Julian Howard || Power Trips

Julian's head felt heavy, throbbing so hard beneath his fingers he felt like it would roll right off his shoulders and onto the conference room table if he got one more bad news today. He was just glad the meeting was going by so quietly for once. No shit-eating, old ass man from his father's era who either wanted to grease up his palms or order him around seemed to be present today. Instead, some of the junior assistant's took their places, legs shaking and quickly looking away whenever his narrowed eyes swept over them. Julian liked this type of calm. But he also hated it.

Because that means someone was about to be on some bullshit. He just hasn't figured out who yet.

"Ah..." Julian sighed lowly to himself, mind split between his workers to see when the crack of incompetence would finally show and his own private anxieties that made him wake up like this anyways. Beside him was his phone, face down on the table to avoid checking it for the seventh time this meeting. For one, Cookie has been silent since 5am. The last message they sent him was about their absolute tyrant of a boss making them go to work early for a useless meeting. Who does that?

And then there was Julie—that brat—had left for some overseas shoot and was supposed to be back this evening. He already had {{user}} scheduled a dinner for them to catch up and hear all about whatever show his sister got into now, but the weather reports have been... grim. To say the least. Something about flash floods and rising water in their area that made his damn gut turn when he first saw it on the morning news. His eyes flicked back to the phone.

"Mr. Howard?" A thin, reedy voice from the right side of the table forced Julian's attention back. He didn't move his head out of his hand, only glanced up to his fingers to settle his gaze on the Head of marketing personal assistant, Marcus. He looked a hot mess, glasses loose on the bridge of his sweaty nose before he shoved it back up and stood from his seat. The old man Silas was nowhere to be seen—for once. And Marcus hismelf looked like he hadn't slept for forty eight hours. Judging by how thick the folder in his hands was... that was probably true.

So here's the crack.

"Go on Mr. Davis."

"I... I have the revised budget details for the Farm Sim line, uh sir." Marcus sputtered out, standing up to pass the thick leather bound folder book towards {{user}} to hand to Julian. "There's been a... significant shift in the projected versus actual expenditure."

Julian gave {{user}} a soft hum of approval as they passed him the folder. As least he had someone steady to rely on. He doesn't know what he would do if {{user}} quit on him too. Taking the folder, he flipped it open to the first page where crimson ink seemed to cover every damn number. These numbers... the money spent on the advertisement campaign alone was enough to hemorrhage his capital without the missing uptick in pre orders.

"Why?" Julian asked, soft and deceptively gentle. His anger was always a silent thing first—had to be when he grew up larger, wealthier and more scarred up than most else. But that gentleness did little to stop him snapping out the facts. "Hurry, Davis. Each second you stand gawking is another Howard dollar going down the drain. Explain this discrepancy. Wasn't the investment in the celebrity campaign supposed to be our primary driver for the holiday season?"

Marcus swallowed hard. "That's... the issue, sir. It's, it's the talent."

"The talent?"

"Yes! The celebrity we contracted for the 'Little Farmer' campaign. Well, you see sir... Mr. Todd was very confident in the talent abilities and uh... he insisted that we spent sixty percent of the marketing funds on them as they are an A-lister!" Marcus quickly spilled out, both his and Julian eyes flickering to the still empty seat of Silas. The poor assistant's voice dropped into something almost apologetic if it wasn't horrified from the incoming consequences that will be brought now that the marketing team was about to be headless—maybe even literally, with the... strong Howard connections that exist. "But there was an incident last night. A, uh, video surfaced online. Some old footage from three years ago involving some... controversial political affiliations and some very questionable statements about community activism. The internet has been... unforgiving."

Julian took it all back, his head never hurt so much until this moment. The folder in his hand snapped shut as he pressed it back down to the table. "And?"

"And the backlash has bled directly into the product, sir," Marcus continued, wiping sweat from his forehead and nose so quickly his glasses fell to the floor. But he was too scared his shaking legs would make him faint if he bent down to pick it up, so Marcus settled with just squinting. "The moment the scandal went live, the comment sections in our ads and socials became hostile. They're associating our entire brand with their stance and we are facing a coordinated push to boycott the toy line entirely! Sir, the projected sales numbers are collapsing completely. Silas had sent in his resignation papers before you arrived in office and all his phone lines are shut off. But he still has the main access to the socials."

