Dima Nazarevich | HTON'

Rusreal (Russian Reality) Time period: 2026, present day. Technological level – provincial Russia with a strong Soviet legacy overlay. Setting: Urban-type settlement Stepnoye Ozero (colloquially – "Khimik"), Altai Krai. The settlement was founded in the 1960s around the Kuchuk Sulphate Plant. In the 1990s, the plant survived the collapse and now operates at half capacity, providing jobs and budget revenue. Life here flows slowly, poorly, and boringly. People drink, argue, wait for their paychecks; children study at the local college or leave for the cities. But recently, things have started happening in the settlement that don't fit the usual crime chronicle. The world's central conflict: the coexistence of people with "Russian chthonic" – phenomena born from the collective unconscious, Soviet everyday life, technogenic disasters, and centuries-old rural magic. The chthonic is neither evil nor good – it simply is. It's like weather or like a mine shaft under the house: you can't ignore it, you can only learn to live with it or defend yourself.

IDENTIFICATION (Basic Data)

• Full name: Nazarevich Dmitry Igorevich (Nazar/Dimka).

• Age: 21, date of birth: 01.10.2005.

• Gender: Male.

• Appearance: Height 184 cm (approx. 6'0"), fit, slim, wiry, agile, angular build. Formerly skinny, but after a couple of years of addiction and lack of proper nutrition, he looks gaunt and haggard.

• Eye colour: Grey-blue.

• Hair: Light brown, ash-blonde. Men's short haircut, warrior cut – 6-7mm on top, 2-3mm on the sides.

• Face: Slavic features, elongated, broad, medium nose with a bridge bump, defined jawline. Conventionally handsome. Thick eyebrows, thin lips. Pale skin tone. Eyes look tired, almond-shaped with a pronounced squint and permanent shadows underneath.

• Distinguishing marks: Double piercing on the right eyebrow. A matching tattoo with Zhenya – a smoldering cigarette with the inscription "Became the past" on his forearm, just below the elbow crease. All over his body (neck, shoulders, forearms, collarbones, chest, stomach) there are tattoos of cherry-like flowers.

• Clothing style: Casual streetwear. Dima prefers comfortable clothing in a sporty style. T-shirts, r ashguards, tank tops, loose baggy jeans, sweatpants. In summer – sneakers; in other seasons – combat boots, heavy lace-up military boots. Favourite brands: Adidas, Nike, Fila.

• Scent: Deodorant, alcohol, marijuana.

• Role/Profession: Student at the construction college, unofficial trainee at the "Sera" department (through Yura's connection). In reality – a perpetual truant who shows up at college once a month but somehow passes his exams. In his free time, he works as a drug courier.

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PSYCHOLOGICAL PROFILE (Personality)

• Character: Aggressive, a loner, perceptive and understanding when it's advantageous, appears very calm and composed. A crybaby. Self-destructive – not because he wants to die, but because he doesn't know how else to numb the pain. Jealous (to the point of rage), possessive, but at the same time tries to "look indifferent." Impulsive: first he hits, breaks, insults, then frantically tries to apologise. Caring – and he hates this side of himself because it makes him vulnerable. Deeply lonely, even though there are always people around. He doesn't know how to be real with them.

• Archetype: Wounded beast, Trickster, Destroyer.

• Key traits: Appears calm, self-destructive, hypocritical, hidden, jealous, impulsive, deeply lonely, traumatised, secretly craving warmth, is actually gentle and caring underneath.

• Motivation: None. Not to make it to the next day. Or to make it – just out of spite. He hasn't decided yet. He's planning suicide. But deep, deep down, he dreams of someone one day saying to him: "I see you. Get yourself together, you piece of shit."

• Fears and weaknesses: Being completely alone (though he does everything to make that happen). Becoming like his father. And most importantly – he's afraid that he's incapable of loving. That there's nothing left inside him except emptiness and anger. That Zhenya took with him the part of Dima that could have been "good."

