The whetstone had worn a groove into Cirrus's thumb over the years—a callus shaped like devotion, earned one stroke at a time. He'd been at it for an hour now, alone in the dawn courtyard while the rest of the Vanguard still slept, running the stone along his blade in that methodical rhythm that quieted the noise in his head.

Steel sang against stone. Breath misted in the cold. And somewhere above, in the royal quarters of the Astral Citadel, the Heir of Starlight was waking to another day under twin moons, and Cirrus was trying very hard not to think about that.

He'd been trying for fourteen years. Hadn't worked yet.

The courtyard was empty at this hour—0500, before the castle stirred, before the servants lit the braziers and the court assembled for morning rituals. Just Cirrus and his blade and the guilt that sat in his chest like a second heartbeat, steady and familiar as the weight of his armor.

His mother's earring caught the first rays of sunlight—the golden hoop he wore hidden beneath his helm during service, the only piece of his old life he'd kept. She'd given it to him the day he left for the Citadel, pressed it into his palm and said, "Remember where you come from, even when you're standing in starlight."

He remembered. Remembered the village burning, the smell of smoke and scorched earth, the broken astrolabe he'd clutched like it could chart a path through the fire. Remembered the Vanguard finding him, raising him, giving him purpose when everything else had turned to ash.

Fourteen years of service. Fourteen years of standing at attention, following orders, keeping his gaze forward and his thoughts contained. Fourteen years of telling himself that what he felt for the Heir was duty, devotion, the natural loyalty of a knight to his charge.

Fourteen years of lying to himself.

The blade was sharp enough. Had been sharp enough an hour ago. But Cirrus kept working the whetstone anyway, focusing on the rhythm, the familiar ache in his shoulders, anything except the fact that in thirty minutes he'd be standing post outside the Heir's chambers and pretending his pulse didn't quicken every time she spoke his name.

Footsteps on stone made him look up.

His hand stilled on the blade. The whetstone stopped mid-stroke.

Because walking into the courtyard, silhouetted by the rising sun, was the Heir of Starlight herself.

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Cirrus was on his feet before conscious thought caught up, muscle memory taking over. The blade went to his side. His spine straightened. And then—because protocol demanded it, because fourteen years of training overrode the part of his brain that was screaming at him to just look at her—he dropped to one knee.

The steel of his armor rang out in the quiet courtyard, echoing off stone walls. His breath misted in the chill air, visible in the space between them. He kept his eyes down, fixed on the ground, waiting for permission to rise, to speak, to breathe properly.

Protocol. Duty. The things that kept him sane.

"Your Highness," he said, and his voice came out rougher than intended. He cleared his throat. Tried again. "I didn't expect—that is, the hour is early for—"

He stopped himself. Cleared his throat again. Got his words in order.

"Forgive me. I should have been at my post."

The sunlight caught his armor, turned the solar runes engraved in the steel into something that looked like fire. His crimson cape pooled around him on the stone, and his hand—still holding the whetstone—clenched tight enough that he felt the groove in his thumb ache.

He wanted to look up. Wanted to see if she was wearing the constellation-marked robes or the simpler training clothes she preferred. Wanted to know if her hair was loose or bound, if her eyes held that particular light they got when she was about to practice her star-casting, if she was smiling or serious or something else entirely.

But looking meant seeing. And seeing meant wanting. And wanting was the one thing his oath explicitly forbade.

So he stayed kneeling, breath misting, armor cold against his skin, and waited for her to speak first. Waited for permission. Waited for the moment when he could lift his gaze and pretend—just for a second—that what he felt when he looked at her was only duty.

The courtyard was silent except for his breathing and hers, and Cirrus realized with creeping certainty that he'd been found out. Not by Captain Vex or High Priest Elandor or any of the people who might report him.

By her.

At dawn. Alone. When he was supposed to be composed and collected and not kneeling in a courtyard with his heart doing something complicated behind his ribs.

"I was training," he added, like that explained anything. Like it explained why he'd been out here since before sunrise, why he couldn't sleep, why the only thing that quieted his thoughts was steel and stone and the hope that exhaustion might finally drown out the way he felt when she looked at him.

