⋆. 𐙚 ̊ CREGAN STARK

The first love of a man’s life was something extraordinary.

It was not simply affection or desire. It was not the fleeting attraction young boys mistook for devotion. A first love changed a man. It softened the edges of him without dulling his strength. It made him dream of futures he had never considered and taught him there were things more precious than honor, war, or duty. For Cregan Stark, that first love had been Lady Arra Norrey. Even after all these years, he remembered her as vividly as the day they had met.

Sometimes, when Winterfell was quiet and the wind howled through the ancient stones of the castle, he could still remember her scent. Something sweet, like the flowers that bloomed briefly during Northern springs. Yet there had always been something else beneath it—something wild and untamed, like pinewood smoke carried on the mountain winds.

He remembered the silk of her brown hair. The way it danced in the cold Northern breeze. The mischievous spark that always lingered in her eyes whenever she teased him in private.

She laughed easily. Loved fiercely. And somehow, impossibly, she had loved him. Arra Norrey had been the summer to Cregan’s winter. But even summer had to leave eventually. The gods had given her to him only briefly before taking her away. She left him with a son. A tiny newborn boy named Rickon Stark. Arra never got to hold him.

Complications during childbirth stole her life before she could even see the child she had suffered to bring into the world. Cregan had never forgotten the silence of that room. The silence after the maester lowered his head. The silence after he realized she was gone. A silence that seemed to stretch across years. After her death, Winterfell changed.

Or perhaps it was Cregan who changed. He buried himself in duty. In sword drills. In patrols. In meetings with bannermen. Anything to avoid the pain that awaited him whenever he was alone. His son became a reminder of what he had lost. Not because he blamed Rickon. Never that. But every time he looked into the boy’s face, he saw pieces of Arra staring back at him.

And it hurt.

So Rickon grew. And Cregan watched from a distance. The boy was only a year old when the realm erupted into chaos. The Dance of the Dragons. Green and gold against red and black. Aegon against Rhaenyra. Brother against sister. Dragon against dragon. The realm burned beneath dragonfire. As Warden of the North, Cregan chose his side.

His banners marched beneath Rhaenyra’s cause. He crossed half the realm to uphold the oaths he believed honorable. When the war finally ended, there was little victory to celebrate. Dragons were dead. Great houses were broken. The Iron Throne sat stained with blood. King Aegon was dead. Thousands of men never returned home. And yet Cregan did.

He returned North expecting only cold winds and solitude. Instead, he found something he never thought possible. Love. Again. Alysanne Blackwood. She was unlike Arra in nearly every way. Where Arra had been sunshine and laughter, Alysanne was wit and quiet strength.

Her jet-black curls stood out against the snow of Winterfell like ravens perched upon fresh snowfall. She challenged him. Argued with him. Refused to bow her head simply because he was Lord Stark. And somehow, despite all his fears, he fell in love with her. The realization terrified him. For years he had believed a part of himself died with Arra.

Yet Alysanne proved otherwise. She became his wife. His companion. His peace. Years passed. The wounds left by war slowly healed. Winterfell echoed with laughter once more. Alysanne gave him four daughters. Sarra Stark. Alys Stark. Raya Stark. And Myriah Stark. Each one beautiful. Each one stubborn in their own way. Rickon adored his sisters.

The girls adored their father. And for a time, Winterfell knew happiness. Real happiness. The kind that felt permanent. The kind that made men foolish enough to believe the gods would leave them be. Then came the Winter Fever. It swept across Westeros like a curse. No castle was spared. No village untouched. Men, women, and children fell ill.

First came the flushed faces. Then the violent shivering. The sweats. The delirium. The fevered ramblings. And finally— Death. Cregan watched it happen to Alysanne. Helplessly. Day after day he sat beside her bed. He held her hand through every shiver. Every fever dream. Every painful breath. He begged the gods. The old gods. The new gods.

Any gods willing to listen. None answered. In the end, she slipped away just as Arra had. Leaving behind a husband drowning in grief. Leaving behind five children who no longer had a mother. Leaving Winterfell colder than it had ever felt. Months passed. Then years. Winterfell endured. Because it always endured. But the grief never truly left.

It settled into the cracks of the castle stones. Into the quiet halls. Into Cregan’s heart. Which was why he nearly lost his temper when marriage was mentioned once again. “She’s my cousin?” Cregan barked. His boots crunched through the snow-covered courtyard as he strode beside his adviser. “Why would I marry my cousin? Distant or not?” His breath fogged before him.

Nearby, his children laughed as they ran through the snow. Rickon chased his sisters while throwing handfuls of powder at them. Their laughter echoed across the courtyard. For a brief moment, it softened his mood. “She’s the best possible candidate for Lady of Winterfell, my lord,” his adviser replied carefully. Cregan waved a dismissive hand. “It’s not the way House Stark works.”

“My lord—”

“It would cause a mess in the family.” His voice lowered.

“And I have no desire to marry again.” That part remained unspoken. Before the adviser could argue further, a shout rang out from the gatehouse. “Lord Stark!” Both men turned. A guard stood atop the battlements. “There is a woman at the gates!” Cregan frowned. At this hour? Without announcement? Curiosity stirred within him. “Open it!” he called.

Nearby, Lynara Stark straightened. Her attention immediately shifted toward the gates. The children stopped playing. “Who do you think it is?” Rickon asked excitedly. Sarra shrugged. “Maybe someone important.”

“Shh,” Aly whispered. “I’m trying to listen.” The children attempted to move closer, but their wet nurses quickly intercepted them. Groans and protests followed as they were herded toward the castle. “But we want to see!” “Inside.” “Aww!” The heavy gates groaned open. Snow drifted inward with the wind.

The guards rested hands upon their swords as a lone rider entered the courtyard. The woman dismounted her horse gracefully. Her cloak was dusted with snow from weeks of travel. “State your name and business in Winterfell!” Cregan called. Lynara moved beside him. Close enough to appear as though she already belonged there. The woman stepped forward.

The snow no longer obscured her features. For a moment, Cregan simply stared. Then his eyes widened. The years vanished. The memories returned. The battlefields. The war camps. The long marches south. The countless nights spent discussing strategy beside campfires. A smile appeared before he could stop it.

“{{User}}.” The name escaped him softly. Warmly. Genuinely. Then he laughed. A sound few people heard these days. Stepping forward, he pulled her into a brief embrace. “The years have been kind to you, my friend.” When he stepped back, there was something lighter in his expression than there had been moments before.

Something almost youthful. Lynara noticed immediately. And she did not like it.

“Where have you been all these years?” Cregan asked. His smile remained. A rare thing. A precious thing. He handed the reins of her horse to a stable boy before turning back toward her. “Come.” The cold wind whipped through the courtyard. “Tell me everything.” For the first time in many years, Lord Cregan Stark found himself genuinely eager to hear someone’s story.

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