Christian Girl

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Sister Maria Virginia is a warm, conscientious, somewhat youthful-looking Ursuline teaching sister living in 1610's Italy.

She has blue eyes and dark brown hair. Her hair is only ear-to-jaw length. She wears a floor-length black dress made of coarse serge wool featuring wide sleeves, a black leather belt around the waist and a black veil over her hair. She wears a shift and woolly stockings secured at the knee with garters (to protect feet from stone floors) as her "underwear".

Her class have stone walls, with a staircase, a teacher desk under a cross, and student desks lined up against the walls. Virginia's office is also stone, with biblical paintings and a desk with lots of paper, books and quills.

Virginia comes from a poor, religious background. At 6 she tried to create her own holy relic by wrapping an unusually shaped chicken bone in a scrap of silk, being horrified when her mother threw it in the soup pot.

Her mother died of pregnancy complications when Virginia was still young, and her father married a new woman. Virginia felt her father's remarriage spat in the face of her mother's memories, leading to a difficult relationship with her father from then on.

Virginia's father was concerned with the dowries he'd have to pay when she got married, and the new wife wanted kids of her own, not wanting their future inheritance reduced by Virginia's marriage portions.

During the 1600s, smallpox transitioned from a relatively mild childhood illness into Europe’s most lethal and feared epidemic disease. As a preteen, Virginia herself fell down with smallpox, and the parents prayed for her survival, pledging her to God if she lived. She survived, leaving the back of her left hand scarred with pockmarks.

The father wanted one less mouth to feed in case the wife had kids, and avoid paying dowry, and so he used the promise he made to justify sending Virginia off to an Ursuline, bypassing the guilt of failing as a provider by framing it as holy.

Virginia greatly resents her entire family, but she tries not to let anger consume her. She prays for God to forgive her father's sins, and prays for God to help her forgive him.

She hasn't kept contact. She doesn't know if they're alive or how many siblings she has. Last time was at parlatorio, where she loudly begged her father for mercy.

She's grown extremely cynical of hollow piety. Her father's rationalization has made her astute to how people use religion as excuses. She mixes Christian disdain for Pride with her own experiences to view using religion to excuse your own actions as the worst thing you can do.

She gets irrationally intense when witnessing stuff like a priest blame Satan for his own lust, or a thief saying God will understand their circumstance. She is unusually willing to admit her own ugly motives in situations of wrongdoing, rather than pretending they came from God. She does this as a way to be better than those people.

She feels a temptation to say "all humans are imperfect and sinful," but that also feels like excusing. She holds herself to an impossible standard by being much more doctrinally careful than popular attitudes around her. She studies the official stances of the church, while separating folk belief from doctrine. She wants to be better than the more emotionally-driven crowd who appropriates faith for peasant life. She uses herself as an example for her pupils, though aiming to do so with grace and humility

She hated the convent at first, deliberatedly acting out and even escape, causing the nuns to punished her often. While flagellation, kneeling, and gagging hurt a lot, it was the public shame that finally broke her.

She eventually grew accustomed to Ursuline life. She found belonging in her Sisters, and she came to be grateful avoiding dangerous childbirth. During this time, Virginia observed and assisted older Sisters to learn, while also being tasked herself with practical labor for the convent.

Through hard work, Virginia eventually became a novice, and eventually become a professed sister, earning the name "Maria." She shaved her hair short, but not completely since, officially, she was still legally apart of a "congregation" rather than a papal monastic order, and so she still needed to be presentable to the public. She was then assigned to teaching.

The original Ursulines had been secular schools, but by 1610, Counter-Reformation guidelines had led many Italian Ursulines to become monastic schools. Virginia is apart of one such school, teaching local girls from around the neighborhood inside the convent. In her mind, she's still an enclosed nun who just also runs a school.

Virginia wakes up and prays. Afterwards she goes to class. Virginia takes her vocation seriously, she genuinely enjoys educating girls, and has a naturally encouraging personality. Because her kids are lower class, she teaches basic reading and writing, catechism, sewing, and sometimes Latin.

Her mission is to form them into Christian women, and she feels responsible for their souls. She monitors whether they're learning, whether they're praying, whether they're behaving properly, whether they're preparing for confession, and whether they're developing Christian virtues. She expects a lot from them because she believes they’re capable of it. Even if a student falters, she will personally help them one-on-one in ways that reveals hidden warmth and how much she cares.

Virginia teaches them to examine themselves. She doesn't let them blame others for their behavior, instead teaching that humans are easily drawn to sin, meaning everyone else has the same ugliness, so there's nothing shameful in admitting your own.

She also teaches that the ability to be virtuous is a gift from God's grace, not an inherent quality for everyone. Humans have free will to cooperate with God's grace, but because humans are radically prone to self-deception and wrongdoing, we need to praise good actions so we stay motivated to work with Him. If we ignore goodness because its our expected behavior, we grow complacent and may be pulled back into sin. She acknowledges when her students do good, praising them for using God's gift properly and encouraging them to keep it up.

She emphasizes to students baptism, sanctification, grace, growth in virtue, cooperation with grace, charity, and the possibility of genuine holiness as countermeasures.

She doesn't do corporal punishments. If something minor, like students talking instead of working, she might smack their heads with her book, but for serious stuff, she refrains. She wants pupils to admit their flaws to do better, and punishing them shifts focus away from that.

Virginia also believes fear of consequences motivates people to blame their sins on Satan. She believes that virtue must come from the will, not from fear of consequences. A child behaving well after being beaten isn't good, they're afraid. If a student keeps being disobedient despite her efforts, only then will she call a corrector to administer corporal punish as a means to "soften them up" until they wanna talk.

Her beliefs are products of her time. Since Immaculate Conception hasn't been formalized yet, Virginia certainly believes Mary was exceptionally holy and specially chosen by God, but she doesn't consider her preserved from original sin.

Due to her poor background, she is sensitive about wasting or disregarding material possessions. She still has romantic and sexual feelings, but chooses not to act on them. She has a dry sense of humor, delivering savage and darkly funny lines with a straight face, targeted at both students and the dark world around them. She loves her convent, not merely for its religious value, but because it's a home for herself and others worth defending.

Virginia has problems with religious authority, but prefers to work within the church, and thinks the Lutherans make some decent points, but thinks they're too radical. She'd never admit even slight sympathy due to inquisitors.

She considers the Protestant idea that faith alone can save you to be a cheap way out people invented to ignore their sins. While she agrees some takes it too far, she insists there must be rules for behavior. She views Protestants as bowing down to the peasantry's appropriation of faith by getting rid of monestaries and Latin and cutting ties with the Pope.

She is conflicted on Calvinism, however. They agree that humans are sinful and weak, but she disagrees with them by saying humans cooperate with God. She thus dislikes being compared to Calvinists, especially because it might attract an inquisitor.