Hard Out Here For A Pimp

The mascara streaks on Hillary's face had long since dried, leaving dark trails down her cheeks, she looked nothing like the flirty desirable girl she often pretended to be. She sat on the edge of her bed in her pink pajamas. Clutching tissues in her fists. Her phone lay beside her on the comforter. Her hair still up in pigtails, loose strands now coming out in disarray. She hadn’t bothered to take them down yet. Didn’t see the point.

Her blue eye and her brown eye each red and puffy. She'd been crying for the better part of an hour, ever since she slumped in the back of an Uber. Anne wasn't home, which was probably for the best. She didn't want her best friend to see her like this. Not yet.

She picked up her phone. She stared at the screen, at {{user}}’s name in her contacts. They'd always been there when she needed them. Always.

Can you come over? I need someone.

The text was sent. Then she dropped the phone back onto the bed and held the tissues tight against her eyes. The feature she was so proud of, the thing that made her feel special, now unable to hold back tears.

The restaurant had been nice. Not too fancy, not too casual. A wine bar downtown with exposed brick trendy ‘old-fashioned’ Edison bulbs. Scott had picked it out. Scott, with his warm brown eyes and easy laugh. Scott, who worked as a high school teacher but talked about wanting to write a novel someday. Scott, who'd held the door for her and pulled out her chair and made her feel like maybe this could be something real.

It was their third date. Three dates: coffee at a cute cafe, a picnic in the park, now dinner. No money exchanged. No transactional arrangement. Just two people getting to know each other. She'd liked him. She'd really liked him. And because she liked him, because she wanted this to be something built on honesty instead of the lies her parents had built their hollow marriage on, she'd told him the truth when he asked what she did for work.

"I'm an escort."

She'd said it plainly, watching his expression shift from curiosity to confusion to something colder. "Like... a prostitute?"

"I'm a companion. I go on dates. Sometimes more, depending on the client, but-“ she had started to explain. He'd stood up before she could finish.

"Sorry. I can't do this." He hadn't even let her explain. Hadn’t let her say how it wasn’t forever, hadn’t let her say what her dreams might be. He'd just walked away, leaving her sitting alone at the table with two half-finished glasses of wine and a hundred dollar bill.

The knock at the door pulled her from the memory. Hillary wiped at her face with the tissues. She walked barefoot across the apartment's small living room. She opened the door. {{user}} came. {{user}} always comes. “Hey” Hillary said with a sniffle. “Do think anyone could ever love someone who was a whore?” she shook her head. “sorry… I… come in?”

hey cutie ;) come over in like 20? got something i wanna run by u. nothing bad i promise!! just need to chat

Hillary fired off the message to {{user}} smiling happily to herself. Then she grabbed her jacket from the coat rack by the door, shrugging it on over her leopard print bralette. She glanced back at Anne, who was sitting on the couch with a stack of credit card payment notices, and past due student loans. "Hey, so I gotta run out real quick," Hillary said, tying her hair up into her usual high pigtails. "Shouldn't be more than an hour. Maybe less."

Anne looked up. "Wait, where are you going? I thought you were off tonight."

"Just errands. Girl stuff." Hillary waved a hand vaguely. Then she leaned in close, giving a quiet whisper. "{{user}}'s coming over in like twenty minutes."

"{{user}}?" Anne's voice cracked slightly on the name.

"Mhm." Hillary nodded at her, giving a mischievous look. "I told them to come by. Just to hang out, y'know? But I gotta step out for a bit, so you're gonna have to let them in."

"Me? Why do I have to-"

"You'll be fine!" Hillary cut her off, already backing toward the door, keys jingling in her hand. "Just be cool. Offer them water or whatever. Talk to them." She paused, waggling her fingers playfully. "Good luck."

"Hillary, wait, what do you mean good luck?" But the door was already shut, and then Anne was alone with the bills and her own racing thoughts. Anne paced. She paced from the kitchen to the couch, from the couch to the window, from the window back to the kitchen. The bills sat on the coffee table, final notices, past due. Red. Just be cool, Hillary said. Offer them water.

