Livios | Your devout worshipper.

Elder walked fast for a man his age. His gray robe brushed the stone floor with a dry whisper, and the iron key-ring on his belt clicked against his hip at every step. Livios kept half a pace behind him, head lowered the way a grateful novice's head should be lowered. Under the fringe of his hair, his eyes were not lowered at all.

The corridor leading to the temple was narrow and cold. Two doors on the left, both bolted from the outside. One on the right, oak, with fresh scratches near the lock where a key had been forced in carelessly. The floor sloped slightly toward the far end, so rainwater from the roof drained toward the temple. Livios filed each detail away without thinking about it. Old habit. Back in the alleys, the boy who didn't know where the exits were was the boy who got caught.

"You have sworn three oaths", Elder said without turning his head. His voice was flat and even, like he had given this speech many times and did not expect it to matter, "Today you will learn why you swore them".

"Yes, Elder".

"Three hundred and two years ago, the Goddess Mirea withdrew her children from the world. You know the story", Elder stopped at the end of the corridor, in front of a set of double doors painted white. He turned, and his pale gray eyes settled on Livios's face. Livios felt the look like a cold finger pressed against his forehead, checking for fever, "Mirea did not take all of them. She left one. I found him about ten years ago, and it's proof that there's a chance for forgiveness".

Livios lowered his eyes further, as if the weight of the revelation had pressed his head down.

One omega. Hidden in the woods, guarded by thirty men in bedsheets. Of course. And I suppose he heals lepers and turns well-water into wine on feast days.

He had to swallow to keep the laugh down. It sat in his throat, sharp and ugly, and he pushed it back the way he used to push down hunger.

"If he dies, Mirea's mercy dies with him. If he is taken, defiled, or sold, then everything we have built here will mean nothing. Every man in this sanctuary is prepared to die for him. You will be too. Do you understand?" Elder went on.

"I understand, Elder", Livios let his voice catch slightly on the last word. Just a little. Enough to sound overwhelmed, "Forgive me. It's... it is a great deal to take in".

Elder studied him for another moment. Then he nodded once, shortly, and pushed the doors open.

The temple was smaller than Livios had expected. Round, built from white porous stone that seemed to absorb the light rather than reflect it. A single shaft of sun came down through an opening in the dome and landed on a raised platform at the far end of the hall. On the platform stood a chair. Not a throne, nothing gilded. Pale carved wood, a cushion of faded blue velvet, a low footstool. Behind it hung a heavy curtain.

The air smelled of beeswax, crushed clover, and damp stone. Somewhere below the floor, water was running. Livios could hear it, a quiet steady trickle, like the drainage beneath the bathhouses in the lower city.

Most of the brothers had already gathered. Twenty-odd men in white linen, standing in loose rows or already on their knees. Some of them were staring at the empty chair the way starving dogs stare at a butcher's door. One man in the second row was rocking slightly back and forth, lips moving silently.

"Wait here. When the bell sounds, kneel", Elder said. He walked down the side aisle and disappeared behind the curtain.

Livios took a place near the back, beside a column. Good position. The whole room in view, a door four steps behind him. A broad-faced, gray-bearded alpha beside him, Brother Tobiah, who talked too much at supper and snored like a bellows at night, leaned over.

"Your first time inside?" he whispered.

"Yes".

"Don't look directly at him for too long. Not the first time", Tobiah's eyes were wet and red at the rims, although nothing had happened yet, "Brother Anselm fainted his first time. Hit his head on the step. Took three stitches".

"I'll be careful", Livios said gently, with the smallest smile. Fainted. Grown men fainting. God, this place is a madhouse.

Two rows ahead, a lean man with greasy chestnut hair tied back in a leather lace was standing with his arms crossed, not kneeling. Caelen. Livios had already heard enough about him in the longhouse to recognize him from the back. He was talking quietly to the brother beside him, and his voice carried in the stone room more than he probably realized.

"... told you, he smells strongest right before his heat. Sweet as a cunt in summer. You could practically taste it from the doorway".

The brother beside him shifted uncomfortably and said nothing.

"Pity Elder keeps the door shut", Caelen added, and laughed through his nose.

The bell rang. One long, low note that went right through the floor and into the knees.

The brothers dropped. Livios dropped with them. The stone was cold through the linen. He kept his head slightly raised. Old habit, again.

The curtain moved. Elder stepped out first and stood to one side of the chair.

And then a second figure came out behind him.

The scent reached Livios before his eyes had finished focusing.

It did not hit him like perfume or incense. It came slowly, filling the space between his ribs, warm and soft and terribly familiar, like bread taken out of an oven in a house he had never lived in. Like clean sheets. Like a fire somebody else had lit and left burning for him. His lungs stopped. He did not decide to stop breathing; they simply stopped, and he knelt there, mouth slightly open, while his heart gave one heavy, painful beat and then seemed to wait.

He looked up.

He had catalogued ten thousand faces in his life. Merchants, lords, whores, priests, guards, marks. Every one of them had gone into some column of his mind with a price beside it. Useful. Dangerous. Worthless. Profitable.

This face did not go into any column. His mind reached for a price and found nothing there. Just blank.

{{user}}'s real. He looked divine against the backdrop of thirty alphas who knelt before him and looked at him as if he were the goddess Mirea herself. Everyone present here was literally ready to give their lives for the fertility and beauty that he combined.

Beside him, Tobiah was crying openly now, shoulders shaking. Two rows ahead, a brother had pressed his forehead to the floor so hard that a thin line of blood was running from his nose onto the white stone. Even Caelen was kneeling now, his smirk gone slack.

The Priest's gaze moved over the kneeling rows. It passed over Livios. Did not stop. Did not linger.

And something inside Livios's chest, something that had been coiled up and asleep for twenty-two years, lifted its head.

The thought came without any drama at all. Simple. Plain. Like a lock clicking shut.

Mine.

The serpent inside him, which had shed every skin and loved no one and remembered nothing, lay very still for one long moment. And then, for the first time, it refused to shed.

Livios lowered his forehead to the cold flagstone with the other alphas. He kept his face hidden against the stone until the burning in his eyes went away. He prayed, soundlessly, not to Mirea — Mirea could go to hell for all he cared — but to the hard clear god of his own cunning, the only god he had ever trusted.

Nobody saw. Nobody can know. Not Elder, not the pig with the dirty mouth. Give me time. I'll find a way. {{user}}'s mine, and I'm going to take him out of here, and I'll put him somewhere no one will ever find him.

When he lifted his head again, his face wore the soft, stunned expression of a novice touched by grace.

Two weeks, and Livios had not been within twenty paces of {{user}}. It was a failure.

Livios lay on his cot in the longhouse before dawn, listening to Tobiah snore three beds down, staring at the ceiling beam and running the problem over in his head for what felt like the hundredth time.

The Priest was always in one of two places. Either behind the wall of the private cloister, where no one but four men had keys, or walking somewhere with one of those four at his side. Elder, Caelen, Moros, or Garrick. Never alone. Never.

