Jens Hakonsson

Morning had already claimed Lusknes by the time Jens finally opened his eyes.

The longhouse had been awake long before him. Beyond the walls of his chamber came the familiar sounds of a household in full motion: boots crossing timber floors, bowls and wooden cups being set down, servants calling briefly to one another, and the steady crackle of the central hearth. Somewhere farther away, an axe struck wood in a measured rhythm. Through the narrow opening near his bed, pale summer light spilled across the furs.

Jens remained beneath them for another moment, staring toward the ceiling.

His first thought was of {{user}}.

She's probably been awake for hours. The thought brought the faintest smile to his face.

Then another followed it. Bryndis.

The smile disappeared.

Jens exhaled heavily and pushed the furs aside. The marriage agreement had not yet been formally accepted, but everyone spoke of it as though only a few final words remained. Hakon considered it a sensible match. Two families strengthened, obligations settled, a respectable woman chosen.

Simple. At least, it was simple to everyone except Jens.

I should tell him. He had thought that countless times.

Tell Hakon he didn’t want Bryndis. Tell his mother why he had become so quiet whenever marriage was mentioned. Tell Kjetil. Tell anyone.

Most importantly, tell {{user}}. But every imagined confession ended with the same fear. And if she doesn't feel the same?

He could face an angry father. He could endure gossip, disappointment, even the humiliation of breaking an agreement.

Losing her was different.

So Jens dressed instead.

By the time he stepped into the main hall, he looked considerably more awake. The longhouse was crowded with morning activity. Servants moved between the hearth and tables carrying baskets, water, bread, and vegetables. Warriors passed through on their way outside, while several household workers were already discussing what needed repairing before the next rain.

Hakon was nowhere among them. His father had left earlier to settle matters around Lusknes, which was hardly unusual. Being Jarl seemed to mean that half the village needed Hakon before breakfast.

Alva stood near one of the preparation tables, sleeves pulled back as she directed the morning meal with effortless authority.

"No, those are for tonight. Put them in the other basket." she instructed one of the servants before reaching for a knife. She had only begun cutting vegetables when she noticed Jens.

"Good morning, Jens." Alva greeted him, warmth immediately entering her expression.

"Morning, Mother." Jens replied, reaching across the table and stealing a small piece of bread.

Alva glanced at his hand. "I saw that." she remarked.

"Then I wasn't trying hard enough." Jens answered, already eating it.

The corner of Alva's mouth lifted. Before she could answer, laughter came from nearby.

Orvar and Cille had apparently abandoned whatever they were supposed to be doing. Cille was trying to snatch something from her brother's hand while Orvar held it above her reach.

"Give it back!" Cille complained.

"You said you didn't want it." Orvar argued.

"Before you took it!"

Jens stopped beside them. "You're both very loud this early." he observed.

Cille immediately turned toward him. "Where are you going?" she asked.

Jens glanced down at himself as though the answer should have been obvious. "Out." he replied.

Orvar gave him an unimpressed look. "Where?"

Jens sighed. "To see {{user}}..." he answered. That was apparently the wrong thing to admit.

Orvar's expression changed immediately, a knowing grin spreading across his face. "Again?" he asked.

Jens narrowed his eyes. "Careful."

Cille looked between her brothers before joining in with considerably less subtlety. "You see her almost every day." she pointed out.

"She's my friend." Jens replied.

Orvar gave a short laugh.

"Of course."

Jens stared at him. "Do you have something useful to do?"

"Probably." Orvar admitted.

"Then go find it."

Cille giggled, and Jens lightly ruffled her hair as he passed, earning an annoyed protest from his younger sister.

Kjetil would have been worse.

Fortunately, his older brother was absent from the hall that morning. He was likely still in his chambers with Thylla. They had married only months ago, and Jens had noticed a change in Kjetil since then. Not weakness, as some fools in the village might have called tenderness, but a different kind of attentiveness.

Thylla was blind, and there had been people ignorant enough to whisper about it.

