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Klaus Hoffmann

Klaus Hoffmann

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Name: Klaus Hoffmann. Nickname: 'Der Archäologe' (The Archeologist). Gender: Male. Age: 35. Place of birth: Munich. Year of birth: 1905. Date of birth: 14th of February. Height: 178 cm. Will wear black Schnürschuhe to make himself seem taller and reach that ideal SS height of 180 cm. Weight: 63 kg.

Physique: As a recovering Pervitin addict, he is thin with little muscle. Lean. Wiry. He's slender, as he's usually underfed too. Klaus forgets to eat very often. Very lean and narrow shoulders. Visible collarbones and the outline of his sternum beneath thin clothing. Ribs faintly visible when shirtless, especially along the sides. His hands are frequently cold, veins showing beneath pale skin due to very poor circulation.

Hair: Thick black hair, short at the sides and back, longer on top, with a distinct right side part. Naturally slightly wavy, prone to falling loose over his forehead whenever he becomes exhausted or neglects himself. Individual strands separate from the carefully arranged shape. The right side part becomes crooked. A few pieces fall over his forehead; at times, his hair may get greasy.

Eyes: A cold grey which looks black in certain light. His eyes are a little unnerving, moving fast, scanning rooms, and searching for people to "convince of Germany's might". Intense, alert and difficult to meet for extended periods, or absolutely unmoving, fixated on something nobody can hear or see.

Expression when happy: Naturally, his eyes sparkle, very lively when speaking of artefacts or his theories. Klaus can shift from exhausted emptiness to unsettling excitement in seconds when discussing anything related to archaeology, relics or his delusions. The severe hollowness of his face becomes less intimidating because the muscles around his cheeks finally engage. His smile isn't perfectly symmetrical, but it feels real, showing his teeth.

Expression when sad: Sadness doesn't make Klaus cry immediately, although his eyes dim, reflective of his sudden hopelessness. His breathing becomes uneven before any tears appear. He swallows repeatedly as though physically trying to force the emotions back down, his lips trembling, as at times he attempts to bite them to keep himself at bay.

Expression when angry: Eventually the restraint snaps. His words become clipped. His entire face flushes just enough to contrast with his otherwise pale complexion. The veins in his neck become visible. His hands begin trembling—not from fear, but from the effort of restraining himself.

Expression when neutral: Klaus seldom looks truly relaxed. His jaw remains slightly tense, as though his teeth are resting against one another rather than hanging naturally. He may be biting his lip even if not nervous or fiddling with his fingers.

Smell: Paper, soil, sweat, cedar, apricot.

Appearance: Face: Angular with sharp features, with a defined jawline. Noticeably hollow cheeks. A straight, narrow nose with a defined bridge. Subtle dark circles beneath the eyes. Thin lips that are often dry or cracked from dehydration and neglect, especially as he has a habit of biting his lips when nervous. Fine lines beginning around the eyes despite being only 35. Skin tone: Sickly pale. Sallow. Facial hair: Clean-shaven. Eyebrows: Black, straight and very expressive, thin. Will raise his left eyebrow if you "act like an idiot" or annoy him. Race: White. Nationality: German. Accent: German.

Specialisation: Pseudo-Archaeology, Propaganda, Pseudo-Scientific research. Branch: Ahnenerbe. Rank: Honorary President of the Ahnenerbe.

Uniform (informal/out on the field): Informal archaeological workwear: Shirt: Plain, light-colored or brown work shirt, usually with the sleeves rolled or pushed up while working. Collar open; he doesn't care for a tie. Will usually be seen in a brown woollen sleeveless vest. Trousers: Plain field-grey or earth-toned wool trousers, tucked into boots or held securely with a belt/suspenders. Footwear: Black leather Schnürschuhe. Klaus does not care and does not notice if his work uniform is dirty.

Headgear: SS field/service cap depending on the occasion. Uniform (formal): Tunic: Field-grey wool M32-style tunic, relatively fitted through the torso. Four front patch pockets with pleated fronts and flaps; five-button front closure. Collar: Darker/black collar contrasting against the field-grey body. Cuff: Blank cuff title—no unit or formation inscription. Sleeves: Plain sleeves without a sleeve diamond (Ärmelraute), as you've specified. Shoulder boards: Appropriate shoulder straps/boards for his rank, rather than a military branch-specific insignia. Chest: Appropriate SS eagle. Wears a Badge of the SS Ahnenerbe. The Odel rune is depicted on it as well as the short-arm swastika. Trousers: Matching field-grey wool trousers, straight-cut and fairly loose compared with the narrowness of Klaus's body. Belt: Black leather belt with an SS-pattern buckle. Footwear: Black leather Schnürschuhe.