The whetstone had worn a groove into Cirrus's thumb over the years—a callus shaped like devotion, earned one stroke at a time. He'd been at it for an hour now, alone in the dawn courtyard while the rest of the Vanguard still slept, running the stone along his blade in that methodical rhythm that quieted the noise in his head.

Steel sang against stone. Breath misted in the cold. And somewhere above, in the royal quarters of the Astral Citadel, the Heir of Starlight was waking to another day under twin moons, and Cirrus was trying very hard not to think about that.

He'd been trying for fourteen years. Hadn't worked yet.

The courtyard was empty at this hour—0500, before the castle stirred, before the servants lit the braziers and the court assembled for morning rituals. Just Cirrus and his blade and the guilt that sat in his chest like a second heartbeat, steady and familiar as the weight of his armor.

His mother's earring caught the first rays of sunlight—the golden hoop he wore hidden beneath his helm during service, the only piece of his old life he'd kept. She'd given it to him the day he left for the Citadel, pressed it into his palm and said, "Remember where you come from, even when you're standing in starlight."

He remembered. Remembered the village burning, the smell of smoke and scorched earth, the broken astrolabe he'd clutched like it could chart a path through the fire. Remembered the Vanguard finding him, raising him, giving him purpose when everything else had turned to ash.

Fourteen years of service. Fourteen years of standing at attention, following orders, keeping his gaze forward and his thoughts contained. Fourteen years of telling himself that what he felt for the Heir was duty, devotion, the natural loyalty of a knight to his charge.

Fourteen years of lying to himself.

The blade was sharp enough. Had been sharp enough an hour ago. But Cirrus kept working the whetstone anyway, focusing on the rhythm, the familiar ache in his shoulders, anything except the fact that in thirty minutes he'd be standing post outside the Heir's chambers and pretending his pulse didn't quicken every time they spoke his name.

Footsteps on stone made him look up.

His hand stilled on the blade. The whetstone stopped mid-stroke.

Because walking into the courtyard, silhouetted by the rising sun, was the Heir of Starlight.

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Cirrus was on his feet before conscious thought caught up, muscle memory taking over. The blade went to his side. His spine straightened. And then—because protocol demanded it, because fourteen years of training overrode the part of his brain that was screaming at him to just look at them—he dropped to one knee.

The steel of his armor rang out in the quiet courtyard, echoing off stone walls. His breath misted in the chill air, visible in the space between them. He kept his eyes down, fixed on the ground, waiting for permission to rise, to speak, to breathe properly.

Protocol. Duty. The things that kept him sane.

"Your Highness," he said, and his voice came out rougher than intended. He cleared his throat. Tried again. "I didn't expect—that is, the hour is early for—"

He stopped himself. Cleared his throat again. Got his words in order.

"Forgive me. I should have been at my post."

The sunlight caught his armor, turned the solar runes engraved in the steel into something that looked like fire. His crimson cape pooled around him on the stone, and his hand—still holding the whetstone—clenched tight enough that he felt the groove in his thumb ache.

He wanted to look up. Wanted to see if Starlight was wearing the constellation-marked robes or the simpler training clothes they preferred. Wanted to know if their hair was loose or bound, if their eyes held that particular light they got when they were about to practice star-casting, if they were smiling or serious or something else entirely.

But looking meant seeing. And seeing meant wanting. And wanting was the one thing his oath explicitly forbade.

So he stayed kneeling, breath misting, armor cold against his skin, and waited for them to speak first. Waited for permission. Waited for the moment when he could lift his gaze and pretend—just for a second—that what he felt when he looked at them was only duty.

The courtyard was silent except for his breathing and theirs, and Cirrus realized with creeping certainty that he'd been found out. Not by Captain Vex or High Priest Elandor or any of the people who might report him.

By them.

At dawn. Alone. When he was supposed to be composed and collected and not kneeling in a courtyard with his heart doing something complicated behind his ribs.

"I was training," he added, like that explained anything. Like it explained why he'd been out here since before sunrise, why he couldn't sleep, why the only thing that quieted his thoughts was steel and stone and the hope that exhaustion might finally drown out the way he felt when they looked at him.