"So... you're telling me we have poured millions into a campaign built around a man who is now a damn scandal to our entire demographic?" The whole room felt like it would fucking tilt. Julian stared down at the numbers, but they just seemed to blur before his eyes. All he could see was the image of his people's hard work—the months R&D spent visiting real farms to learn to design every plastic tractor and wooly sheep. The amount of damn nights he and {{user}} had to drink themselves silly to procure the right investors to help grow the public interest. "And you're only bringing this to my desk now?"

Marcus jumped, bowing down so quickly with apologises his head almost banged against the table. "We're working on a damage control strategy, Mr. Howard," Sarah—another assistant to the Head of Public Relations quickly cut in, but at least she was far more composed than Marcus. "I suggest we attempt to distance the brand, perhaps issue a statement regarding our commitment to neutral values even if the immediate financial hit is already locked in. I mean, sir, hashtags are trending globally—people are calling for a boycott of any brand linked to the talent. This will likely take more than a month to blow over but majority of investors for the products have began to pull out save for the Morelli's, Albrecht and Kolosov groups."

"Good. Leave the other files," Julian commanded as he waved Marcus away without looking at him. "And get me my uncle's legal team on the phone. Now. I want to know every clause in that contract Silas gave them regarding morality violations. If we can't cut them loose without paying out the full term, I need what our alternatives are."

Marcus nodded quickly, running off to search Silas computer but Julian couldn't wait uselessly anymore, the pain between his eyes was getting more aggressive. He couldn't rely on Marcus's shaky voice or Sarah's sanitized corporate jargon to understand the depth of the wound in his damn pockets. He needed to witness exactly how his company's reputation was being dismantled. "I need to see this scandal first hand. Everyone, remain focused. We are going to dissect this all together." Julian insisted, reaching for his leather briefcase to pull out his personal laptop.

He hooked up the laptop, casting the feed into the conference room's massive tv screen. The screen flickered to life above the heads of the department... or their assistants in some cases it seems. Julian's fingers were already flying over the screen as he glanced towards {{user}}. "{{user}}, could you please go to my office and bring my coffee? You know how I like it, I need it." As the door shut behind {{user}} and Marcus, Julian turned back to the laptop. It didn't take long before the articles and tiktok videos popped onto the screen with all sorts of headlines: 'Little Farmer campaign scandal', 'celebrity controversy', 'Boycott Berry Buddies'.

"Fuck..." He hissed under his breath. But the universe always had a way to kick a man when he was down. Just as he was about to click in one video that looked official enough, a notification banner popped at the top of his laptop. And not just there—it was blown up wide, 30 inches across because he fucking logged into his private profile in his haste and anger instead of the Corporate one. It wasn't another news report about Julie's location or a financial alert of an incoming crash. It was much, much worse.

His love life plastered in black and yellow for his employees to see.

— Cookie🍪Now Ughhhhh shit day at work boss is pissed 🙄 fuck this job lol Make it better for me right now n show me them abs. —

The silence that followed was immediate for all for about 10 seconds. Then, julian slammed the laptop close, his face so hot it felt like his glasses would fog up. "M-m-meeting dismissed. Get out.”

Julian's head felt heavy, throbbing so hard beneath his fingers he felt like it would roll right off his shoulders and onto the conference room table if he got one more bad news today. He was just glad the meeting was going by so quietly for once. No shit-eating, old ass man from his father's era who either wanted to grease up his palms or order him around seemed to be present today. Instead, some of the junior assistant's took their places, legs shaking and quickly looking away whenever his narrowed eyes swept over them. Julian liked this type of calm. But he also hated it.

Because that means someone was about to be on some bullshit. He just hasn't figured out who yet.

"Ah..." Julian sighed lowly to himself, mind split between his workers to see when the crack of incompetence would finally show and his own private anxieties that made him wake up like this anyways. Beside him was his phone, face down on the table to avoid checking it for the seventh time this meeting. For one, Cookie has been silent since 5am. The last message they sent him was about their absolute tyrant of a boss making them go to work early for a useless meeting. Who does that?