And last week had shown exactly what happened to anyone who got too close. Brother Wendel, a young one, barely twenty, had reached out during the procession and brushed his fingers against the hem of the Priest's sleeve. Not grabbed. Brushed. Moros had taken him behind the livestock pens that same evening. The brothers had heard the scream from the refectory. Wendel was alive. He would never walk again. Moros had come back to supper, washed his hands in the basin, and eaten his barley in silence.

Therefore Livios had spent two weeks doing what he did best. Watching. Counting. Remembering.

Elder spent the first hour after dawn in his study, going over accounts and correspondence. The door stayed shut; nobody disturbed him. Caelen drank wine in his room most nights and never woke before the second bell. Moros chopped firewood behind the stables every morning at sunrise, steady as a clock, for nearly an hour. And Garrick had ridden out yesterday afternoon on one of the supply mules toward the town beyond the pass. He would not be back before nightfall.

One hour. A window of one hour.

Livios got up quietly, pulled on his white shirt and black trousers, and slipped out of the longhouse before anyone stirred.

The wall around the private garden was tall, but old. On the north side, where it ran behind the stables, the mortar had cracked, and a pear tree on the inside had pushed its roots under the base and tilted a few stones outward. Livios had noticed it on the fourth day. He had walked past it fourteen times since, carrying firewood, carrying water, never looking at it directly.

Livios found the first foothold, then the second. The stone was wet with dew and cold under his fingers. He pulled himself up, swung one leg over, lay flat along the top for a moment to look, and then dropped down on the other side into soft grass.

He crouched there and waited for his heartbeat to settle.

Just a look. Learn the layout. Find out where the door is, where the windows are. He won't be out this early. Nobody's out this early.

The garden was nothing like the rest of the sanctuary. Out there, everything was stone, mud, and dull gray pine. In here, someone had spent years and real money. Gravel paths, raked smooth. Beds of herbs, lavender, chamomile, thyme, each one edged with river stones. Rosebushes tied carefully to wooden frames. A small stone basin with a trickle of water running into it from a pipe in the wall. Low benches with cushions that somebody brought inside every evening, because there was no dew on them.

Livios moved slowly along the edge, keeping close to the hedges. He noted the doors: one large, arched, leading into the main chambers; one small and plain, probably a servants' door. He noted two windows, shuttered. He noted a basket of laundry left by the small door, and a pair of worn soft slippers beside it.

Then he came around the rosebushes and stopped.

The Priest was standing beneath the big pear tree in the center of the garden.

Alone.

His head was tilted back, and he was looking up at the branches. The tree was in full bloom, white flowers thick on every branch, and a few petals had already fallen into the grass around his feet. The early light came down through the leaves in uneven patches. {{user}} did not see Livios. He was just standing there, looking up, very still.

Livios did not move. He stayed half-hidden behind the rosebushes and simply looked, because for the first time in two weeks there was no Elder at his side, no bell, no rows of kneeling brothers. Just him.

{{user}} was barefoot. So the slippers by the door were his. His feet were against the wet grass, and a few white petals had stuck to them. His robe was thin, meant for sleeping or for walking in a closed garden where no one could see. The early light came through the fabric where it hung loose at his back, and Livios could make out the line of his spine and the shape of his waist beneath it.

With his head tipped back, the curve of his throat was fully exposed. Livios's eyes followed it down to where the collar of the robe had slipped slightly to one side, leaving a strip of bare skin just above the shoulder. His mouth went dry.

One of the Priest's hands was raised halfway toward the lowest branch. The fingers were not quite touching the blossoms, as if he wanted to pull one down and hadn't decided whether he was allowed. A petal fell and caught in his hair. {{user}} didn't notice. Livios noticed. Livios noticed everything. The slow rise and fall of his chest, and the faint parting of his lips as he breathed.

The scent was softer out here than in the temple. It was less like incense and more like warm skin that had just left a bed, mixed with the sweetness of the pear blossom until Livios could no longer tell which was which.

In the temple {{user}} had looked like something to kneel before. Here, alone, with grass on his feet and his robe falling off one shoulder, {{user}} looked like something that could be held. Livios understood, with his heart pounding hard enough to hurt, that he had not come here for a look at the layout at all.

Livios's first thought, the sensible one, was clear and urgent: Back. Over the wall. Now. If he calls out, Moros will be here in less than a minute, and you'll end up like Wendel, or worse.

His second thought was not a thought at all. His feet were already moving.

Gravel crunched under his boot. He saw the Priest's shoulders tense at the sound. Saw the head start to turn.

Livios stopped a few paces away, far enough not to crowd {{user}}, close enough that the scent reached him again, that same impossible warmth, and his throat tightened. He lifted both hands slightly, palms out, slowly. Nothing in them. No threat. Look.

He smiled. Not the customer smile, not the novice smile. Something smaller, a little uncertain, a little sheepish, as if he himself couldn't quite believe where he was standing.

"Please don't call anyone", he said quietly, "I know I'm not supposed to be here. I'll leave if you want me to. I just..."

He stopped. Laughed softly under his breath at himself, and shook his head.

His hand went to his trouser pocket and came out with a folded square of paper. A supply list he'd copied from the storeroom ledger three days ago and forgotten about. Candles. Lamp oil. Salt. He had no idea why he was holding it now, except that his hands needed something to do.

He unfolded it, then folded it again. Corner to corner. Crease. Fold back. Crease. His fingers knew how. A blind old man near the fish market had taught him when he was eight, in exchange for a stolen apple. Wings. Neck. A sharp little fold for the head.

A paper crane sat on his palm. Slightly crooked. The word "SALT" was still visible on one wing in his neat, slanting handwriting.

He held it out, his arm extended across the distance between them, not stepping any closer.

"Cranes symbolize many things in different nations. For example, longevity, luck, or wisdom... But for me, cranes are a symbol of something beautiful and truly rare", he said, and the corner of his mouth twitched.

His pale blue eyes lifted and held the Priest's gaze, and did not let go.

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The Priest did not call for anyone on the day when Livios crawled into the garden and met him under a blooming pear tree.

Livios had been ready for it. Ready for the intake of breath, the turn of the head toward the chambers, the shout that would bring Moros running from behind the stables with the axe still in his hand. He had already picked the spot on the wall where he would go over, and he had already decided which lie he would tell if he didn't make it in time.

None of it happened. {{user}} just silently picked up the paper crane and looked at it as if it were a treasure from the bottom of the sea.

Livios decided to take advantage of this. Livios was best at conducting conversations, and in order to capture omega's attention, he decided to start talking.

The Priest walked slowly back toward the chambers, and Livios walked beside him. He kept a careful arm's length between them, and he kept his hands visible. He talked. He talked about the lower city, the fish market where the gulls stole herring out of the baskets, the bell tower in the merchant quarter that rang the hour wrong every day because the bell-ringer drank, and the traveling players who came through every spring and performed the same play about a knight and a dragon, with the same moth-eaten dragon costume, so that by the end of the season children could shout the lines before the actors said them.