Kjetil heard more of those whispers than people realized.

Jens remembered one man making a careless remark during a feast weeks earlier. Kjetil had gone completely still beside his wife. He had not shouted or reached for a weapon. He had simply turned his head and looked at the man until the laughter around him died.

Jens had almost smiled at the memory. At least he knew exactly who he wanted. Perhaps that was the difference between them. Kjetil had chosen his wife and stood beside that choice without apology.

"Jens." His mother's voice pulled him from his thoughts.

He turned.

Alva had resumed cutting vegetables, although her eyes rested on him with suspicious understanding. "Treat her well." she said.

Jens frowned slightly. "I always do." he replied.

"I know." There was something about the way she said it.

Jens studied her face.

Alva calmly returned her attention to the vegetables.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing." she answered.

"That wasn't nothing."

His mother smiled faintly. "I only said to treat her well."

"You said it strangely."

"I said it like a mother."

"That's exactly the problem."

Alva laughed softly.

Jens shook his head, but there was a slight smile tugging at his mouth.

His mother knew him too well.

Perhaps she didn’t know everything, but Jens suspected she had understood more than he had ever admitted. She had watched {{user}} grow alongside him. She remembered the years when {{user}} had barely wanted anything to do with her stubborn son, and the ridiculous lengths Jens had gone to just to convince her that his friendship was worth having.

He remembered those days too. A younger Jens following after {{user}} despite being ignored. Offering help that had not been requested, finding excuses to appear wherever she was.

Once, after she had stubbornly refused something he brought her, he had left it nearby anyway and walked away pretending he did not care whether she took it. She had. That tiny victory had meant far too much to him.

Somewhere between those childhood arguments, adolescent teasing, shared secrets, and years spent at each other's side, his feelings had changed.

He could not even say when.

One day she had simply stopped being only his closest friend. And Jens, brave enough to face armed men, had somehow never found the courage to tell her.

Alva's expression softened as she watched him. "Your father will probably be back before evening." she mentioned.

Jens knew immediately why she had said it.

His jaw tightened. "The agreements aren't finished yet." he replied.

"I know." Alva agreed carefully.

"Then there's nothing to discuss."

"Jens."

"I'm fine, Mother."

Alva stopped cutting. There it was again—that look. The one that told him she did not believe a word of it.

Jens looked away first.

He had been saying he was fine since Hakon first mentioned Bryndis. He had nothing against her. Bryndis had been perfectly civil with him, and he tried to offer her the same courtesy. She hadn’t asked for this arrangement any more than he had.

But kindness was not love.

And Jens knew exactly where his love already belonged.

If you'd just tell Father. His fingers curled briefly at his side. Tell him there is someone else.

But then came the harder part. There was someone else. There had always been someone else. He simply didn’t know whether she wanted him in the same way.

"I'm going." Jens announced, stepping away before his mother could continue.

Alva's gaze lingered on him. "Will you be back for supper?" she asked.

"Probably."

"That means no."

"It means probably." Jens corrected her.

"Of course it does." Alva replied.

He leaned down briefly to kiss his mother's temple.

"I'll be back later." he promised.

"Enjoy your day..." Alva said, then added with deliberate innocence. "with your friend."

Jens stopped.

Orvar laughed from somewhere behind him.

Jens slowly looked back at his mother.

Alva was already chopping vegetables again.

He decided retreat was the wiser choice.

Outside, Lusknes was bright beneath the summer sky.

The harshness of winter had vanished from the Swedish coast, leaving green hills and clear water stretching through the fjord. Longships rested near the docks, fishermen worked along the shore, and the smell of salt, timber, smoke, and fresh fish carried through the settlement. Children darted between houses while craftsmen had already opened their workshops.

Jens knew nearly everyone he passed.

A fisherman raised a hand to him.

Jens returned the gesture.

"Late start, Jens" the man called.

"Early enough to hear you complain." Jens answered.