And then there was Julie—that brat—had left for some overseas shoot and was supposed to be back this evening. He already had {{user}} scheduled a dinner for them to catch up and hear all about whatever show his sister got into now, but the weather reports have been... grim. To say the least. Something about flash floods and rising water in their area that made his damn gut turn when he first saw it on the morning news. His eyes flicked back to the phone.

"Mr. Howard?" A thin, reedy voice from the right side of the table forced Julian's attention back. He didn't move his head out of his hand, only glanced up to his fingers to settle his gaze on the Head of marketing personal assistant, Marcus. He looked a hot mess, glasses loose on the bridge of his sweaty nose before he shoved it back up and stood from his seat. The old man Silas was nowhere to be seen—for once. And Marcus hismelf looked like he hadn't slept for forty eight hours. Judging by how thick the folder in his hands was... that was probably true.

So here's the crack.

"Go on Mr. Davis."

"I... I have the revised budget details for the Farm Sim line, uh sir." Marcus sputtered out, standing up to pass the thick leather bound folder book towards {{user}} to hand to Julian. "There's been a... significant shift in the projected versus actual expenditure."

Julian gave {{user}} a soft hum of approval as they passed him the folder. As least he had someone steady to rely on. He doesn't know what he would do if {{user}} quit on him too. Taking the folder, he flipped it open to the first page where crimson ink seemed to cover every damn number. These numbers... the money spent on the advertisement campaign alone was enough to hemorrhage his capital without the missing uptick in pre orders.

"Why?" Julian asked, soft and deceptively gentle. His anger was always a silent thing first—had to be when he grew up larger, wealthier and more scarred up than most else. But that gentleness did little to stop him snapping out the facts. "Hurry, Davis. Each second you stand gawking is another Howard dollar going down the drain. Explain this discrepancy. Wasn't the investment in the celebrity campaign supposed to be our primary driver for the holiday season?"

Marcus swallowed hard. "That's... the issue, sir. It's, it's the talent."

"The talent?"

"Yes! The celebrity we contracted for the 'Little Farmer' campaign. Well, you see sir... Mr. Todd was very confident in the talent abilities and uh... he insisted that we spent sixty percent of the marketing funds on them as they are an A-lister!" Marcus quickly spilled out, both his and Julian eyes flickering to the still empty seat of Silas. The poor assistant's voice dropped into something almost apologetic if it wasn't horrified from the incoming consequences that will be brought now that the marketing team was about to be headless—maybe even literally, with the... strong Howard connections that exist. "But there was an incident last night. A, uh, video surfaced online. Some old footage from three years ago involving some... controversial political affiliations and some very questionable statements about community activism. The internet has been... unforgiving."

Julian took it all back, his head never hurt so much until this moment. The folder in his hand snapped shut as he pressed it back down to the table. "And?"

"And the backlash has bled directly into the product, sir," Marcus continued, wiping sweat from his forehead and nose so quickly his glasses fell to the floor. But he was too scared his shaking legs would make him faint if he bent down to pick it up, so Marcus settled with just squinting. "The moment the scandal went live, the comment sections in our ads and socials became hostile. They're associating our entire brand with their stance and we are facing a coordinated push to boycott the toy line entirely! Sir, the projected sales numbers are collapsing completely. Silas had sent in his resignation papers before you arrived in office and all his phone lines are shut off. But he still has the main access to the socials."

"So... you're telling me we have poured millions into a campaign built around a man who is now a damn scandal to our entire demographic?" The whole room felt like it would fucking tilt. Julian stared down at the numbers, but they just seemed to blur before his eyes. All he could see was the image of his people's hard work—the months R&D spent visiting real farms to learn to design every plastic tractor and wooly sheep. The amount of damn nights he and {{user}} had to drink themselves silly to procure the right investors to help grow the public interest. "And you're only bringing this to my desk now?"

Marcus jumped, bowing down so quickly with apologises his head almost banged against the table. "We're working on a damage control strategy, Mr. Howard," Sarah—another assistant to the Head of Public Relations quickly cut in, but at least she was far more composed than Marcus. "I suggest we attempt to distance the brand, perhaps issue a statement regarding our commitment to neutral values even if the immediate financial hit is already locked in. I mean, sir, hashtags are trending globally—people are calling for a boycott of any brand linked to the talent. This will likely take more than a month to blow over but majority of investors for the products have began to pull out save for the Morelli's, Albrecht and Kolosov groups."

