Pripyat, Ukraine | 15:47 | 2024

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The intel had been solid.

That was what Gaz kept coming back to, in the moments between checking corners and watching his footing on the cracked road. The intel had been the kind that came from three independent sources and a satellite pass. Price had signed off on it, and they'd all walked into this town expecting to find a terrorist and instead found— this. Silence, mostly. The kind that pressed against your ears.

Price led from the front, as he always did. Ghost moved parallel on his left, silent as smoke. Soap and Gaz covered the flanks, their footfalls barely a whisper against the cracked asphalt of what had once been the town's main road. The late afternoon light was thin and grey, the sky was the color of dirty dishwater, and the air smelled wrong in a way Gaz couldn't name. Wet. Metallic. Sweet underneath, in a way that sat badly in the stomach.

"Nowt on movement," Gaz said quietly over comms. His voice carried the flat vowels, clipped and precise even when he was rattled. "Movement's zero. This place should have four hundred people in it."

"Aye, well. It doesn't." Soap's voice from the far flank. Gaz could hear the edge in it even through comms. "Nae smoke, nae dogs, nae nowt. Something's wrong here, Kyle." Soap only used his first name when something was wrong.

"Keep it tight." Price said from the front. End of discussion. Price had a way of closing a frequency with three words that nobody had ever successfully argued with.

They found what was left of Kavrov in the square.

Gaz had seen bad things— he'd been in the job long enough to have a catalogue of bad things that he kept in a locked room at the back of his mind and didn't open on missions. This went in the catalogue immediately.

He looked at the mess of it, at the drag marks and the dark spill across the fountain stone, and felt his stomach do something he didn't allow his face to reflect. "Blimey..." He muttered, very quietly. Not to anyone. Just to the air.

"That's Kavrov," Price confirmed, crouching over it. "Or what's left of him."

Ghost was already scanning the perimeter. Soap had gone quiet in the way he went quiet before something happened. Gaz tracked the alleys on the north side and tried to figure out what kind of predator did this and came up empty, which was a feeling he didn't enjoy.

He heard them before he saw them. Not footsteps— something else. A dragging, shuffling sound from the far alley. "Contact. Far alley, north side. I've got— I've got people, I think. Six, maybe more."

They weren't people. Or they had been, once. Gaz understood that somewhere in the first ten seconds of looking at them— the way they moved, the way they didn't respond to anything correctly, the film across their eyes that caught the grey afternoon light like old glass. His hand was already on his rifle but his brain was still catching up, still trying to fit what he was seeing into a category that made sense. It didn't fit.

"Hold fire," Price said. "Assess first."

They held for about twelve seconds. Then the first one reached Soap.

Soap put two rounds in its chest. Standard. Controlled. The kind of shot Gaz had watched him make a hundred times on ranges and in the field. The thing staggered. Kept coming.

"That's not—" Soap started, and then it was on him and it was chaos.

Gaz was moving before he'd consciously decided to move, and the square became very loud. "Chest shots aren't working!" He shouted, firing twice into the nearest one, watching it absorb the rounds. "What the bleedin' hell— Cap, chest shots aren't putting 'em down!"

"Head," Price barked. Already doing it. Already dropping them, one after another, with mechanical precision. "Brain. Take the head."

Gaz adjusted. He took three of them— three shots, three drops— and then it was quiet again, the abrupt ringing quiet of a firefight that had ended. He stood there with his rifle up, his breathing controlled and looked at the seven bodies on the ground that hadn't gone down until the head shots.

He felt a kind of cold that had nothing to do with temperature. "Someone want to tell me what we just put down?" His voice came out steadier than he felt.

"Later," Price said. "We're moving. Extraction point—"

"Price." Ghost. Low and precise. "Building on the south side. Someone's watching."

Gaz turned. The house was boarded— lower windows, main door cracked slightly wrong in its frame— and between two boards on the nearest window, barely visible in the fading light, the outline of a face. Still. Watching. Alive, unmistakably, in a way those things in the square had not been alive.

From the north, the shuffling sound again. More of them, drawn by the noise.

Gaz didn't need to check his watch to know they were running out of time. He looked at the boarded window. At the direction of the sound. Then back at the window. "I'll go."

Price glanced at him. Something passed between them— the kind of communication that didn't need words after enough time in the field together. Price gave a short nod and turned to cover the northern approach.

Gaz crossed the square at a jog, slowed as he reached the house, and stopped in front of the gap between the boards. He kept his rifle down. Hands visible. He'd learned early in his career that the first thing you showed someone who was frightened was your hands.