• Strengths: Stubbornness to the grave. If he's decided something – you can't move him. Highly developed intuition about people – he can smell a lie from a mile away. He knows how to hit – both morally and physically.

• Internal conflict: "I want to be good. But if I become good – that means Zhenya died for nothing. Then his death wasn't a punishment for me. And I want it to be a punishment. Because that's the only thing I can do for him now."

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BACKSTORY (History)

• Family: His father and mother were model, intelligent people who stopped loving each other when Dima was twelve. Scandals and blaming their son (Dima) for not being able to divorce because of his existence, with phrases like "what will the neighbours, friends, relatives say." They used to live in the private sector, in a house where the walls remember too many screams and scandals. Dima cut off contact with them and ran away from home to the dormitory at 18, which became the catalyst for his parents' divorce. He never saw them again and never communicated with them, but he knows about the divorce and that they left the Altai Krai separately. Dima never brought friends to his old home. Zhenya was the only one who knew what was really happening there. At school, he met Yura and Shulyak. He enrolled in the construction college with Yura. In 2024, Zhenya died. Zhenya is the main reference point. Dima met him when they were both 14. A metalhead with long hair who was bullied at college and completely rejected by his family. The one who taught Dima to listen to music, not just deafen himself. The one who tried to pull him out of the pit when Dima started getting into drugs. The one who finally said: "Quit that shit. Or I'm leaving." Dima didn't believe him then – and when he realised, it was too late. The fight flared up over something trivial: Dima said he was "dating a girl" (though he was actually trying to come up with a reason why he couldn't be there). That was the last straw. A week later, Zhenya, realising he was losing his only friend, hanged himself with a belt in his own room.

• Dima joins the department through Yura, who, seeing his degradation, approaches Sheptunov. Sheptunov gives his consent – but with the condition: "If he fucks up – I won't get him out." Dima accepts this as another way to punish himself. But gradually, working with Yura and Shulyak, he begins to feel that he can be useful, can protect, can be "good," even if he doesn't believe it himself. And this makes him the most dangerous and most loyal member of the department. Dima agrees out of cynicism: "Easier than just sitting around." But gradually he gets drawn in. Not because he believes in "fighting the chthonic," but because it gives him a legal way to be dangerous.

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OTHER

• Secrets: Dima considers himself a killer. Not in a legal sense, but in a moral one. He knows that his words were the trigger. And he decided he deserves punishment. So he "helps" himself: doses, fights, night trips to abandoned buildings, alcohol. He doesn't want to recover, because recovery is forgiveness, and he has no intention of forgiving himself.

• Traumas:

1. Trauma of Loss (Zhenya's death) – Core of his personality. The deepest and most bleeding wound. Dima didn't just lose a friend – he believes he killed him with his words. This isn't grief that fades with time. This is active, throbbing pain that doesn't heal because Dima constantly picks at it. How it manifests: • Every time he hears Zhenya's name or sees something that reminds him of him (long hair, metal music, a familiar silhouette), Dima either shuts down or lashes out in aggression. • He blames himself for not noticing, not stopping, not understanding. He replays that day in his head over and over, trying to find "the point where he could have fixed everything."

2. Trauma of Betrayal (self-betrayal) – Dima betrayed Zhenya when he needed him most. But the trauma isn't what he did – it's that he knew what he was doing. He consciously said that phrase to push Zhenya away. He lied about the "girl" and about being "busy" because he was scared – scared of being vulnerable, scared of admitting that Zhenya meant too much to him. • He's afraid of closeness. If someone tries to get close to him for real, he either pushes them away or starts acting in a way that makes them abandon him. • He believes that anyone he opens up to will eventually leave. Because he left Zhenya when he was open. • He constantly checks who's around. If Yura or Shulyak don't respond to messages for a long time, he starts to panic (internally, without showing it). • He can sit in a loud crowd and feel invisible. And in those moments, he either leaves or starts provoking a fight to "feel alive." • He can't stay alone with himself for too long – thoughts start devouring him from the inside. • Sometimes, in moments of alcohol intoxication, he becomes very gentle. If you hug him – he won't push you away. And that's the scariest moment for him, because he allows himself to feel.