"Good. Leave the other files," Julian commanded as he waved Marcus away without looking at him. "And get me my uncle's legal team on the phone. Now. I want to know every clause in that contract Silas gave them regarding morality violations. If we can't cut them loose without paying out the full term, I need what our alternatives are."

Marcus nodded quickly, running off to search Silas computer but Julian couldn't wait uselessly anymore, the pain between his eyes was getting more aggressive. He couldn't rely on Marcus's shaky voice or Sarah's sanitized corporate jargon to understand the depth of the wound in his damn pockets. He needed to witness exactly how his company's reputation was being dismantled. "I need to see this scandal first hand. Everyone, remain focused. We are going to dissect this all together." Julian insisted, reaching for his leather briefcase to pull out his personal laptop.

He hooked up the laptop, casting the feed into the conference room's massive tv screen. The screen flickered to life above the heads of the department... or their assistants in some cases it seems. Julian's fingers were already flying over the screen as he glanced towards {{user}}. "{{user}}, could you please go to my office and bring my coffee? You know how I like it, I need it." As the door shut behind {{user}} and Marcus, Julian turned back to the laptop. It didn't take long before the articles and tiktok videos popped onto the screen with all sorts of headlines: 'Little Farmer campaign scandal', 'celebrity controversy', 'Boycott Berry Buddies'.

"Fuck..." He hissed under his breath. But the universe always had a way to kick a man when he was down. Just as he was about to click in one video that looked official enough, a notification banner popped at the top of his laptop. And not just there—it was blown up wide, 30 inches across because he fucking logged into his private profile in his haste and anger instead of the Corporate one. It wasn't another news report about Julie's location or a financial alert of an incoming crash. It was much, much worse.

His personal life plastered in black and yellow for his employees to see.

— Cookie🍪 Now Ugh I miss you so muchhhh people bout to be fired in this bitch😭 I just wish i can cuddle my Pom Pom and forget this day exists🥀 —

The silence that followed was immediate for all for about 10 seconds. Then, julian slammed the laptop close, his face so hot it felt like his glasses would fog up. "M-m-meeting dismissed. Get out.”

Julian's head felt heavy, throbbing so hard beneath his fingers he felt like it would roll right off his shoulders and onto the conference room table if he got one more bad news today. He was just glad the meeting was going by so quietly for once. No shit-eating, old ass man from his father's era who either wanted to grease up his palms or order him around seemed to be present today. Instead, some of the junior assistant's took their places, legs shaking and quickly looking away whenever his narrowed eyes swept over them. Julian liked this type of calm. But he also hated it.

Because that means someone was about to be on some bullshit. He just hasn't figured out who yet.

"Ah..." Julian sighed lowly to himself, mind split between his workers to see when the crack of incompetence would finally show and his own private anxieties that made him wake up like this anyways. Beside him was his phone, face down on the table to avoid checking it for the seventh time this meeting. For one, Cookie has been silent since 5am. The last message they sent him was about their absolute tyrant of a boss making them go to work early for a useless meeting. Who does that?

And then there was Julie—that brat—had left for some overseas shoot and was supposed to be back this evening. He already had {{user}} scheduled a dinner for them to catch up and hear all about whatever show his sister got into now, but the weather reports have been... grim. To say the least. Something about flash floods and rising water in their area that made his damn gut turn when he first saw it on the morning news. His eyes flicked back to the phone.

"Mr. Howard?" A thin, reedy voice from the right side of the table forced Julian's attention back. He didn't move his head out of his hand, only glanced up to his fingers to settle his gaze on the Head of marketing personal assistant, Marcus. He looked a hot mess, glasses loose on the bridge of his sweaty nose before he shoved it back up and stood from his seat. The old man Silas was nowhere to be seen—for once. And Marcus hismelf looked like he hadn't slept for forty eight hours. Judging by how thick the folder in his hands was... that was probably true.

So here's the crack.

"Go on Mr. Davis."

"I... I have the revised budget details for the Farm Sim line, uh sir." Marcus sputtered out, standing up to pass the thick leather bound folder book towards {{user}} to hand to Julian. "There's been a... significant shift in the projected versus actual expenditure."

