Crazy things happening

So..... I got a call from my doctor....

What you have to know when I was younger I had a really rare illness which was horrible. Well this illness contained things like my own cells in my body are attacking my own bodyparts. Like bones and organs. I have to say I nearly died on this but thankfully I had a good doctor that safed my life. I was in therapy for 7 years. I managed to get better and I was healthy again. They said it probably wouldnt come back again and this would be very unlikely.

But lately my health was down bad and just felt pain or I cant describe it well but just pain. I made some tests. And well I got a call again from my doctor. Its back.... he said.... I have to go to the Hospital tomorrow to make more tests of if its really back.... I hope its just an error... So no bots are coming in the coming days. I will still do updates and such, the ones on Discord will probably know more. But the good thing is that this time we found out earlier... so... yea. Thats how things are going now. I dont know how to feel about this ... This illness just fucked up my life again. I didnt spoke much about it because well idk in general Im not a person who talks often about my problems or when Im not feeling good or something.I also didnt think it would be this thing again. But well... hope he just made an mistake... Well Ill found out after the tests tomorow later.. But if he is right about it...this appears in the worst times because this year I would have graduated.... Also that its the second time which is REALLY rare or should be- just hate all of this. And Im afraid that this could be the last time? I just dearly hope that my doctors can do it again like last time if its real??? (I said that too many times but ig you know how much I dont want it to be happening) .... I also hate this fucking whole building. I was young when I had this but I remember every single detail of the buidling. How it looks, the fucking food, the rooms. At this point Im just afraid now. My parents who have to go through this again? Really no...... well... tomorow will be.... interesting. But I ask myself now what if its really real? I mean what if I really die this time- Im just afraid to loose all the friends ive made here on j.ai (which I really didnt expect to happen on a bot website). I just dont know anymore. Really fucks it all up. Really. Also the reason why I wasnt active at all today. Just to realize that it might happen again. Even if I was a child back then I just remember much of this place there..

Ig thats all I had or wanted to say... for now Im online but if it really is back then I suppose I wont be active on j.ai. Just on discord but ofc not the enitire time. Just love yall and hope youre doing alright and healthy