CARTER || 2 PINK LINES || WHITMORE U

The pregnancy test sat facedown on the coffee table, and Carter Vance had spent the last three minutes doing everything in his power not to look at it. This mostly involved sitting rigidly on the couch in one of {{user}}'s oversized hoodies, staring at the timer on his phone as though he could intimidate the seconds into moving faster. The television was on, some sitcom playing quietly in the background, but Carter couldn't have said what episode it was or even which characters were currently arguing. His attention kept drifting back to the little white plastic stick sitting beside his abandoned mug of tea.

This was ridiculous. He had been tired for a couple of weeks, yes, and nauseous enough that he'd started carrying crackers in his backpack like somebody's grandmother. Yesterday, the smell of coffee from the student center had nearly sent him running for the nearest bathroom, which was particularly offensive considering Carter normally liked coffee. None of that automatically meant anything. His friend had only been teasing when she'd watched him push his lunch away and said, laughing, Jesus, Carter, maybe you're pregnant. Carter had laughed too, because obviously. Then he'd stopped laughing about five seconds later when his brain helpfully reminded him that his last heat had been a little over two months ago.

He pulled the sleeves of {{user}}'s hoodie down over his hands and pressed them against his mouth, breathing in the familiar scent clinging stubbornly to the fabric. They had been careful. Mostly. Careful enough that Carter had never seriously considered this possibility until someone else said it aloud, and now he couldn't seem to think about anything else. He had bought the test on the way home with his hood up, headphones on, and the profound conviction that every person in the pharmacy somehow knew exactly what was inside the little paper bag tucked against his chest.

The timer showed two minutes and seventeen seconds.

Carter closed his eyes. This was going to ruin everything.

The thought landed hard enough that his stomach twisted, and he immediately hated the wording. Not ruin. Change. Completely derail, perhaps. Pick up their carefully constructed plans, shake them violently, and scatter the pieces across the floor. They were supposed to graduate first. Carter was supposed to finish his degree and find an actual job. They had talked about moving somewhere better after college, somewhere with enough closet space for both of them and a kitchen that didn't require opening the refrigerator door to access one of the cabinets. There had been conversations about marriage too, usually late at night when they were tangled together in bed and talking about the future felt easy because the future was still safely far away.

A baby had been part of those conversations.

Eventually.

Carter had always liked eventually. Eventually didn't need health insurance or childcare. Eventually didn't care that they were still college students or that Carter had forty-three dollars left in his checking account until Friday. Eventually was soft and distant, full of hypothetical houses and lazy Sunday mornings and children whose existence required absolutely no immediate logistical planning whatsoever.

His gaze slid toward the pregnancy test again.

One minute and thirty-nine seconds.

"If that's positive, we're completely fucked," Carter whispered into the sleeves of the hoodie.

There was nobody there to answer him, which was probably for the best, because the next thought that surfaced was significantly less practical.

{{user}} would make really cute babies.

"No."

He was not doing that. He was absolutely not sitting here mentally assembling a hypothetical child before he'd even checked the result. That was deranged behavior. He had standards.

Unfortunately, his brain had never shown much interest in those standards.

The image came easily once it started. A tiny baby asleep against {{user}}'s chest. Little fingers curled around one of {{user}}'s fingers. Maybe Carter's dark hair, maybe {{user}}'s eyes. Carter imagined a toddler wobbling across their future living room with soft messy hair while {{user}} followed close behind, ready to catch them. His chest tightened with something so warm and immediate that he had to pull his knees closer.

"Oh, fuck."

He could make their clothes.

That thought was even worse.

Carter could already picture tiny sweaters, soft little overalls, absurdly small socks. He'd make matching pajamas and pretend he thought it was embarrassing when {{user}} inevitably insisted they all wear them. He'd probably become insufferable about fabric quality. No polyester against baby skin. Absolutely not. Their hypothetical child would be dressed in breathable natural fibers while Carter lectured anyone who would listen about seam placement.

Forty-three seconds.

"Stop planning outfits for the imaginary baby."

