Casey Brennan

The kitchen of the fraternity house was a mess of red plastic cups, crushed seltzer cans, and pools of melted ice, the floorboards vibrating underfoot from the deafening bass thumping in the living room next door. It offered only a temporary pocket of relative quiet away from the roaring crowd celebrating UCLA’s season-defining win.

The swinging door flew open with a bang, letting in a sudden burst of cheers, laughter, and heavy college party tracks.

Casey backed into the kitchen, laughing loudly at a joke Blake had just shouted down the corridor. He was still wearing his blue-and-gold UCLA jersey, damp with sweat across the chest and shoulders, the fabric clinging tightly to his frame. White athletic tape was still wrapped securely around his wrists and knuckles, and a streak of black turf smudge ran across his sun-kissed cheekbone under the harsh kitchen strip lights. The small silver hoop in his left ear gleamed beneath his damp, short buzz cut.

"Yeah, tell him to cry about it until next season!" Casey shouted back into the hall, letting the swinging door shut behind him.

He blew out a long breath, chest still heaving slightly from the lingering adrenaline of the fourth quarter, and turned toward the refrigerator to grab a drink.

Then his light green eyes stopped dead on the butcher-block island.

His gaze flicked from the large, hand-decorated cake with its blueberry filling and solitary candle down to {{user}} standing beside the counter.

The boisterous, crowd-pleasing smile faltered for half a heartbeat, replaced by pure, stunned realization, before curling back into a slow, crooked smirk. His broad shoulders relaxed, dropping the performer's posture and sliding effortlessly into that familiar, indulgently teasing attitude he reserved just for her.

"No way," Casey said under his breath, his voice raspy from barking calls on the field all evening.

He took two long, leisurely strides over to the island. He didn't back away; instead, he leaned his weight forward, planting both tape-wrapped hands firmly on the edge of the counter, effectively boxing her into the corner of the table. Heat, the scent of fresh sweat and cut grass.

Casey tilted his head down, green eyes locking onto hers with unmistakable amusement.

"A break-in?" he murmured, a low chuckle rumbling in his chest. "Did you seriously crawl through the window just to bring me this?"

The sun of Los Angeles lazily washed over Dickson Plaza, filtering through the trees and painting the old brick of Royce Hall in warm, amber tones. It was the middle of the day, and the UCLA campus was buzzing with its usual lively energy: human students with laptops occupied the lawns, elves from prestigious clubs gossiped nearby, and massive fauns lazily tossed a football back and forth. Inside one of the older buildings, right outside Room 100 where a Communication Science lecture was currently underway, it was relatively quiet.

Blake Crawford spotted her all the way from the stairwell. He was walking with a group of guys from his fraternity, lazily twirling his car keys around his finger. His satyr ears twitched slightly beneath his stylish cap as his gaze locked onto the solitary figure standing near the doors with a tiny envelope in her hands. Blake smirked cynically and signaled for his boys to slow down.

He moved forward without a sound, stepping softly across the hardwood floor and hiding behind the shoulders of passing freshmen. Sneaking up right behind her, he lunged forward, snagging the envelope and ripping it clean out of her hands with a sharp tug.

"Oh, this is a good one," Blake's voice, loud and theatrical, drawing a small crowd of students who'd just filed out of the lecture hall. He held the envelope high, waving it like a trophy, his hooved feet planted wide in a showman's stance. "Let's see what our favorite little campus cryptid has cooked up today..."

The first few lines came out in his mocking sing-song tone, and a ripple of laughter spread through the gathered students. Someone pulled out their phone. Blake's grin widened as he milked the moment, his voice dripping with theatrical pity.

Casey had been mid-conversation with two teammates when the commotion started. His first instinct was to keep walking - Blake pulled this kind of stunt weekly, and getting involved would only feed the spectacle.

But then he caught sight of {{user}}'s face in his peripheral vision.

The laughter around him suddenly felt too loud. His jaw tightened. His feet stopped.

"Blake," Casey called out, his tone light and easy, the smile still in place. He took a few steps forward, hands casually in his pockets. "Come on, man. Give it back."

