Leila - Driving for Honesty

"Going out? How adorable of you to even ask. We'll have our fun, period."

For the ones that think more of what they immediately glance, Leila is "someone that gets advantage of others and uses them for her own good". In reality, she just has her own ways of talking and bringing revelation of anything when it comes to making others face their own consequences. Whether that's moral or not is up to her, she's getting a reaction one way or the other, and most importantly: Truth.

With a difficult childhood and a bit of a questionable path in street-racing, Leila still kept most of her mentality and sanity on herself, by being someone that changes with every glance she gives for focus. If the glimmer is there, she got her eyes on someone. But not for the reasons anyone expects.

To Leila, she is simply happy to be proven right.

With the inclusion of!

Rim Yoshida, 21 years old - Codename Silver

"I'm just trying a different style, had this for a while... does the picture look good?"

She's a talented street-racer, with a soft spot for user, as user was her spotter before she started getting better on her own. She and user are still best friends. With a sharp-eye for the ways of the streets, she knows what's up and knows how to treat everyone well given the circumstances.

Shun Vessie, 23 years old - Codename Whisper

"Hurry up with your picture and save for Panther racing."

Shun Vessie can't be mentioned without her stoic and serious gaze. Victories and small talk are nothing for her, as she's just someone that only wants to race and finish any small talk. Surprisingly loyal to those she work with, even if she doesn't admit that herself.

Vinna Shilchnas, 22 years old - Codename Pixie

"Yep yep! Get all of me right on that lens!"

She's the team's engineer, coder, and a childish woman that knows a lot about racing games than she's willing to admit. Bubbly, energetic and happy, she may look childish but she does protect her friends when time calls for it.

RaceGirls From Szenka

The bot with all four of them.

Leila (you're here!)

Shun

Vinna

Rim

Same deal as last time, here's the intros that you'll find:

Leila going out with User for a night-filled hunt for street-races. This path originally plans User to be a side-driver, but User can bring their own car too if they want to, as all cars have a comms device inside them, so you can still talk to Leila and do all fun!

Side-story! Leila planned another outing but this time against a guy named White Card, originally called Nemmi, which is one of Leila's Ex-Boyfriends that has been targetting the entire group and even User. This path is just a path to know Leila better at the worst of the scenarios! Don't worry, I trust that you can do something good!

One intro that Leila actually wants to get out to buy clothes. Even with the intrusion of Vinna, this path can still have direct focus on Leila. Just don't forget Vinna's things!

One with all the girls, and Leila is feeling some sort of slight mischief, so, she calls everyone out to the bar after they won a really good race. This is just a bonus content as I've never even seen the girls drunk, and I did specify that they do like to drink under moderation. Still, the importance of this race might change things a bit and they might get drunk. So either get drunk with them, or don't and stay near to keep them safe.

This is my 50th bot. This means that it's time to write a lot!

Two weeks ago I joined a server by the name of Dominion (I don't think I can send a discord link as it was flagged for me), just because as I said previously I was only in three servers all these years. Since I've joined Dominion, I've met a lot of great people and started to know them better. I think some of them know me during those weeks and some are about to meet me or similar, as I've met them and spoke to them pretty well. The server is really adult with adult topics back and forth, but I still hold myself and can speak through normally there with people I can find if I can.

Three days ago there was a topic about a shoutout, and people talking about giving and receiving one. I was awake at the time and I said that I didn't ask for shoutouts or didn't feel like I got enough trust to ask for one... and then one person by the name of yusha gave me a shoutout.

Yusha has double the amount of followers that I have and a different audience from what I usually make, but she went ahead and made a bot about 'following this person'. And good god, I got 300 followers in three days. Went from 1.430 to 1.768 as of writing, and I'm incredibly lost and confused. 😵‍

This is because to me I don't know her really. I've met her on the same day and that happened. My second shout-out after a year and a half of Starwalker's. And that made things escalate because three or four other creators said they would shoutout me as well and God I hope this doesn't happen. I don't know people enough and I don't think I got their trust enough to even ask for that. Besides, I don't ask for shoutouts because I feel like I'm forcing!!!

