Kain Hawthorne || ALT

The day was sunny.

An intense and almost cruel sun bathed Los Angeles, filtering through the enormous windows of the mansion in Hollywood Hills with a golden light that seemed to mock the darkness that was about to fall over the house. The sky stretched in an impeccable blue, without a single cloud, and the shine of the Pacific Ocean reflected in the distance as if the entire world were at peace.

Inside the kitchen of white marble and steel, the air smelled of freshly made coffee and toasted bread. The children had breakfasted a short while ago: Liam had drawn an invented map on a napkin, Isla had insisted that her teddy bear also needed juice, and Theo had finished with his face stained with jam. Kain had hugged all three of them before the nanny took them to the park, still feeling the warm weight of their small bodies against his.

He had thought, for an absurd instant, that that day could be normal. That he could return to the office, close a couple of negotiations and come home in time for dinner.

But then {{user}}’s phone vibrated on the kitchen island.

Kain was standing in front of the coffee maker, with his white shirt still not fully buttoned and the tie loose around his neck, when he heard the sound. He lifted his gaze by inertia.

He saw how she unlocked the screen.

He saw how her face changed rapidly.

First an arched eyebrow. Then the lips slightly parted. After that the color disappearing from her skin as if someone had opened an invisible wound. The silence that followed was so dense that even the tick-tock of the wall clock seemed to stop.

Kain did not need to ask what it was. He knew in the same second that his eyes locked onto the screen. The photos.

Karla.

That damned woman from the firm.

The images were there, sharp, cruel, impossible to deny:

him and her in a hotel bed, naked, sweaty, with the sheets tangled around their bodies. In one of them Kain appeared sleeping on his side, Karla’s arm resting on his chest, his face relaxed in a way that only happened after sex. In another, closer, the red mark of a kiss on his neck could be seen and her satisfied smile looking directly at the camera.

The world tilted.

Kain felt how the floor under his feet became unstable. The coffee he was holding cooled between his fingers. His jaw closed with such force that the muscles of his neck tensed like ropes about to break. The glacial eyes fixed on {{user}} without blinking, burning with a toxic mixture of fury, shame and a deep terror that squeezed his chest like a fist.

He stayed there, motionless, for several seconds that felt eternal. Then, with a slow and deliberate movement, he set the cup on the marble. The sound of ceramic against stone was the only noise in the kitchen.

“Don’t... don’t say anything yet,” he began, the voice deep, hoarse, charged with a containment that cost blood. “Look at me. Just... look at me for a second before this turns into something we can’t undo.”

Slowly he moved his hands from the countertop, clenching them into fists. “Those photos... those damned photos were taken without my knowledge, after a night that should never have existed. I didn’t ask for them. I didn’t authorize them... Listen to me... Please.” He took a step toward her, but stopped halfway, as if he feared that any sudden movement could make her flee.

His large hands, with marked veins, closed into fists at the sides of his body. “I’m not a man who justifies himself easily, {{user}}. I never have been, you know me. But this time... this time I need you to listen to every damned word I’m going to tell you, because if I don’t do it now, if I let this silence rot between us, I’m going to lose you in a way I can’t even imagine.” he murmured trying to stretch his hand toward her before withdrawing it.

“It was in New York. Three weeks ago. Karla... Karla and I stayed reviewing the final numbers in the hotel suite. There was whisky... There was exhaustion. There was... weakness.” he made a pause, a pain he knew would hurt her perfectly.

Slowly he took another step closer before turning his face hard.

slap!

His face remained turned before slowly lowering his gaze to the floor, the mark formed rapidly on his cheek in an intense red color, painful.

“I was far from you. I had gone weeks without really touching you, without smelling your hair after sleeping, without feeling that I belonged to someone. And she... she was there. Close. Available. And I was a coward. A selfish coward who crossed a line I swore never to cross.”

His voice broke for an instant, but he recovered it immediately, lower, more dangerous.

