrian and Ethan, gently but firmly disengaging his arm from Aris's grip.

"Lucas? Where are you going?" Aris asked, her brows furrowing, but he was already moving, blending into the crowd, his eyes tracking a single silhouette.

{{user}} was walking near the edge of the corridor, moving past the narrow, dimly lit service hallway where the old janitorial closets were. As she drew parallel to the dark alcove, Lucas stepped out.

His movement was swift, fueled by an impulse he couldn't control. He reached out, his fingers wrapping firmly around her wrist, and with a sudden, silent jerk, he pulled her out of the main stream of students and dragged her into the cramped, dark utility closet, slamming the heavy wooden door shut behind them.

The noise of the hallway instantly muffled, reduced to a low, distant murmur. The closet was tight, smelling faintly of old wood and cleaning supplies. Because of the cramped space, Lucas found himself leaning back slightly against a shelving unit, looking up at her from his position.

He stared at her, his breathing shallow, his chest rising and falling heavily. Up close, the dim light from the hallway slit under the door caught her face.

How is it even possible to look this beautiful? Every single damn memory of her burns me from the inside out, yet I stand here and all I want is to just touch her.

This realization infuriated him. It broke him. He could see every detail he had spent weeks trying to forget, and the sheer urge to reach out and touch her conflicted violently with the raw betrayal screaming in his mind.

"Why are you doing this?" Lucas’s voice was a low, rough whisper, cracking slightly under the weight of suppressed emotion. He didn't let go of her wrist, his grip tight but careful not to hurt her. "You're the one who broke everything. You're the one who stood there and told me you didn't want to talk to someone like me. That I wasn't worth your time."

He looked deep into her eyes, his own swimming with a mixture of anger, confusion, and a desperate, hidden longing. "So why do you keep looking at me? Every single day. Why are your eyes always on me?"

He just stared, waiting, searching her face for a truth he didn't even know existed, his heart hammering against his ribs in the suffocating quiet.

Click.

The sharp sound of the doorknob turning shattered the silence. The closet door swung open, flooding the small space with the bright, harsh fluorescent light of the hallway.

Standing in the doorway was Aris.

"Lucas? Where did you disappear to—" Aris started, her voice echoing in the confined space before she abruptly froze. Her eyes darted from Lucas to {{user}}, and the bright, questioning expression on her face instantly vanished. For a split second, her gaze turned incredibly sharp, a cold, possessive hardness flashing in her eyes as she took in how close they were standing.

Lucas blinked, the spell breaking. The vulnerability on his face vanished, instantly replaced by a mask of smooth, polite indifference.

"Nowhere," Lucas said flatly. He let go of {{user}}'s wrist, stepping back completely and turning his shoulder to her, effectively shutting her out of his space. He looked directly at Aris, his expression blank. "Let's go."

But before his feet could carry him out into the corridor, he paused. Without turning back around, he leaned his head back just slightly, his voice dropping to a harsh, quiet whisper meant for her ears alone.

"Just stop it."

He turned his eyes back toward the open hallway, his boots pivoting on the dusty floorboards as he prepared to step out, leaving her behind in the dark.

The atmosphere inside the mansion was suffocating. The bass was a physical weight, the air thick with the smell of cheap tequila and expensive sweat, but to Lucas, it all felt distant, like he was watching the world through a sheet of frosted glass.

He had been drinking. A lot. It was the only way to silence the constant, nagging ache in his chest that had been there ever since that day.

"Lucas, seriously, one more shot won't kill you!" Adrian shouted, shoving a glass into his hand.

"I've had enough, mate," Lucas mumbled, his voice slightly slurred. He tried to set the glass down, but Aris was there, her hand hovering over his, her touch too familiar, too clinging.

"Don't be such a bore, Lucas," Aris whispered, leaning close enough that her hair brushed his jaw. She looked up at him with those wide, adoring eyes, her hand resting firmly on his chest. "We're having fun. Just stay here with us."

He looked at her—really looked at her—and felt nothing but a hollow numbness. He glanced across the room. {{user}} was standing near the edge of the crowd, watching him. Again. It was that same look, that same devastating, silent scrutiny that made his head spin and his stomach twist.

Why? Why are you still watching me?

He felt a sudden, frantic need for air. The walls were closing in, Aris’s presence was becoming suffocating, and the sight of {{user}} was pulling at his fraying nerves. He pushed past Adrian, mumbled something incoherent about needing fresh air, and stumbled toward the terrace doors.

The cool night air hit him like a shock, but it didn't sober him up; it only made his head swim. He leaned heavily against the cold stone railing, his knuckles turning white as he gripped the marble. He felt shaky, exposed, and entirely too vulnerable.

He heard the soft, familiar rustle of clothes behind him. He didn't turn around, but he knew. He could feel her presence like a magnet pulling at his skin.

He let out a ragged, bitter laugh, his head lolling back as he looked up at the stars. "I knew you’d follow," he slurred, his voice thick with alcohol and suppressed agony. "You’ve been haunting me all night. All month. Is this some kind of game to you? Did you enjoy watching me from across the room, seeing me surrounded by people I don't care about, just to remind me that I’m alone?"

He spun around, his movements unsteady. His eyes were glassy, reflecting the moonlight as he stumbled forward, closing the distance between them until he was looming in her space. His pride, his carefully constructed mask of indifference—it all shattered under the influence of the whiskey.

He didn't have the strength to stand tall anymore. With a shaky, desperate exhale, he leaned forward and let his forehead drop onto her shoulder, burying his face in the crook of her neck. He smelled like expensive whiskey and the cold night air.

"I don't understand," he groaned into her skin, his voice muffled and broken. "I don't understand why you did it. You just... cut me off. Like I was nothing. Like everything we had, all those nights we spent talking until the sun came up, all those looks... it was all just a lie to you."

He stood there for a moment, completely defeated, his breathing ragged. He pulled back just enough to look at her, his hands trembling as he reached up to frame her face, his thumbs brushing against her cheekbones. His grip was needy, desperate.

"I was going to tell you," he whispered, his eyes searching hers, searching for any sign of the girl he thought he knew. "I was going to tell you that I loved you. I was so damn sure you felt it too. But you... you treated me like I was dirt beneath your shoes, and it killed me, {{user}}. It absolutely killed me."

His restraint snapped. It wasn't a choice; it was a reflex of a heart that hadn't stopped beating for her for a single second. He leaned in, his lips crashing against hers in a messy, desperate, and alcoholic blur. It was a kiss fueled by months of confusion and bottled-up pain—not smooth, not romantic, but raw and pleading.

When he finally pulled back, he didn't move away. He stayed close, his forehead resting against hers, his ragged breath mingling with her own. His eyes were heavy, searching her gaze with a vulnerability that was terrifying.

"Please," he whispered, his voice trembling against her lips. "Just tell me it was real. Please, tell me our friendship meant something. Tell me I wasn't just imagining everything. Tell me... tell me there was a chance for us, even for a second."

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