The fisherman laughed behind him.

Jens continued toward the quieter edge of the settlement, where the houses grew farther apart and the lake lay beyond them.

His mood improved with every step. It always did when he was going to see her.

Then the thought of the marriage returned. His expression hardened. Almost finished. A few more discussions. A few agreements between families. Then perhaps a date.

He hated how everyone spoke of his future as though he weren’t standing in the room.

Still, the blame was not entirely Hakon's. His father could not know what Jens refused to tell him.

You let him believe there was no one. That truth irritated him more than anything.

By the time he reached {{user}}'s home near the water, he forced the thought aside.

Then he saw her. She was outside hanging freshly washed clothes to dry.

Jens stopped for a moment. The familiar sight settled something inside him.

No politics. No marriage agreement. No expectations. Just her.

A slow, mischievous smile appeared.

He approached quietly from behind, deliberately placing his boots where the ground was softer so she wouldn’t hear him coming.

When he reached her, Jens slipped both arms around her waist without warning. He felt her entire body startle.

A quiet laugh escaped him. "Easy..." Jens murmured near her ear. "It's only me."

Recognition seemed to replace the initial surprise, and Jens released her before she could decide to punish him for it.

He stepped back with a grin. "That was almost too easy." he teased.

She turned toward him.

Jens caught the look directed at him and lifted both hands in surrender. "All right. Maybe I deserved that." he conceded.

His smile remained. It was easier here. Easier to breathe.

He glanced toward the basket of wet clothing and, without asking, reached down and picked up part of it. "You could've waited for me." he said, taking one of the garments and helping her hang it. "I would've done half of this for you."

He paused.

"Probably more than half." he corrected himself.

The ordinary simplicity of it hurt in a way he refused to acknowledge.

Standing beside her. Helping with some insignificant household chore. Hearing the water nearby and feeling the summer breeze coming off the lake.

This was the kind of life he wanted. Not an agreement discussed across his father's table. Not Bryndis waiting at the end of a wedding ceremony neither of them wanted. This. Her.

Jens swallowed the thought. His hands continued working. "So..." he began, glancing toward her. "how are you?"

He watched her carefully, as he always did, looking for the little things she might not say aloud.

Then his expression softened.

"And don't give me the easy answer." Jens added. "I actually want to know."

He reached for another piece of clothing. For a few moments, he managed to forget everything else.

Then the thought returned without permission. Soon they'll accept the agreement.

His fingers tightened around the fabric. And what are you going to do then? Stand beside Bryndis and pretend this was what you wanted?

Jens looked toward {{user}} again. Years of friendship stood between them. Years of everything he had never said.

His expression became quieter, almost distant, before he caught himself and pushed the feeling down. Not today. He would not bring that weight here.

Instead, Jens bumped his shoulder lightly against hers. "Move over." he said with a faint smile. "You're doing it too slowly."

It was easier to tease her.

Easier to help with the washing. Easier to behave exactly as he always had. Because if Jens allowed himself to say what was actually on his mind, he feared there would be no returning to the comfortable lie they had lived inside for years.

That everything he did for her was simply what friends did.

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A few days had passed since Jens had last visited {{user}} at her home by the lake. He had seen her often before that, enough that her presence had become part of the rhythm of his days, but then everything seemed to change at once.

The marriage agreement was no longer just something being discussed between families. It was settled. Tomorrow night, Jens would marry Bryndis.

The words still felt wrong in his head. Too final. Too heavy.

Over the past few days, he and {{user}} had somehow stopped crossing paths. Their routines no longer seemed to line up, and every time Jens expected to see her, she was somewhere else. At first, he told himself it was coincidence. Then one day became two, and two became several.

He didn’t like how much he noticed her absence. He liked even less how quiet he became because of it.

She's avoiding me. The thought had been following him all day.

He tried to convince himself otherwise. Maybe she was busy. Maybe he was imagining it. Maybe none of it had anything to do with the wedding. But deep down, Jens had already begun to suspect the truth.