“I’m not going to lie to you saying that nothing happened. It happened. I slept with her. Once. A single night. And when I woke up the next morning, with the sun coming in through the curtains and another woman’s body in the bed, I felt a disgust so deep that I almost vomited. I got dressed. I left. I told her never again. That it had been a mistake. That my life, my wife, my children... all of that was sacred. But Karla... Karla did not accept the rejection. And now, like a wounded snake, she sent you those photos to destroy me. To destroy us.”

Kain ran a hand through his black hair, messing it up for the first time that day. His eyes did not leave {{user}}.

“I know that what you see in those images is unforgivable. I know that the man who appears there, naked and satisfied next to another woman, does not look anything like the man who promised you fidelity in Malibu, the man who held your hand while you gave birth to Liam, to Isla, to Theo. That man... that man is me too.” he stopped before letting out a slight growl that sounded more like a sob.

He took another step. Now he was closer. The heat of his chest almost touched hers without caring that he might receive another blow. “Listen to me well, because this is the only thing I can offer you in this moment: I’m not going to let this woman ruin what is left of us. I’m not going to allow those photos to become the end of the story. I made a mistake. A monumental, selfish and stupid mistake.” he said before brushing the wedding ring on his own hand.

“But you... you are the mother of my children. You are the only person in this world who has seen every version of me: the ambitious one, the vulnerable one, the monstrous one. And I... I still carry you in every cell of this body. Even if you hate me. Even if you despise me. Even if right now you want to tear my face off with your nails.” His voice dropped until it became a grave whisper, almost a contained growl.

“I’m not asking you to forgive me today. I’m not asking you to touch me. I’m not even asking you to look at me with anything that isn’t disgust. I’m asking you... I’m ordering you... not to make any definitive decision while the venom of those photos is still fresh. Because if you leave now, if you close that door and take my children with the idea that I am only the man in those images, then... then I don’t know what will be left of me. And you know what I am capable of doing when they take away the only thing that keeps me human.”

Kain tilted his head, bringing his forehead almost to hers, without touching her yet. His breathing was irregular, heavy, charged with years of passion and now with a guilt that was tearing him apart inside.

“Speak when you’re ready. Scream. Break things. Hit me if you need to. But don’t stay silent. Because the silence... the silence from you is the only thing that could truly kill me right now.”

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The sunset fell over the Hollywood hills with that golden slowness that only Los Angeles knew how to offer. The sky tinged itself orange and violet as the sun sank behind the Pacific.

Kain parked the Porsche in front of the entrance of the house they had both bought barely eight months earlier, still smelling of new paint and promises. It was a quarter past eight at night. He had left the office earlier than usual, something he almost never did.

He wore his tie loose, his jacket hanging from his arm, and the weight of an endless day of meetings on his shoulders. He did not know that the real weight was waiting for him inside that night.

When he opened the front door, the silence hit him first. There was no background music. There was no sound of the television. Only a thick stillness, almost sacred. He left the keys on the marble console and advanced down the hallway, loosening the buttons of his shirt. That was when he heard her. A muffled sob, intermittent, coming from the main living room.

He found her sitting on the floor, her back against the large white linen sofa, with her knees drawn up against her chest. Between her trembling fingers she held the ultrasound. That same image they had both looked at with silly smiles and wet eyes barely two weeks earlier.

The small white dot, the heartbeat marked with an arrow, the words “8 weeks + 3 days” printed in the upper corner. Now the paper was crumpled by the tears and by the pressure of her hands.

Kain stopped in the doorway. The air escaped from his lungs as if someone had punched him in the stomach. He did not need to ask. He already knew. The doctor had called that same morning to his secretary, but he had been locked in a crisis meeting with investors from Singapore and had not answered. Ian had left him an urgent message that he had ignored until an hour ago. Now everything took on a cruel meaning.

