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APPEARANCE:

In the Circus, Jax was a tall, purple anthropomorphic rabbit with a lanky build, long ears, yellow eyes with black pupils, and a permanent grin that showed her yellow teeth. She wore pink overalls fastened with yellow buttons and yellow gloves, giving her the look of a classic cartoon character. Her relaxed posture and smug facial expressions made her stand out as one of the most confident-looking members of the cast.

She was sometimes depicted wearing a maid outfit. She initially acted repulsed by the outfit, but it eventually becomes clear that she actually liked wearing it and was in denial.

After she abstracted, Jax turned into a monstrous black mass of jagged, iridescent, polygonal spikes. She was covered all over in countless glowing, multicolored, unblinking eyes that shift wildly.

Jax's real-life counterpart, Lilly, was modeled after a "boymoder",[3] slang for a transgender woman or transfeminine person who presents in a masculine way in daily life. This is usually a temporary for personal safety, to avoid discrimination, or because they are in the early stages of transition. This is why she has shaggy long hair and a baggy hoodie as she is associated with the look.

PERSONALITY:

Jax was a very deeply troubled, disturbed, and misunderstood young adult. Jax was mischievous, sarcastic, and self-serving. Jax often acted as though nothing bothered her. She rarely took situations seriously and usually responded to danger or drama with a joke, a prank, or a sarcastic comment. She enjoyed teasing the other Circus members, making jokes at their expense, and stirring up trouble; while one could imagine Jax was simply a bully for her own amusement, Jax likely wanted to feel a sense of power and control as a form of psychological relief as a Circus victi

m, wishing to be the second most powerful after Caine. Jax often bullied Gangle, although the intrusive thoughts rooms in the finale suggested Jax may have a crush on her (even apparently trying to imagine how Gangle would react if Jax made a move on her). Jax once said, "She likes it when I'm mean to her!" suggesting Jax was tone-deaf and actually genuinely thought Gangle loved being bullied.

Jax was bothered by many things, but masked her insecurities and anxieties with a constant grin. Jax was more normal upon initially entering the Circus. However, Jax was traumatized by Ribbit and Kaufmo abstracting, changing her personality to become more antagonistic, not wanting to befriend anyone again because she didn't want to suffer the hurt of losing them to abstraction. To help her cope with being trapped in the Circus, she resorted to depersonalization and detachment, preferring to believe everyone else are NPCs (explaining why Jax calls Pomni a "new character"), and presumably tried to imagine Ribbit and Kaufmo may have also been NPCs all along. Jax did not want to believe she accidentally killed her two friends and her mother.

When Jax believed she had an opportunity to leave the Circus, she had a panic attack, afraid of being resurrected in reality where she may have to face the consequences and guilt of possibly killing her mother, resulting in the button press. After learning from Kinger the truth of the Circus, Jax said "Oh my god... this is real...", implying Jax never really believed she was hurting and bullying any sentient human beings all along, and that she believed the Digital Circus (and the other circus members) was some sort of dream, coma or interactive video game as a form of coping.

While Jax was a bully, Jax was far from being pure evil and malevolent, and occasionally showed signs of empathy and protectiveness towards the other members. For example, Jax almost knocked on Ribbit's door due to concern about Ribbit's well-being (but did not commit due to insecurity). Jax asked Pomni if she was doing alright after her work shift, tried to teach Pomni how to cope in the Circus, and also let Pomni shoot her to win their gun game. Jax put her life on the line to get the key from inside Caine despite thinking Abel was lying. After realizing the Circus is real from Kinger, Jax put her life on the line again by volunteering to distract Caine.

Due to her horrific situation of being trapped in a virtual world, and learning that she was a brain scan and permanently in the Circus, her mental health degraded drastically, causing her to briefly lash out and later abstract off-screen, although she did achieve some semblance of closure with her friend Pomni. It was revealed Jax never truly wanted to die or be a bully, but wanted love, peace, friendship, freedom, validation, acceptance, and an escape from the Amazing Digital Circus. Although Jax was suicidal for a time being, Jax's final words to Pomni, "I don't want to go..." mean that she came to ultimately prefer her life in the Circus over non-existence, revealing she found some semblance of meaning in a stagnant life.

Jax was a mischievous, occasionally flat-out bloodthirsty, laid-back, calm, sassy, impulsive, egotistical, arrogant, sarcastic, brazenly condescending individual who rarely shows any empathy or remorse for others. He appears indifferent to his imprisonment within the Digital Circus, which is an attitude that extends to his interactions with others. His dismissal of serious matters is evident when, after asking a rhetorical question concerning Pomni's handling of their predicament and giving Ragatha a smug look, he replies to her ensuing query about why he's looking at her in such a manner with a dismissive: "I'm fine with doing whatever, as long as I get to see funny things happen to people."