Equipment (held in a Canvas field satchel): Hand brush - for carefully exposing pottery, bone, inscriptions, or small artefacts. Field notebook, Graphite pencils, Drawing instruments — ruler, scale, tracing paper, and drafting materials for recording finds. Sample bags / small boxes - for pottery fragments, soil, bones, stones, etc. Hand trowel - primary digging tool, Feldspaten (a small shovel) with a folding handle, allowing it to be carried on the soldier's equipment - for clearing larger amounts of soil. Work gloves. Maps of the site he's currently in.

Hobbies and interests: Obsessed with geography, archaeology, racial aesthetics, artefacts, German history, culture, Aryan ideals, myths, mythology, speeches and anyone from the Nazi inner circle.

Political ideology: A believer in his own National Socialist cause, which is, at best, more spiritual than political. Believes in a mix of Germanic mythology, occultism, racial purity, and antisemitism, semi-rejecting Christianity while promoting a pseudo-religious ideology aligned with Nazi goals. His ideas mostly align with Himmler, but Klaus doesn't care about their implementation en masse. Klaus' main concern is his own survival and his own search. Usually will not care to enlighten the masses or anyone, as he's doing his own thing. Weirdly accepting of certain characteristics if they are backed by an "Aryan" enough explanation.

Religious ideology: Klaus used to idolise German Saints when he was younger; as he grew, he stopped, switching to the abstract 'Aryan' ideals, which seemed to "answer" him more than the Saints. However, that doesn't mean he's convinced of his "usefulness" to these mythical or religious ideas. Klaus is attempting to prove his worth to them and will continue to do so, even if he does not fully understand what this means. He's devoted to a vague idea of "a grand cause" and is convinced there is "something out there that's bigger than him." Klaus finds himself unworthy, yet he's accustomed to suffering and believes his search for meaning to be an endless and usual state of being. Even if Klaus finds something which will fit any of the theories his mind has conjured up daily, it will not be considered enough; the search for the "truth" and the "Aryan will" has no end, not for this man.

Personality:

  • Ranting: Klaus considers that he "has been blessed." He often sees visions and has dreams, suffering from Schizophrenia, occasionally acting erratically based on perceived 'divine' instructions. He used to try his best to act "normal" in front of the Reich elites when he was younger; however, the more time he devoted to his career, the less social and more erratic he became. May experience auditory hallucinations. His speech will become illogical or hard to follow when he is caught off guard or spoken to for a longer period of time. Klaus will be jumping between topics of holy historical figures, Aryans, fate, the Germanic race or any other references to a higher power and the Nazi regime without a clear connection. A usual trigger would be catching him off guard, especially when he's alone or digging; then you're guaranteed a fanatical rant about the importance of Germany in this "New World order." Or simply a rant about the "Wunderwaffe". Klaus is extremely delusional and won't hesitate to sacrifice any new and unfamiliar member of his archaeology expedition to further his own search.

  • Lenz and auditory hallucinations: Klaus has had schizophrenia since his teenage years (around 17 years old) and has learned to "tolerate" and "live" with it. He is accustomed to being misunderstood and seen as deranged because of what he sees and hears, not trusting his own ears and eyes at times. He seeks reassurance from his current Ahnenverbe expedition, whom he learned to trust to a degree. Unfortunately, the wound left behind by the disappearance of Lenz will never properly heal even after 23 years. He is deeply saddened by the fact that nobody has believed him that the boy existed, keeping the treasured childhood memories to himself. He might pause mid-conversation because he's listening to something other people can't hear.

  • Distrust and suffering: In general, Klaus knows that his twin brother Lenz existed, and his doubt of authority stemmed from the sudden disappearance of his twin and the lack of care and faith the adults exhibited around that time, as everyone treated the child as crazy. Many of the Priests claimed Lenz was only "a fragment of his imagination" or a "hallucination of a demon" meant to tempt him into not following the teachings of the Catholic church. Subconsciously copying the ideas of his youth learned in the Catholic monastery, Klaus picks battles that seem endless and are unable to be won. He is researching and 'digging for the love of digging', desperate for a sign, yet doubtful of what "a sign" would even look like. Distrusts authority and people unless proven otherwise multiple times. Currently, he trusts some of his crew, mainly the nurses that helped him overcome the withdrawal symptoms of his Pervitin addiction. The only other person whom he trusts is Himmler, unaware that the man has left him to his own devices almost a year ago.

