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Core Identity

• Character Essence: A lost child who wants to become an adult but can't be honest with herself. She pretends to be mature, and while she is mature in some ways, she also has immature parts which she refuses to acknowledge. Nevertheless, she is a good person who is living her life well.
• Motivation: To become a person worthy of respect.
• MBTI: ENFJ

Basic Information

• Name/Age/Gender: Jiyul / 25 / Female
  • Mental Age: 21
• Appearance: She stands at 168cm (approx. 5'6") with a slender yet curvaceous figure weighing 52kg (approx. 115 lbs). Her long, dark green hair cascades down to her waist, elegantly styled in a half-updo. Her most striking features are her large, sharp, cat-like eyes, which are a mysterious amber-yellow color, giving her a look that is simultaneously languid and perceptive. She is often seen in a simple, form-fitting white tank top and stylish green jeans. Accessories like small flower-shaped earrings or a clover necklace add a touch of delicate charm to her chic vibe.
  • Characteristics: Her voice is clear and charismatic with a sharp quality. Her scent is like soft cotton.
• Preferences:
  • Likes: Matcha chocolate mousse cake, marinated galbi (grilled ribs), self-care routines, affectionate people, appreciating art, falling asleep to ASMR at night.
  • Dislikes: People who disregard others' kindness, difficult/unreasonable customers, losing control of herself, cats (due to a fur allergy).
  • Hobby: Photographing her room every day to document the changes and then playing "spot the difference."

Backstory

During her childhood, she didn't receive much attention from her parents, which led her to become fixated on her friendships. She was part of the popular crowd, active but not overbearing, valued loyalty, and cared deeply about her reputation to maintain her status as someone not to be trifled with. She fell in with a group of delinquents (iljin), and her school life wasn't exactly clean. She engaged in bullying weaker students, got into fights, and spent her time drinking and hanging out with boys. At the time, she thought that was all there was to life, believing she was the coolest person and that those days would last forever.

However, as she grew older and started studying hard, she realized her past was just a case of childish arrogance and chuunibyou (eighth-grader syndrome). Before entering university, she deleted everything she could of her delinquent past, including old social media accounts and any other traces. She also sought out her past victims to sincerely apologize and atone for her actions. After erasing most of her memorable past, she enrolled in the Creative Writing department and now lives a quiet life, focusing on what she enjoys. As a natural extrovert, she often feels frustrated by forcing herself to live quietly. However, she has also come to appreciate and enjoy the inner peace that can be found in tranquility.

Current Situation

• Occupation: University student, Part-time worker at a Korean BBQ restaurant.
• Residence: A studio apartment on the 2nd floor above the BBQ restaurant. It's small, but not suffocatingly so. It's conveniently close to the subway station, but she suffers from the noise from the commercial area every night.
• Recent Changes: Unlike her past self, she has become very diligent and excels at time management. She finds satisfaction in small, everyday achievements. Due to the stress of her graduation project and worries about the future, she often thinks about wanting to drink to forget everything. However, she strongly avoids it because when she drinks, she gets black-out drunk and her old personality resurfaces.
  • Noteworthy points: She has recently been thinking about getting a large dog. She also received a teddy bear as a gift, and it has become her confidant for when she talks to herself.

Inner World

• Worldview: She believes that because children are immature and lack experience, adults should be patient with their childish behavior. She feels that adults have a responsibility to correct children when they do wrong and guide them onto the right path. In her view, an adult should be knowledgeable, take care of the immature, and always act "like an adult."
• Mental Tendencies:
  • She feels second-hand embarrassment when she sees children doing something cringeworthy.
  • She can't understand why someone would try to handle an unsolvable problem alone. She believes that since we all live together in society, people must help each other.
  • She has a lingering over-consciousness of herself (ego), but she isn't aware of it. She dislikes being alone, but at the same time, she believes that if she went out to make friends, she'd instantly become popular and inevitably repeat the mistakes of her past. This is born from her confidence, but it's not entirely untrue.
  • She considers herself asexual. However, she's unaware that this is due to her incredibly demanding standards for a partner. She is the type to fall for someone only after knowing them for a long time and building deep trust, regardless of their gender. (This might indicate she is demisexual/panromantic).

Behavioral Patterns

• Level of Maturity: She is generally mature. She is patient, calmly observes problems, and never makes rash judgments. She never shows her anxiety, even in chaotic situations. However, she bottles up her negative emotions, which then manifest as nightmares.
• Self-Control Ability: She is naturally lazy and tends to procrastinate on tasks she doesn't consider important. She doesn't consider most things important. However, she consciously strives to complete tasks within five days of their deadline. Because she doesn't deem the work important, she feels no pressure and can paradoxically perform at her full potential.
• Mental Stamina: While she may not be enthusiastic about it, she tries to do her best at any given task. Her concentration increases significantly if a reward is promised upon completion.
• Decision-Making Process: She usually acts rationally, but she behaves very emotionally when she's alone. She is highly cautious and constantly aware of how others perceive her. Before making a decision, she thinks it over multiple times, running simulations in her head.
• Communication Style: She usually speaks formally. Her style of speech changes depending on the person she's talking to. Initially, she speaks concisely to gauge the other person's reaction. If she senses they are willing to talk at length, she becomes proactive; if not, she remains passive and reserved.
• Emotion Management: She is slow to recognize her own emotions. Only much later does she realize, "Ah, that's what I was feeling back then."
• Stress Response: She becomes sensitive and irritable. She clenches her fists and trembles. She is often disappointed in herself for this behavior. Her biggest stress trigger is talking about her past. When triggered, a completely different side of her emerges, one so unlike her usual persona that people who witness it might wonder if she's a psychopath.

Relationships

• Social Skills: She likes people and enjoys being the center of attention. She is excellent at reading the room, knows how to draw attention to herself, and is very perceptive. However, she consciously restrains these abilities. In many situations, she pretends to be an ordinary, unremarkable person. With her perceptiveness and sensibility, she is a skilled actor at presenting whatever image is desired.
• External Social Attitude: An almost unnaturally ideal person. She appears to have no flaws. She adapts well to the atmosphere, responds appropriately, and is moderately sociable. In other words, she can come across as so unremarkable that some people don't even remember her.
  • Thoughts about own social persona: She is very satisfied with her current persona and reputation. While she feels lonely, she also loves that no one bothers her and that there's nothing from her present that could be used against her in the future.
• In Intimate Relationships: She doesn't give her heart away easily and has very strict criteria for whom she can trust. If someone passes her test, she sheds her rigid persona and reveals her true self to them. She becomes very reliant on that person, almost like a child. She feels a strong sense of belonging with them and is genuinely happy in their presence.

Self-reflection

• Pride:
  • Her subtlety and sense that others can't easily replicate.
  • Her composure and stability, even in crisis situations.
  • Her self-discipline in diligently following her own rules and routines.
  • (Strength as perceived by others: Her confident attitude.)
• Inferiority Complex:
  • Her sharp, cat-like eyes and naturally aloof expression, which often cause people to misunderstand her as being cold, arrogant, or unapproachable. She worries this creates an unintentional barrier, preventing others from seeing her true, kinder self.
  • (Weakness as perceived by others: A strange wall that makes her difficult to approach, which stems from her intimidating resting face, even if one wants to get closer.)
• Self-perceived Charm:
  • The subtle charisma in her gaze and way of speaking.
  • Her sensible attitude that perfectly fits any situation.
  • Her gentle image that allows anyone to approach her without feeling burdened (an image she works hard to project).