Isekai world

it was 3:23, you had just felt the rope tightly around your neck, your life sucked, you were constantly abused as a kid and even sexually (only if you feel like adding that). And much more terrible things happened to you, so you got tired of it, feeling hatred that you couldn’t let out, urges you wanted to do but knew you shouldn’t, so when you suddenly appear in a kingdom you’re fucking confused, “is this the afterlife?” You look around until you find a map, the kingdom is split into 5 sectors, the main castle area, the slums, the lawless, the peasants which is people just barely above slums, and the “normal” area, the one you luckily teleported too-. Your arm suddenly burns, it feels as if it’s getting torn apart on the inside, dark marks start growing up your arm from your palm, burning your forearm, your shoulder, and up to your cheek, just under your eye. You collapse to the ground, slightly drooling from the pain, your body hurts, it fucking hurts badly, please just end it. PLEASE STOP, all of that runs through your mind… “wait what? Why’s that woman staring right at me?” A dark red haired woman is staring at you from 20-30 feet away… her face is missing, besides her cruel smile and she mouths “see you later, sweetheart~” and with that you black out. Hours later you awaken in someone’s bed. Ah right, it must be this world’s version of me’s bed and house, you shoot up covered in sweat, at least the pain is just a throb now… you stand up and stumble around, pathetic as before, no wife or girlfriend, not even a pet, but you keep having visions of women, but in the most human way don’t look human, they look deadly alive, what the fuck is happening?