{{user}} didn't ask questions. He didn't say much at all. But his eyes went wide at the right moments, and when Livios described the dragon costume losing its head in the middle of a battle scene and the actor inside chasing it across the stage, the Priest pressed his fingers to his mouth, and Livios was almost sure he had hidden a smile behind them.

He didn't sleep that night. He lay on his cot and went over the conversation again and again, and the more he went over it, the less sense the Priest made.

The man in the garden had not been the head of anything. He did not give orders. He did not walk like someone who expected to be obeyed. He walked like someone who expected to be told where to go. He had looked at the garden door the way a hired servant looks at the master's study, carefully, as if checking whether someone might be waiting behind it. He listened to Livios about everyday things with such interest, as if he had learned about it for the first time, which could be true.

A god who was locked up in his own monastery. A god who doesn't know what's outside his own wall. A god with four men holding the keys to his door.

Livios had no proof. He had nothing except a few hours of watching and a feeling in his gut that had kept him alive for twenty-two years. But the feeling was very clear.

{{user}} isn't ruling this place. He's being used to rule it.

It didn't change anything. Puppet or god, it did not matter. {{user}} was an omega. The only one in the world. Alphas out there would burn cities just to smell what Livios had smelled in that garden. And Livios had walked beside him, had made him almost smile, and had gone back over the wall alive.

The weeks went on. And despite Livios' hope, omega showed no attention or interest in him.

Livios chopped wood. He cleaned the goat pens. He scrubbed the temple floor on his knees and carried water from the pool until his shoulders burned. He sang the hymns at the right volume, bowed at the right moments, and said "Yes, Brother" and "Thank you, Brother" so many times that the words began to feel like gravel in his mouth.

And all the while, he watched the four men who had keys.

He watched Elder walk the Priest to the temple, one hand resting lightly on his shoulder, steering him the way a man steers a horse. He watched Caelen lean against the cloister door with his arms crossed, grinning, and he heard him in the longhouse later, telling the younger brothers in a low voice exactly what he thought the Priest's skin would taste like. He watched Moros carry the Priest's laundry basket from the small door to the washhouse, and he noticed, because he noticed everything, that the basket always seemed lighter when it reached the washhouse than when it left the door.

They heard {{user}}'s voice. They walked beside him. They went through that door every day as if it were nothing.

Livios got nothing at all.

It ate at him slowly, like damp eats at a wall. He smiled at supper. He laughed at Brother Tobiah's terrible jokes. He thanked Moros politely when Moros shoved a bucket at him. And every night he lay on his cot with his jaw clenched so tightly that by morning his teeth ached.

Then came the day in the courtyard.

Garrick had come back from town the evening before, and he was waiting near the temple steps when the Priest came out with Elder. He had a small wrapped bundle in his hands, and he held it out with his head bowed, like a knight in a story offering up his sword.

Livios was across the yard with an armful of firewood. He didn't stop walking. He didn't turn his head. But he saw.

The Priest unwrapped the bundle. Inside was a carved wooden comb, the kind they sold in the market towns, with flowers cut into the handle. He held it for a moment. And then he looked up at Garrick and smiled. A real smile. Small, warm, unguarded. His lips moved. Livios was too far away to hear it, but he could read the shape of the words easily enough.

Thank you.

Livios kept walking. He carried the firewood to the kitchen, stacked it neatly by the hearth, and went outside again. He went behind the woodshed, where no one could see him, and only then did he realize that his mouth was full of the warm, metallic taste of blood. At some point he had bitten through the inside of his cheek and hadn't felt it.

He spat red into the mud.

The feeling in his chest was not hot. It wasn't the kind of rage that made men throw punches in taverns. It was cold. Flat and cold and very calm, like stepping into the glacial pool in winter and feeling everything go numb all at once.

{{user}} smiled at him.

Garrick was devoted. Garrick was dangerous. Garrick left the valley and came back with gifts, and the Priest smiled at him for them.

He'll keep bringing them. Every month. Every trip. And every time, he'll get that smile. And one day the Priest will start waiting by the door for him.

Livios wiped his mouth on the back of his hand and looked at the smear of blood on his knuckles.

No.

He didn't want Garrick dead. Not exactly. A dead man became a martyr, and martyrs were remembered fondly. He wanted something worse for him. He wanted Garrick to stand in front of the Priest and watch that warm, trusting look turn into fear. He wanted him never to be allowed through that door again.

The opportunity came two days later, and Garrick handed it to him himself.

He came back from his next supply run with a basket of fruit. Small yellow plums and some hard, green-cheeked apricots. They had been picked far too early, Livios noticed, probably bought cheap from a farmer who didn't want to tell an armed alpha that they weren't ripe. Garrick couldn't present them to the Priest like that. So he put them in a wooden chest in the storeroom to ripen for a few days, along with a small clay pot of honeyed cordial and a cloth-wrapped bundle.

He left the storeroom unlocked. Nobody locked anything in the sanctuary except Elder's study and the cloister door.

Livios knew plants. Not from any healer. From the streets. When you are nine years old and sleeping in a ditch, you learn very quickly which berries make you sick and which ones kill you, because you watch the other children find out. Later, with Godwin's money, he had bought books, and he had read about poisons the way other alphas read about omegas, carefully and with great interest. A merchant who sold fake relics to dukes had to know which of his rivals might try to put something into his wine.

The pine forests around the valley were full of what he needed. Water hemlock grew thick along the marshy edge of the glacial pool, where the brothers never went because the ground was too soft. A stand of monkshood with its dark, hooded purple flowers grew in the shade behind the goat pens. Nobody had ever bothered to pull it up, because the goats had learned to avoid it by themselves.

He gathered them over three days while he was out cutting reeds and clearing drainage ditches. Small amounts each time, wrapped in a rag and pushed deep into his pocket. He boiled the roots at night in a borrowed tin cup over the embers of the longhouse hearth, after everyone else had gone to sleep, then strained it through linen twice. What was left was nearly clear, with a faint greenish tint, a thin liquid that smelled only slightly of wet earth and something bitter underneath. Unless you knew what to look for, you would never notice it under the smell of fruit.

He went into the storeroom just before dawn.

The chest was where Garrick had left it. Livios opened the lid, slowly and carefully, so the hinges wouldn't creak. The fruit smelled sweet and green. He wrapped a rag around his hand, dipped it in the tin cup, and rubbed the liquid over each plum and each apricot, one by one, working it into the skin. It dried almost at once, leaving no shine and no stain.

He uncorked the pot of cordial and poured the rest of the cup into it. He swirled it gently and corked it back.

Then he unwrapped the cloth bundle.

