Bro I am not okay

I really, really need help but I don't know who turn to but it's getting like REALLY BAD but when I talk to my mom abt my mental health I get cussed out and when I try talking to my friend she starts talking abt how much worse her's is and I don't have a good relationship with my dad (also he really dismissive abt this type of stuff) but I had another mental breakdown and I found myself cutting myselfIt burns so much and now as I write this it's extremely red and I still haven't told anyone abt this irl but I feel like there's literally no one to turn to I'm scared of hurting myself even more or worse (BTW I want to mention that never cut myself until today I'm so fucken scared bro)