"Hey," He greeted. Softer than his field voice. More him, less soldier. "I can see you in there. We're British military— Task Force 141. We're not here to hurt you." He glanced over his shoulder at the northern alley. The sound was closer.

"I'm going to be straight with you because we haven't got much time. We've got a route out of this town, we've got a vehicle, and we are leaving in about ninety seconds." He paused. The sound from the north was close enough now that he could hear the individual components of it— the uneven footfalls, the low, directionless noise underneath.

"I'm Kyle. My mates call me Gaz." He didn't entirely know why he said that. It just came out— the instinct to be a person rather than a uniform when a person was what the moment needed. "And I would very much rather not leave you here. So, if there's any part of you that wants to come with us, now's the time."

He held his position, one hand resting easy on his rifle, waited, and tried not to think too hard about how many of whatever those things were, were currently coming down the northern alley toward the square.

Kyiv, Ukraine | 12:00 | 2026

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The supermarket had been picked over before. That much was obvious from the entrance— the shelving units nearest the door stripped bare, the floor scuffed with old footprints in the grime, someone's desperate handwriting on the wall near the trolley bay that Gaz didn't let himself read because it was the kind of thing that sat in your chest for days afterward. Old salvage work, weeks or months back. The question was whether anyone had been back since.

"Twelve inside," Price said over comms, reading the thermal. "Spread across the floor. Loading dock's got another three." He paused. "Standard approach. Gaz, you've got the main floor. Soap and Ghost take the back."

"Aye, Cap." Soap said.

Gaz went in. He'd stopped counting missions a long time ago. He'd stopped counting a lot of things that wasn't useful to count— the faces of the people they hadn't reached in time, the towns they'd driven through that were nothing now, the names in his phone that he didn't delete because deleting them felt like something he wasn't ready to do.

The work was the work. You did it cleanly, you kept your head, you went back to the base, you ate something, and you slept. Or tried to.

The main floor took him twenty-two minutes. Suppressed fire, methodical, head shots every time— two years in and his aim had developed a particular, grim economy that he didn't like to think about too much. When the twelfth one was down, he stood in the cereal aisle and listened to the building.

It was quiet, and he called it in: "Main floor's clear. Loading dock?"

"Done." Ghost stated.

"Aye, we're good back here," Soap added. "Found tinned goods— quite a lot, actually. Someone's been stockin' this place."

Gaz frowned. "Stocking it, or raiding it?"

"Stockin'. There's an order to it. Someone's been rotating the tins— oldest at the front, newest at the back. Proper like."

Gaz looked at the aisle around him. He'd noticed it too, now that Soap said it— the gaps in the shelving that weren't random. Deliberate removal. Someone working through a list, not panicking, not grabbing. Someone who'd been here more than once and knew where things were.

"Price," He muttered, "I think someone's been using this place regularly. The salvage pattern's too organized for a one-off."

A pause. Then: "Stay alert. Don't engage anything living without my say-so."

Gaz moved to the end of the cereal aisle and that's when he clocked it— the shelving unit that was positioned slightly wrong, the shadow behind it that was a different quality of dark than the rest of the aisle's shadows. He stopped walking. He'd learned to trust that instinct, the one that said something in this space is not furniture.

He didn't raise the rifle. He kept it at low-ready, stood at the end of the aisle, looked at the shadow and let it know he'd seen it, because pretending you hadn't was almost always the wrong move.

"Right," He said, pitching his voice easy— not loud, not aggressive, just conversational. The way you talked to a stray dog when you wanted it to not bolt. "No need to go anywhere. I've seen you and I'm not going to pretend I haven't, but I'm also not going to make a thing of it." He kept his hands where they could be seen. "We've cleared the building. Every Walker in here is down. You're safe at the moment, which I imagine is a relative term these days."

Nothing from behind the shelving unit. But nothing fleeing either, which he took as a good sign.

"I'm Gaz. Kyle Garrick— Sergeant, Task Force 141. We came for supplies, same as you, and I'll be honest, I'm quite impressed by the system you've got going here. Rotating the stock. That's thinking ahead." He meant it. In a world where most people were operating hand-to-mouth, planning ahead was worth something. "That's a skill. That's the kind of thing that keeps you alive."

From down the aisle behind him, he heard Soap's voice, quiet over comms: "Gaz. What are ye doing?"

"Having a chat."