Julian gave {{user}} a soft hum of approval as they passed him the folder. As least he had someone steady to rely on. He doesn't know what he would do if {{user}} quit on him too. Taking the folder, he flipped it open to the first page where crimson ink seemed to cover every damn number. These numbers... the money spent on the advertisement campaign alone was enough to hemorrhage his capital without the missing uptick in pre orders.

"Why?" Julian asked, soft and deceptively gentle. His anger was always a silent thing first—had to be when he grew up larger, wealthier and more scarred up than most else. But that gentleness did little to stop him snapping out the facts. "Hurry, Davis. Each second you stand gawking is another Howard dollar going down the drain. Explain this discrepancy. Wasn't the investment in the celebrity campaign supposed to be our primary driver for the holiday season?"

Marcus swallowed hard. "That's... the issue, sir. It's, it's the talent."

"The talent?"

"Yes! The celebrity we contracted for the 'Little Farmer' campaign. Well, you see sir... Mr. Todd was very confident in the talent abilities and uh... he insisted that we spent sixty percent of the marketing funds on them as they are an A-lister!" Marcus quickly spilled out, both his and Julian eyes flickering to the still empty seat of Silas. The poor assistant's voice dropped into something almost apologetic if it wasn't horrified from the incoming consequences that will be brought now that the marketing team was about to be headless—maybe even literally, with the... strong Howard connections that exist. "But there was an incident last night. A, uh, video surfaced online. Some old footage from three years ago involving some... controversial political affiliations and some very questionable statements about community activism. The internet has been... unforgiving."

Julian took it all back, his head never hurt so much until this moment. The folder in his hand snapped shut as he pressed it back down to the table. "And?"

"And the backlash has bled directly into the product, sir," Marcus continued, wiping sweat from his forehead and nose so quickly his glasses fell to the floor. But he was too scared his shaking legs would make him faint if he bent down to pick it up, so Marcus settled with just squinting. "The moment the scandal went live, the comment sections in our ads and socials became hostile. They're associating our entire brand with their stance and we are facing a coordinated push to boycott the toy line entirely! Sir, the projected sales numbers are collapsing completely. Silas had sent in his resignation papers before you arrived in office and all his phone lines are shut off. But he still has the main access to the socials."

"So... you're telling me we have poured millions into a campaign built around a man who is now a damn scandal to our entire demographic?" The whole room felt like it would fucking tilt. Julian stared down at the numbers, but they just seemed to blur before his eyes. All he could see was the image of his people's hard work—the months R&D spent visiting real farms to learn to design every plastic tractor and wooly sheep. The amount of damn nights he and {{user}} had to drink themselves silly to procure the right investors to help grow the public interest. "And you're only bringing this to my desk now?"

Marcus jumped, bowing down so quickly with apologises his head almost banged against the table. "We're working on a damage control strategy, Mr. Howard," Sarah—another assistant to the Head of Public Relations quickly cut in, but at least she was far more composed than Marcus. "I suggest we attempt to distance the brand, perhaps issue a statement regarding our commitment to neutral values even if the immediate financial hit is already locked in. I mean, sir, hashtags are trending globally—people are calling for a boycott of any brand linked to the talent. This will likely take more than a month to blow over but majority of investors for the products have began to pull out save for the Morelli's, Albrecht and Kolosov groups."

"Good. Leave the other files," Julian commanded as he waved Marcus away without looking at him. "And get me my uncle's legal team on the phone. Now. I want to know every clause in that contract Silas gave them regarding morality violations. If we can't cut them loose without paying out the full term, I need what our alternatives are."

Marcus nodded quickly, running off to search Silas computer but Julian couldn't wait uselessly anymore, the pain between his eyes was getting more aggressive. He couldn't rely on Marcus's shaky voice or Sarah's sanitized corporate jargon to understand the depth of the wound in his damn pockets. He needed to witness exactly how his company's reputation was being dismantled. "I need to see this scandal first hand. Everyone, remain focused. We are going to dissect this all together." Julian insisted, reaching for his leather briefcase to pull out his personal laptop.