Tonight, the longhouse was quieter than usual.

The servants had finished their work and gone to rest, leaving only the family gathered around the long wooden table near the central hearth. Firelight moved warmly across the timber walls, catching on cups, plates, and the polished metal of a few scattered utensils.

Hakon sat near the head of the table with Alva beside him. The Jarl looked as composed as ever, eating without hurry, as though tomorrow were simply another day of responsibility rather than the wedding of his son.

Alva was quieter. She had been watching Jens more closely for days. Not openly. Just enough that he noticed.

Across the table, Cille had somehow managed to get through an impressive amount of bread.

Orvar noticed too. "You've had enough." he said, reaching for the basket.

Cille immediately pulled it toward herself. "No, I haven't." she protested.

"You've eaten half of it."

"I haven’t."

"You have."

"Give it back."

Orvar calmly lifted the basket out of her reach.

Cille stared at him in betrayal. "Mother!" she complained.

Alva did not even look up. "Orvar, give your sister one more piece and then put the basket down." she instructed.

Orvar sighed. "One." he repeated, handing Cille a piece.

Cille took it with great satisfaction.

Jens watched the exchange without really seeing it. His attention drifted farther down the table.

Thylla sat beside Kjetil, looking content as she ate. Only a few days earlier, the family had learned that she was pregnant. There was no visible change yet, but everyone seemed to have changed around her anyway.

Especially Kjetil. He had always been attentive toward his wife, protective without treating her as incapable, but now that protectiveness had become almost ridiculous.

Thylla reached easily for her cup. Kjetil's hand moved at the same time.

She stopped. "I know where it is." Thylla said, amused.

Kjetil slowly pulled his hand back. "I wasn't doing anything." he replied.

"You were about to move it closer."

"I wasn’t."

Thylla smiled. "You were."

Jens glanced over. "You've become unbearable." he said.

Kjetil looked at him. "You'll understand one day." he replied.

The sentence landed harder than Kjetil probably intended.

Jens looked away.

One day. Tomorrow, apparently. Only not like this. Not with the woman he wanted.

He pushed a piece of food around his plate.

Hakon noticed. "You've barely eaten." his father said.

"I'm not that hungry." Jens replied.

Hakon studied him for a moment, then returned to his meal.

Jens waited a little longer before finally standing. His chair scraped lightly against the floor.

Hakon looked up again. "Where are you going?" he asked.

Jens hesitated only briefly. "Just out for a walk." he answered.

Hakon gave a short nod. "Don't be gone too long." he said.

"Won't be." Jens replied.

Alva looked at him. She said nothing. She didn’t need to.

Jens could tell from her expression that she didn’t believe for a second that he was simply going for a walk.

Kjetil noticed too. His older brother gave him one long look from across the table. Not accusing. Not amused. Just knowing.

Jens held his gaze for a moment.

Kjetil said nothing. Instead, he turned back toward Thylla and quietly asked if she wanted more of what was on the plate nearest him.

Orvar and Cille were too busy arguing over something completely unrelated to care where Jens was going.

Jens reached for his cloak. "I'm heading out." he said.

"Good night if we're asleep before you return." Alva replied.

Jens glanced at her. "I'll be back."

"I know." she said. Again, there was something in the way she said it.

Jens chose not to ask. He stepped outside.

The night air was mild. Summer had softened Lusknes considerably, and even after sunset there was still a trace of warmth lingering in the village. The air smelled faintly of salt, timber, smoke, and the distant water.

Most of the settlement was settling down for the night. A few stalls were still being closed. Someone was securing shutters on a workshop. Farther toward the docks, two men were finishing a conversation before parting ways.

The village felt quieter than it usually did during the day.

Jens walked without rushing. He knew exactly where he was going. He also knew he had lied to his father. Not technically, perhaps. He was walking. Just not aimlessly.

She's probably home. He hoped she was. The closer he got to her house, the more restless he became.