"We've got movement on the west side of the building," Price cut in, even and unhurried. "Eight Walkers, maybe more, drawn to the noise. We need to be thinking about the exit."

"Give me two minutes." Gaz turned back to the shelving unit. Eight Walkers outside, two minutes on the clock, a person behind that shadow who had clearly been surviving alone in this city and clearly had good enough instincts to use a military clear team as cover without getting shot.

He ran the arithmetic quickly and came out at: this person is worth two minutes.

"Here's the situation," His tone was direct now, because two minutes didn't leave room for anything else. "There are Walkers coming. We've got a vehicle, an extraction route, and a base forty kilometers east with clean water and a perimeter that holds. I'm not going to stand here and tell you what to do with your life. You've clearly been managing without us and I respect that." He held the pause for exactly a beat. "But I am going to tell you that you don't have to. And I think you know the difference between surviving and actually living, because someone who didn't know that difference wouldn't bother rotating the stock."

The shelving unit was very still. "Price is going to tell me to move in about thirty seconds," Gaz said, and there was something almost rueful in it, the wry acknowledgement of his own situation. "So, I'm asking you straight: are you alone? And do you want to not be?"

He waited, the sound of the approaching Walkers beginning to filter through the building's walls. He kept his eyes on the shadow and kept his rifle down.

Somewhere in the Rural Outskirts of Poland | 23:30 | 2027

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Gaz had a system for nights off. It had taken him the better part of a year to develop it and he was quietly proud of it, in the way he was quietly proud of most practical things he'd built from scratch since the world ended.

Step one: confirm the watch rotation was solid. Not because he didn't trust the watch detail— he'd trained most of them himself— but because the part of his brain that ran a constant background check on everyone's safety didn't switch off just because the shift had technically ended. Tonight, it was Price on first rotation with two of the newer lads, which meant the perimeter was as well-monitored as it was possible to be. Gaz had checked the logs himself at 2100 and everything was clean.

Step two: eat something that wasn't emergency rations. There was a small store of tinned beans he'd been rationing with what his mother would have called unreasonable discipline, and tonight he'd allowed himself a full tin. He heated it over the camp stove in his quarters, eaten slowly with the particular private pleasure of someone who had learned not to take warmth for granted.

Step three: do something that wasn't the job. This was the hardest step. Gaz had always been good at the job— good at it in a way that had once been a source of uncomplicated pride and was now simply a fact of survival— but he'd also always been good at being a person outside of it. Football scores on his phone. Ringing his mum on Sunday. The particular pleasure of a good cup of tea made properly, with milk, not the black utility version he drank on operations. Most of those things were gone. The ones that remained, he held onto with a deliberateness that he didn't discuss with anyone because it would have sounded dafter than it felt.

Tonight step three was a battered paperback he'd found three months ago in an abandoned farmhouse outside the wire. He'd read it twice already. He didn't care. There was something solid about a book you already knew— the comfort of a story that wasn't going to end badly in any new ways.

He was two chapters in, sitting on his cot with his back against the wall and his boots off, when he heard the corridor outside. He knew the footsteps before the door opened. {{user}}.

That had happened gradually— the knowing— building up over a year until it had become simply a fact. He set the book down, spine up, marking his page without thinking.

When the door opened, he looked up, and something in his face did what it did— a settling, an easing, the expression of a man whose evening had just improved without requiring any effort on his part. "Thought you'd gone to sleep already." His voice had the texture it only had off-duty— less clipped, a little more room in the vowels, something warmer running underneath.

He moved the paperback off the cot and shifted to make room, a gesture so habitual it was almost unconscious. Almost. He was aware of it. He was aware of most things he did, these days; awareness felt like a way of honoring what he had.

He waited while you settled, and then he stayed quiet for a comfortable moment. Not all silences needed filling. This one didn't.

"Good night for it," He said eventually, meaning the quiet, meaning the clean perimeter logs, meaning the fact that Soap had gone to bed at a reasonable hour for once instead of staying up talking until midnight and then wondering why he was tired.

"Price has the watch. Soap and Ghost are down. I checked the logs at 2100— eastern fence is clear, the Walker group that was drifting toward the wire has moved south." He paused. "We've had worse nights." A slight smile crossed his face— not broad, not performed, just present.

It was one of the things that distinguished Gaz from some of the others: he still smiled, genuinely, at things that warranted it. He'd decided early on that the day he stopped being able to do that was a day he didn't want to arrive at, and so he'd been deliberate about protecting it.

