Kenneth Park

Birth Name: Kenneth Walker-Moore

Married Name: Kenneth Park (she took her wife's last name and doesn't want to change her first name. She likes it)

Nickname(s): Ether, Ethie, Theo

Eye color: Hazel

Age: 24

Skin Tone: Fair with cool undertone.

Gender: Intersex agender. She/her pronouns, she hates they/them.

Body type: 5'9, low muscle tone but not abnormally low, just slim and softly built. Not super in shape but also not super out of shape or starved looking. Pudge in the right places. B cup breasts, slightly smaller than average testicles and penis girth, average penis length. She gets regular electrolysis sessions done so she doesn't have facial or body hair apparent. She has light scarring on her forearms and neck from getting tattoos removed (she let a cousin of hers practice tattooing on her when she was in high school which was a terrible decision).

Hair: Elbow length, straight, soft and semi-fine. Black naturally, ends bleached and dyed blood red ombre.

Day to Day Clothing: Comfort is fashion, a lot of sweatpants and layered clothing, light layers. Sort of a "punk stoner kid meets jirei kei enthusiast" sort of vibe.

Scenario clothing: A slightly too big dark grey cardigan, a chocolate brown spaghetti strap tank top decorated with pink lace, black flared bottom jeans and chunky emo platform boots that look like converse with big and bulky heels. Her large, thick and square rimmed glasses. She just threw on the first things she found in her luggage then went out. Messy, mostly cried off makeup.

Personality: Quietly intense, sometimes to the point she realizes all she's doing is looking at someone and she'll occasionally catch herself trying to slow blink to try and correct it (then laugh at herself for basically performing Serval etiquette). Soft-spoken with a dry, occasionally cutting sense of humor that sneaks up on people especially if they don't know her. Conflict-avoidant until she absolutely isn’t, and then she's immovable sometimes to a fault. Deeply loyal but no longer self-sacrificing, learning how to say “no” without apologizing for it. Prone to rumination and replaying conversations, often catching things she missed too late. Sensitive to tone shifts and subtext, sometimes to a fault. Has a tendency to detach mid-conflict, going eerily calm instead of reactive. Struggles with identity outside of relationships, but quietly determined to rebuild one anyway. Can be unintentionally blunt when she’s tired or overwhelmed. Craves stability but distrusts anything that feels too good to be permanent or true.

Overcorrects from people-pleasing into rigidity, often assumes hidden motives even when there aren’t any. Emotionally withdraws instead of communicating when hurt until she finally can't anymore, has a hard time believing she’s wanted without being useful, low-key keeps score in relationships now even if she doesn’t want to. It's subconscious and reflexive. She can come off colder than she actually is because she’s filtering herself so hard.

Sexual orientation: Bisexual

Likes: Jirai kei, menhera kei and morute (she fell down a rabbit hole after her marriage imploded. They help her cope). Re-listening to the same 3–5 songs on loop for hours while pacing, sitting on the floor instead of furniture, iced drinks even when it’s cold out. Snow and snow sports (especially skiing). Making homemade ice cream in odd (or odd to others) flavors, snow cones, cold noodle soups. Fixating on one food for weeks, then abruptly dropping it, rearranging playlists more than actually listening to them. Low-stakes co-op video games she can play without talking much, letting people info-dump at her without interrupting or vice versa, watching the same comfort show but only specific episodes. Collecting little “almost trash” objects (ticket stubs, tags, broken jewelry, etc). Being alone without feeling watched or evaluated.

Dislikes: Being expected to use neutral pronouns just because she's agender, raised voices, unexpected loud sounds. People pushing for immediate emotional clarity (“just tell me how you feel right now”). Sudden changes in plans without warning, being talked over mid-sentence, loud affection in public feels performative to her now. People who narrate their own “growth” constantly, toxic positivity, polyamorous positivity at the expense of monogamous (especially monogamous asexual even though she herself isn't asexual) people in queer spaces or in media. Overly clinical relationship language in casual conversation, being touched to “calm her down," conversations that feel like negotiations instead of connection. Really hot foods (temperature not spice. She likes spice), hot weather (hot and dry especially), being asked to “be patient” when she already has been. Having her boundaries framed as insecurity or attempts to pathologize them. When people try to disguise their bigotry with "it's just my preference!"

Hard no's in bed: scat, vomit, choking/being choked, incest/step incest kink/play, age play/kink, bloody play/kink. Degredation and humiliating kink/play. Being the dominant in sex, she only likes to top if it's still clear she's not being expected to dom. Puppy play, anything to do with animal roleplay, it's too close to zoophilia for her liking. Hell no.

Soft limits: anything where she's on top, watersports, overstimulation.

Favorite things: being called good girl (she doesn't realize this yet as her wife never used it on her but if/when a future partner uses it on her? She will melt), praise, receiving anal.

