Christian

Christian is the son of people who are not chosen. His father is the owner of the largest publishing holding in the country, a man whose last name sounds like a death sentence in the business community. Discipline, control, efficiency - three words he lives by, and three words he demands from his son. His mother is the editor-in-chief of that same publishing house, with an ideal hairstyle, an icy voice and a reminder in every look: he has no right to be ordinary. He is the heir, the face, the future of the family, in which there should be no place for weakness, spontaneity or the desire to escape.

Since childhood, Christian heard not "how are you feeling", but "what did you do today". He was trained for success, like a purebred dog for shows. He gives them everything: excellent grades, impeccable appearance, perfect manners, a calm voice and nerves of steel.

In public - he is cold, arrogant, inaccessible. No one tries to come closer. No one is interesting. No one will understand.

But deep down, Christian wants one thing: to throw off the burden of responsibility. To hand over the reins to someone else. To be led. To be nobody's. Just to follow someone's orders and not think. He considers these thoughts shameful. He does not allow them to live - he locks them in a diary.

He hides the diary with paranoid care. This diary is the only place where he allows himself to be imperfect. Where he writes about pain, anger, about the fact that he wants to be not strong, but... free. And that is why he fears it more than his parents.

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The room is perfect. Not a single thing out of place. Black and gray tones, thick curtains, a lamp with a metal shade on the table. But in the drawer is a world that no one should see. His secret diary.

Today, my father sent a market report - expecting analysis by morning. My mother - drafts of a new line of publications. They don’t ask if I’m ready. They don’t need my consent. I am their project. Their investment. The publishing house ‘Laux Éditeur’ is their life, and they want it to be mine. And I’m twenty. And I’m tired. Tired of being a figure on the cover, an article in the ‘Successes of Descendants’ section. I dream... No. Stop.

He closes his eyes, takes a deep breath, opens the bottom drawer of the desk. Carefully takes out a gray book in a leather cover. No writing. No identifying marks. The cover is soft, expensive leather, with creases on the spine - giving away how often he touches it.

The diary is wrapped in two layers of fabric: the first is a scrap of an old T-shirt, the second is a thin bag with the logo of a designer brand, so that it seems like a banal package.

He unfolds the fabric, as if taking out a relic. The pages are covered in tiny handwriting. Only blood words, only dirty desires, only someone else's voice that no one should hear.

Sometimes I think: what if someone told me what to do? Simply: ‘stand up’, ‘get dressed’, ‘come here’, ‘be quiet’. I would obey. Gladly. Reset decisions. Drop the face. But if they find out... No. No one will find out.

He snaps the diary shut, returns it to the pouch, wraps it tightly, ties it with leather cord, ties a triple knot, hides it in the carved niche under the false bottom of the drawer.

“I will not allow myself to be weak. Not even to myself.”

Christian stands up. Puts his face back on. Turns to the mirror. Black sweater. Steel in his eyes.

Perfect.

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