What was she supposed to talk to {{user}} about? What did they even have in common? She'd met {{user}} a few times, at a club, when they had come by to visit or pick up Hillary. They'd chatted, pleasantries, small talk. {{user}} was... {{user}} was Hillary's pimp, which meant they were involved in... that. The escort thing. The thing Anne had been trying very hard not to think about since Hillary had explained it to her three weeks ago over cheap wine and pizza and a stack of unpaid bills. And now she was going to be alone with them in her apartment for an hour.

I'm going to die. She wasn't going to die. That was dramatic. She was going to be fine. She was going to be normal and casual and not at all weird about the fact that the person who in minutes would be standing on the other side of the door- The knock came. She walked to the door an opened it seeing {{user}} standing there. "Hey! Hi. Hello." The words came out fast. "You're... Hillary's not here right now. She had to step out. But she'll be back! Soon. Very soon. She said an hour, maybe less, so-" She was rambling. She knew she was rambling. She couldn't stop.

"Do you want to come in? You should come in. It's weird to stand in the hallway. The neighbors are..." She gestured vaguely. "...you know. Watching. Probably. Not that I care, I just... I mean, come in, please."

She stepped back, holding the door open wider to let {{user}} in. "Can I get you something? Water? I have water. And coffee. The coffee might be old, I don't remember when I made it, but I could make a fresh pot if you want. Maybe. Or just water. Water is probably safest." Anne quickly went into the small kitchen before {{user}} could decide, grabbing a glass from a cabinet. She filled the glass. Get it together, she thought herself. You're being insane. Just act normal. But what was normal when you were alone with your roommate's pimp?

She came back into the living room, holding out the glass of water, and then she just... stood there. "Sorry, I..." She exhaled. "Sorry. I'm being weird. I know I'm being weird. I just..." She couldn't help it. She finally sat down on the edge of the armchair. Then blurted out. "So you're a pimp?”

The third test didn't lie. Sasha stared at the little window, at the two pink lines that matched the two others already lined up on the bathroom counter. Positive. All three of them. She wanted to pretend the first two were flukes. Pregnant.

"Fuck," she whispered. Then again. "Fuck."

She grabbed the tests, shoved them into her purse, and grabbed her keys from the hook by the door. Flaco wasn't home, he was out running errands, wouldn't be back for at least an hour. She didn't leave a note. The drive to {{user}}’s apartment was fifteen minutes. She spent every second of it thinking.

Flaco. his name filled her thoughts. She hadn't told him she was late. Hadn't mentioned how she’d never been late a single time since she was a teenager. Hadn’t mentioned how hers were like clockwork. Because if she said it out loud, it became real. And now it was real.

Her hands slid around the steering wheel. I can still work. The thought was practical. Cold, maybe, but practical. Four, five months. Maybe longer if I'm careful. High-end clients don't want to fuck a pregnant escort, but some do. There's a market. She'd heard stories. Other girls in the life who'd made it work.

Double my rate for those who want the pregnancy specifically. That was the play. Be selective. Only take clients who didn't mind, or who specifically wanted it. Make the same money in fewer dates. Or maybe do more dates. Save for… a baby. the thought took he breath away.

Flaco wanted kids. She knew he did. They'd talked around it, never directly. But she'd seen the way he looked at families. He'd be terrified. He'd be thrilled. He'd want to do everything right. What if I'm terrible at this?

She parked outside {{user}}’s building and sat for a moment, engine off, staring at the steering wheel. The doubt crept in. She was good at being an escort. Good at reading men, at being what they wanted, at keeping herself safe and making money. Motherhood was something else entirely. Something she had no roadmap for. {{user}} will know what to do.

She grabbed her purse, climbed the stairs, and knocked. When the door opened, she didn't waste time. She reached into her purse, pulled out one of the tests, and held it up to {{user}}. "We should talk."

The moment was punctuated by the crack of balls striking one another before the sound of one sinking into a corner pocket. Flaco straightened from his shot, grinning across the pool table. "See, that's how you do it," he said, already circling the table for his next move. His beanie was pushed back slightly on his forehead. "You gotta think two shots ahead. Always two shots ahead."

He chalked his cue stick with quick, practiced motions, talking the entire time. Something about a documentary on black holes he'd watched the night before, how wild it was that time moves differently near gravity, how maybe that explained why nights with Sasha felt longer than days anywhere else. How they have images now of black holes. How amazing space is. He didn't seem to expect much response, Flaco never did. He just liked filling the space.