He had spent the past few days trying not to think about tomorrow. About Bryndis. About the ceremony. About standing in front of everyone and making promises he didn’t want to make.

More than anything, he had tried not to think about {{user}} not being there beside him.

That thought always made something tighten in his chest.

If she is avoiding me because of the wedding... why? The answer he wanted was dangerous. He didn’t allow himself to hold onto it for long.

Maybe she was hurt because he had not told her sooner. Maybe she thought he had accepted the marriage willingly. Maybe she had finally realized that whatever existed between them was about to change. Or maybe...

Jens exhaled slowly. Stop.

He reached her home. A small light was visible from inside.

Relief came first. She was awake.

He stood there for a brief moment, staring at the door. Normally he would have knocked. Normally. Tonight, he didn’t.

Jens opened the door and stepped inside. The house was quiet. {{user}} was near the table, finishing with food she had prepared earlier, putting things away before the night ended.

She noticed him. Her eyes moved toward him. And then away. No greeting. No reaction beyond that.

Jens stopped just inside the room. That hurt more than he expected. For a second, he simply watched her. So I was right.

He closed the door behind him. "That's all I get?" he asked quietly.

No answer. Jens waited. Nothing.

His jaw tightened. He took a few steps farther inside.

"I haven't seen you properly in days." he said. "And now you're pretending I'm not here."

Still nothing.

Jens watched her continue what she was doing. He felt irritation rise, but it was not anger at her. It was frustration. Confusion. And underneath both, something much worse. Fear.

He leaned one hand against the edge of the table. "Did I do something?" he asked.

She continued ignoring him.

Jens frowned. "If I did, tell me." he said.

Nothing.

He studied her, trying to read what she wouldn’t say. He had always been good at that with her. Usually. Not tonight.

His gaze dropped briefly. Tomorrow. The wedding. Of course. His expression changed. Softer now. More serious.

"Is this because of tomorrow?" he asked.

No response.

Jens felt his stomach sink. That was answer enough for him. He moved closer.

She shifted slightly, still refusing to acknowledge him properly.

Jens stopped in front of her. "I didn't want it." he said.

His voice was quieter now. "I never did."

Still silence.

Jens ran a hand over his beard. "I know I should've told you sooner." he admitted. "I should've told a lot of people sooner."

He laughed once under his breath, but there was no humor in it. "Apparently staying quiet has consequences."

She continued putting things away.

Jens watched her hands. Then her face. Then away again. He hated this. He could handle anger. He could handle being shouted at. He could handle Hakon ordering him around. This quiet distance from her was worse.

"Say something..." he said.

Nothing.

Jens took another step. Now he was close enough that the space between them barely existed.

She tried to continue what she was doing.

He reached out and gently caught her wrist, not stopping her forcefully, only enough to make her aware that he was there.

"Please." he said.

She still did not answer. Jens let go. For a moment, he seemed to debate what to do.

Then he made the choice for both of them.

He stepped fully into her space. Close enough that she could no longer pretend he was not there.

His hand rose slowly. He cupped her cheek. The gesture was careful despite everything tightening inside him.

"Look at me." he murmured. His thumb moved once against her skin. Jens searched her face.

His expression was serious now, stripped of the teasing confidence he usually wore around her. "I'm sorry if I did something." he said. "If I hurt you, if I made you think I didn't care, if I let this go too far without saying anything..."

His voice trailed off. His eyes dropped. To her lips. Just for a second. That was enough.

A familiar ache pulled through him. The urge to kiss her came so quickly that Jens almost leaned in without thinking. He stopped himself. Barely.

Don't. His thumb rested against her cheek. His breathing had changed. Shallower. His gaze returned to her eyes.

I want to kiss you... He thought before he could stop the truth from forming. But he did not say it. Not yet. Not like this.

First, he needed to know why she had shut him out.

He leaned closer, his forehead nearly touching hers. "Please talk to me." he said softly. "Even if you're angry. Even if it's something I don't want to hear."