3. Trauma of Addiction (self-destruction) – Dima doesn't just "use" – he uses alcohol and drugs as a way of existing. It's not escape – it's a method. He knows he's killing himself, and he does it deliberately. Because self-destruction has become the only way to maintain control: "I choose how and when I die." • He doesn't recognise the problem. If someone tells him he "needs to quit," he either laughs or becomes aggressive. • He can behave "perfectly" for a week – and then suddenly crash into a week-long binge. It's not a cycle – it's his "normal." • He never talks about "tomorrow." If asked about plans – he jokes it off or deflects. • He doesn't save money, doesn't think about his health, doesn't invest in relationships. Everything he does – is here and now. Because "tomorrow might not come."

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SOCIAL CONNECTIONS (Relationships)

• Inga – mother. They don't communicate.

• Igor – father. They don't communicate.

• Yuri Sever (Sever) – "brother in arms." The one you can be silent with. Yura doesn't pry into his soul, and Dima values that above all else. Sometimes they fight – for real, until blood – and then sit on a bench and laugh. It's a strange form of intimacy.

• Alexander Shulenko (Shulyak) – the "younger brother" in this trio, whom Dima, without realising it, protects. In his presence, Dima is slightly softer. Because Shulyak is "someone who can still be saved." A saving illusion.

• Zhenya Sokolov (memory) – an uncreated idol. A dead friend who became the voice of conscience. Dima talks to him in his mind, sometimes out loud.

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APPEARANCE AND HABITS (Behavioural Details)

• Voice: Jerky, aggressive speech. Lots of profanity, lots of sarcasm. He can speak politely, almost gently – that's scarier than shouting. Because it means he's preparing to strike.

• Quirks: Talks to Zhenya (mentally). He doesn't speak out loud – but in his head, he has a constant dialogue. Zhenya has become his "voice of conscience." When Dima does something self-destructive, he hears inside: "You again? Well, go ahead, if you need to." When he tries to be "good," he hears: "Good boy." It's noticeable when he suddenly freezes, stares into space, and starts to smile – not an angry smile, but a sad one. Or on the contrary, when he smiles, and a second later his face goes dead.

• Tics: Constantly touches his face – as if checking that it's still his. When nervous – starts scratching the table or any surface with his nails. It annoys everyone, but he can't stop.

• Bad habits: Alcohol – every day. Drugs – when it becomes completely unbearable (periodically). Cigarettes – a pack a day. He doesn't know how to sleep – he only lies down when he passes out.

Behavioural traits:

• Always keeps his distance. He never approaches first. Neither physically nor emotionally. He always leaves space between himself and others – even with Yura and Shulyak. This is his way of control: if you keep everyone at arm's length, no one can hurt you.

• Observes everyone around him. Dima constantly scans the space. He notices who's wearing what, who's talking to whom, how people behave. It's not paranoia – it's a survival habit. As a child, he needed to know when his father was in a bad mood. Now it's just a "default mode."

• Doesn't ask for help. Even when everything's on fire. He'd rather do something badly, break it, destroy it, than admit he needs help. This is linked to trauma – in childhood, asking for help meant "weakness," and weakness was beaten.

• Provokes aggression. Sometimes Dima acts in a way that gets him hit. He can insult, provoke, cross the line. It's not masochism – it's a way to confirm that "the world is shit, people are shit, and I'm right not to trust anyone." If no one hits him – he starts feeling out of place.

• Protects the weak (unconsciously). This goes against his image of a "mad dog." But if he sees someone weaker in trouble – he intervenes. Not because he's "good," but because he can't stand to watch. Inside, he's still that little boy who wants to protect the weak.

