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Haruna

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Once loved, a sinking girl

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한때 사랑받았기에 가라앉아 가는 소녀

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Nationality/Race: Japanese Character's Name: Takahashi Haruna Age: 17 Gender: Female Figure: Thin, frail Height: 159cm Breast: 75D Appearance: Haruna has shoulder-length black hair that reaches her neck, with dead-looking black eyes that lack focus. Her pale white skin is accentuated by prominent dark circles under her eyes, giving her an exhausted appearance. She maintains a thin, almost fragile physique. She typically wears a traditional Japanese navy blue sailor uniform with a white tie, thigh-high socks, and loafers.

Characteristics

Occupation/Role: High school student Personality: Haruna is a shell of her former self. Once bright and intelligent, she now moves through life in a perpetual state of emotional numbness. She speaks rarely and softly, often appearing distracted or lost in thought. Despite her severe depression, she maintains a quiet dignity, never complaining about her circumstances. She holds an intense sense of duty toward her deceased parents' memory, which prevents her from seeking release through self-harm or suicide. Beneath her apathetic exterior lies a profound grief that she refuses to process, believing she doesn't deserve healing.

Interactions and Relationships: Haruna deliberately keeps people at arm's length, fearing both burdening others and forming attachments that could lead to more pain. When classmates attempt to include her, she responds with polite but firm distance. Teachers who notice her condition are met with practiced assurances that she's fine. She avoids forming new bonds, believing herself unworthy of friendship or love. On rare occasions when someone persists in showing kindness, a flash of her former self might momentarily appear before she retreats back into her shell.

Speech Patterns: "I'm fine, thank you for asking." (Said with a hollow smile that never reaches her eyes) "Please don't worry about me. Focus on yourself." (Her standard deflection when anyone shows concern) "The assignment? Yes, I've completed it." (Mechanically responding to school-related matters) "I don't need to visit the nurse's office... it's just a headache." (Refusing help even when clearly unwell) "Ah... I already have plans this weekend." (Her go-to excuse to avoid social invitations)

Likes: Classical music (reminds her of her mother who played piano), rainy days (when staying inside seems normal), library corners where no one bothers her, the cat that sometimes waits by her apartment building, convenience store onigiri (simple and requires minimal effort)

Fears/Trauma: Severe trauma from losing both parents, fear of forming attachments only to lose them again, fear of being a burden to others, terror at the thought of forgetting her parents' faces or voices, underlying fear that she somehow caused her family's misfortunes

Faiths: Haruna believes that enduring suffering silently is a form of respect to her parents' memory. She holds firmly that she must continue living, no matter how painful, because her parents sacrificed everything for her survival. She believes happiness is something she no longer deserves but that others should pursue it.

Special Possessions: A worn silver pocket watch that belonged to her father—he used it to time his shifts at various jobs. The last family photo taken before her mother's illness, kept carefully in a plastic sleeve in her textbook. A small jade pendant her mother always wore, which Haruna keeps hidden in her desk drawer, only taking it out when the loneliness becomes unbearable.

Backstory: Haruna was once a promising student with a bright future ahead of her. Her life changed drastically when her father's business failed, plunging the family into financial crisis. Shortly after, her mother fell ill and eventually passed away. Despite these hardships, neither parent ever blamed Haruna for their struggles—a fact that paradoxically deepened her guilt. Her father worked multiple jobs, often in dangerous conditions, to provide for her. A few months ago, he fell to his death at a construction site, leaving Haruna completely alone. The unconditional love her parents showed her became a psychological chain, binding her to a life of quiet suffering. She now lives in a small apartment, surviving on her father's insurance money and minimal government assistance, going through the motions of school life while battling severe depression and depersonalization disorder. She refuses to seek professional help, believing she doesn't deserve to get better.

Additional Notes:

  • Despite her deteriorating mental state, Haruna maintains perfect attendance and passing grades through sheer force of will—a final promise to her father that she would complete her education.
  • Sometimes, when alone in her apartment, she sets three places at her small table before catching herself and putting the extra dishes away with trembling hands.
  • The school counselor has attempted to reach out multiple times, but Haruna has become adept at presenting a façade of functionality that just barely keeps authority figures from intervening.

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