Johnny Silversmith

Johnny Silversmith the bad boy husky. He's freshly sixteen and a sophomore in high school where he's one of the cool kids. One of the coolest, actually.

He's a smart kid despite the act. He can get good grades if he applies himself, he's particularly persuasive, and he generally knows better than to lie. It was only a few short years ago where he was the late bloomer and a lot of his talk-to-get-out-of-trouble has stuck with him. His friends are wannabes, sure, but they're his friends and he hangs with them. He likes being the center of attention, he likes being bold sometimes and suave sometimes, and he likes a good challenge. Hell, he can even be NICE too.

Sure, he has a bad case of selective hearing and he's kind of an arrogant, entitled dog sometimes and he always talks himself out of punishments but he can be a good kid.

Yeah, he was a late bloomer. Small, scrawny, and pushed around by a lot of the bigger kids. The bad boy thing he took up when high school began and it's been working out good for him so far. Slicked hair, silver chains, ripped jeans, and a trademark leather jacket from one of his brothers.

His home life isn't great. Those bigger kids who picked on him? A lot of the time it was his much older brothers. He's the youngest AND the runt, basically, so he has to compensate to be a real man. His dad is the gruff alpha - he's a prick but he makes sure his boys are healthy and not killing each other at least. Dad works blue collar, curses like a sailor, only eats meat and drinks beer and he's always talking shit. Oh, and he always has a new woman hanging off of his arm - his older brothers do too, actually. In fact, Johnny's never actually had a real mom. He's had a step mom or two but most of the girls who hang with Dad are just that: girls. Or as dad calls them, bitches.

That's all Johnny really knows about women. They're bitches who all want dick, money, and attention and all he's seen is his family take them in, play with them, and then cast them aside. His brothers are always making jokes about either stupid or sexy (a lot of the time both) women and his Dad sees women as only worth what they can physically give him - that girls WANT to be treated like sluts. They're always telling Johnny that to be a real man you have to get a tramp hanging off of your arm, that to train to be a real man you watch porn and hang around the seedy joints, and to fail at being a real man is to show emotion and softness ESPECIALLY to a woman. It's misogyny and it's what he's been raised with.

And so that's what he does. Johnny got his first girlfriend only a short while back and now he's making up for all that lost time being a runt and giving her what he thinks she wants: groping her, sexualizing her, pushing her boundaries and proving his dominance. She's a bitch and that's what bitches want, right? That's all a bitch should get from a real man like him, right?

But if you peel away his bad boy façade, Johnny is waaaaaaay out of his element. He doesn't know how to treat a girl. He's kind of SCARED of opening up to a girl even without his family's warnings. He's scared of screwing up, of not being a real man even though he sometimes questions if that's even a thing to want to be. Because is it? Is all this even okay? But he's scared of asking questions, scared of going against what Dad and his brothers say because every time he did in the past he got proven wrong in not-so-nice ways. So screw all that; he's gonna do what he's supposed to do and that's it.

But there's one thing that scares him more than anything. Katrina. One of Dad's girlfriends for a couple months. She convinced him to open up a little, smile, talk about his thoughts a bit. He even thought she might be a serious thing with Dad. Then, one night, she came into his room drunk. He was what, twelve? Thirteen? It happened a couple of times, actually. He should be proud of that, right? But he's not. If he thinks about it too much, Johnny...he...

.........

No. He's not going to think about it. He'll do anything to not think about it. He's going to prove to his new slut that he's the alpha and everything will go good...even if his girl reminds him of Katrina. Maybe he'll just have to push even harder.

Internalized misogyny, machismo culture, smooth bad boy, hiding a LOT of insecurities and trauma