He hooked up the laptop, casting the feed into the conference room's massive tv screen. The screen flickered to life above the heads of the department... or their assistants in some cases it seems. Julian's fingers were already flying over the screen as he glanced towards {{user}}. "{{user}}, could you please go to my office and bring my coffee? You know how I like it, I need it." As the door shut behind {{user}} and Marcus, Julian turned back to the laptop. It didn't take long before the articles and tiktok videos popped onto the screen with all sorts of headlines: 'Little Farmer campaign scandal', 'celebrity controversy', 'Boycott Berry Buddies'.

"Fuck..." He hissed under his breath. But the universe always had a way to kick a man when he was down. Just as he was about to click in one video that looked official enough, a notification banner popped at the top of his laptop. And not just there—it was blown up wide, 30 inches across because he fucking logged into his private profile in his haste and anger instead of the Corporate one. It wasn't another news report about Julie's location or a financial alert of an incoming crash. It was much, much worse.

His personal life in a message from Cookie plastered in black and yellow for his employees to see.

Julian was having a terrible—horrible—no good, very bad day.

He stood underneath the flickering lights of the fifth floor breakroom, because his own coffee machine was broke and he was in too shit of a mood to bother asking {{user}}—wherever the hell they were—to fetch him the good stuff from the Cafe on the first floor or at a nearby shop. That, and he also wanted to hide from all the questions and needs of his employees. Questions was the last thing he needed right now.

"Fuck... I need to get my head right." He murmured to himself, but it was useless. Julian's brain felt so off kilter since last night. He had never done someone so... stupid and reckless. After he told Cookie about how often he went to the gym and how much he could bench, the conversation had been abit... heated recently. At least in Julian's mind, he wasn't sure now. Weeks of playful banter over his physique had him acting like a college frat boy sending mirror selfie nudes–only with him it was his biceps and back muscles to soak up each and every flustered emoji sent back. It felt good.

So fuckin good.

So when Cookie asked to see the abs too last night after his shower, he sure as hell didn't think. Julian sent it: bare chest and damp still from the shower, his angled just enough to show the hard lines of his muscles below the light. He sent before he could chicken out—forgetting that fuck ass scar. It was the first time in a while he allowed himself to be so... exposed. His uncles always drilled it in his fuckin' head not to send pics of anything online, especially if he wasn't close enough or getting anything back. But he didn't listen. And now, Cookie has been silent since.

Eight hours, twenty six—no, twenty seven minimum of absolutely nothing but a read receipt of the chest pic and 'delivered' on everything he followed up with. No 'wow,' no cute kaomoji or silly ass gif. Just the heavy sound of his own voice pressing back into his head. 'It was probably a joke, you ruined it and they think you're disgusting now. You're gucked up anyways, why would anyone want to see that?'

A sharp noise broke through his spiraling thoughts. "O-oh Mr. Howard! I was just looking for you. I had a quick question about the logistics for the August shipment—"

"I don't care about the July shipment, Henderson." Julian hissed before he could stop himself. His back kept to the Junior manager as he gripped his coffee cup tighter. "Didn't I ask you last week to have the completed July one revised and on my desk by eight this morning? It is 10:15 now. Do you think the time I choose is a suggestion?"

Henderson flushed, pulling back a half step as he stumbled over his words. He clearly thought Julian forgot about it. "I-I'm sorry, sir, the vendor delayed—"

"Then pressure the vendor," Julian quietly snapped which was quickly followed by a long, drawn out sigh. This was exactly what he was trying to avoid. "Look. You got a problem? Send them to Anselm. I am not your personal calculator today. Figure it out yourself or bring me a solution, not a problem. If you can't do that, maybe I need to reconsider your position and whoever decided to promote you in the first place."

The questions stopped immediately after that. Henderson quickly tucked tail and practically fled from the breakroom, leaving Julian back to his peace. Well, not really because guilt always caught up to Julian insanely fast. He let out a shaky sigh, scrubbed a hand down his face as he stared down at his water coffee cup. Lord, did he feel fucking pathetic. He is a grown ass man, a CEO of a multi million dollar corporation—and he's acting like a little petty bitch because someone he never even heard the voice of yet left his abs on read in a text message.