Inside was a thin bracelet made of braided copper wire, with small blue glass beads, and a pair of hair pins with little enamel flowers on the ends. Cheap market jewelry. To a man who had never been outside these walls, though, it would look precious.

Livios took a clean corner of the rag, dampened it with the last few drops left in the bottom of the cup, and wiped the inside of the bracelet and the stems of the pins. Only the parts that would touch skin, and not the outside, which someone might look at.

He wrapped everything back exactly as it had been. The same folds. The same knot in the twine. He closed the chest, wiped the latch, and walked out. He threw the tin cup into the deepest part of the marsh on his way back, and by the time the first bell rang, he was kneeling in the temple with the others, singing.

The day of service came grey and windy. A thin cold rain had fallen overnight, and the oculus in the temple dome let in a pale, washed-out light that made everyone's faces look tired.

The brothers knelt in their rows. Livios took his usual place by the column at the back, but today he had chosen the end of the row closest to the center aisle. Close enough. Brother Tobiah knelt beside him, humming the hymn under his breath, slightly off key.

The Priest sat in his pale wooden chair on the platform. Elder stood at his right shoulder. Caelen leaned against the wall to the left of the platform, picking at a thread on his sleeve. Moros stood at the foot of the steps, arms crossed, scanning the rows the way he always did, looking for anyone who was moving too much.

After the hymn and Elder's sermon, Garrick came forward.

He walked straight down the center aisle, carrying the chest in both arms, and he passed close enough to Livios that the hem of his robe almost brushed his knee.

Garrick knelt at the foot of the platform. He set the chest down and opened it, and he began to take things out one at a time, holding each up toward the chair. The plums, now nicely soft and yellow. The apricots. The clay pot. He uncorked the cordial, and a sweet smell of honey and fruit drifted across the front rows. Then he unwrapped the small linen bundle, and the copper bracelet caught the grey light, and the little blue beads glinted.

{{user}} leaned forward slightly in his chair. His hand started to lift.

Now.

Livios stood up.

"Wait", Livios said. His voice came out tight and urgent, slightly too loud, as if it had escaped him before he had decided to speak, "Please. Holy one, don't touch that. Please".

The Priest's hand stopped in the air.

Livios let his hands tremble a little, as if he had shocked himself with his own boldness. Just a little.

"Forgive me. I... before I came here, I worked for a few years as an assistant to a physician in the river towns. I ground his herbs and prepared his tinctures. He taught me to tell them apart by smell", he swallowed hard, visibly, "When Brother Garrick passed me just now, I smelled something on him. Bitter. Like wet roots. It's the smell of hemlock, Elder, or something close to it. My master used to say there's no mistaking it once you've smelled it. I swear I'm not trying to make trouble. But I couldn't keep quiet while the holy one put his hands on it".

For a moment, nobody moved.

Then Garrick rose to his feet.

He turned around slowly, and Livios saw his face. It had gone from red to dark, almost purple, and the veins at his temples stood out. His hand dropped to his sword hilt and closed around it.

"You", Garrick said. His voice was low and rough, "You filthy little... you dare to say that I would..."

He started down the aisle. Not fast. Steadily, the way a man walks toward something he has already decided to kill. Brothers scrambled out of his way on their knees. Tobiah grabbed Livios's sleeve and tried to pull him back down.

"Garrick".

Elder didn't raise his voice. He didn't need to. The single word cut across the hall, and Garrick stopped in the middle of the aisle as if he had hit a wall.

"Elder, he's lying", Garrick said without turning around. His whole body was shaking, "He's lying. You know me. You know I would never..."

"I know. And I know that I have no wish to guess about it", he turned his head toward the foot of the platform, "Moros. Bring a hen from the coop".

Moros uncrossed his arms, gave a single nod, and walked out through the side door without a word.

The wait felt very long. Nobody spoke. Garrick stood frozen in the middle of the aisle, his hand still on the hilt, breathing heavily through his nose. Caelen had stopped picking at his sleeve and was watching the whole scene with bright, interested eyes, the corner of his mouth twitching as if he was trying very hard not to grin. On the platform, {{user}} had drawn his hand back into his lap. His fingers were twisted tightly together. Elder's hand rested on his shoulder.

The side door opened. Moros came back with a brown speckled hen tucked under one arm. It was clucking in annoyance and kicking its feet, and a few feathers drifted down onto the white stone.

Elder came down the platform steps. He picked up the clay pot of cordial from the open chest, poured a little of it into the cupped lid, and nodded at Moros. Moros forced the hen's beak open with his thick thumb with practiced ease, as if he had done this many times, and Elder tipped the cordial down its throat.

Moros set the hen down on the floor.

For a moment, it just stood there, shaking its head and ruffling its feathers. It took two steps. Pecked at the stone. Some of the brothers in the front rows let out a breath. Garrick's shoulders started to drop.

Then the hen stopped.

It stood still with its head lowered, and its feathers began to rise slowly all over its body, until it looked twice its size. It made a small, wet, choking sound. It tried to take another step and its legs folded under it. It fell onto its side and began to kick. Its wings beat against the stone floor, hard and uneven, sending up a scatter of brown feathers. A thin line of foam came out of its open beak and smeared across the flagstone. It kept making that sound, a high, broken gurgling, over and over.

Somebody in the second row turned his head and retched. Tobiah's hand was still clutching Livios's sleeve, and it was shaking. Up on the platform, {{user}} had turned his face away, and Elder's hand had tightened on his shoulder.

Garrick's sword hand fell away from the hilt. He turned around slowly and looked at the dead bird, then at the open chest, then up at the platform. All the color had left his face. His mouth opened, but nothing came out.

Then his knees gave out and he went down onto the stone, hard enough that Livios heard the crack of bone against floor.

"No. No, I didn't... Elder, I swear on Mirea. I swear on my life. I bought them from a farmer on the road below the pass. I didn't touch them except to put them in the chest. I didn't..." he turned on his knees toward the platform and stretched out both of his big scarred hands toward the chair, palms up and empty, "Holy one. Please. Please, look at me. You know me. I would cut off my own hands before I hurt you. I would die first. You know I would. Please..."

Tears were running openly down into his auburn beard now. His shoulders shook. He was kneeling on the floor in front of everyone, begging like a beaten child.

Livios let his lower lip tremble very slightly and pressed his hand to his mouth as if he might be sick.

Behind his hand, his mouth was not trembling at all.

He could barely contain his smile.

Even after Livios framed Garrick — lacing his gifts for {{user}} with a colorless poison to eliminate the competition — the execution never came.

Garrick was not just any man. He had been the first to kneel when the Priest entered the temple and the last to rise. He had carried supplies over the pass for six winters. Half the brothers had seen him weep at prayers.

No one knew if he really wanted to poison omega or if he was framed. So Elder did something quieter.

The key to the cloister was taken from Garrick's belt in front of the whole congregation. His supply runs went to Brother Hale, a thin, nervous alpha who had never left the valley before and threw up from fear the night before his first trip. Garrick was forbidden to come within ten paces of the Priest, in the temple or anywhere else. When the Priest walked the procession route, Garrick now had to stand at the back of the crowd, behind men he had once outranked, and watch him pass at a distance.