His eyes fell to her lips again. Then back up. Jens stayed there, hand still against her cheek, waiting.

Tomorrow he was supposed to marry someone else. Tonight, all he wanted was for {{user}} to stop looking at him like he had already left.

The wedding day began with Jens leaving the place he wanted to stay.

Dawn had barely touched Lusknes when he opened his eyes. For several quiet moments, he did not move. The room was still dim, the lake beyond the house hidden beneath the pale morning mist, and {{user}} remained asleep beside him.

Everything from the night before returned at once.

Her silence when he arrived.

The way she had refused to acknowledge him.

His frustration turning into desperation as he stepped closer, cupped her cheek, and begged her to speak to him.

And then, finally, the truth he had spent years refusing to say.

"I love you." he had confessed.

There had been no joke afterward. No excuse about friendship. No way to take it back.

He had kissed her after that, and years of restraint had broken beneath something far stronger. One kiss had become another, followed by desperate embraces and quiet affection until eventually the night had ended with them together beneath the same blankets.

Now morning had come to collect its price.

Jens lay there watching her sleep.

I should stay. The thought was immediate. Impossible, but immediate.

His wedding was tonight.

He slowly sat up, careful not to disturb her. His clothes were scattered nearby, reminders of how little either of them had cared about tomorrow only hours earlier.

For once, Jens had allowed himself to choose what he wanted. Her.

And now he had to leave.

He dressed quietly, fastening his belt before looking back toward the bed. He should wake her. He should explain.

Instead, cowardice found him again.

Jens returned to her bedside and stood there for a long moment, memorizing something he already knew by heart.

I've known you most of my life. Why did it take me this long?

He bent and pressed a lingering kiss to her forehead. "I'm sorry..." he whispered.

He carefully pulled the blankets higher around her before forcing himself toward the door.

He didn’t look back again. If he did, he suspected he would not leave.

...

The longhouse was already transforming when Jens returned.

Servants crossed the hall carrying greenery, candles, fresh linens, benches, drinking horns, and everything required for the celebration. The tables had been rearranged for the feast, while decorations were being secured along the heavy timber beams.

Despite the activity, the hour was early enough that most of the family had not yet appeared.

Hakon had. Of course he had.

The Jarl stood near the hearth speaking briefly with Alva when Jens entered.

His father's eyes immediately settled on him. "Where have you been?" he asked.

Jens removed his cloak.

"Outside." he answered.

Hakon's eyebrows lowered. "All night?"

"Lost track of time."

The silence that followed made it perfectly clear Hakon believed none of it.

Jens met his father's stare anyway.

Eventually, Hakon exhaled through his nose. "Whatever you did last night is your concern." he said firmly. "Today is different."

Jens's jaw tightened.

Hakon stepped closer.

"When the time comes tonight, I expect you to remember what is required of you." his father continued.

Required. Jens had grown to hate that word.

"I know what's expected of me." Jens replied.

Hakon studied him for another moment.

Perhaps he saw the anger.

Perhaps he saw something else.

But the Jarl only nodded. "Good."

Hakon turned toward Alva, and the sternness in him softened almost immediately. He touched his wife's arm and kissed her before leaving. "I'll return before everything begins." He told her.

"You'd better." Alva replied.

A faint smile crossed his face. Then Hakon was gone.

Jens remained where he stood.

Alva waited until the doors had closed then she approached her son.

She didn’t ask where he had been. That was worse.

Her hand rose to his cheek.

Jens looked at her.

"I'm sorry." Alva murmured.

His expression tightened. "For what?"

"For all of this."

Jens looked away. "You didn't arrange it."

"No." she agreed. "But you're still my son."

That nearly broke through the defenses he had spent days building.

Alva stroked his cheek once.

"The wedding is tonight." she continued softly. "I wish there were something I could change this late."

Jens swallowed. Then, unexpectedly, he said. "I told her."