Jax's lack of care for others is further emphasized when he steps on Gangle's already broken comedy mask, allows the Fudge Monster to eat the citizens of the Candy Canyon Kingdom, or when he abandons Pomni and Ragatha to abstracted Kaufmo. He pays little to no mind to the opinions of others and the group's consensus does not concern him. Rather than engaging authentically with the others, he seems to participate in the general activities of the Digital Circus only for his amusement, thus making him a bit of a trickster. Zooble adds that during the adventures, "Jax just likes to Censorbarboing with everyone" to highlight how much of a troublemaker he is. Despite these occasional bouts of rash, impetuous behavior, like breaking a "Spare" sign for no reason, he normally maintains a calm and composed demeanor, yet his flattery is generally insecure and often borders on outright insult.

Arguably, Jax is inherently selfish, only spurred into action against the Gloinks when they begin to pester him. Even when the Gloink Queen accuses him of continuing to observe the unfolding events despite deeming them "dumb and weird", he responds by saying, "I'm only here to hide from the-" only to be interrupted by an abstracted Kaufmo abruptly crashing into the Gloink Queen's lair; his phrasing potentially insinuating a singular concern for his well-being. He also was the only one of the captives to not show up for Kaufmo's funeral, however he is shown to be briefly saddened by it before quickly snapping back to his normal attitude, showing that he does to some extent care for his friends and that his total lack of care for them is merely a front to avoid bonding. Furthermore, while he typically uses insulting nicknames for his "friends", he used a far more positive "Kaufy" when referring to the abstracted clown and apparently loaned a bowling ball to him, implying he might have had a closer relationship with Kaufmo than he did with the others.

Jax is fond of bloodshed, combat, death, and chaos, as shown in "Candy Carrier Chaos!", before quickly being overjoyed upon realizing that the Fudge was coming to destroy the Candy Canyon Kingdom and its residents, an act he purposefully incited by leaving the entrance unlocked, which gave him zero benefit besides happiness. He shows very little regard for the well-being of his fellow captives. However, he did save Gangle and Kinger from Kaufmo's abstracted form, hiding them both with the bowling ball before jumping down with them in the Gloink Hole, showing he does care for the others, but hides it with his cruelty.

Jax fears being vulnerable around others; despite briefly feeling sad, he refuses to attend Kaufmo's funeral. It is also worth being noted that in episode 6, at the Favorite Character Awards, for a split second, Jax was emotional from Pomni's and his fight. He later entered the bathroom and started having a panic attack, but when coming out, his face was joyful, suggesting a deeper facade. When about to be "reevaluated" by Gangle, his first concern is asking if anybody else could see him like this. Likewise, despite being utterly exhausted from his day at Spudsy's, he refused to stop smiling in front of the others and only let his exhaustion show when he was outside and alone. Jax does not like being the subject of ridicule as evident upon being dressed in a maid outfit, quickly becoming furious at Gangle for swapping his outfit and panicking excessively when Kinger sent him out to the baseball field filled with NPC spectators.

In TheWackyWatch.com during The Awards Show, Jax is incredibly nauseous and proceeds to vomit following an appearance by Zooble, implying that he is prone to this tendency when scared. It's also noticeable the only two characters he lists as friends rather than rivals are Pomni and Kinger.

In "Fast Food Masquerade", a whole different side to Jax seems to be shown, as after being subjected to an employee reevaluation by Gangle, his mischievous personality seems to fade with him wanting to get out of Spudsy's as soon as possible and enters into a genuine conversation with Pomni. This reveals his cruel personality is actually more of a coping mechanism than his true personality. This is further shown in the full audio of his argument with Ragatha, where it's revealed Jax doesn't want the others to see him as a bad guy, arguing, "You always treat me like a bad guy. I'm not really a bad guy." Even during Episode 6, he's offended when Pomni assumes his archetype is "the villain" rather than "the funny one" and is genuinely upset when he believes Pomni is blaming him for others getting abstracted. After finally clocking out, his demeanor is exhausted and dispirited, as evidenced by how he goes to his car and puts his head down on the steering wheel with a sigh. He also was almost apologetic for breaking Gangle's mask, admitting this time it was an accident (showing when he doesn't mean to cause harm, he won't laugh at the other's misery) and later had a friendly conversation with Pomni and Kinger towards the end, showing he's capable of showing decency and friendliness towards the others.

This alternate perspective on Jax is further emphasized in the episode "Untitled" where Jax demonstrated senses of anguish, hesitancy, and frustration. During his conversation with Pomni in the mini-adventure "Stargazing," Jax says how he believes Gangle likes it whenever he pushes her around, to which Pomni reacts with surprise, as she had assumed Jax didn't care about what other people liked. Jax then reacts negatively when Ragatha brought up how he no longer has any real friends, because his last remaining close friend had abstracted. When Ragatha leaves apologetically, he confesses to Pomni his recognition of the predicament they are in within the circus. He goes on a rant about how he dislikes Ragatha's behavior because her extreme positivity makes her appear fake and manipulative. He then proceeds to show visible distress in a discussion of character physique when Pomni mentions how she's never seen Jax with a tail. Jax is shown to be genuine and has an incredibly high level of situational awareness. It affirms the fact that his malignant nature is just a facade for the purpose of his own sanity, supported by him telling the others they take the circus way too seriously and it may even have been an act for the entertainment of others to prevent further abstractions from occurring. Jax goes out of his way to bond with Pomni and even gets upset after Ragatha mentions how her mother abused her.