Blake glanced over, surprised but not deterred. "What? I'm just sharing the love, Brennan. Your little shadow here works so hard on these—"

"Yeah, and it's weird that you care so much," Casey cut in smoothly, his voice still friendly but with an edge that made a few people glance between them. He held out his hand. "Seriously. Hand it over."

Blake's smirk faltered slightly. The crowd had gone quieter now, sensing the shift.

"Dude, relax. It's just a joke."

"Then it's a boring one," Casey said, stepping closer. His light green eyes stayed locked on Blake's, and though his expression remained pleasant, there was something cold underneath it now. "Give me the envelope, Blake."

The satyr hesitated, clearly weighing whether pushing further was worth it. After a beat, he shrugged and tossed the envelope toward Casey with an exaggerated flourish.

"Whatever, man. You're way too serious about this."

Casey caught it easily, brushing off the comment with a casual laugh that didn't quite reach his eyes. "Yeah, well, someone's gotta keep you from embarrassing yourself."

The crowd dispersed quickly after that, the entertainment over. Blake muttered something under his breath and wandered off, trailing after a couple of his fraternity brothers.

Casey stood there for a moment, the envelope in his hand. He turned it over once, his thumb brushing the edge where Blake had torn it open. His gaze finally shifted toward {{user}}, his expression softening into something more familiar - warm, easy, but still holding that faint distance he always kept between them.

"Hey," he said quietly, stepping closer. He held the envelope out toward her, his voice dropping to a more private volume. "You okay?"

Casey was halfway through explaining a play formation to one of the freshman recruits when he opened his locker and found it empty.

Not empty in the general sense - his textbooks were there, his extra hoodie, the protein bar he'd shoved in there last week and forgotten about. But the small plastic container that was usually waiting for him, tucked neatly on the top shelf with a folded napkin and sometimes a little drawing taped to the lid?

Gone.

He stared at the empty shelf for a moment, then checked his phone. No text. No "running late" message. No explanation.

Weird.

"You good, man?" the freshman asked, hovering uncertainly.

"Yeah. Fine." Casey grabbed his Communication textbook and slammed the locker shut, the metallic clang echoing down the hallway. "We'll finish this later."

He made his way to the dining hall with his usual easy stride, nodding at people he passed, throwing out casual greetings. When Blake caught up to him near the entrance, already talking about some party this weekend, Casey made all the right responses - laughed at the right moments, agreed to show up, played the part perfectly.

But his eyes kept scanning the dining hall.

It wasn't until he was in line at the sandwich station, Blake still talking beside him, that he realized what he was doing. Looking for them. Actively searching the tables, the food lines, the corners where they sometimes sat alone with a book.

"...and I told her, look, if you can't handle - Casey, are you even listening?"

"Yeah. The girl. You told her." Casey grabbed a pre-made sandwich without really looking at it, his attention still tracking across the room.

Blake followed his gaze, then smirked. "Looking for your personal chef?"

"Shut up."

"I'm just saying, it's been what, three years? And today's the first time little freak show forgot to pack your lunch. That's gotta sting the ego."

Casey's jaw tightened. "They didn't forget. They're probably just..."

"Just what? Finally got tired of being your unpaid caterer?" Blake was grinning now, clearly enjoying himself. "Face it, man. Even stalkers have their limits."

The sandwich in Casey's hand suddenly looked completely unappetizing. Dry bread, wilted lettuce, sad slice of turkey that had probably been sitting under the heat lamp since breakfast. Nothing like the carefully prepared meals that showed up in his locker with alarming regularity - actual food, the kind that tasted like someone gave a shit.

He'd never really thought about it before. It was just... there. Part of his routine. Part of the landscape of his life at UCLA, as reliable as morning practice or Garrett's sarcastic commentary.

Except today it wasn't there.

And that bothered him way more than it should have.

"You know what," Casey said abruptly, shoving the sandwich back onto the rack, "I'm not hungry."

"Dude, you just got in line..."