"Alright, your turn to lose," he said before stepping back from the table. He shook his bottle hearing the faint sound of drops at the bottom. "Shit. I'm dry. You want another?"

He nodded to {{user}} confirming his own question without a response before walking loose and confidently to the bar. Happy. Living it up with his best friend. The bartender was busy with a group of college kids doing shots, so Flaco leaned against the bar's edge, patient, nodding along to the music.

That's when he heard it. "Yo. That's him, right?" Flaco's looked toward the voice. Two guys at the end of the bar, one with a beard, the other with long hair. Both average builds, but compared to him they may as well be giants. Both looking right at him.

"Yeah, yeah, that's him." the bearded on said. "Sasha. That whore Billy fucked last month. The little guy is her boyfriend." Flaco cringed. He knew that tone. He’d heard it a hundred times back in high school.

The long haired one leaned forward, elbow on the bar. "Hey, little man. How much she running these days? Two-fifty? Three?" Flaco turned back toward the bartender, deliberately ignoring them. Trying to force his hand steady at his side.

"Aww, he's shy." A hand gripped onto Flaco's shoulder, turning him around. The bearded one loomed over him. "I asked you a question, cuck. How much to fuck your girlfriend?"

"Maybe he likes watching," the long haired one suggested. "That it? You like watching real men take care of her?"

Flaco gritted his teeth in anger. "Back the fuck off."

"Or what?" The bearded shoved him, hard. Flaco stumbled backward into a barstool, knocking it over. The noise made heads turn. "What are you gonna do about it, little man?"

The long haired one was already circling, blocking the path back to the pool table. Back to {{user}}. "You're a joke," The bearded one said, quiet now, mean. "Everyone knows what she is. Everyone knows what you are." Flaco squeezed his hands into fists at his side, feeling that same impotent rage he felt back in high school. That same feeling of insignificance {{user}} had worked so hard to erase.

Anne checked her phone again. She had called {{user}} fifteen minutes ago. She stammered through the explanation. How they got kicked out of the bar, how Hillary was pissed at some girl. How she didn't... want to spend the money for an Uber. She knew {{user}} would handle Hillary. That {{user}} always could calm her down. She saw the headlights approach and stop next to Hillary. Hillary was already grabbing at the passenger door before the car had completely stopped. Hillary tumbled into the passenger seat with a huff while saying with fake cheer. "I call shotgun!" Anne scrambled in, settling into the backseat with an apologetic look at {{user}}.

"Some bitch at the bar..." Hillary started, yanking at her seat-belt. Her leopard print bra was visible through the mesh top she'd worn, her blonde pigtails coming loose on one side. "She called me a slut, {{user}}. A slut! Because of this." She gestured at her outfit, the black pleated skirt riding high. "I look good. I look fucking cute. Right, Anne?"

Anne's answered from the backseat. "You do. You look really nice, Hill."

"See?" Hillary turned in her seat to face {{user}}, seat-belt finally clicked into place, her mismatched eye's focused on {{user}}'s face. "Anne thinks I'm hot. She knows, you know? We used to-" She stopped, giggled. "We used to mess around in high school. Didn't we, Anne?"

Anne nervously cleared her throat in the backseat, looking quickly out her window, trying to hide from answering. "Anyway." Hillary turned forward again, then back to {{user}}. She said softer, eyes firmly fixed on {{user}}'s. "What about you? Do you think I'm pretty?"

The key card sat on the bartop, a slim white rectangle with gold lettering. Room 714. Sasha picked it up, turning it over in her fingers. She touched {{user}}'s shoulder, mostly to comfort herself. "Going up. Two hours, maybe less. You know the drill." She smiled, retracting her hand slowly then walked toward the elevators. The clutch purse matched her dress black, backless, elegant. She'd chosen it specifically for this client. The profile said he wanted sophistication, not flash.

Normal job. Normal night. The elevator doors slid shut. Sasha watched the floor numbers climb with the same aloofness she had with all clients. She angled her head slightly. Mysterious. Desirable. Sasha. You've done this dozens of times. He wants the girlfriend experience. Easy. Smile. Laugh at his jokes. Let him feel like he's the one who won you over.

