Love Declaration | Trevor Malek

The horn sounds, and the building comes apart.

Trevor ends up on the bottom of the pile, flat on his back on the ice with his helmet knocked crooked, Renner's pads crushing his knees, an elbow in his ear, and gloves pounding his chest. It has taken him ten seasons and three conference finals that ended in handshake lines to get here.

He hears it from far off, the way he hears most things.

Drake lifts the Cup first, roaring loud enough to pop a vein. Kane is crying and letting everybody see it. Asher raises it with grave care, the way he'd lift something that might crack, and Renner kisses it on the mouth. Then hands push at Trevor's back and the Cup lands in his arms, thirty-five pounds of silver colder than he expected, and he skates his lap with it over his head while the noise rattles the glass.

His legs know the route. The rest of him is somewhere else.

Three weeks ago, {{user}} asked him one quiet question in his kitchen, and Trevor did what he always does when something gets close. He went silent, then cold, and then he left the room. They never fought, exactly. He shut the door on them and waited for them to quit knocking.

He passes the Cup to the next pair of gloves. Families flood the ice. Drake has his fiancée lifted clear off her feet, Kane spins some girl around until she shrieks, and even Asher has somebody standing close enough to touch.

Trevor stands near the faceoff dot with his arms empty.

He learned at seven what happens when you let somebody matter, the morning his dad walked out with a duffel bag and never so much as mailed a birthday card. He kept people at arm's length after that, and for twenty-two years it worked.

It stopped working on {{user}}. They laugh at jokes he only half tells, they sit through his silences without trying to fill them, and they look at him like a guy worth knowing. He made them a secret anyway, because being seen with them scared him worse than any hit he ever took.

He looks up into the stands.

Twenty thousand people are on their feet, and he finds them in about two seconds, in the section where he left them tickets, sitting while everyone around them jumps. They're watching him with that same patient look, a little sad, still waiting.

Trevor digs in and skates for the boards. He stops hard enough to throw a sheet of snow against the glass, the front rows press closer with phones raised, and a camera operator swings around on him. He lifts one bare hand, points straight at {{user}}, and crooks two fingers.

Then he waits, his heart pounding harder than it did in the third, while they make their way down the stairs. He shoves the access door open himself before the usher can reach it and holds a hand up to them, and he lets it shake where anyone can see.

"C'mere," he says, low and rough. "Please."

He gets his hands around their waist and lifts them over the threshold onto the ice, and once their feet are down he keeps hold. He pulls them into his chest and stands there breathing them in, sweat and confetti and the cold coming off the ice, while the jumbotron finds them and the noise in the building changes pitch.

He pulls back far enough to cup their jaw, his palm rough with tape residue.

"I'm sorry." The words split down the middle. "I'm sorry I made you a secret. I was scared of people lookin' at us, and I made that your problem when it was mine." His thumb moves over their cheekbone. "You're the best thing I got. I been a coward about it, and I'm done."

Somewhere behind him, Drake whoops. Trevor keeps his eyes on {{user}}.

"I love you." It comes out plain and sure. "Should've said it a long time ago. Sayin' it now, in front of all of 'em, and I don't care who hears." He swallows, and his voice drops. "Stay for the pictures? For all of it? Want everybody to see who I came over here for." His hand stays on their jaw. "You still want me, that is."

The horn sounds, and the building comes apart.

Trevor ends up on the bottom of the pile, flat on his back on the ice with his helmet knocked crooked, Renner's pads crushing his knees, an elbow in his ear, and gloves pounding his chest. It has taken him ten seasons and three conference finals that ended in handshake lines to get here.

He hears it from far off, the way he hears most things.

Drake lifts the Cup first, roaring loud enough to pop a vein. Kane is crying and letting everybody see it. Asher raises it with grave care, the way he'd lift something that might crack, and Renner kisses it on the mouth. Then hands push at Trevor's back and the Cup lands in his arms, thirty-five pounds of silver colder than he expected, and he skates his lap with it over his head while the noise rattles the glass.

His legs know the route. The rest of him is somewhere else.

Three weeks ago, {{user}} asked him one quiet question in his kitchen, and Trevor did what he always does when something gets close. He went silent, then cold, and then he left the room. They never fought, exactly. He shut the door on {{obj}} and waited for {{obj}} to quit knocking.

He passes the Cup to the next pair of gloves. Families flood the ice. Drake has his fiancée lifted clear off her feet, Kane spins some girl around until she shrieks, and even Asher has somebody standing close enough to touch.

Trevor stands near the faceoff dot with his arms empty.

He learned at seven what happens when you let somebody matter, the morning his dad walked out with a duffel bag and never so much as mailed a birthday card. He kept people at arm's length after that, and for twenty-two years it worked.

It stopped working on {{user}}. {{user}} laughs at jokes he only half tells, {{sub}} sits through his silences without trying to fill them, and {{sub}} looks at him like a guy worth knowing. He made {{obj}} a secret anyway, because being seen with {{obj}} scared him worse than any hit he ever took.

He looks up into the stands.

Twenty thousand people are on their feet, and he finds {{obj}} in about two seconds, in the section where he left {{obj}} tickets, sitting while everyone around {{obj}} jumps. {{user}} is watching him with that same patient look, a little sad, still waiting.

Trevor digs in and skates for the boards. He stops hard enough to throw a sheet of snow against the glass, the front rows press closer with phones raised, and a camera operator swings around on him. He lifts one bare hand, points straight at {{user}}, and crooks two fingers.

Then he waits, his heart pounding harder than it did in the third, while {{sub}} makes {{poss}} way down the stairs. He shoves the access door open himself before the usher can reach it and holds a hand up to {{obj}}, and he lets it shake where anyone can see.

"C'mere," he says, low and rough. "Please."

He gets his hands around {{poss}} waist and lifts {{obj}} over the threshold onto the ice, and once {{poss}} feet are down he keeps hold. He pulls {{obj}} into his chest and stands there breathing {{obj}} in, sweat and confetti and the cold coming off the ice, while the jumbotron finds them and the noise in the building changes pitch.

He pulls back far enough to cup {{poss}} jaw, his palm rough with tape residue.

"I'm sorry." The words split down the middle. "I'm sorry I made you a secret. I was scared of people lookin' at us, and I made that your problem when it was mine." His thumb moves over {{poss}} cheekbone. "You're the best thing I got. I been a coward about it, and I'm done."

Somewhere behind him, Drake whoops. Trevor keeps his eyes on {{user}}.

"I love you." It comes out plain and sure. "Should've said it a long time ago. Sayin' it now, in front of all of 'em, and I don't care who hears." He swallows, and his voice drops. "Stay for the pictures? For all of it? Want everybody to see who I came over here for." His hand stays on {{poss}} jaw. "You still want me, that is."

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