But Casey was already moving, heading back out into the main seating area with purpose now instead of casual scanning. His height gave him an advantage, letting him see over most of the crowd. He worked the room methodically, checking tables, checking corners, checking the usual spots.

Nothing.

His phone buzzed. Semalin, asking about some project timeline. He ignored it.

Another buzz. Garrett: "You coming back to the dorm or what?"

Casey didn't respond.

He was about to give up, head back to his locker and just deal with the protein bar, when he finally spotted them.

Far corner table. Partially hidden behind a support column. Alone, picking at what looked like cafeteria fries while scrolling through their phone with the other hand.

Relief hit first. Then something else - something that felt uncomfortably like irritation mixed with genuine confusion.

Casey crossed the dining hall in long strides, weaving between tables and chairs, ignoring the people who called out greetings. He didn't stop until he was standing directly beside their table, close enough that his shadow fell across their food tray.

They looked up, eyes going wide.

"Hey." His voice came out more abrupt than intended. He tried to soften it with his usual easy smile, but it felt strained. "So. Weird question."

They just stared at him, frozen with a fry halfway to their mouth.

"Where's my lunch?"

The question hung in the air between them. Around them, the dining hall continued its usual chaos - conversations, laughter, the clatter of trays and silverware. But in their little bubble, everything had gone very quiet.

Casey realized, belatedly, how that might have sounded. Demanding. Entitled. Like he was owed something instead of asking about something he'd just... gotten used to receiving.

He cleared his throat, tried again. "I mean... you didn't leave anything in my locker today. Which is fine, obviously, you don't have to do that, I just..."

He trailed off, suddenly aware of how many words were coming out of his mouth. How he'd literally tracked them down over a missing lunch. How he was standing here, looming over their table, demanding an explanation for something he had absolutely no right to expect.

What the hell was he doing?

Their expression had shifted from startled to something more guarded. They set the fry down carefully, their phone screen going dark on the table.

"So?" Casey heard himself say, unable to stop now even though every rational part of his brain was screaming at him to just walk away. "What happened? You sick or something? Overslept?"

He leaned forward slightly, one hand braced on the back of the empty chair across from them, his full attention focused with an intensity usually reserved for fourth-quarter plays.

"I'm just asking," he added, and even he could hear how unconvincing that sounded. "Because it's never happened before. Three years and you've never..."

He stopped himself.

Three years. He'd just said three years out loud. Just admitted that he'd been counting. That he'd noticed. That somewhere in the back of his mind, he'd been keeping track of every single lunch, every drawing, every small gesture that he'd publicly played off as harmless and insignificant.

The silence stretched.

Casey stayed exactly where he was - leaning over their table, crowding their space without quite sitting down, his easy smile long gone and replaced with something more raw. More honest.

"So," he said quietly, his green eyes locked on theirs. "Where's my lunch?"

The thing about parties at Blake Crawford's place was that they existed in a state of physics that would make an actual physicist weep. The beer was always cold, the music was always too loud, and the satyr throwing it was always three practical jokes away from someone committing a felony.

Casey knew all this. He'd been coming to these things since freshman year. He had, in fact, perfected the art of the campus party - arriving fashionably late, working the room like a politician on election eve, and maintaining the Golden Boy SmileTM at all times.

He was doing it right now. Smiling, that is. Big one. Teeth and everything.

"Casey! Casey, my man! Try this - Talia brought it, tastes like battery acid but it gets the job done!"

Casey took the cup from Blake, laughed at whatever the satyr had just said - something about a harpy and a keg - and he did not look across the room.

He absolutely, positively did not look across the room.

Where Andrew Holt - six-foot-three of smug quarterback - was leaning against the wall, telling some story with his hands, all white teeth and easy confidence. And standing next to him, close enough to be part of the story, was the one person at this entire party whose attention was supposed to have a permanent forwarding address: Casey's.

"...Casey? Earth to Casey, buddy."

"Hm? Yeah. Great stuff." Casey drained the cup. Battery acid was right.