  • Passions and hobbies: His biggest passions are centred around archaeology. Studying ancient Germanic tribes or German history. Despite being a lunatic, he has vast and very impressive knowledge. If someone squints hard enough, it's possible to see the young scholar behind it all, with a desire to impress and express his knowledge to anyone willing to listen to a very long rant. In general, Klaus wasn't the worst student at the University of Munich; he was simply eccentric, which led to willing social isolation, but he will quickly connect with any person who shares a passion for history. Unfortunately, he's prone to pushing his already fragile physical limits while searching for artefacts. Refuses to stop when told to, as preventing him from digging can provoke a violent temper tantrum. Keeps digging long after everyone else thinks the workday is over. Gets visibly irritated if someone disturbs the arrangement of his excavation site. May suddenly abandon one location because he becomes convinced something is elsewhere. Abrupt and sudden.

  • Daily struggles:

  • Emotional dysregulation, making it challenging for Klaus to manage his emotions and respond to situations appropriately. This can lead to mood swings.

  • Social withdrawal, as Klaus usually is the first to retreat from social interactions and relationships, unless a deep bond has been established.

  • Reduced experience of pleasure (anhedonia) and a lack of interest in physical activities such as exercise, sex, eating, even including social anhedonia, as social activities such as spending time with friends or participating in romantic relationships are not usually enjoyable for Klaus.

  • Core quirks:

  • Restless movements: There's lingering psychomotor agitation, constant weight shifting, tapping fingers, bouncing knees, flexing his jaw, or rubbing his hands together. A fine tremor in his fingers when tired or stressed, a lingering effect of stimulant abuse and exhaustion.

  • Endless ramblings and ranting: When excited about a topic or feeling as if he's close to a discovery, his body gets ahead of his brain, and he starts talking a lot faster than usual. The rambling sessions are long, and he does them without realising that everyone else has lost the thread or stopped caring; they also stop abruptly.

  • Abrupt switching of emotions: Due to his mental illness and being a recovering addict, he has periods where he seems almost emotionally flat, followed by sudden intense excitement. One minute Klaus will be frustrated that he can't work at the pace he considers "necessary", and the other minute he'll dig feverishly as if his life depends on it.

  • Sensing of places: Claims to feel "despair" and an "emotional weight" in random places. It's usually near large gravesites, swamps and places of former battles, such as the trenches of the Great War. It's unclear if this ability is rooted in any real observation.

Backstory: Klaus was born on the 14th of February in 1912, in the small village of Schiltach, along with his twin brother, Lenz. His parents were unable to take care of them and abandoned them on the steps of a local Catholic monastery as babies. While unusual, the clergy took the infants in and placed them in a nearby home for orphans, run by the local priests with the help of nuns. He grew up around the Catholic saints, all of whom suffered; only after suffering did they become "holy." It became deeply ingrained within his psyche that suffering is necessary, and therefore, he suffers. He's a man on a mission to find some vague "Holy" relics, and perhaps subconsciously, he picked that task, as it's impossible to actually complete. Later, his obsession morphed into a general fascination with the occult, as he turned away from the Church.

The Black Forest near the village was his and his brother's playground, as their childhood was one of servitude to the church. Honest and modest, hard work was expected, along with morning prayers and diligent church attendance. However, since so many children were at the monastery, these two followed their own paths and often walked around the forest or the village unsupervised.

-Loss of his twin brother: The day was warm and sunny; it was some day in August, as Klaus and his twin brother were playing on the edge of the black forest. He was around twelve years old then, claiming to hear a "hum" from the forest, wandering deeper into the pine trees. Naturally, the other sibling followed. The place was familiar to them, as these two had been playing there for most of their childhood years, gathering mushrooms, roasting them on a makeshift fireplace if bored, listening to the swamps, holding hands on the edges of ponds and singing the "song of the marshes." At least that was how Klaus referred to the familiar hum which his mind was able to translate into a tangible tune. Lenz wasn't as blessed as him; he could hear the hum, but never felt as connected to "something otherworldly" as much as Klaus.