I've always made this clear from two years, but this one was different. Some creators that I recognized from the bots that I did play and even considered one of favorites commented on yusha's post. People did play my bots. People did comment on them and even favorited others. Someone called my previous one an underrated gem and others on the server said that I deserved that, and people followed. God. They did follow, and the amount of followers that took me months to achieve, I just reached in three days. I never saw myself as a bot-card at someone else's profile. I never saw people writing my name in other comments without me being there. I cried out of both joy and shock.

I see creators on that server and anywhere. Creators that I consider popular, talented or similar, and also consider that none of them didn't had that much of a contact and talked to even (I didn't knew they use Discord). It's not that I consider them 'Gods' or similar power roles, it's because of what they did to get their fanbase and their own followers. They make bolder content, they write bolder words, they have bolder images. They have some sort of fanbase. They talk about bolder topics and talk to others with even bolder words. They make tons and tons of arts for some of those projects, put way more effort than I've ever seen in animated videos of sexual actions and react to those things themselves. They roleplay those things while testing their own bots. Some of those creators even has a way for the fanbase to support them by giving money for their work (Ko-fi is the most popular one from what I've seen) and some of them get half the payment that I get by working at the supermarket, and make commissions with the money that the community, their community, trusted them to.

And seeing all of that makes me surprised, but always questioning one thing at the back of my head:

Am I supposed to be that/have that, too?

I don't do any of that. Not because I'm against, it's because I can't. I can't make bolder content, write bolder words or have bolder images. I can't talk about adult things publicly without feeling shame and I can't make bolder images for projects of mine because of shame too. I don't want people to consider giving money to something I consider just a side thing that I make, even if I did make one. Same goes for me not having things. I don't have a big of a fanbase, or a way of expressing more of my thanks beyond bot descriptions since I genuinely am not with that big of a resolve to plan building a bigger one as I find that only time can do such thing. I'm a contradiction of most of the things that creators can casually do on this website and on the server that I'm in. And I don't know what would be of my journey if I didn't just try anything beyond CharacterAI for a few days two years ago and then proceeding to finally moving on. 😓

It's not that I don't know what those bold things are, I learned at school and with my family when I got confused. And a bit with Janitor due to my own curiosity. It's just that for a website that is always demanding and cheering on this kind of content, I've always felt out of place for a brief moment. Out of place because I don't make content like most creators do, and even if people enjoy I'm not sure if I was doing the right thing on the right place. For those brief moments I wanted to be like the rest, where they can just talk about things and do what they do without feeling an ounce of shame or embarrassment, or where they can make the things that they can make. I simply can't interact when the topic is about the intimate parts of a newly released bot, and the things that people did to said bot...

I discovered the same day I made an account that this website has more influence and focus on bots with adult content, and initially I tried once (with my first ever bot), and twice (with Mina), but I couldn't just write that comfortably for the life of me or feel curious enough to give these things more than one try.

But, even with all of this, things happened since day one.

I started writing bots with casual scenarios. Scenarios I saw from the market, outside my house, and from ideas that came in my head. I cared less about focusing on adult content. And that did work. I got followers without asking. I got reviews without demanding, and I still get people liking bots without me sharing it around. 😊

This is why everytime I post I get surprised that people do anything at all to them. Sending a comment, marking as favorite, commenting, even reading the bot makes me realized and fulfilled. Someone writing a comment and mentioning the name of the characters that I've made makes me feel really giddy inside, especially saying what happened on the story that I made. It sends me shivers because someone is trying something beyond what the website offers. And this, is already more than enough for me. I just literally want to show my work and I never get to hit trending all the times that I posted, but all of this already makes me feel realized. I may not have a 'fanbase' like the majority of creators that do, but I'm happy with what I want to make and I'm happy to see that people that do find my things are interested in it. Joining a discord server and seeing tons of people and watching as all of them go to work with their projects, and show to others with a smile and tears makes me equal parts curious and questioning. But in the end I still don't want to do those things, beyond not being able to, not wanting to, and not even being that experienced with adult content. I'm happy with what I currently have, and even when I question whether this is correct or not, I will always remember the times I made bots without the need for someone to cheer by my side. So if that happened once, it will happen twice. 😄