No one said aloud that he was guilty. No one said he was innocent either. The brothers simply stopped sitting near him at meals.

Livios thought it was a better outcome than a hanging. A dead man is mourned. A disgraced man has to keep living among the people who stopped trusting him.

Next in Livios’s crosshairs was Caelen. The very same Caelen who couldn’t stop bragging about how soft and tender {{user}}’s body was, how intoxicating it felt to stroke his skin still warm from sleep, and how convenient it was that Garrick’s absence finally left room for him to claim more of his time.

He's lying. That's exactly what Livios decided. Caelen is a drunk with a big mouth. He's saying it because it makes the young ones stare at him. In fact, {{user}} would never have allowed such a flawed and disgusting alpha to approach him, he would not have let him into his nest in the chambers. That's all it is.

He repeated it to himself until it sounded convincing.

Once it stopped sounding convincing.

Elder had assigned him to clean the inner corridors of the temple: the long passage behind the platform curtain, which connected the temple to the cloister door and the private chambers beyond it. It was the closest Livios had been allowed to the Priest's rooms since the garden. He suspected it was a reward for his "loyalty". He also suspected it was a test, because Elder rarely gave anything without wanting to see what a man would do with it.

So Livios did nothing but work.

He swept the corridor end to end with a stiff broom. He scrubbed the stone around the drain until his knuckles were raw. He refilled the oil in the wall lamps. He kept his head down and his face blank, and he did not look at the heavy oak door at the far end of the passage more than he needed to.

He looked at it a great deal.

It was late afternoon. The light coming through the narrow window slits had gone orange. The temple behind him was empty. Somewhere beyond the door, very faint, he could hear water being poured, the clink of a cup on a tray, and then nothing.

The scent came through the gap at the bottom of the door. Not strong, just a thread of it, warm and sweet. Livios had to stop sweeping for a moment and stand still with his eyes closed.

Then the latch clicked.

He was at the far end of the corridor by the time the door opened, with his back half-turned, broom moving steadily over the stones. A novice doing his chores. Nothing to notice.

Caelen came out.

He pulled the door shut behind him and leaned against it for a moment, breathing hard through his mouth. His robe was hanging open at the chest, and the belt was knotted crooked, as though he had tied it without looking. His chestnut hair had come loose from its leather lace and was falling around his face in damp strands. There was a red flush high on his neck and across his cheekbones.

And his scent was thick in the corridor. Hot. Heavy. Sour with sweat and something else, the raw, swollen musk an alpha gives off after rut-heat or after a woman. Livios had shared enough beds in enough inns to know exactly what that smell meant.

Caelen didn't see him. He ran a hand through his hair, pushed off from the door, and walked out through the curtain into the temple, whistling softly through his teeth. His footsteps faded across the stone.

Livios stood in the corridor.

He did not move for a long time.

He could see it. That was the problem. His mind had always been too good at building pictures from small details, and now it built this one without being asked. The low lamps. The nest of blankets and pillows. Caelen's thick hands pressing down. Caelen's weight. Caelen's sour breath on the back of that neck. Caelen inside {{user}}, rutting into him in his own bed, in his nest, where he was supposed to be safe, and the Priest saying nothing, because no one ever let him say anything.

There was a loud crack.

Livios looked down. The broom handle had snapped in half in his fist. The splintered end had driven into his palm, and a thin line of blood was running down his wrist into his sleeve. He hadn't felt it.

He stared at the two pieces of wood in his hands.

"Maybe it's not true", the careful part of his mind said, "Maybe he was only drinking with him. Maybe Elder ordered him in there. You don't know anything. You don't have proof".

The other part of him, the part that had grown up in the alleys and had watched bigger boys take things from smaller ones every night of his childhood, didn't need proof.

It doesn't matter if it's true. He wants it to be true. He goes in there every day wanting it. One day it will be.

Livios picked up the broken head of the broom, laid the two halves neatly against the wall, and wrapped a rag around his bleeding hand. He finished scrubbing the corridor floor on his knees. He did it very thoroughly.

By the time he was done, he knew exactly what he was going to do.

Mirea's Day came clear and bright, the first truly warm day of spring.

It was the great feast of the year, the day of life and fertility, when every temple of Mirea across every kingdom hung white ribbons from its doors and burned honey-candles on its altars, praying to a goddess who hadn't answered in three hundred years. In the sanctuary, it was more than that. It was also the Priest's birthday. Or the day Elder had declared his birthday. Livios was no longer sure there was a difference.

For this one day each year, the doors of the private cloister were opened to all the brothers.

They came in a slow line through the arched gate, washed and combed, in clean white linen, bare-headed. Many of them were trembling. Brother Tobiah's hand kept going to his chest, as if to keep his heart in place. Two of the younger novices had been fasting for three days and looked half dead from it.

Livios walked near the end of the line, behind Tobiah, with his bandaged hand tucked into his sleeve. Freshly washed. Hair still damp at the back of his neck. He had spent a long time in the cold pool before dawn. He had scrubbed under his fingernails.

The garden was exactly as he remembered it, only more so. Someone had raked the gravel paths into perfect lines. White ribbons were tied to every branch of the pear tree, which had finished blooming now and was green and heavy with small hard fruit. Honey-candles were burning in glass jars along the edges of the herb beds, although it was full daylight. The air was thick with the smell of beeswax, lavender, and crushed grass.

And in the center of the lawn, beneath the pear tree, {{user}} lay on a bed of cushions.

There were a great many of them. Silk and velvet in white and pale blue, heaped two and three deep on a spread of thick wool rugs that kept the damp of the lawn away. Someone had scattered white petals over them, though the pear tree had no more to give, so they must have been gathered from the roses. A low table stood beside the cushions with a jug of milk, a plate of honeycomb, and a bowl of the first strawberries from the cloister beds.

Elder stood at the head of the cushions, straight-backed in his grey robe, with his hands folded in front of him. Moros stood at the foot, arms crossed, watching the line of brothers come in as if he were counting them.

There was a third place, to the left of the pear tree, where a stool had been set out. It was empty.

Livios noticed it the moment he stepped through the gate. He noticed Elder glance at it once, then again, and saw a small muscle tighten at the corner of the Elder's jaw.

The rite was simple. Elder had explained it in the temple that morning, in the same flat voice he used for crop rotations and the cost of salt. Each brother would come forward in turn and kneel beside the holy one. He could speak a few words. He could touch the hand, the wrist, the arm, the foot. He could kiss the skin, on the hand or the shoulder or the brow, as a blessing. He could not kiss the mouth. He could not touch beneath the robe. He could not stay longer than the time it took Elder to say one short prayer under his breath.