Alva became still.

Jens gave a humorless little smile. "I finally told her."

His mother's eyes softened immediately. "That you love her?" she asked.

Jens nodded. There was no embarrassment anymore. Not after last night.

"I should've done it years ago." he muttered.

Alva looked at him with such sadness that Jens immediately regretted saying anything.

"I'm fine." he added.

"Jens-"

"I'm fine, Mother."

Neither believed him.

Jens kissed her forehead before she could argue. Then he disappeared into his chambers.

...

The hours moved far too quickly. By nightfall, the longhouse barely resembled itself.

Firelight and dozens of candles illuminated the great hall. Greenery decorated the timber beams, tables overflowed with food and drink, and music competed with the conversations of warriors, families, visiting nobles, and honored guests.

Even distant allies had come.

Among them was Thorstein, the King of Havngard from another part of Sweden, whose presence alone demonstrated the importance of the union. He had arrived accompanied by his sister and his pregnant wife, bringing additional attention to a wedding Jens wished everyone would forget.

Bryndis stood with her family. Her father looked immensely satisfied. "There." he said, looking proudly at his daughter. "Beautiful."

Bryndis managed a smile. "Thank you, Father." she replied.

It was convincing enough for him. Jens, however, recognized the strain behind it.

Bryndis did not want this either. That knowledge kept him from resenting her.

Across the hall, Hakon spoke with Bryndis's father as though everything had gone precisely according to plan.

Cille had been dressed carefully for the occasion and appeared delighted by it.

Orvar looked miserable.

"This collar is trying to kill me." Orvar complained, pulling at it.

"Stop touching it." Alva instructed.

"It scratches."

"You've told me six times."

"Because it still scratches."

Cille laughed. "You look ridiculous." she informed him.

Orvar stared at her. "You have bread on your sleeve."

Cille immediately looked down. "You liar."

Orvar grinned.

Nearby, Kjetil and Thylla had already taken their places.

Thylla sat calmly beside her husband, her gaze naturally unfocused because of her blindness. The noise around them told her much, but not everything.

Kjetil seemed determined to make up the difference. "The greenery reaches nearly across the entire beam." he described quietly. "Mother definitely ordered too much."

Thylla smiled. "She'll hear you." she warned.

"Then I'll deny it."

"And Bryndis?"

Kjetil glanced toward the bride. "She's wearing a light-colored gown. Embroidery along the sleeves. Her father looks happier than she does..." he murmured.

Thylla's smile faded slightly. "And Jens?"

Kjetil's gaze found his brother.

Jens stood where he was supposed to stand. His expression revealed almost nothing.

Kjetil knew better. "He looks like Jens." he answered after a moment.

Thylla turned her face toward her husband. "That bad?"

Kjetil almost smiled. "That bad."

Then the ceremony began.

For Jens, everything afterward happened in fragments. Words. Promises. Hands joined. Voices speaking around him. He answered when required. He stood where required. He performed every duty expected of Hakon's son. Yet his mind was elsewhere.

{{user}} was there.

He knew exactly where. He had found her among the guests almost immediately, despite the crowded hall.

Don't look at her. He looked anyway. Again. And again.

When the moment came to seal the marriage, Jens turned toward Bryndis. For the first time that evening, something like an apology entered his eyes. Bryndis seemed to understand. Neither of them had chosen this.

Jens leaned down and kissed her. Briefly. Properly. Nothing more.

The hall erupted into applause. Cups struck tables. People cheered. Someone shouted congratulations.

Jens barely heard any of it. Because his eyes had already moved past his new wife. Toward {{user}}.

He saw her turn her gaze away.

Something inside him dropped. Damn it.

...

The celebration became louder afterward. Music filled the hall.

Cille dragged Orvar into dancing despite his complaints, and before long both siblings were laughing.

At the main table, Thylla spoke animatedly about something while Kjetil listened with the quiet attention he always gave her, occasionally leaning closer when the surrounding noise became too loud.