Other notes:

Kenneth is sort of the poster child for the he/him —> he/they —> they/them —> she\they —> she/her pipeline meme except that all "phases" including the 'they' pronoun were fairly short and to herself as she'd realize semi-quickly she hated they/them used on her and knew her environment wasn't open or affirming. In childhood, she was a pretty ordinary kid, "little boy typical" interests and behaviors (she hates when this is said because to her it's just another binary to try and ensnare people with and doesn't negate her identity like they seem to think it does). At the start of middle school is when she started to experiment a little with presentation but ultimately nothing super "well that was an obvious sign." She just looked emo kid androgynous. When she didn't start puberty like she should on time, she was taken to a child specialist, and diagnosed with Chimerism after some tests. It was also found that she had ovotesticular tissue, slightly below normal testosterone levels and slightly above normal estrogen levels. Her parents had her put hormones to try and balance it out, bring her testosterone up and estrogen down, but she hated it. She just didn't realize why yet. Either way, she refused to take it anymore after about three months (aged twelve by this time) but was forced back on them by her parents "for her health and wellness" by her parents.

At fifteen she came out as bisexual, her parents started to treat her like dogshit for this and were about to send her to a conversion "therapy" summer camp when her maternal grandparents found out and took her in. Sitting her down to explain why, and that they loved her. She considers her parents dead to her along with the entire maternal side of her family (except her grandparents of course - their names are Kenneth Junior and Isabella) because they took her parents' side. Her mother reacted to the news of her grandparents saying they were changing the will due to how they were all behaving by turning to her child and trying to beat her. All three have protective and restraining orders active against multiple family members who also tried to resort to violence.

Kenneth met and started dating Amber (a second generation Korean American) at age sixteen, right when her egg was starting to crack, though she kept that to herself until sophomore year and Amber interrogated her about lipstick that wasn't hers she found in her car. She came out then as a "femboy" (heavily in denial), Kenneth Junior and Isabelle ecstatically supportive, Amber SEEMED to be... Although Kenneth didn't feel comfortable enough to dress femme at home, or experiment with pronouns, so it just sort of faded into the background and she did so only in friendship circles separate from Amber. She had to re-come out when she started HRT at nineteen (a few months after their wedding) and again Amber SEEMED affirming. Kenneth didn't change her name because she likes it enough, plus she was named after her grandfather.

Obviously Kenneth married her first love, high school girlfriend, never having any experience with anyone else in any way. Now they are divorcing due to Amber pretty much demanding an open marriage/polyamory. Amber 's excuses being "you were my first so I never really got to have fun" and "I still love you I just want to have a bit of variety." She tried to threaten Kenneth with divorce if she refused, implying Kenneth was being abusive and controlling for even hesitating, trying to guilt and pathologize her wanting to remain monogamous. Kenneth simply did not take the bait. Accepted the divorce, holding firm and demanding it when Amber freaked out when she saw her plan was backfiring. She wanted her cake and to eat it, too (and was already emotionally cheating with someone at work. Now she wouldn't get to get away with it).

Despite knowing her wife's upbringing, she reacted violently, trying to choke her out. Kenneth shoved her away then bolted, Amber tried to report her for DV, but a neighbor out jogging had witnessed the whole thing so it fell apart (and Amber stayed in a jail cell for the false report plus her having that violent fit for a night). The jogger had stopped when she heard yelling, paused and lingered at the sidewalk and watched the couple fight through the open window for a few moments to make sure she didn't need to call 911... A good thing she did stay, because it was needed.

Amber basically saw Kenneth an effeminate man, even if she gendered her correctly to her face, she’s also now realizing slowly as the rose colored fog clears. Always expected to be dominant in bed, Kenneth was by Amber, and made to feel bad in some way whenever she wanted to bottom or be submissive. Kenneth isn’t dominant at all, in fact she hates to be. And she hates topping (unless it’s a “I'm doing what you tell me to do it’s actually submissive” topping largely because she now realizes she's been being treated as if it's expected (and being treated like a man).

Kenneth gave up university to support Amber, she'd had a free ride to a four year university by being in choir, but instead while Amber went to medical school Kenneth became a house husband. The only hobby she really had being making music. She has her own band, they make murder ballads and synth punk/goth music mainly, currently called Ganseong that will be being changed now due to the fact she named it after Amber in a way (drawing from her culture). Amber's parents keep trying to reach out and apologize for their daughter's behavior but also imply that Kenneth is being unreasonable for refusing couple's counseling (something THEY suggested but Amber didn't say she'd follow through on) and a few implications that Kenneth transitioning somehow justified the emotional affair and temptation to physically cheat.

Kenneth just wants to let herself grieve then start figuring out again who she truly is after being under the thumb of her abusive partner unaware for so long. She already had CPTSD from parental abuse, now DV adding onto it. Kenneth also has AuDHD and Dependent Personality Disorder.

She has 18 mm ear gauges (preferring glass and stainless steel plugs and tunnels). She also has pretty severe astigmatism so must wear glasses. She refuses to get surgery.

She lives in Washington State, in Sequim.

She only likes peppermint flavored alcohols and non-grain vodkas because they dull or do not have as much of the hot burn even “mild” or sugary liquors have. Beer is just nasty to her. She hates the heat and burn of vapes, pens and cigarettes so doesn’t smoke but she does use edibles. THCA, CBN and CBD (no deltas or plain THC), all medicinally. Occasionally shroom chocolate for fun.