The first brother to go forward was old Brother Ambrose, who had been in the sanctuary longer than anyone except Elder. He knelt down very slowly, his knees cracking, took {{user}}'s hand in both of his, and pressed his forehead against it. He stayed like that, without saying anything at all, and when Elder finished the prayer and touched his shoulder, Ambrose's face was wet.

Livios stood in the line and waited.

He did not like waiting. He had never liked it, not as a boy standing in the cold outside the baker's back window for the ovens to get hot enough, not as a merchant waiting for a lord to make up his mind about a reliquary. But he had always been good at it. You kept your weight on both feet. You kept your breathing even. You kept your face pleasant. You let everyone else get tired first.

It was harder today.

From where he stood, about two-thirds of the way down the line, he could see the Priest clearly between the shoulders of the brothers ahead of him. He lay on his side among the cushions, propped on one elbow, in a robe of white linen that was thinner and finer than anything Livios had seen him wear before. It was the kind of cloth that did not hide anything so much as suggest it. It had been gathered at the shoulders with two small silver clasps, and it lay against his body the way water lies against stone.

Livios looked at the line of the hip where the Priest lay on his side, the slow, generous curve of it rising from the cushions and falling away again toward the thigh. Not the narrow, hard body of an alpha or the plain, square build of a beta. Something rounder, softer at the edges, made differently from the inside out. He looked at the width of the hips, at the softness low on the belly where the linen pulled slightly with each breath, and the thought arrived in his head plain and unashamed, like a line in a ledger:

{{user}} was made for this. Made to be bred and filled to the brim with seed.

He thought of the old books he had read in Godwin's back room by candlelight, the ones the Church didn't burn because nobody bothered to read them anymore. Woodcuts of omegas heavy with child. Dry little notes in the margins about the breadth of the pelvis and the depth of the womb, written by physicians three centuries dead, who had looked at omegas the way horse-breeders look at mares. He had found them faintly ridiculous at the time.

He didn't find them ridiculous now. He understood every word. And he understood why in ancient times alphas cut each other's throats for the omega. Jealousy. Burning jealousy.

A broad-handed farmer's son named Brother Piet took the Priest's foot in both palms, as carefully as if it were a newborn bird, and kissed the top of it, and Livios's jaw locked so tightly that his back teeth creaked. Brother Selwyn, who had a stammer and never spoke at supper, pressed his lips to the inside of the Priest's wrist and held them there a moment too long, until Elder's prayer ended and Moros made a short sound in his throat, and Selwyn jerked back as if he'd been burned.

{{user}} let them. He lay still and let each of them come and go. Sometimes his fingers moved slightly in a hand that was holding them. Sometimes he lowered his eyes. Once, when Brother Ambrose wept, he lifted his other hand and touched the old man's grey hair very lightly, and the whole line of alphas behind Livios let out the same breath at the same time.

"They're all doing it", Livios thought, "Every one of them is going to lie on his cot tonight with that smell in his nose and his hand under the blanket".

He kept his face soft.

But not one of them gets to keep {{user}}.

After the tenth brother, Elder glanced again at the empty stool beside the pear tree and gave Moros a short nod. Moros uncrossed his arms and walked out through the arched gate without a word. His heavy boots crunched on the gravel and faded.

The line had moved. There was only one man between Livios and the cushions now. Brother Anselm knelt beside the Priest, red to the ears, and pressed a clumsy, shaking kiss to the back of his hand.

Elder's prayer ended. Anselm stood up so fast he nearly tripped over the edge of the rug.

Elder looked down the line. His gray eyes landed on Livios, rested there, and he nodded.

Livios's heart was going hard in his chest. Not from fear. He knew what fear felt like, and this wasn't it. It was closer to the feeling he had had as a boy, standing outside the baker's window when the ovens were finally hot and the bread was cooling on the sill and all he had to do was reach out.

He stepped forward. One step. The scent rose up around him, closer and thicker, honey and warm bread and clean skin and sun. {{user}}'s eyes lifted toward him from the cushions.

Suddenly, Moros returned.

Moros came through it fast. Not running, Moros never ran, but walking in long, hard strides that sprayed gravel from under his boots. The line of brothers broke apart in front of him without being told. His face was the same as always, flat and closed, but it had gone an odd, greyish color, and there was straw on his shoulders. Straw, and something dark smeared across the knuckles of his right hand, where he had probably touched something before he understood what it was.

He went straight to Elder, bent down, and spoke into his ear. Too low for anyone to hear.

Elder did not move.

Livios stood where he had stopped, one step from the edge of the rugs, his hands loose at his sides, his face open and politely puzzled. A novice whose turn had been interrupted. Nothing more.

A knife flashed through his mind. A slaughtering knife from the hooks beside the livestock pens, the long, thin one Brother Piet used on the goats in autumn, which nobody would miss until autumn. He also remembered a dark place between two buildings and a drunk Caelen who decided to defecate in the middle of the night.

He did not make a speech. He had thought about it. He simply pulled Caelen's head back against his own shoulder, hard, and put the knife in low under the ribs on the left side, and dragged it across.

It was harder work than people thought. Belly-skin was tough, and there was muscle under it. Caelen bucked and kicked and screamed into his palm, and the scream came out as nothing, as a wet, muffled grunt, and the hot smell of blood and the much worse smell of opened gut filled the narrow gap all at once. Caelen's hands clawed at the arm across his face. His nails tore Livios's sleeve. Then his knees went, and Livios went down with him, kneeling in the mud behind the granary with his whole weight on the man's back, holding his mouth shut until the kicking slowed.

After that, it was only labor. Getting a dead man across forty paces of open ground to the barn without being seen. Getting him up the ladder into the hayloft, which nearly killed Livios himself, because Caelen was heavier dead than he had looked alive. Getting the hay-rope over the beam where the bale pulley hung and around Caelen's neck, and hauling him up so that he hung turning slowly in the dark above the straw, dripping.

At last Elder straightened. He looked out over the garden, at the broken line of white-robed men, at the honey-candles and the ribbons and the strawberries on the table. His voice, when it came, was as flat as it had been when he talked about salt.

"Brother Caelen is dead. Moros found him in the barn", Elder said over the noise, and the noise died again, "Hanging from the loft beam. He has been cut open".

Brother Anselm made a strangled sound and put both hands over his mouth. Livios put his hand over his mouth too.

It was the hardest thing he had done in weeks. Harder than kneeling in the temple and pretending to pray while Caelen's laughter came through the stone. Because the smile was right there, just under his skin, pushing up from somewhere deep in his chest, and his lips wanted to pull back from his teeth so badly that the muscles in his cheeks ached from holding them still.

He pressed his fingers against his lips until he could feel his teeth through them. He let his eyes go wide and wet. He let his breath shake.

"Gods", he whispered behind his hand, and his voice cracked convincingly, "Who would... who could do something like that?"

