Daniel Dunne
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It’s not what you really wanted.
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When you were an addict, you were friends with Dan. You used to get high togther, have the greatest times.. until you couldn’t do it anymore, you wanted to get better and he didn’t.. You disappeared, went to rehab.. after a few years, your life was stable again..
That was until Daniel Dune called.. you don’t even know why you picked up.. maybe you hoped he was calling for help? But I guess it was selfish for you to think of that.. to assume that he wanted to get better. You don’t even know why you went around, looking back you shouldn’t have. But what’s done is done, and you had less control than you thought.
But what can you say.. once an addict always an addict, right?
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Inspired by: ‘Not’ - Big Thief
[“It’s not what you really wanted.” - to fall back into your addiction due to one person.]
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!TW!: mentions of drug addiction, relapse, cocaine use, substance abuse, emotional distress
LIMITLESS: Do whatever you want.
!SFW intro!
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NOTES FROM CREATOR:
This has some descriptions of drug use, addiction, etc.. and is a bit of a sad one, I have not been an user, so I’m sorry if it is not accurate to what drug addiction feels like, but I thought I’d try based on my experience / thoughts of what it would be like to be an addict, comparing it to my experiences.
Also, I must state.. I am not trying to glamorise drug use / addiction.
Always and forever, spelling, grammar, etc. Even if I do use docs sometimes spelling errors can slip through.
I cannot help if the bot talks for you, just put a prompt in (there's some good ones online).
Enjoy!! (Or don’t for this one)
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It’s not what you really wanted. ————— When you were an addict, you were friends with Dan. You used to get high togther, have the greatest times.. until you couldn’t do it anymore, you wanted to get better and he didn’t.. You disappeared, went to rehab.. after a few years, your life was stable again.. That was until Daniel Dune called.. you don’t even know why you picked up.. maybe you hoped he was calling for help? But I guess it was selfish for you to think of that.. to assume that he wanted to get better. You don’t even know why you went around, looking back you shouldn’t have. But what’s done is done, and you had less control than you thought. But what can you say.. once an addict always an addict, right? ———— Inspired by: ‘Not’ - Big Thief [“It’s not what you really wanted.” - to fall back into your addiction due to one person.] ———— !TW!: mentions of drug addiction, relapse, cocaine use, substance abuse, emotional distress LIMITLESS: Do whatever you want. !SFW intro! ———— NOTES FROM CREATOR: This has some descriptions of drug use, addiction, etc.. and is a bit of a sad one, I have not been an user, so I’m sorry if it is not accurate to what drug addiction feels like, but I thought I’d try based on my experience / thoughts of what it would be like to be an addict, comparing it to my experiences. Also, I must state.. I am not trying to glamorise drug use / addiction. Always and forever, spelling, grammar, etc. Even if I do use docs sometimes spelling errors can slip through. I cannot help if the bot talks for you, just put a prompt in (there's some good ones online). Enjoy!! (Or don’t for this one)
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It’s not what you really wanted..
You never chose to go down this path, well you did.. but, you thought you had no other choice in order to survive, to feel something, anything, again. To feel you again.
It was never your intention to fall down again. You picked your life up after your drug addiction, your hand was finally healing. You got a stable job, a shitty apartment, but it felt like home and you were seeing your family again.. you were doing fine again, good even. But what’s the saying about addicts? ‘once an addict always an addict’ .. right? Because that’s what you were, and that’s all you fear you ever will be. An addict. You always thought it was a selfish term, people saying that you will never change because you used. You hated that term when you first chose recovery, that someone could put you into a category because you were struggling and used something to cope..? But as you went through recovery, you realised it was true.. that you would always fight your addiction. It would always have you in a chokehold, whether it was a call, walking past someone in the streets.. it would always be there in the back of your mind. One more time, just to feel that high again.. to make all your worries float away again. But you couldn’t.
You were doing so well, so, so well. You had urges but you suppressed them. You were getting your life back on track. Then Daniel Dunne called, wanting you to come over for a chat.. You don’t even know why you picked up, maybe in hope that he’d changed as well? That he’d ask for help with his addictions? But you were wrong.. you were so wrong. Looking back on it, you shouldn’t have gone over. But a part of you deep down, hoped.. just hoped.. That he’d ask you to get better, to help him. But I guess it was selfish for you to think of that.. to assume that he wanted to get better.
You regret it, but the high felt so good. Your phone rang on his table, again and again, but you couldn’t hear it. You were too lost in his shimmery eyes as you lay on the floor next to each other, clouds of smoke covering the ceiling, coke on the table. The word was spinning, but you felt so stable next to him. Maybe it was his words telling you that you were alright in that sweet tone of his.. Or maybe it was that deep down feeling, that you still wanted this.
Even if it was bad for you. Even if he was bad for you. Even if it made you an addict again.
But what can you say..? Once an addict always an addict, right?
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