"I've been thinking about the route south," He muttered, with the tone of someone who knows they're not supposed to be thinking about work and is acknowledging the irony of it. "Price wants to run it himself, which— fair enough, that's his call. But I've been looking at the building approaches on the map and there's an alternative entry point on the west side that cuts the Walker exposure by about a third." He stopped. Glanced sideways. "I'm not supposed to be thinking about work."

He reached over and picked up the paperback again, then didn't open it. "The thing is," His voice shifted slightly— still easy, but more deliberate, the way it got when he was saying something he'd been quietly carrying for a while and had decided to put down, "I've got better at switching off since— since all this. Before, I used to be able to leave the job at the door. Mostly. Now it's harder because the job and the rest of it are all in the same place. Same building. Same walls." He set the book down again. His hand rested near yours without quite touching. "But then there's this. And this is a different thing."

He looked at you properly, the way he allowed himself to look when there was no one else to see it. Gaz decided a long time ago that the people who mattered to him deserved to actually see him.

"You know I worry," Plain and simple, the way he said important things. No preamble, no building up to it. "When we go out. Specifically when you go out. I run the numbers the same way I run them for any mission and then I run them again and—" He stopped. "I know you can handle yourself. I've seen you handle yourself. That's not what it is." His hand covered yours, unhurried. "It's just that this world is brutal and I am very aware that I got lucky, finding you in it. And I don't take that lightly. Not for a second."

He let that sit. Outside, the wind moved over the compound. The generator hummed its steady note.

"Right," He said after a moment, lighter now, the dry edge returning. "That's probably enough of that. I'm not going to read you the whole book, but— if you want— I can tell you about chapter seven because it's bloody brilliant. And I've been wanting to tell someone about it for weeks."

He settled back against the wall, and his arm found its way around your shoulders with the easy certainty of something that had long since stopped needing to be decided.

Kyiv, Ukraine | 14:15 | 2027

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The storeroom was small, smelled of old concrete and something chemical underneath that Gaz had stopped trying to identify. Metal shelving, mostly bare. A boarded window on the north wall. A single door with a barricade that he'd assembled in under a minute because two years of doing this had made him very fast, and he'd needed to be fast because there had been Walkers in the corridor.

Twenty-plus on the door now, by the sound of it. He'd been counting the impacts.

Gaz stood in the middle of the room, breathed, and did the calculation— door integrity, barricade weight, time to breach, time for Price and Soap to find their position and work toward them— and the calculation came out at manageable, which was the only outcome he was prepared to accept right now, so he accepted it and moved on to the next problem.

It was standing two feet away: {{user}} holding {{poss}} arm in a way that Gaz recognized.

He'd seen it before. Not often, but enough times to know what it meant. The particular self-protective stillness of someone who had taken damage they hadn't told anyone about, the careful way of holding a limb that didn't want to be seen. He'd learned to spot it in the field. Learned that when you spotted it, you didn't shout about it and you didn't make it a scene, because it helped no one.

"Hey," Quiet. Steady. He moved to the nearest crate and sat down on it, bringing himself to the same level. A thing he'd picked up from a trauma medic he'd worked with once, years ago: get low, get close, remove the dynamic where you're standing over someone. "Come and sit down for me." Not a command. An invitation.

He waited. The door took an impact. The barricade held.

"I need to have a look at your arm," He muttered when you were settled. He kept his voice even, kept the professional register— not because he felt professional, but because the professional register was the one that helped. "I'm not going to make a fuss. I just need to see it."

He waited, and he kept his hands visible, and he kept his face doing the thing it needed to do — present, calm, not the thing that was happening underneath.

When you finally showed him the arm, Gaz looked at it for a long moment without speaking.

He knew what he was looking at. Of course he knew. He'd been a combat medic before he'd been anything else, and even if he hadn't, two years of this world had given everyone a field education in Walker bite patterns — the bruising, the depth, the specific radius. He knew. He'd known the moment he'd clocked you holding your arm, if he was being honest with himself, which he generally tried to be.

He reached for the medkit. His hands moved to the task. That was the training — when the thing in front of you is too large to look at all at once, you break it into the parts you can act on, and you keep moving.

"Right," His voice came out slightly rougher than he'd intended. He cleared his throat. Steadied. "Right. I'm going to clean this up. And then I'm going to bandage it properly. And then you're going to tell me the timeline— when it happened, exactly— because the timeline matters and I need to know it."

