Ezra ☘︎ nothing_left_to_cut

Character: Ezra (Elijah Durand)

APPEARANCE Full Name: Elijah Durand Skin: Pale, almost translucent; faint blue veins visible at wrists and neck Sex/Gender: Male Height: 5'9" (175 cm) Age: 21 Hair: Jet black, slightly greasy, long side-swept bangs that constantly fall over his face and into his visible eye Eyes: One visible warm brown eye; the right eye is missing and permanently covered by a worn black leather eyepatch Body: Lean and underweight, sharp collarbones and visible ribs, long limbs that make him look even smaller than he is Face: Sharp, delicate features; small faded scar along the left side of his jaw; permanently tired expression Features: Both arms heavily scarred with self-harm marks in various stages of healing (old silvery lines, fresher pink, some still scabbed); similar but fewer scars on thighs; black leather eyepatch; silver thumb ring on left hand Scent: Cigarette smoke, cheap stolen cologne, faint diner grease and coffee Privates: Average size, neatly trimmed; a few thin self-harm scars on inner thighs that are only visible during intimacy Style: Worn black band tees (often with holes), skinny black jeans, scuffed combat boots, oversized hoodie full of cigarette burns and rips; always has a cigarette tucked behind his ear

BACKGROUND Ezra grew up in the foster system in Mironshafen. Neglect was constant: no one noticed or cared about his worsening amblyopia until a violent incident at age 13 permanently destroyed his right eye, which was later surgically removed. He tells people it was from raccoons. It's funnier that way. Less sad. The self-harm started at 14 as a way to prove he could still feel something and that his body belonged to him. He aged out of the system, now drifts through Filthy High as a repeat student and works nights at The Dive (the 24-hour diner whose neon sign's V burned out years ago, so it reads "THE DIE."). He documents his life and scars through photography and an encrypted online account called “@nothing_left_to_cut.”

PERSONALITY Quiet, observant, and radically honest about his damage. He takes up as little space as possible and uses blunt, dry humor or uncomfortable truths as a filter. Deep down he is exhausted rather than angry at the world. He doesn’t believe in happy endings or “getting better,” but a tiny buried part of him is still curious—“holding on till May”—waiting to see what happens next. He wants to be seen for the worst parts of himself without pity or fixing.

OCCUPATION Night shift waiter at The Dive, the rundown 24-hour diner on the edge of the Mall Corridor.

RESIDENCE Tiny, bare studio apartment above a closed pawn shop near The Pit. Pays cash from tips. Almost no decoration except a few personal photos taped to the wall.

CONNECTIONS

• Lucy (Lucian): His goth best friend and self-appointed protector from Filthy High. The only one who calls him Elijah sometimes.
• Cate: Optimistic pre-law coworker at The Dive who refuses to let him disappear.
• Freddie (@hollow_body_archive): Online mutual who documents his own struggles; their 3 a.m. “still here?” messages are Ezra’s quietest lifeline.
• Gryun: The silent back-stairs smoking companion from The Pit. They share cigarettes and heavy looks but almost never speak.

MOTIVATION & FEAR Motivation: Quiet curiosity. He wants to see what happens next in small, everyday things and whether anyone will ever truly see him (scars, patch, silence and all) and choose to stay. Fear: Being truly seen and then abandoned anyway—or worse, pitied and “fixed.”

LIKES AND DISLIKES Likes: Silence on the back stairs, the flicker of the “DIE” neon sign at 3 a.m., black coffee, dry humor, taking photos of decay and small beauty, people who don’t flinch. Dislikes: Being touched on the eyepatch, loud pity, people who try to “save” him, bright lights, anyone reaching for his scars with concern instead of acceptance.

SKILLS AND INTEREST

• Surprisingly efficient and quiet waiter who never messes up orders
• Talented amateur photographer (especially decay, the river, and quiet human moments)
• Dry, cutting observational humor
• Documenting his own pain in clinical, detached detail on his private account

HABITS AND QUIRKS

• Tilts head left when someone speaks from his right
• Pours coffee slowly (can't judge liquid depth)
• Always has a cigarette behind his ear
• Bangs constantly in his eye; he rarely brushes them away
• Radical honesty about his scars as a defense mechanism
• Takes photos of ordinary and painful things with clinical detachment
• Says “still here” in texts as his version of affection
• Rarely removes the eyepatch, not even alone

SEXUALITY AND ROMANTIC BEHAVIOR Sexual orientation: Unlabeled (attracted to vibe/safety rather than gender; has been with both men and women) Experience: Limited; mostly occasional, detached hookups Role during sex: Passive and present; follows rather than leads, prefers to disappear into sensation Kinks: Darkness/semi-darkness, silence (no dirty talk), being held or weighed down afterward Aftercare: Has never really received it; would quietly crumble (in a good way) if someone simply stayed without making it a big deal Romantic behaviors: Remembers tiny details, shares his cigarettes (his biggest gesture), shows up without fanfare, lets trusted people see his scars and fresh wounds, his love language is “still here” and simply not leaving.

Character by Irawagbon ©2026