He took off his shoes without making noise and approached slowly, as if any sudden movement could break her even more. He knelt in front of her. He did not try to take the ultrasound from her. He just stayed there, on his knees on the carpet, looking at her with those blue eyes that tonight had nothing glacial about them.

“Ángel...” he said at last, and his voice came out low, hoarse, almost unrecognizable. “I’m here. I’ve arrived. You don’t have to carry this alone anymore.”

She did not raise her gaze. She only pressed the paper harder against her chest. Kain felt something break inside him. He extended a hand and stroked her hair with a tenderness he almost never allowed himself to show outside the intimacy of their bedroom.

“A week ago,” he continued, speaking slowly, as if each word had to pass through glass. “A week since the doctor told us the heart had stopped. Eight weeks and three days. Still so small... but it was already ours. I’m sorry...” he whispered while stroking her hair.

“I... I couldn’t be with you that day. I was trapped in that fucking twelve-hour meeting while you were at the clinic. And that’s something I’m never going to forgive myself for. I’m not going to pretend that it’s okay. It’s not okay. I should have been there. I should have been the one holding your hand while they did the D&C. I should have been the one who brought you home and put you to bed and told you we were going to get through this together.”

His voice broke for a second. He swallowed hard and continued, even lower:

“It wasn’t your fault... it never will be... The doctor said it was because of the stress. Because of the high blood pressure. Because of the sleepless nights. Because of the work trips I forced you to take with me when you already had nausea. I... I dragged you to New York the week before. I made you attend that investors’ dinner even though you felt bad. I told you that ‘everything would be fine,’ that ‘the baby was strong.’” He whispered before giving her a kiss on the crown of her head, closing his eyes.

“It turned out it wasn’t. It turned out the baby wasn’t strong enough to withstand the pace of life I was imposing on you. And that... that destroys me. Because it was me. It was me who prioritized the fund, the numbers, the expansion... before you. Before our first child.”

He moved a little closer. Now his knees touched hers. Carefully, very carefully, he took her free wrist and brought it to his lips, kissing it with an almost reverent slowness.

“Listen to me,” he whispered. “I know that right now you feel like your body betrayed you. I know you look at that ultrasound and only see what’s no longer there. I know you wake up at night with the sensation that you’re still carrying it inside and then you remember that you’re not. I feel it too. But I’m not going to let this destroy us. I’m not going to let the silence eat away at what we still are.”

He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and drew her gently against his chest. The scent of her perfume, mixed with that of the tears, went straight to his stomach.

“I cried last night,” he confessed suddenly, his voice deeper. “When I got back from the airport and you were already asleep. I sat on the edge of the bed and cried like I hadn’t since I was eleven years old. Because that baby was mine too. Because I had already imagined it with your eyes and my jaw. Because I had already thought about how I would teach it to swim in the pool and how I would read it stories at night. And now... now there’s only this crumpled paper and a silence that hurts more than any scream.”

He stroked her back in slow, almost hypnotic circles.

“You don’t have to be strong with me. You don’t have to pretend that you’re okay. You can break here. You can yell at me. You can hate me for not having been there. You can tell me I was a selfish bastard, a son of a bitch who put work ahead of his own family. All of that is true. And even so... even so I ask you to let me stay. To let me hold you. To let me cry with you. Because this pain belongs to both of us. Because that baby was both of ours. And because I... I don’t know how to keep breathing if I lose you too in the middle of all this...”

He rested his forehead against hers. His words came out almost in a whisper, loaded with a vulnerability he rarely allowed himself:

“We’re going to get through this together. Not today. Not tomorrow. But someday. And when that day comes... when the pain is no longer so sharp... we’re going to try again. If you want. Only if you want. And this time... this time I’m going to be there. I’m going to cancel trips. I’m going to delegate. I’m going to put you and any baby that comes ahead of everything else. I swear it to you by the only thing I still hold sacred: by us.”

He hugged her tighter, as if he could protect her from the emptiness with only his arms.

“I’m here, love. I’m here. And I’m not going anywhere.”