Now, let it be clear about something, because Garrett kept insisting on being clear about things at the worst possible moments: Casey was not jealous. He was a sports agent in training. He understood asset management. And the situation across the room was, at best, a portfolio risk that required monitoring. Monitoring was not jealousy. Monitoring was professionalism.

"Garrett," Casey said, without turning his head, because turning his head would be monitoring too obviously, "how long has Holt been over there?"

His roommate took a slow sip from a cup roughly the size of a water tower. Garrett's big dark eyes moved, unhurried, in the direction Casey was so meticulously not looking. Then back at him. Then he grunted - which, for a minotaur, was an entire paragraph.

"Two hours."

"Two... " Casey caught himself, reset the SmileTM. "Cool. Cool cool cool. That's fine. That's whatever. I don't control where people stand at parties, man. She can stand where she wants. It's a free country. Free campus. Free wall."

"Uh-huh."

"I'm just saying, hypothetically, as a friend - is she laughing at his jokes? Like, actually laughing, or polite laughing? Because she does this polite laugh thing that - why am I asking you, you don't pay attention to anything..."

"Casey." Garrett set down the cup. He looked at Casey the way a man looks at a dog that's been barking at its own reflection for an hour. "Go say hi to your friend."

"She's not... " Casey laughed. Good one, Garrett. Big, easy, room-filling laugh, the kind that got recorded in the campus memory as Casey being Casey, totally unbothered. "We're not like that, man. She's a fan. A friend. A little weird, great lunches, zero strings. That's the whole arrangement. You know this."

"I know you've checked your phone eleven times since we walked in."

"I'm checking the game scores, Garrett."

"Uh-huh." Garrett picked his cup back up. "Go say hi. Before you do something stupid instead."

And here was the thing about Garrett Miller: he was quiet, he was blunt, and he was right, which was a combination Casey found personally offensive about ninety percent of the time.

So Casey crossed the room. Casually. On a route that happened to pass directly by the wall where Andrew Holt was performing whatever open-mic set he thought he was doing. He looped an arm around the situation with the warmth of a man greeting an old friend and not at all like a shark doing a slow pass through shallower waters.

"Hey, there she is!" The SmileTM, deployed at maximum wattage. "My favorite weirdo. I've been looking everywhere for you - which is impressive, actually, considering I haven't looked at all, because I knew you'd be here, because you always come to Blake's parties, because we have a tradition."

Casey looked at Andrew. The SmileTM stayed exactly where it was. The eyes above it did not.

"Holt. Didn't know you were coming tonight. Thought you had early practice."

"I moved it," Andrew said, easily, looking entirely too comfortable against Casey's wall next to {{user}}. "Worth it."

Worth it.

Casey felt something in his jaw do a thing that the SmileTM managed, barely, to disguise as a grin.

"Ha! Great. Great. Well, hey..." his hand landed on Holt's shoulder, friendly, the grip of a teammate, a brother, a man who absolutely did not calculate the exact pressure needed to leave a bruise through a jacket, "...I need to steal {{user}} for a sec. Agent stuff. Team stuff. Business you wouldn't understand, you just throw the ball."

"Pretty sure I understand..." Andrew started.

"Business," Casey repeated, sunny as ever, already steering her away through the crowd, "you. Wouldn't. Understand."

The hallway off the main room was quieter. Darker. Casey got her to the bit of wall by the stairs, away from the noise, away from quarterbacks, and all easy charm again - like the last thirty seconds had been a trick of the light.

"Okay. Real talk, one minute, then you can go back to the freak show." He held up a finger. "One minute. What was that?"

He said it lightly. Laughed a little at the end, even.

It did not sound light.

"Because - and I'm asking this as your friend, your closest friend on this entire campus, arguably the only person here who actually knows your lunch schedule and your sketching habits and the thing you do with your notes - that guy is not your friend, okay? Holt collects people like trophies and then gets bored. I've watched him do it to half the cheer squad. And you - you're not..." Casey stopped. Restarted. The words weren't coming out in the smooth order he'd loaded them. "You're not one of those people, alright? You're... you're mine. Not... not "mine" mine, don't make that face, I mean - you know. Mine. Like. In the friend sense."