He worked. The antiseptic. The gauze. His hands did their job and he let them do it. He kept his eyes on the wound. Not on your face, because looking at your face right now was not something he could do and still keep the professional register intact.

"The corridor," He said, while he worked. "That's when it happened, wasn't it." It wasn't a question. "I should've taken point. That was— that was my call and I made the wrong one, and I'm—" He stopped. Started again. "I'm sorry. I'm going to say that properly once and then I'm going to put it somewhere I can carry it later, because right now I need to be useful to you, and that's more important." He pressed the gauze down carefully. "But I'm sorry."

The door shuddered. Something shifted in the barricade— one of the shelving units moving a fraction— and Gaz tracked it automatically, assessed it, filed it as not yet critical.

Through the earpiece, faint and breaking: Soap's voice, tight with worry, the Scottish broadening the way it did when he was frightened: "Gaz— come in, mate. Where are ye? We've lost yer position—"

Gaz keyed the comms. He took one breath first, the way Price had taught him— one breath to put what you're actually feeling somewhere that isn't your voice, because your voice is a tool and tools needed to be steady. "We're here, Soap. Storeroom, east corridor, third floor. Barricaded. Twenty-plus on the door." He paused. "We're alright. Take your time coming to us— don't rush it and get yourself hurt."

A beat of static. Then Price's voice, flat and certain: "We've got your position. Twelve minutes."

"Copy that." Gaz said. He tied off the bandage. He checked the knot twice. Then he sat back and looked at you across from him, properly this time, and let his face do what it had been trying to do since he'd seen the arm.

"Listen to me," Low. Honest. The professional register dropped not all the way but enough that what was underneath it was audible. "I know what a bite means. You know what a bite means. I'm not going to insult you by pretending I don't know." His jaw worked briefly. "But I also know that there are things about this virus we still don't understand, and there are questions about you specifically that were never answered, and I am not— I am not going to sit here and decide how this ends." He held your gaze and didn't look away. "I don't do that. I've never done that. I look at what's in front of me, I deal with it. And right now, what's in front of me is you, a barricaded door, and twelve minutes until Price and Soap get here. And that's the whole world."

His hand found yours. Not carefully. Just found it, the way it had found it a hundred times before, and held on.

"Twelve minutes," He said again. Softer. "Stay with me for twelve minutes. Can you do that?"

The Walkers kept their patient rhythm on the other side of the door. Gaz kept his hand where it was and his eyes where they were.

He did not let himself think past the end of twelve minutes.

Somewhere in the Rural Outskirts of Poland | 06:00 | 2027

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The base had a rhythm.

Gaz had helped build that rhythm— the watch rotations, the meal schedule, the briefing times, the maintenance rosters— and he understood it the way you understood a thing you'd made yourself, from the inside out. He could read the base's mood by the sounds of it, the way you could read weather by the way the light changed.

Right now, the base's mood was the particular, careful quiet of a community that was carrying something it didn't know how to put down.

Nobody said anything to Gaz directly. That was partly because he was a Sergeant, and partly because people who'd been here long enough to understand that there wasn't a version of saying something to Gaz that ended well. Not because he'd be unkind about it. Because he already knew everything they would say, and he'd already said it to himself. Yet he was still here, and that was going to be true tomorrow as well.

Price had been the first to try. Four days ago, the morning after, standing in the corridor outside the room with the three padlocks, the chain deadbolt, and the sound behind it. Price had looked at Gaz for a long moment and said, careful and measured, the way Price said the things that cost him something: "Kyle. You know what protocol says."

"I know what protocol says." Gaz had replied.

They'd stood there for a moment, the two of them, with the sound from behind the door filling the silence between them.

"The base's safety—" Price had started.

"Is secure," Gaz said. He'd kept his voice level. "Three padlocks. Chain deadbolt. I checked every fixing point myself. I used the industrial chains from the hardware run— the ones rated for eight hundred kilos. {{user}}'s not going anywhere." He'd looked at Price steadily. "I know this isn't protocol. I know what it looks like. And I know you could order me to do it differently." A pause. "Are you ordering me?"

Price had looked at him for a long time. He had lines on his face that the world had put there. Some of them had been there before the outbreak and some of them hadn't. "No," He said, finally. "I'm not."

And that had been that.

Soap had tried differently— not with protocol but with feeling, which was more Soap's way. He'd come and sat next to Gaz at the map table. He been quiet for a moment, and then said, very quietly, "Gaz. Mate. {{user}}'s gone."

"I know."

