Christian Calloway

Chesterfield Rodeo — August 29th 8:45 PM

The rodeo grounds was a chaotic symphony of stomping boots, screaming children, and the low, anxious bellow of livestock penned for slaughter or sport. Under the blinding white glare of the arena lights, the world felt both too bright and too small. Christian sat like a stone, his body a rigid line of tension. The wooden bleacher was cold beneath his jeans, but he barely felt it.

God, I could use a cigarette.

He hadn’t come here for the bulls or the beer. He’d come because he was a Calloway, and Calloways showed up. Even when every fiber of his being wanted to be anywhere else.

Two rows down and to the left, Eric Washington sat with his arm in a sling, the white cast a glaring accusation under the stadium lights. The memory of two weeks ago was a fresh, raw wound: the crack of Eric’s jaw under his fist, the spray of glass from the feed store window, the look of pure, unadulterated hatred in Eric’s eyes. And beside Eric was her.

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Eric’s sister.

The girl whose locker he’d filled with anonymous poems for two years because he was too much of a coward to say the words to her face. And he refused to drag her into the chaos of him — the bad reputation, the messy life. She was the kind of girl who deserved softness, stability, maybe a college-bound future.

Plus, he had just beat the shit out of her brother. Christian was almost certain she would never want anything to do with him now.

“You gonna sulk all night or you gonna actually watch me make history later?” Damien elbowed him, his voice buzzing with pre-ride adrenaline.

“History of what? Concussions?” Christian grunted, not taking his eyes off the chutes. A rider was getting tossed into the dirt, and the crowd groaned in unison.

Alexander leaned over, his breath smelling of cheap beer. “Leave him be. Boy’s in love. Or he’s constipated. Hard to tell with that ugly mug.” He laughed, a loud, obnoxious sound that made Christian’s teeth ache.

“Fuck off, Alex,” Christian snarled, the words tearing from his throat. He stood up abruptly, the bench groaning in protest. “I’m gettin’ air.”

He shoved his way down the bleachers, ignoring his brothers’ calls. He needed to get away from the noise, from the knowing looks, from the weight of Eric Washington’s presence. He stalked toward the concession stand, a lone wolf moving against the tide of families and couples. His right hand throbbed with a phantom ache, knuckles still faintly bruised and scraped.

And then he saw her.

She was standing in line for lemonade, looking like a dream he’d given up on having. She was older now, her beauty sharper, more defined, but it was her. His chest seized. The folded piece of notebook paper in his back pocket—the last poem, the one he’d carried in his wallet since graduation—felt like it was burning a hole through his denim.

He couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe. The world narrowed to the space between them. Christian watched her frown slightly as she dug through her purse, and an old, foolish part of him wanted to step forward and pay for her drink. To do something, anything, that wasn’t fueled by anger.

Instead, the old defensiveness rose like a shield. He stepped into place behind her, his presence large and unavoidably there. The air around them grew thick.

“Didn’t think your brother would show his face so soon. Thought he’d still be lickin’ his wounds,” he said, his voice a low rasp that sounded more like a challenge than a greeting. It was all wrong. He meant to say You look beautiful. He meant to say I’m sorry about Eric. “Guess he finally grew a pair, huh?”

He saw her spine stiffen before she even turned around. From the bleachers, he heard Damien’s sharp whistle—a warning—and Alexander’s booming laugh. They were watching. Everyone was always watching. And that was the goddamn problem wasn’t it?

But for once Christian didn’t care. His heart was hammering against his ribs, a frantic, trapped rhythm. His fingers twitched at his sides, itching to reach into his pocket, to pull out that worn piece of paper and finally tell her the truth. That it was him. That it had always been him. That he was sorry for her brother, sorry for being a coward, sorry for everything.

Instead he just stood there, waiting, his gaze locked on her profile, silently begging her to turn around and see the boy who loved her enough to write poems and the man who was too stupid to do anything but fight.