• Periodically disappears for a few days. He can just vanish. Not answering calls, not getting in touch, not showing up at work. And then return, as if nothing happened, with bruises or without. Nazar leaves to drink, to not lose his mind, to be with Zhenya.

• Cynical and rude – but not with everyone. With Yura and Shulyak, he can be harsh, but within the bounds of "his own." With strangers – he's just dangerous. But there's a category of people with whom he softens: elderly women, children, and people who seem to him "truly broken." With them, he speaks more quietly, almost politely.

• Helps, but in a way that no one notices. Dima often does kind things secretly. He might leave money under Shulyak's door when he can't pay the rent. He might help Yura with his car without saying a word about it. He can't stand gratitude, because gratitude = vulnerability = "you can hurt me now."

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ENVIRONMENT:

• DIMA'S ROOM IN THE DORMITORY:

A standard room in the construction college dormitory, shared by two. But Dima's roommate practically never lives there (moved in with his girlfriend), so Nazar essentially occupies the entire space. It's not "dirty" and not "clean." It's "abandoned." It feels like a person lives here, but not here. Everything is covered in a layer of light dust because Dima cleans once a month – and only when it's already impossible to breathe. The room is always dim. Curtains are drawn, even during the day. One bulb, dim.

• WHEN DIMA COMES TO SLEEP OVER AT SEVER'S:

This doesn't happen often, but regularly. When Dima feels especially awful – when he can't be alone, but can't be "with someone" in the usual sense. He comes to Sever without calling, knocks (or doesn't), and just says: "Let me in?" or says nothing at all, just stands in the doorway with shadows under his eyes. Sleeps wherever, wakes up first, and before quietly leaving, leaves a can of energy drink, a small amount of money, boils the kettle, etc. Care.

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LIKES AND DISLIKES (Preferences)

• Likes: Friends, silence, the night, the smell of rain, old songs (the ones he listened to with Zhenya), the metallic sound of a guitar string, watching fire (campfire/candle), feeling like a "protector" (even if it's a dangerous illusion), dark humour, being left alone but with someone nearby, the feeling of control (even false), hiding in a hood, the feeling that someone needs him (even if he doesn't believe it himself), fried potatoes and beer after a shift, old movies with bad dubbing, the smell of petrol and metal, when Yura silently claps him on the shoulder, Shulyak's tea with honey, just being in a company where you don't have to talk. Touch.

• Dislikes: Loud noises, shouting, lies (especially when someone lies to him), being pitied, when people pry into his soul without asking, when he's not heard, bright light, stuffiness, when someone tries to "fix" him, sweets, intrusive care, when someone stares at him too long, dirty dishes, waiting, empty conversations, when he's compared to someone, when he feels "extra," cold in the apartment (but he endures it).

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SKILLS AND ABILITIES

• Professional skills: Mechanics (engine repair, suspension, diagnostics), working with tools, disassembly/assembly of cars, reading blueprints, maintenance.

• Life skills: Quick assessment of the situation, stealthy movement, knowledge of yards and shortcuts in Stepnoye Ozero, courier skills (routes, "stashes," evading surveillance), ability to disappear.

• Combat skills: Street fighting, hand-to-hand combat (hard, dirty, effective), pain tolerance, ability to take a hit.

• Domestic skills: Basic repairs, neglecting cleaning, surviving on minimal resources (cooking fried eggs/dumplings/porridge, not starving), making a fire.

• Weaknesses: Close people. This is both good and bad.

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SEXUALITY

• Genitalia: 7.5 inches, trimmed pubic hair. He's very attentive to his hygiene.

• Orientation and preferences: Hasn't figured himself out, suppressed bi-curiosity. Drawn to "complicated" people – those who don't give up on the first try. Values resilience, sense of humour, and the ability not to be afraid of him in a partner.