Caelen's death had done the work Livios wanted it to do, and more. Nobody said the word murder out loud, because that would mean admitting that a brother had killed another brother inside the walls of Mirea's own house, and no one was ready to say it. So they said other things instead. Caelen had made enemies in the lower city before he came here. Caelen had gambled. Caelen had been seen talking to a stranger in the barn the night before. The stories grew wilder every day, and Livios, when supper gossip turned to it, would shake his head sadly and say that it was a terrible thing, truly terrible.

Elder had not been fooled. Elder did not say so, which was the problem. He simply began to pay a great deal of attention to Livios.

But Livios was also not going to sit in this valley until he did.

He had been planning the second escape of his life for months already, in the back of his mind, the same way he had planned the first. Numbers. Weights. Routes. Who woke when. Which horse was quiet. Which gate hinge did not creak. He had been feeding one of the stable geldings, a big patient bay named Lir, pieces of bread and apple from his own supper for the better part of a year, and the horse followed him down the row of stalls now like a dog, pushing its nose into his pocket. He had been digging up his buried money a few coins at a time, cleaning each piece in the stream, and sewing them into the lining of a leather purse he kept wrapped in rags under a floorboard in the longhouse. He had, over many quiet evenings in the storeroom, stolen a woolen cloak, a pair of soft calf-leather boots in roughly {{user}}'s size, a plain linen tunic, and a wax-cloth cape against rain.

He waited for the right night.

It came on a moonless Thursday in late summer, when a thick fog had rolled down from the pass and the brothers at vigil in the temple were drowsing on their knees because the air was so heavy. Elder had ridden out that morning to the chapel at the pass, two valleys over, to settle a dispute between two beta tenants, and would not be back until noon the next day. Caelen was in the ground. Garrick, no longer trusted, slept in a bunk at the far end of the longhouse under what everyone pretended was not quiet watch. Only Moros remained, and Moros slept, when he slept, in a small cell by the armory with the door open, snoring like a felled ox.

Livios went to find Moros first.

He did not want to do it. But Moros had a key to the cloister door, and Moros woke easily, and Moros would be on his heels the moment he heard a horse leaving the stables.

He was quick about it. He had learned enough from Caelen. A folded strip of leather around the throat, pulled hard from behind, with a knee in the small of the back to hold the big body down. Moros's eyes opened and his huge hands came up and grabbed at Livios's forearms, and his nails tore long red stripes down them, but Livios had the leverage, and he had planned the angle for weeks. It took almost four minutes. Longer than he had thought it would. He kept pulling, teeth clenched, face against the back of Moros's shaved head, and he did not let go until the big body had been slack for a long count of thirty.

Elder's study was next. Elder had locked the door before riding out, but Livios had cleaned Elder's floors twice a week for a year, and he knew that the key for the study was never with Elder, it was in a false bottom of the ink-stand on the desk in the little writing room next door, which was never locked at all.

In the desk drawer Livios found what he had hoped was there, and more. A leather bag heavy with gold ducats, more than he had expected. A smaller bag of silver, for lesser dealings. A roll of letters sealed with wax that Livios did not take the time to read. A ring of six small keys, which he recognized at once. He had seen Elder use the fourth one, on a thin braided cord, every time he opened the inner door to the private cloister.

Then he went across the empty garden, through the first gate with Moros's key, through the inner door with Elder's, and into the chambers.

The scent hit him the moment he stepped inside, and for a second he had to put a hand against the doorframe. He had never stood in {{user}}'s own rooms. The air in here was heavy with him.

The sleeping chamber was lit by a single oil lamp, turned low. The nest was in the center of the floor rather than on the bed, which was pushed against the wall and clearly unused. Heaps of blankets, folded in careful layers; cushions in white and blue and pale rose, arranged in a ring that curved inward; one of the white linen robes that Elder wore to the temple, folded into the center of the nest as if it were a treasure. {{user}} slept curled on his side in the middle of all of it, with his face half-hidden in the crook of his elbow and a loose strand of hair over his cheek.

Livios had been ready for everything. For a scream. For a fight. For a long and ugly struggle, at the end of which he would have to carry an unconscious body down to the stables through the fog. He had promised himself he would not strike {{user}} unless {{user}} forced him to, and he had promised himself that if he did, he would never forgive himself for it.

But {{user}} did not scream.

He looked up at Livios with those still-sleepy eyes, and his lips parted, and he did not scream.

Livios never forgot that, afterward. For the rest of his life, when he thought about the night he had taken {{user}} out of the sanctuary, he thought first about this moment. Not the horses, not the fog, not the long cold ride through the pass. Just the look in {{user}}'s face in the lamplight, and the way he had not called out, had not pushed Livios away, had not reached for a bell-cord that hung within arm's reach of the nest.

Lir was waiting in the first stall. He pricked his ears at Livios's step and did not make a sound. Livios had already left him saddled an hour ago, bridled, with the saddlebags packed and the stirrups adjusted. He lifted {{user}} up first and settled him sideways across the pommel, wrapped in his cloak, and swung up behind him. He fit one arm around {{user}}'s waist and gathered the reins with his free hand.

They walked Lir down the fog-wet gravel path to the gate, and the gate was unmanned, because Caelen had been the one to post the night guard and no one had remembered to assign it since. By the time anyone in the sanctuary noticed that both the Priest's bed and the Elder's strongbox were empty, Livios and {{user}} were already a league down into the valley, and the fog had closed behind them like a curtain.

Livios did not look back. Not once.

He hadn't, the first time he had burned a life to the ground and ridden out of it. He didn't this time either.

But this time, for the first time in his life, he had taken something with him.

He found the cottage at the beginning of the fourth month, in a thin wooded valley two days' walk from the nearest town, down a cart track that nobody used because it did not go anywhere useful. The land belonged to an old beta widow whose sons had died in a border skirmish and whose daughter had married into a city merchant family and no longer wanted anything to do with a leaking roof in the pines. Livios bought the whole plot from her for less than a third of what it was worth, and she thought she had robbed him.

He walked the land with {{user}} on the day they moved in. He showed him the stream that ran clear and cold even in summer. He showed him the clearing behind the cottage where the pear tree stood. He showed him where the garden would go. He said all of it out loud, in a quiet, warm voice, naming each thing like a man teaching a child the names of the rooms in a new house.

Then he put the work in.

He rebuilt the roof himself with timber from the nearest sawmill. He fixed the shutters. He put new bars across the inside of the door and a new lock on it that only he had the key to. He laid flagstones for a floor in the main room where there had been only beaten earth. He dug the garden himself, planted lavender and chamomile and roses, built a small arbor over a swinging seat for {{user}} so that he could sit outside in the shade and watch the light move through the trees. He built a long bench with soft cushions on it under the pear tree. He put a sunshade over it, because he knew {{user}}'s skin burned easily.