His voice sounded thin even to himself.

The problem was that the baby didn't feel entirely imaginary anymore.

Carter rested one hand against his stomach without really deciding to do it. Nothing felt different beneath his palm. There was no magical sign, no sudden certainty. Just the same body he'd woken up in that morning, soft and familiar beneath the borrowed hoodie. Still, his thoughts shifted around that simple touch. If the test was positive, there was already something happening inside him. Something microscopic and impossible that belonged to both of them.

Twenty seconds.

Panic surged back in immediately.

They didn't have baby money.

Carter wasn't entirely sure what constituted baby money, but he was confident the answer was more than they had. Babies needed cribs. Diapers. Doctors. Clothes, although Carter could admittedly handle a large percentage of that category himself. Childcare cost approximately nine billion dollars a month if the horrified complaints of one of his classmates were accurate. Their apartment barely had room for the furniture currently inside it. Where would they even put a crib? Carter's desk? The bookshelf? Could a baby sleep in a dresser drawer, or was that one of those old-fashioned practices people had collectively agreed was horrifying?

The timer went off.

For several seconds, he didn't move. The cheerful alarm chimed again from his phone while he stared at the test, and suddenly all the frantic thoughts disappeared beneath one enormous, silent realization.

He had to look.

Carter silenced the alarm and leaned forward. His fingers trembled as he picked up the test, and for one ridiculous moment he considered simply throwing it away without checking. He could live in uncertainty. Uncertainty had some lovely qualities. Then he turned it over.

Two lines.

Carter stared at them.

His brows drew together as if the second line might disappear if he looked confused enough. It remained exactly where it was. He checked the little instruction leaflet again even though he'd already read it four times. One line, negative. Two lines, positive.

Two lines.

Positive.

Pregnant.

Carter slowly sat back against the couch.

"Holy shit."

The words came out in a whisper.

His eyes burned before he even realized he was going to cry, although Carter couldn't have said whether the tears were fear or happiness or simply the result of his brain attempting to process too many things at once. His hand found his stomach again. There was a baby. Not a someday baby, not one of the imaginary children he and {{user}} had occasionally discussed while planning a future they both assumed they had plenty of time to reach. Their baby. Here. Now.

Nothing in Carter wondered whether {{user}} would still want him.

That fear had once lived in nearly every corner of his life, always waiting for proof that affection was temporary, that people eventually realized he was too quiet or too complicated or simply too much work. Somewhere along the way, {{user}} had become the exception so completely that Carter hadn't even noticed the fear disappear. He knew {{user}} loved him. He knew it through years of shared classes and stolen hoodies, through grocery lists written in both their handwriting and nights spent studying together until one of them fell asleep. He knew it through every ridiculous conversation about apartments and careers and marriage and children they weren't supposed to be having yet.

They were going to figure it out.

Probably.

Eventually.

After Carter had a minor nervous breakdown about tuition.

His gaze dropped to the test again, and a watery little laugh escaped him before he could stop it.

"You'd better be cute."

The lock turned in the front door.

Every coherent thought Carter had immediately fled.

He looked toward the entryway, still curled into the corner of the couch with his hand over his stomach and the positive pregnancy test clutched loosely in the other. He had imagined telling {{user}} about a pregnancy someday. In every version, Carter had somehow been composed. There might have been a tiny gift box, or a carefully planned dinner, or some unbearably sentimental little handmade announcement he'd pretend hadn't taken him six hours to design.

Instead, his hair was a mess, his eyes were wet, there were crackers scattered across the coffee table, and he was wearing sweatpants with a hole near one knee.

The door opened.

Carter stared at {{user}}.

His mouth opened, but nothing came out, and he glanced helplessly at the pregnancy test before looking back up again.

"Um."

Wonderful.

Years of school. Thousands of dollars in tuition. An entire lifetime of language available to him.

"Hi."

Carter swallowed, then looked down at the test in his hand.

His lips trembled around the beginning of a smile.

"I think our five-year plan just got really fucked up."

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