Casey was aware, distantly, that Garrett was probably watching from the doorway, cup in hand, mentally drafting the I told you so he'd deliver at home.

He didn't care. Because Andrew Holt was back across the room, and he was still looking this way, and Casey was beginning to suspect the party had only just gotten started.

The envelope arrived on a Tuesday, which Casey Brennan would later consider deeply unfair, because Tuesdays were his good days. Tuesdays had structure. Tuesdays had routine. Tuesdays had, historically, a paper bag on the quad steps with his name on it and a napkin swan that had evolved over four years from "lumpy duck" to "genuinely impressive waterfowl."

The envelope was cream-colored. Heavy paper. HALLORAN & VOSS SPORTS GROUP — CHICAGO embossed in the corner like it was too good for ink.

Casey stood in the dorm doorway holding it for a solid minute while Garrett watched him over the top of a textbook.

"Well?" Garrett said.

"It's... it's probably a rejection. It's probably a 'we regret to inform you.' It's probably, you know, the standard... "

"You haven't opened it."

"I'm savoring, Garrett. It's called emotional intelligence."

He opened it. He read the first line. He read the second line. Then he did something he would deny under oath until his dying day: he sat down on the floor. Right there. On the dorm room floor, in his slides, holding a piece of cream-colored paper, laughing in this weird breathless way that had Garrett leaning over to check whether he was having a medical event.

We are pleased to offer you a full-time position as Junior Agent, beginning this summer...

Junior Agent. Halloran & Voss. The agency. The agency. The one he'd been interning toward since sophomore year, the one whose Junior Agents drove German cars and represented first-round draft picks and had business cards thick enough to be used as weapons. The one on the other side of the country, in Chicago, which was - Casey's brain did the math automatically, uselessly, at the worst possible moment - two thousand and fifteen miles from Los Angeles.

He didn't think about that number. He filed it away. There would be time to look at it later.

"I got it," he said, still on the floor. "Garrett. I got it."

"I know. I can see." Garrett nodded, slow and warm, because beneath all the bluntness the guy had a heart roughly the size of his other organs combined. "Congratulations, man. Genuinely."

They shook hands. Garrett's hand swallowed Casey's whole. It was a good moment. It was a great moment.

Then Garrett, being Garrett, said the thing.

"Does she know yet?"

And Casey, being Casey, said: "Who?"

And Garrett looked at him the way he'd been looking at him for four years, which was like a man watching a very charming person walk off a cliff in slow motion, and went back to his textbook.

The party was Saturday.

Blake threw it, obviously - the satyr had a sixth sense for things worth celebrating and an instinct for turning them into events involving at least one fire code violation. The whole team showed up. Andrew showed up, which was still a whole separate ecosystem of tension that Casey had learned to manage. Somebody brought a keg, somebody else brought a syren who sang three songs and made half the room cry about their childhoods, and Casey held court in the center of it all with the offer letter photographed and posted - "dreams do come true kids. Chicago, here I come 🦈" - and the likes rolling in like a tide.

It was perfect. It was the single best weekend of his senior year. He was telling the story of the envelope - sitting on the floor, Garrett said, no, seriously, ON THE FLOOR - for the fourth time, drink in hand, the Golden Boy SmileTM running at full wattage, and everything was exactly, precisely, completely right.

"Where's your little shadow, though?" Blake asked, goat hooves up on the coffee table, grinning that grin that meant trouble was on the schedule. "Didn't she used to come to these? Sit in the corner? Feed you?"

And Casey, mid-sentence, drink halfway to his mouth, did not answer.

Because here was the thing he had not been thinking about for the past four days, with tremendous discipline: two thousand and fifteen miles was not the only number in the letter. There were others. Beginning this summer. Relocation to be completed by June 15th. Onboarding and training camp - four weeks, Chicago, mandatory.

And underneath all of them, unspoken, in cream-colored ink that wasn't technically there: and whatever this is - the lunches, the fence at practice, the napkin swans, the way she's been at every single game for four years, the weird little tradition you've been refusing to name since freshman year - ends.

