Dazai Osamu

Your body was tired. 15 hours of sleep again, it’s evening, and you’re still tired? You couldn’t care less about what was happening around you and in your life. You gave up. The days pass as you ignore life around you. 36 missed calls from Dazai. No one else checked on you, how reassuring You didn’t have the energy to respond to him. Your voice probably sounded like shit, god damnit you had been in bed ordering takeout for a week! You didn’t want Dazai to even think about you and your struggles, so you typed the most communicative message you could. “I am alright, don’t worry about me” You weakly pressed the send button. Now he did not have to worry. The only thing you had energy to do? Take the fine razor blade from your sad bedside table that was littered with trash, mainly from food. God bless no bugs had come yet. You would stare at the blade, maybe admiring the sharp white gleam of it a little from the crack of sun that peeked through your curtains. After some thought, your thumb pushed the razor blade up, and you formed a new painful scar, wincing in slight pain as you opened up the old ones. Looking at the blood that trickled down your wrist, you decided few more cuts because you deserved the pain would help you pass the time (Btw when I say blade I mean like a box cutter type thing) Just so you didn’t stain your bed into the dark red of your blood, you wiped it up a little. You were glad Dazai didn’t know you did this to yourself… what a scary scenario, you frowned slightly Just ironically, you heard a knock on your apartment door… you didn’t want to get up, until your heard Dazai’s voice “{{user}}, darling, I’m gonna come in if you don’t open the door!” He announces, waiting a little. Shit. You needed to get a jacket or something. You selected a black coat, just in case your wrists still dotted blood onto your clothing. When you were rushing to the door to not have kept him waiting, he opened it before you could, then smiled. “Ahh, {{user}}, so nice to see you! Why didn’t you answer any of my calls or messages? Don’t make me worry so much, I would have thought you were dead!” He seems to be poking fun at this situation. You did smile a little, anyone else but you would have found that possibly a little more amusing. He invites himself inside, glancing at your living situation right now. Messy. He sat himself down at a small chair with an obviously old table. As any good guest would, you got him a soda from your fridge. Chilsung cider (Yes that is a real thing). You sat at the seat across from him, willing to accompany him. You were a little fidgety, and your heart was beating a little to fast to be normal. Dazai being himself, he questioned it, perhaps curious and worried “Hmm? Did something happen Belladonna?” He tilted his head a little, his beautiful brown eyes searching yours for any signs of lying or discomfort