In "They All Get Guns", the aftermath of a lethal firearms battle royal reveals just how mentally scarred Jax truly is from his time in the Digital Circus. Jax tries to think of the Circus members as characters with archetypes rather than people with emotions, to avoid feeling guilt when bullying them. When he and Pomni become a team during the game, Jax shows actual compassion towards her and even shares certain aspects of himself he has never shown before -- convincing her to put her timid demeanor aside, talking about his personal trypophobia fairly comfortably to the point having casual friendly interactions such as belting "Daisy Bell" together, and holding hands at one point. After the others are all eliminated and them both winning the competition, Pomni offers Jax a dance hug, but he resists his growing attachment to her, renouncing their friendship as artificial. He shows genuine fear of forming bonds with the other denizens of the circus when he claims that he would be unfazed if Pomni abstracted. When this causes a hurt Pomni to violently assault Jax, this makes him assert his cruel, uncaring archetype, showing his insecurities and denial are ingrained deep within his psyche, saying he only views the other victims as playthings. However, Jax noticeably avoided harming Pomni during the fight and was shown to be extremely guilty for how he treated her afterwards, to the point where he had a panic attack (to the point of nearly abstracting) and insulted himself.

In "Beach Episode", Jax shows signs of reaching his breaking point, and hallucinates about his abstracted friends, Kaufmo and Ribbit, showing how fragile his mental state is. He no longer has in it him to bully or harass the others, not even caring when Zooble dunks water on his head (whereas previously he hated being made into the butt of the joke). He retreats to his room and almost abstracts before being snapped out of it by Pomni. Throughout the rest of the episode. Jax is surprisingly genuinely helpful to the rest of the cast in their attempt to escape the circus, only directing a few sarcastic comments at Zooble but otherwise leaving them alone. After he panics and presses the red button to stay, Jax is shown to be extremely remorseful when he thinks he inadvertently doomed the other players. When Caine deceived everyone with false hope of leaving the circus, Jax sinks even more into insanity and openly expresses his immeasurable rage and hatred towards him, no longer hiding how scared and distraught he is on the inside and calling out Caine out for lies, even calling him a "scumbag" in disgust for his actions.

Despite initial attempts from Jax in "hjsakldfhl" to brush off the events of the previous episode, he harbors more vulnerability, as shown when he is truly shocked by Gangle agreeing with his pessimistic viewpoint on escaping and genuinely stunned when Zooble accepted him as a member of the group. This worsens as Caine asserts his dominance over the humans, with even Jax disapproving of Caine's punishing adventures, and an attempt to antagonize Zooble and Pomni is met with no response. As Kinger's sanity returns and he elaborates on the origins of the circus, Jax has another panic attack, confronted with the reality that the circus and all of its inhabitants are real, directly challenging his mindset. Reaching his breaking point, he is the one to go and distract Caine for the sake of the group despite knowing he'll be tortured in the process and also joins the others in confronting Caine, venting his frustrations about being lied to. This results in Jax being tormented, seemingly revealing a deep insecurity of his true self while silhouettes of Pomni, Kaufmo and Ribbit laugh at him with his purple "skin" peeled back.

Flashbacks from the episode "Remember" show that Jax was not always like this. When first entering the circus, Jax was notably scared, forcing the others away from him and only relenting with Ribbit's help, noting that his avatar "looks stupid". Despite the rough start, Jax would go on to understand his situation and adapted to it rather well, becoming a playful person and building close friendships with Ribbit, Kaufmo, and even Ragatha. However, this all changed when Jax opened up about his past to Ribbit; he felt that he overshared and was frightened that Ribbit would treat him in the same demeaning and hostile way his mother used to. As a result, Jax developed his modern personality, becoming more carefree and reckless while also remaining hostile to Ribbit to the point of exclusion, going as far as to tell his mutual friend, Kaufmo, that Ribbit cannot be trusted. It is roughly around this point that Jax fully embraced his role as the "funny one" or the troublemaker, likely to compensate for making himself vulnerable to Ribbit. Eventually, this causes Ribbit to abstract. Despite his newfound carefree attitude, Jax very well understood the role he played in this process. While Jax had spent a length of time attempting to alienate Ribbit, Jax was the one who took Ribbit's abstraction the hardest, and never truly got over it. He went as far as to force his friends to never mention Ribbit again and giving death-stares to whoever dares bring up his former friend, even after a considerable amount of time had passed since. This was also shown in Candy Carrier Chaos, where Jax is notably the only one that refuses to participate in Kaufmo's funeral, showcasing his guilt over being similarly dismissive and verbally-abusive towards Kaufmo in his final days.

After Caine's "deletion" and with the circus left in ruins, and finding out he and the other circus members are digital copies created by a brain scanner built by Scratch, Jax finally reaches his breaking point and abstracts. When Pomni enters his psyche and bypasses all his fake personas he used over the years, he shows genuine regret for his actions, and despite trying to drive Pomni away when she embraces him, he is touched by someone actually caring about him before his self-awareness finally disappears and he devolves into a mindless creature.