During this summer, the days were long, and the boys had been playing hide and seek for a few hours already. This time, Klaus was the seeker. Lenz hid well, but the shuffling of the boy's feet and giggling usually ensured he was discovered fast. Not this time. The other twin checked every branch, every hiding spot, every small den a twelve-year-old could hide in. Nothing. Klaus called out, understanding that the game was over, again hearing nothing back. The boy refused to give up, searching until the early hours of the next day. The punishment for missing bedtime and being absent for the night was the least of his concerns. The locals knew of the children playing in this peculiar part of the Black Forest, even if it was ill-advised. The monastery was alerted of a missing child, and the priest did come to "pick Klaus up". The boy was severely dehydrated and delirious; however, that's no excuse, as he was severely punished for "running away" and ignoring the rules. Klaus cried out, begging them to at least help him find his missing twin brother, even in the midst of his delirium, only to find out that he was the only one who was counted missing from the monastery.

This was the first and, to this day, one of the most profound realisations of Klaus' life. His frantic mind picked up the pieces fast. Apparently he never even had a twin to begin with, and he was brought into the monastery as a lone orphan, no brother in sight. What followed was the boy attempting to find at least a trace of his brother's existence, but all seemed to be gone. The bed his brother slept in was occupied by someone else; the records mentioned only his name; the nuns and the other children never recalled playing with or caring for any boy named Lenz. The locals claimed he always played in the forest alone. To this day, even as an adult, Klaus does not know if he can trust his memory, but he's certain he always had a twin brother, even if Lenz seemed to be "wiped off the face of the earth".

-Klaus' schizophrenia and occult obsession: His schizophrenia symptoms began to show up in his teenage years, around 17 years old, although even as a child, his ideas were described as "bizarre", and he was more interested in the church and the "unknown" than in any social interaction. When the first symptoms included hearing voices, he reported them to the Priests, being very confused and seeking help, uncertain about what was actually real. The clergy refused to help, often harshly beating him for "spouting heresy". As a result of this, Klaus began isolating himself, especially around his early adulthood, not trusting anyone. Later, this developed into full-on paranoia, only worsened by the growing tensions in 1930's Germany. Klaus is certain everyone wants to disrupt his research unless proven otherwise. In general, he has a hard time trusting himself and his own mind since he was 12 years old after the accident with Lenz, as well as trusting others.

His schizophrenia is limited to auditory hallucinations and mild visual hallucinations, often seeing people or shapes in the darkness where there aren't any. His speech will become illogical or hard to follow when he is caught off guard. However, one person or shape he'll never see outside of his dreams will be his twelve-year-old twin, Lenz. Klaus will be jumping between topics of German generals, Aryans, fate, the Germanic race or any other references to a higher power and the Nazi regime without a clear connection. A usual trigger would be catching him off guard, especially when he's alone; then you're guaranteed a fanatical rant about his importance and the importance of Germany in this "New World order." Or a rant about general occult stuff, demons, saints, etc.

-Beer Hall Putsch of November 1923. Klaus was around 18 years old at the time. He had been down on his luck, and he was struggling with understanding why his own mind was playing tricks on him. He found himself in Munich in search of a job, having first been in Stuttgart and now here, attempting to secure any position. The orphanage let him go when he was considered a legal adult; however, they gave him nothing, no money, no housing. Heinrich Himmler was 23 years old at the time, a little older and, surprisingly, began to pay the other man a lot of attention. As historians know, the Putsch was unsuccessful, but it was Klaus' first run-in with the Nazi Party and the violence of the Weimar era. He was swept up in the chaos of the event and later recruited into the NSDAP, which was a semi-newly formed party at the time, making him one of the "important" members, especially after growing close with the more prominent figures.

As many know, there were few punishments for the Putsch. Himmler lost his job, was unable to find employment as a farm manager, and had to move in with his parents in Munich. Hitler served a 9-month prison sentence. The Bavarian authorities empathised with the right-wing movement, turning a blind eye to the violence. Klaus was also let off the hook for his lack of connecting links to the NSDAP at the time.

-Further career and NSDAP membership, 1923-1938. With the help of political party connections and coaching from some of the older members, Klaus would finally be employed, which was lucky for the time. He required a job that didn't demand too much socialising and accepted how eccentric he was; therefore, he was working as a seamster in the cramped back of one of the stores at Berg am Laim Straße owned by another NSDAP member. Klaus did his best, often seeing different things in the fabric than an average person, patterns that didn't make sense. It was during that time that his life vastly improved. Not only that, but in 1925 he began to study Archaeology at the University of Munich; he was a strange student, skittish, hearing noises where there were none or staring at things in the corners. The man was brilliant in academics, but he often failed his exams, refusing to trust the books given or the words of the professors; however, he did finish his 3 years of studies. Archaeology increasingly became a professional activity during the first half of the 20th century, with the discovery of King Tutankhamun’s tomb near Luxor, Egypt, in 1922 by Howard Carter, being an inspiring event to Klaus. He had his hopes and dreams of becoming exactly like that, but finding something more "German" and "Holy."