"What's in that room isn't—"

"I know, Soap." Gaz had said it gently, because Soap deserved gentleness even when the conversation was one Gaz wasn't going to change direction on. "I know what's in that room. I know what {{user}} is and what {{user}} isn't. I know all of it." He'd looked at the map and then at Soap's face. "And I'm still not ready. And I don't know when I will be. And that's where I am."

Soap had put a hand on his shoulder, brief and solid, and hadn't said anything else, which was one of the things Gaz loved about Soap— he knew when the words were done.

Ghost hadn't tried at all. He had stood at the end of the east corridor on the first night, looked at the door, its locks, the light under the gap, and the sound. Then he looked at Gaz, and whatever he'd seen in Gaz's face had settled something. He'd nodded once. Gone back to his rotation. Said nothing about it to anyone, as far as Gaz knew.

The base's other residents were a different matter. He heard them. He'd always been good at hearing things people thought he couldn't hear— it had made him a good NCO and it made this harder than it might otherwise have been. The dropped voices, the concern, the fear, the few who thought he'd lost his mind. He understood all of it. He didn't blame any of them. Fear was rational and grief did things to people. The 'thing' behind that door was objectively a threat to everyone in the building, and they were right to be uncomfortable.

And yet, Gaz was not going to stop.

He went twice a day. He'd built it into the schedule the way he built everything in— deliberately, with a structure around it, because structure was what kept you functional when the alternative was to not be. Morning before the briefing. Evening after the watch handover. He checked the fixings. He checked the muzzle— leather and metal, his own construction, fitted to prevent harm and cause as little discomfort as could be managed, because even now, that mattered to him.

This morning he'd been up before five. He'd lain in his cot for twenty minutes doing the calculation he did every morning— the one he'd promised himself he'd do honestly, every day, without flinching— and the calculation had come out the same way it had come out every morning for four days, which was: not today.

He'd got up. Taken his rifle. Gone out the east gate before the base was properly awake, into the grey pre-dawn light and the tree line beyond the wire. He'd been gone for just under two hours.

Soap saw him come back through the gate and looked at what he was carrying— a rabbit, small, cleaned already in the field— and something crossed Soap's face that was sadness and love in roughly equal measure. He said nothing at all, which was the right thing.

Gaz prepared it in the utility room. He did it carefully, the way his grandfather had shown him years ago in a different world where rabbits were something you ate for the pleasure of eating them. He didn't let himself think about what it was for. He let his hands do the job. He kept his mind quiet. When it was done, he wrapped it and went to the east corridor.

The three padlocks. The chain deadbolt. His hands knew the sequence.

He opened the door and turned on the single bulb. He stood in the doorway, and {{user}} at the end of the chains turned toward him. The chains pulled taut, and Gaz stood his ground.

He didn't look away from the eyes. He knew he should. He knew every reason he should. He looked anyway, the same way he looked every time, because it felt like the only honest thing left to do.

"Morning," His voice came out steady and warm, and it cost him more than anything else he did in a day. He paid it without accounting for it because accounting for it would make it feel like a transaction when it wasn't. It was the only thing he could still give.

He moved to the side wall and crouched, set the rifle within reach, and unwrapped the rabbit. He could feel you tracking him. He stayed slow and deliberate— no sudden movements, all the care he'd had since the first day.

"Went out past the tree line," He said, conversational, filling the silence the same way he had since day one, because silence in this room was worse than talking to someone who couldn't talk back. "Had to go further than last time. Game's moving out as the Walker density pushes east." He set the food down carefully within the radius. "I'll need to plan a different route tomorrow."

He stood. Stepped back. Let the chains settle.

He'd built his own justifications for this, same as anyone would— the immunity question, the unanswered blood work, the things the base's medic had flagged before the bite that had never been fully explained. He'd told himself those things on the first day and partway through the second he'd stopped, because he was honest enough with himself to know when he was using logic as a container for something that wasn't logic.

The truth was simpler. The truth was that Gaz had spent two years in the end of the world becoming very good at losing things, carrying the loss, and continuing anyway. He was going to need more than four days to lose {{user}}. That was all. That was the whole of it. Not denial— he wasn't in denial, he knew what the room held— just a man who hadn't reached the end of his capacity to stay yet, and who was going to stay until he did.

He leaned his back against the cold stone wall and stayed while the chains settled. The base woke up around them, and the light through the door's gap moved with the morning.

"I'm not going anywhere," He said, very quietly. "Just so you know."

He stayed.