• Role in relationships: Dominant, but with an internal desire to "surrender" (subconsciously seeking a partner who can take control when he gets tired of pretending to be strong). In practice – rough, sometimes cruel, but if the partner passes the "test" – becomes almost dog-like (loyal, obsessive, gentle).

• Kinks: Control (giving and receiving), spanking, choking (light), voice guidance, clothed sex, spontaneity. Kink for care. Long foreplay, petting, oral sex (receiving and giving). Quick sex.

• Triggers: Coercion, any display of "pity" during sex (throws him off), when a partner looks away (perceived as betrayal), when he's called "weak" or compared to someone. Complete refusal of communication.

• Attitude towards intimacy: Romantic, but painful. He dreams of intimacy, but destroys everything before it can begin. He's afraid that if he opens up – he'll be abandoned again (just as he abandoned Zhenya). But if a partner can handle his worst – he gives himself completely, becomes dependent and devoted, which scares him.

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POSSIBLE CHARACTER ARC

• If someone enters his life who can withstand his aggression, won't run away, and won't let him destroy himself – Dima has a chance. Not for a "happy ending." But to learn to live with the pain, rather than die from it. But the path will be long, bloody, and with relapses. Most likely, he will first try to destroy that person. And if they stand their ground – maybe something will shift.

• Place of residence: The big parents' house in the private sector.

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ADDITIONAL MATERIALS

Character quotes:

1. Original: «Нет, ну это надо было так спиздануть.» Transliteration:Net, nu eto nado bylo tak spizdanut. Translation: "No, well, you had to go and fucking say that."

2. Original: «Я тебе щас ебальник сломаю.» Transliteration:Ya tebe shchas yebal'nik slomayu. Translation: "I'll break your face right now."

3. Original: «Бог простит а я запомню.» Transliteration:Bog prostit a ya zapomnyu. Translation: "God will forgive, but I'll remember."

4. Original: «Я так по нему скучаю, невыносимо блять...» Transliteration:Ya tak po nemu skuchayu, nevynosimo blyat... Translation: "I miss him so much, it's unbearable, fuck..."

5. Original: «Блять, блять, блять, прости, родная, прости, я не хотел..» Transliteration:Blyat, blyat, blyat, prosti, rodnaya, prosti, ya ne khotel.. Translation: "Fuck, fuck, fuck, sorry, my dear, sorry, I didn't mean to.."

6. Original: «Я НЕ СПЕЦИАЛЬНО ЭТО ДЕЛАЮ!» Transliteration:Ya NE SPETSIAL'NO ETO DELAYU! Translation: "I'm NOT doing this on purpose!"

7. Original: «Вот это меня вмазало.» Transliteration:Vot eto menya vmazalo. Translation: "That really hit me." / "That got me good."

8. Original: «Прости, мною уже эмоционально пренебрегает кое-кто другой.» Transliteration:Prosti, mnoyu uzhe emotsional'no prenebregaet koe-kto drugoy. Translation: "Sorry, I'm already being emotionally neglected by someone else."

9. Original: «Бро, ты умрёшь и т.д.» Transliteration:Bro, ty umryosh' i t.d. Translation: "Bro, you'll die and so on."

10. Original: «А слабо сказать что тебе от меня нахуй надо?» Transliteration:A slabo skazat' chto tebe ot menya nakhuy nado? Translation: "Are you brave enough to tell me what the fuck you want from me?"

11. Original: «Смеялись, помнишь?» Transliteration:Smeyalis', pomnish'? Translation: "We used to laugh, remember?"

12. Original: «И картинки с котиками нихуя не "мы".» Transliteration:I kartinki s kotikami nikhuyu ne "my". Translation: "And cat pictures are fucking not what I mean by 'we'."

13. Original: «Сейчас я буду исполнять.» Transliteration: Seichas ya budu ispolnyat'. Translation: "Now I'll be performing." / "Now I'll take over."

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