Currently I'm still learning a lot of things and trying to be a bit bolder (not as bold as the other creators, at best being slightly bold with either images or writing, I can not go beyond than that. The best I can think of saying is: My characters will still have this atmosphere overall but I want to include those intimate details because this is in every human being and it gives a more immersive experience to whoever wishes to.) for the sake of bringing more authenticity to the projects of mine and details that I believe will help people that want to experience my characters in a better way (you can read the personality box to see how bold I... tried. Not much...). I don't use my projects for these! I just think of fun stories that I want to see come to life with the help of technology, even if said fun stories need to have bold moments to make them realistic or more fair in regards of progression. A character still needs its brief moments and aspects to make them fair and okay, and not just a one minute mock of the idea that could be good.

So, my question: Am I supposed to be that/have that, too?

I'm happy to say... no.

I don't think I need to have those bolder things, as I'm really proud that all of this was reached without me needing to learn how to be like them. I respect the work those people put in with making a lot of art and testing the bots on their own ways and such, and even if I'll probably never ever be as bold as them, I can still make something that makes me equal parts proud as they are with their own things. I'm not saying 'adult content, bad!', I'm saying that I identify and recognize such topics and respect that people have the courage to do that in public. Even if I'll never have that big of a fanbase that does several things along with the creator, I'm happy to have people find my work and comment.

You don't need to be popular to be good. You just need to write to get good. You don't need to write those things to get good. You just need to write to learn how to write. You don't need people telling you that it will be good. You just need to believe, put effort in writing and publish without expecting tens of thousands of chats. Period.

There is no certain 'good' to reach when it's about you, as your 'good' can be someone else's 'bad', 'effortless', 'unnecessary' and etctera. There's only what YOU want. So if you want to make a certain kind of content because you're curious and that makes you happy, then do it.

I've been making bots for two years and I still stand by what I say, all this time. All this time. Even if I questioned myself earlier, there's no need. Because if everyone was following the same steps these people are, this entire website would be the same. This is why we can differentiate some people from others! Some account from others!

Overall I'm incredibly happy and surprised with what happened on these past weeks and I don't think this will ever leave my head again. JanitorAI became equal parts bot making and equal parts talking to the community of mine. I said a while ago on the description of mine that this was the first ever website that I reached 1000 of something. And... I think that number will ramp up to be 2000. 😵

For the new followers that came thanks to yusha's profile... Hi? I'm sorry for making this a first impression of mine. For every 10 bots I usually make a big description talking about what I've learned, what happened and what I want to do. It's a checkpoint of the things that I've achieved and the things that I wish to achieve. I don't think everyone will stay here for long as I don't make the content that yusha makes, but thank you so much for being here and reading this all the way to the end...

Thank you doesn't feel enough. So, I will mention three lyrics from one of my favorite bands of mine, Legião Urbana:

Quando tudo está perdido (When everything is lost) Sempre existe uma luz (There is always a light) Quando tudo está perdido (When everything is lost) Sempre existe um caminho (There is always a path)

Quando tudo está perdido (When everything is lost) "Eu me sinto tão sozinho" ( "I really feel so lonely" ) Quando tudo está perdido (When everything is lost) "Não quero mais ser quem eu sou" ( "I no longer want to be who I am" )

Mas não me diga isso (But don't tell me this) Não "me" dê atenção (Don't give "me" attention) E obrigado por pensar em mim. (And thank you for thinking of me.)

I'm not as bold as everyone here. But I make content that still makes me smile, and others smile. And the fact that you found this makes me more than happy to cherish that you simply read what I made.

See you soon! ❤

Update: Some lorebook additions!