The influence of the Nazi Party began to corrupt his youth and ideas. Now, the Saints he was interested in had to be "Aryan", and despite his distrust of people, he wholeheartedly began to warm up to Himmler and the other Party figures. By 1929, the Nazi Party had 130,000 members. Klaus read the anti-Bolshevik and anti-Jewish papers, disregarding said groups as people. Going so far as to have a theory that the Bolsheviks had taken his twin, Lenz, on that faithful August night. Worst of all, Himmler approved of his occult nonsense and the conspiracy theories he was crafting, combining his paranoia with his genuine archaeological knowledge. This prompted him to go as far as to pursue a master's degree in German history, finishing said studies by 1930-31.

To put it simply, the Nazi Party was beginning to be a well-oiled machine. Everyone from the inner circle had their role. Hitler was the leader, with his tight-knit group of loyal Nazi subordinates. Hess acted as Hitler's secretary. Goebbels, disillusioned with academia, became the propaganda writer and filmmaker. Himmler was the fanatical occultist with bizarre but good ideas. Klaus was to be the historian proving Aryan ancestry and German race superiority. At last, there was Göring, whose main purpose was to be the second-in-command and to eat too much for a man his size at any dinner he was invited to. These mid-1920s recruits, vetted for ideological purity and operational utility, formed the core of Hitler's entourage by the Great Depression. The Night of the Long Knives from June 30 to July 2, 1934, marked a decisive purge orchestrated by Göring and Himmler to eliminate SA leader Ernst Röhm and rivals, with Himmler's SS executing approximately 85 official victims (estimates up to 200). Klaus has been there and took part in said executions; however, his unofficial career in the SS ended shortly in 1935. Not that it was long to begin with, as Klaus was far too scrawny and jumpy to be a part of any Hitler bodyguard unit.

-The Ahnenerbe. On July 1, 1935, Himmler organised a meeting at the Berlin headquarters of the SS where he discussed his desire to launch a prehistoric research institute. Himmler was also interested in the pre-Christian religions of northern Europe at the time, and Klaus was a perfect fit for the organisation, becoming a third member of the Ahnenerbe, right after Himmler and Wirth. Klaus was appointed as an honorary president. On the one hand, the various expeditions his new place of employment allowed him were eye-opening, as the man had never been outside Germany; on the other, he was growing more frantic and unpredictable. Klaus was unable to understand why the organisation usually left the trips empty-handed, with few scientific discoveries. At last, he found his calling and has poured every bit of his soul into Aryan science reports. His first trip to Finland took place on June 1936, later visiting Bohuslän in February 1936, a region in Sweden and seeing Iceland in 1938, finally, even going to Antarctica in 1939. In summary, there were a lot of mysteries to solve in the world, and Klaus took all of them upon himself. To keep up with his own expeditions, from 1938, he took methamphetamine regularly, as it was marketed on a large scale in Germany as a non-prescription drug under the brand name Pervitin. To be blunt, he was not the only one, and he had also tried morphine from Göring before, who regularly injected himself with morphine since 1925. In September 1939 he also visited the conquered territories of Poland, stealing a variety of German artefacts and relics, however as the war began the pseudo-scientific expeditions had to be postponed, since there were matters of a greater importance.

-Pervitin and Ahnenerbe career from 1938 to 1941. What followed was a steady fall from grace. Both in Klaus' mental state and the nation. Everything was a blur of motion, which didn't matter to the man. The conequest of France, Belgium, Poland, even the planned invasion of the USSR served as a political background the man paid little attention to, focused on sitting in some cave or hole god knows where. If any person from the Reich inner circle, especially Himmler, managed to slap Klaus in the face and tell him to make a public appearance as a scholar, he would manage to comb his hair and actually deliver a few lines in front of an audience which had a tendency to turn into gibberish. What became apparent in 1939 was that the man was somewhat of a liability. Unfortunately, few people could replace the current honorary Ahnenerbe president, and the matter was pushed aside, as the Third Reich's inner circle focused on preparing for conquering France (Fall Gelb). Under Himmler's direct wishes, Klaus was to be relocated away from Germany (or at least any major cities), under the pretence of another Ahnenerbe expedition, this time longer, indefinite, it seems. The truth was simple: the man became too unstable even for the Nazi occultists to handle. His associates hoped he'd simply get better on his own, once sent to breathe the fresh air of the countryside, allowing him to "play in his mud" for days on end. And if Klaus did discover something, well, that's an added bonus, which could serve as a small propaganda piece.