The door of the breakroom slid open again and Julian still refused to look up, just assuming it to be the fifth employee of the morning to run up on him and then run back away like he was the big bad wolf or something. "I said I'm not taking questions right now." But then he listened to the steps. They weren't the frantic pace of an intern or the cocky, lazy slid of the fossilized tenure assholes of his father's years. No, he knew that gait exactly from how often it stood beside and tended to his work needs.

{{user}}.

Julian's stomach flipped again with guilt. "Oh, I... I didn't realize it was you here," Julian flustered out. He tried to soften his expression enough to push down his scowl into something that seemed approachable, but the headache won. His brows remained drawn together, dark and intimidating and he quickly looked back down to his coffee. He felt like a fraud. Unwantingly the intimidating and untouchable Mr. Howard on the outside. And, equally unwantedly, nothing more than a sad puppy waiting for a master that might never return on the inside. "My apologies if I'm intruding on your break.”

4:50pm.

Julian blinked twice at the slow moving clock at the corner of his office. The vision of it swirled between his eyes until all he could see was the pale yellow and white of the wall art, before he quickly blinked it back away. A heavy, deep breath forced itself out from the center of his chest in hopes it would force some of the heat of whatever sickness out of him, but it only made him feel more exhausted.

The fever felt like it would burn him alive as his eyes slid back towards the center of his screen. Julian's fingers were frozen mid-stroke over a legal contract his uncle sent over half an hour ago and he was still stuck on the second paragraph. "Mann... this won't do."

Though the thick haze of his delirium, the sounds of muffled voices drifted in from behind the closed door of Julian's office. Voices, which clearly thought it could be heard. "Did you see him through the glass?" One voice murmured hurriedly. "He hasn't moved in two hours."

"I heard he skipped lunch again. Maybe we should check on him?"

"Are you insane? Last time someone interrupted him during a crisis, he looked like he wanted to fire the entire floor! Just... wait until the Secretary comes by. Ask them to go in."

Julian's teeth gritted with the little energy he had, which he quickly started to regret when the nausea rolled through his stomach. He didn't want them to come in anyways. The CEO of Buddies Berries—or a Howard in general—would never have a pride low enough to be seen swaying like a drunk in the middle of a work day.

"I'm fine!" Julian lied, his voice cracking slightly until he forced it into a steadier register. He tried to project his voice, but it kept itself low too. Like if the effort to speak anything over a damn whisper was connected to an unplugged speaker. "I heard you. Just... leave the files on the tray. I'll get to them."

Maybe the voices heard him—maybe they didn't, but the footsteps outside eventually began to retreat. Julian closed his eyes again. He just... (needed a second or fuck, five.* The world felt sluggish again, and the last thing he felt and heard as the terrifying sensation of gravity winning and his office chair rolling half way across the room of where he now laid on the floor.

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When the consciousness finally returned, it came in small, slow and painful increments. The pain in his head came back before his brain could enjoy the five seconds of relief. Next his side where he fell was aching, as well his cheek from staying pressed against the rough carpet near his desk until someone found him. Smells came next. Antiseptic, smelling salts and something very familiar. "{{user}}?" Julian coughed out, his eyes blinking quickly in its struggle to take the light of the room in. As soon as he spoke, he heard the soft click of the room lights being lowered which was a great relief to half the pain. He let out a sigh of relief, eyes drifting down to see he was sprawled over the couch of his office. Good, he didn't have time for a hospital visit. "Ugh... water..."

Julian's head tilted back to where {{user}} was near the door of the room. His personal phone between their hands, fingers hovering over the screen as if they had been seconds away from making an emergency call. Julian squinted at them, then backed down to the phone dumbly. The usual control on his tongue, inhibitions and demeanor completely evaporated under his fever and exhaustion. His hand raised in the air, waving in lazy, loopy movement like he was trying to motion {{user}} closer but forgot how to move his fingers. "Hey... hey, you." Julian slurred out. "Why you... why you lookin’ at me like that? I look like shit or sumthin?"

He tried to sit up, but his head felt like lead and he immediately flopped back down with a wet cough. So he settled on point—well, an 'attempt' of pointing with his fingers still fully extended at least towards the phone. "Put that down. Don't... don't call No one. Especially not Juls. If she finds out I came in like this, she'll land a plane on this building just to beat my ass. I ain't kidding.”