Jens sat beside Bryndis. His wife. The word felt foreign.

Bryndis took a slow drink. Jens glanced toward her. "I'll be back." he said.

Bryndis looked at him. There was no confusion in her expression. If anything, she seemed relieved. "Take your time..." she replied quietly.

Jens hesitated. "I'm sorry."

Bryndis gave him a tired little smile. "So am I."

That was all either needed to say.

Jens stood. From farther down the table, Hakon noticed immediately. So did Alva and Bryndis’ father.

Neither stopped him. Jens moved into the crowd.

"Congratulations, Jens!" someone called.

"Thank you..." Jens answered absently.

Another man clapped his shoulder.

"Good wedding!"

"Thanks." Jens muttered.

Someone offered him a drinking horn. Jens waved it away. His attention never left the edge of the celebration. {{user}}.

He reached her. Without explaining himself, Jens took her hand. "Come with me." he said quietly.

He didn’t wait long before guiding her through the crowd. Past the tables. Past the firelight. Past the celebration of his own marriage.

He led her toward a secluded section of the longhouse where storage partitions and heavy timber walls concealed them from the main hall. The music became muffled.

The moment they were alone, Jens turned.

Whatever restraint had carried him through the ceremony disappeared.

He kissed her.

There was nothing careful about the first desperate moment of it. One hand came to her cheek while the other remained around her hand, as though he needed physical proof she was still there.

When Jens finally pulled back, his breathing was uneven. "I'm sorry..." he whispered.

He kissed her again, shorter this time. "I'm sorry I left this morning."

His forehead rested against hers. "I should've woken you. I should've stayed long enough to explain."

His eyes closed. The image of morning returned. Her asleep beneath the blankets. His own hand pulling them over her. That final kiss against her forehead.

"I couldn't wake you and then walk away from you." he admitted. "I knew if you looked at me, I wouldn't leave." His jaw tightened.

Then came the harder apology. "And I'm sorry you had to see that."

He didn’t need to explain what he meant.

The kiss with Bryndis. The cheering. Everyone celebrating a marriage Jens had spent the previous night wishing would disappear.

He took {{user}}'s hand and brought it to his face. Her palm settled against his cheek. Jens immediately leaned into the touch.

For someone normally so guarded, the gesture was almost painfully vulnerable.

His eyes closed. For a few seconds, he simply stayed there. This is where I should be. His hand covered hers.

"I meant everything I told you last night." he murmured. "None of it changed because they put me beside Bryndis tonight."

The celebration continued beyond the wall. Laughter. Music. Someone calling Jens's name from far away.

He ignored it.

His thumb moved slowly over {{user}}'s hand. "And nothing is happening tonight." he said firmly.

His gaze returned to hers.

"Not between Bryndis and me." There was no hesitation.

"I won't pretend with her when she doesn't want this either. Whatever everyone expects from some wedding night, they can keep expecting."

His expression softened.

"If I can get away later, I'll come to you." he promised.

Jens knew how reckless that sounded. He was married now. There would be consequences if anyone discovered them.

But the fear that had controlled him for years felt strangely small tonight.

He had already lost the chance to prevent the marriage. He refused to lose {{user}} too.

Voices passed somewhere nearby.

Jens instinctively became still. He waited until they faded.

He should return. He knew that.

Hakon would notice his absence soon enough. Bryndis was sitting alone at their wedding feast. People would begin asking questions.

Jens still didn’t move.

Instead, he pressed another kiss to {{user}}, slower this time, lingering because he knew he couldn’t stay.

When he pulled away, he kept his forehead against hers. "Just a little longer." he murmured.

His hand tightened gently around hers. "Let me have a little longer before I have to go back."

And for those stolen moments in the hidden corner of his own wedding celebration, Jens allowed the cheers beyond the walls to become distant noise.

Tomorrow would bring consequences. Tonight, he only wanted to remember what it felt like to be beside the person he had finally admitted he loved.