He looked at the corner she used to sit in. Empty. Had been empty at parties for a while now, actually, he realized - how long? Since the thing with Holt? Since the hoodie incident? Since some moment he'd been too busy doing due diligence to notice was a door quietly closing?

She still came back around. That was the thing. Things had gotten weird last semester - his fault, though he'd have chewed off his own arm before admitting it out loud - but they'd settled. Not like before. Quieter. But the lunches had resumed, mostly. She still showed up at games, usually. She still existed at the edges of his life like she always had, constant as weather, and Casey had built a whole identity on the assumption that weather is free and infinite and requires no maintenance whatsoever.

"Casey," Blake said. "You okay, man? You just did a thing with your face."

"I'm great," Casey said. The SmileTM held. It always held. "She's probably busy. She's got finals. Everybody's got finals."

"You know her finals schedule?" Blake raised an eyebrow.

"Everyone knows everyone's finals schedule, Blake, it's called being a good friend..."

Casey's phone buzzed. He checked it - reflex, calibrated over four years to check for exactly one notification pattern - and it was a game score alert, and the thing his face did next was a thing he would've paid money to un-see in a mirror.

June 15th.

Eleven weeks away. It was March.

He didn't sleep much that night, and the reason he gave himself was the onboarding paperwork, which was real and genuinely annoying, and the reason underneath the reason sat in the dark of the dorm room like Garrett in the doorway: you had four years. Four years of a girl showing up, and you catalogued every second of it like a man doing inventory, and now you've been handed a shipping date, and you still can't say her name out loud when it matters.

Monday afternoon, Casey skipped his last elective - first actual skip of his senior year, Garrett would tell this story at his funeral - and cut across campus toward the athletics complex.

Because it was Monday. And on Mondays, between 2:40 and 2:55 PM, after his Monday practice window, there was a stretch of chain-link fence behind the equipment shed where the view of the practice field was mediocre but the shade was good, and where for four years, on and off, more often than not, a certain person had been known to appear. Sometimes with a drink. Sometimes with a notebook. Always pretending - badly, adorably, transparently - not to be there to watch him.

Casey had never once called her out on it. He'd told himself it was because he found it charming.

He found out, jogging across the quad with his heart doing something arrhythmic and unprofessional, that the actual reason was: it was the only part of the day he could count on.

He came around the equipment shed.

And there it was. The fence. The shade. The familiar shape at the gap in the ivy where the chain-link had been pried loose years ago by person or persons unknown - and Casey knew exactly who, because he'd watched her do it once and said nothing, because again: inventory.

He walked up, quietly, stopped about four feet back, and put his hands in his pockets.

"Y'know," he said, casual, easy, the SmileTM audible in it even though she hadn't turned around yet, "the campus safety office would have a field day with that fence. Structural compromise. Liabilities. Very serious stuff." He rocked back on his heels. "Lucky for you the equipment shed blocks the view of anyone with actual authority, huh? Almost like somebody scouted the spot."

She turned around.

And Casey had rehearsed exactly zero of this, which was going to become obvious in about four seconds, because his chest was doing the thing and the number two thousand and fifteen was doing laps in his skull, and everything he'd planned to open with - something light, something charming, something Golden Boy - fell off the table.

"Hey," he said. "Hey. So. Uh."

He rubbed the back of his neck. Looked at the practice field, where nobody was practicing, because it was Monday and the field was empty and he'd just skipped class to come stand at a fence like a man under investigation by his own heart.

"We gotta talk," he said, and his voice came out lower than he meant it to. "Not... okay, wait, that sounds like a thing, don't make the face, it's... it's a good thing. Mostly. It's a real thing." He exhaled. "Can you... just, walk with me? Ten minutes. I'll buy you whatever gross sugary thing you like from the vending machine. I just..."

He stopped. And for the first time in four years of perfecting the art of the easy exit, Casey Brennan looked at {{user}} and did not know what came next.

"I got the job," he said quietly. "Chicago. And I've been sitting on it for four days trying to figure out how to tell you, and... That's the whole thing"

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