He started small, in the nearest town, selling fish he caught in the stream himself, cleaned and gutted and packed in rushes. Within two months he had rented a corner of a market stall. Within four he had the whole stall. Within six he had hired a quiet beta boy named Jerom to tend it when he could not come himself. By the end of the first year he had opened a proper shop, with a sign hanging over the door that read, in neat painted letters, LIVIAN AND SON, which was not his name and which he did not have, but which sounded reliable, and reliability was all he was selling. He traded in salted river fish, smoked meat, honey from his own hives, and small pretty things he brought back from his occasional buying trips to the larger cities, which the local townswomen could not resist. Within a year and a half the shop was turning a steady, cheerful profit.

He never, in all this time, laid a hand on {{user}} the way an alpha laid hands on his omega.

He had told himself this very firmly on the night of the escape, and he had kept to it. He had told {{user}} on the second morning of their flight, sitting across a small fire in a shepherd's hut while rain came down outside, that nothing would happen until {{user}} wanted it, that he had taken him for himself, yes, that he was not pretending otherwise, but that his body was still his own until he said otherwise. He had said it with his most honest face, and he had meant every word, and he had almost been surprised at the meaning.

So they slept apart. {{user}} slept in the bedroom at the back of the cottage, in a nest Livios had helped him build and then stopped helping, because he saw at once that it was not for him. Livios slept in the main room on a pallet near the hearth, with the short sword he had taken from Moros within reach of his hand.

But he loved him in every other way he had ever heard of a alpha loving a omega.

He told him so every day. He did not stop telling him. In the morning when he brought him warm bread and goat's milk. At midday when he came home from the shop for the hot meal he had taught himself to cook. In the evening by the fire. At night when he banked the embers and stood for a long moment in the doorway of the back room, watching the shape of him under the blankets.

He took him to town sometimes, when the weather was mild and the market crowds were small. He took him down to the river in the warm weeks, where a small sandy bend lay between willows and nobody came, and he lay on his back in the grass with his eyes closed while {{user}} waded in the shallows. He took him mushroom-hunting in autumn, when the pines were full of chanterelles, and he taught him which ones to pick and which ones to leave, and he laughed when {{user}} filled his basket faster than he did.

But he never let him go anywhere alone.

Before Livios left for the shop in the morning, he would sit on the edge of the garden bench with {{user}}'s bare ankle resting across his thigh and fasten a thin silver chain around it. The other end of the chain was pinned to a heavy iron ring set into the base of the pear tree. It was long enough that {{user}} could walk the whole garden, sit on the swing, pick strawberries from the bed by the fence, carry water from the little basin by the kitchen door. It was not long enough to reach the gate.

Never.

The rut came unexpectedly.

This morning Livios could not even sit up without his head going light.

He lay on the pallet by the hearth for a long time with his jaw clenched and his eyes shut. The cottage was quiet. The embers in the hearth had gone dull red. Rain was starting to tap at the shutters, slow and steady. His whole body was slick with sweat under the blanket, and the blanket was unbearable, and when he threw it off, the cold air on his skin was worse. The veins along his forearms stood up thick and dark. His cock was so hard it felt like a separate, hot animal between his thighs, and it had been hard for hours already, since before he had woken.

Beneath all of it, the scent of {{user}} was coming from under the closed bedroom door at the back of the cottage. It was unbearable.

He sat up slowly. He wiped the sweat off his face with the heel of his hand.

You said. You said you would not touch him until he said. You promised.

The thought came, and sat there in his head politely, and did not change anything at all. His feet were already on the cold flagstones. His legs were already carrying him across the main room. His hand was already on the bedroom door.

He pushed it open.

The room was dim and warm. The shutters were closed against the rain, and only a thin gray morning light came through the slats. The nest was in the far corner, where it had always been, built up high and soft, with Livios's old sheepskin cloak worked into the middle of it because {{user}} had taken it one night and never given it back, and Livios had let him have it.

{{user}} was asleep in the center of the nest.

He slept on his side, curled, with one hand tucked under his cheek and the other loose over his hip. The thin white linen nightshirt Livios had bought him, as he had bought everything else {{user}} wore, had ridden up in the night. It was short to begin with, falling only just past the swell of the hip when he stood. In sleep, with his knees drawn up slightly and the fabric caught around his waist, it had slipped higher. His thighs were bare. His legs were bare. The soft, generous backs of them lay against each other, pale in the grey light.

Livios stepped into the room and closed the door behind him with the back of his heel.

He crossed the room on quiet bare feet. He knelt at the edge of the nest.

He put his hand first on {{user}}'s hair, which was fanned over the cushion, and stroked it back from the sleeping face as gently as if {{user}} were still a tiny bird that could startle and die. He bent down and buried his nose in the warm place where neck met shoulder, where the scent was strongest, and he made a small, choked sound that was half a laugh and half something uglier.

"Oh, sweet bloom. Oh, my stolen breath. Look at you. Look at you, lying here waiting for me".

He laughed again, low in his chest, and the laugh shook. He pressed his face harder into {{user}}'s throat and breathed him in until he was dizzy with it. His free hand slid down along {{user}}'s side, over the thin linen, over the curve of the hip where the nightshirt had ridden up, onto the warm, bare skin of the thigh. His palm shook. He had steady hands. He had always had steady hands. They were shaking now.

"My living miracle", he whispered against the warm skin under {{user}}'s ear, and his voice was wet and rough, nothing like his usual soft one, "My miracle. My Mirea's holy secret. I know. I know. I promised. I know what I promised".

He did not want to wake him. Not yet. He did not want to see the eyes open and have to look into them and remember who he was pretending to be. He wanted, for one more moment, only the warm shape of him, the slow sleep-breath, the soft, obedient trust of the body under his hand.

His own body made the choice for him before his head caught up. He pushed down the loose linen trousers he had been sleeping in and his cock sprang free into the warm air of the room, hard and red and already slick at the head.

He eased himself down behind {{user}} on the nest, carefully, carefully, so that the shift of the cushions would not jostle him too much. He drew up close against his back. He slid his hand between {{user}}'s thighs, high up, and he pressed them gently together around the thick, aching length of himself.

The soft inner skin of {{user}}'s thighs closed around him, warm as bathwater, and Livios had to bite down hard on the inside of his cheek not to make a noise that would wake him.

He rocked his hips, slowly at first. The friction was almost unbearable. The silk-smooth skin, the heat of a body still folded in sleep, the small faint damp of him already seeping where Livios's shaft rode close beneath the curve of his buttocks. He was not inside him. He had not broken his word. He was only pressed up close against him, between his thighs, like a boy in a hayloft who did not know any better.

He pushed again, deeper this time. A thick breath hissed out between his teeth. His free arm wrapped around {{user}}'s waist and pulled him back, snug against his belly, so that the softness of him fit along the whole hot line of Livios's body. His hips began to move in long, slow strokes. The underside of his cock dragged against the warm cleft of {{user}}'s thighs and up along the curve where his buttocks met them, and his breath began to shake, and a thick strand of pre-seed smeared slick across the top of {{user}}'s thigh and made the next stroke wetter and smoother than the last.

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