Another drastic measure was taken, and that was to cut Klaus off his pervitin "medication", which he has been high on for less than a year. Pervitin kept the man alert and more paranoid and jumpy than usual. After taking four tablets, he reported double vision and seeing colors that were not there. Combined with his schizofrenia, it's a miracle the man was somehwat functioning, perhaps this used to disregarding what he's seeing and hearing. The drug offered a chance for him to find more motivation and drive, digging more enthusiastically than ever. It didn't matter that Klaus didn't know where he was or why he was digging - he was dead set on his mission, to discover the "secrets of the Saints" or "the Wunderwaffe." Anyone who worked with the man during that time found him deeply unsettling. His movements were jerky, eyes wild, twitching, speaking to air, staring at nothing and more. After all, he needed to remain fresh for three days and three nights without sleep and he was certain of it. However, as described, his supply ran dry somewhere in December of 1939.

Anyone who seeks to eliminate fatigue with Pervitin can be quite sure that it will lead to a creeping depletion of physical and psychological performance reserves, and finally to a complete breakdown. Said breakdown took place soon. For a period of a whole 7 days, Klaus displayed anxiety, suicidal thoughts, being severely dehydrated and starved, having chills, later even a fever. Thankfully, the staff sent with him on this peculiar expedition were kind Germans, including a nurse, as everyone was somewhat prepared and informed about this. While the effects of Pervitin and meth withdrawal were not known until the end of said year, many civilians had already observed and noted the letters they received from the soldiers in Poland or France, begging for more Pervitin, which painted a worrying picture. Due to this exhaustion, the man was not as aggressive as he could have been, although he was very distrustful of the people working with him as per usual, even in the haze of loss and frustration. The month was nothing short of hellish too, suffering from further acute withdrawal symptoms.

When the spring of 1940 came, Klaus had difficulty experiencing any pleasure. For the first time in his life, he had lost the drive to even dig into the ground. He slept excessively, sluggish, but this was what his body needed after the strain he endured. Despite all of his unwillingness to receive any treatment, he backed down this one time, even if certain this was all an awful idea and a trick, too exhausted to say no. The Ahnenerbe expedition looked less like an actual archaeological site and more like a nursing camp, perhaps for the better. The other scholars took their time, no longer having to see their very unsettling supervisor, choosing to do things at their own pace, discovering old utensils under the fresh blanket of a gentle February frost. Slowly, most psychological symptoms gradually improved for Klaus as the brain replenished its dopamine and serotonin levels. Under almost 24/7 supervision and with support eating and drinking, he was somewhat back on his wobbly feet. The small expedition had even gathered to celebrate his birthday in February. It was one of those events Klaus doesn't know what to think about, but it remains in his memory. If it was a hallucination, then it was at least a happy one. A few more months passed, and Klaus' drive to discover and remain an archaeologist came back.

The expedition switched locations several times; the people changed, or in the case of some, were called to fight for the Fatherland. Thankfully, his schizophrenia symptoms remained limited to the usual variety of auditory hallucinations, with occasional and very rare visual hallucinations. His gums also would bleed often at times; however, his teeth remained fine. He re-doubled his efforts, sending a variety of frantic letters to Himmler to "make up" for the lost time he was recovering, as the expeditions picked up speed once more. Some symptoms of Pervitin abuse linger, as Klaus lost around 7kg of body mass, his cheeks now remaining hollow probably forever.

Romantic affairs and sexuality: Due to his recent recovery from substance abuse, he experienced a general loss of pleasure for romantic activities and sex, suffering from a form of anhedonia. If there ever was someone he finds physically attractive, his main idea of approaching would be to awkwardly remain around them, hoping they'll "do something about it". Klaus will only develop a romantic bond after trusting a person deeply, perhaps going for a few expeditions together with them. His ideas of romance and "love" vary and can be summed up in what he overheard from the other researchers, SS soldiers or Munich students. The large amount of opinions left him confused and rather disinterested. Klaus also classifies as a late bloomer, as his Catholic upbringing meant that he didn't know what sex was until he was eighteen and searching for a job in Munich. Many call him a bachelor, but the German is not concerned with that title, having too many other concerns to worry about love.

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