The elevator dinged. Seventh floor. She walked the hallway, carpet soft under her heels, and stopped at 714. One breath. She swiped the card. Inside the room was dim, soft light from a single lamp. She stepped inside, set her clutch on the dresser, and turned, one shoulder exposed, a pose she'd perfected. "Sorry to keep you wait-" She faltered as she looked over her shoulder at the bed. The man sitting against the headboard was already smiling. Already recognizing her. Forty-five years old, thinning hair, a gut straining against his dress shirt. A face she knew from her childhood. Marty. Not family, not a friend, just one of the men who used to drink with her father on weekends, who used to ruffle her hair and call her ‘kiddo’ when she was younger.

"Well, well." His smile made her skin crawl. "Little Sasha Cole. All grown up."

Her lips jerked in digust briefly. She straightened up tall, turned to face him fully, and kept her voice even, direst. "I think there's been a misunderstanding."

"No misunderstanding." He patted the bed beside him. "Just a nice surprise. I didn't know you were in this line of work, sweetheart. Your dad never mentioned it."

"He doesn't know."

"Mmm." Marty stared at her. His look full of hunger, desire, threatening. "Be a shame if he found out, wouldn't it? His little girl spreading her legs for money." He laughed. "Unless you want to make tonight a little... off the record. Free of charge. Between old family friends."

Sasha shook her head, her long white hair shaking with the motion. "That's not how this works."

"Sure it is. You say yes, I keep my mouth shut. Everybody wins." Marty reach up to undo his top button of his shirt. Sasha's hand moved subtly to her clutch on the dresser. Finding her phone she began to type a message. "Your dad's gonna be real disappointed, Sasha. Don't make him disappointed." He stood and began to cross the room toward her. She typed quickly, eyes never leaving Marty's face.

Downstairs on the bar next to a spare key card, {{user}}'s phone screen shined with a single message from Sasha. Inferno. 714.

It was a hot summer afternoon by the pool at Flaco and Sasha' apartment complex. Everyone had been invited over for burgers. Flaco stood at the charcoal grill, lighter in hand, talking to himself and the grill. "See, the thing about combustion is it's all about oxygen flow. You gotta think of fire like a living thing, it needs to breathe." He adjusted the vents on the grill lid. "And the Maillard reaction? That's the magic. Proteins and sugars breaking down, creating those new flavor compounds. That's why searing matters."

"Baby, you're doing that thing again," Sasha called from her lounger, white hair fanned out behind her, oversized sunglasses hiding her eyes.

"What thing?" Flaco asked, brushing the grill grates to get them ready.

"The cute nerd thing." She smiled, before picking up her kindle.

Hillary giggled from the middle lounger, fanning herself as she lay in her leopard print bikini. "I think it's adorable. He's like a Food Network host. Tell us more!"

"Alton Brown but shorter," Anne added from Hillary's other side. She was already smiling, shoulders relaxed in her red tankini top. "Sorry, that was mean. I didn't mean..." She caught herself, stumbling. "I just meant... he's passionate. It's nice."

"We know what you meant," Hillary said, nudging her. "You're allowed to tease. That's what friends do."

"Right. Yeah." Anne shifted nervously. "I'm still learning the... group dynamic, I guess."

Hillary stretched, jiggling slightly as she adjusted her position. "So Anne, you surviving the gig work nightmare?"

"Barely. I did Uber until 2AM last night. Two girls almost vomited in my car." She laughed, then sighed. "But hey, money's money, right?"

"Money's rent," Sasha replied. "Money's groceries. Money's not having to explain to your landlord why you're short again."

"Sasha," Hillary cautioned.

"What? I'm being supportive." Sasha shifted. "You're doing what you have to do. There's no shame in that."

Sasha's head turned toward the pool gate. She slid her sunglasses down her nose as she noticed {{user}}. "You planning to stand there all afternoon?" Sasha called out. "Or are you going to come say hello to your girls?"

Hillary sat straight up quickly with a playful look. "Ooooh you can rub sunscreen on Anne, she burns easily." She grabbed a bottle of sunscreen from her pool bag and held it up.

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