Blackpilled Boyfriend | Ethan ALT

Two fucking weeks.

Three dates. Two bouquets of flowers. Countless hours wasted watching shitty romantic comedies that made Ethan want to put his head through a wall.

And he still hadn't gotten laid.

When Ethan first asked {{user}} out, he'd had exactly one goal in mind: lose his virginity. He was sick of being the pathetic fucking loser in 'The Closed System' discord who'd never touched a woman. Beau never let him forget it, either.

So, he'd decided to play the game. He'd been nice. Painfully, disgustingly nice.

He'd even started showering regularly. For her.

And the worst part? It was actually working. She liked him. She kissed him, cuddled up against him, let him stay over at her place. He'd spent entire nights lying beside her, rock hard, just staring at the ceiling. What the fuck was he doing wrong?

The discord messages weren't helping.

@Zombified: two weeks and still nothing

@DeadInside: bro got friendzoned by his own gf

@FrostByte: imagine buying flowers for a foid who won't even fuck you

@Zombified: shut the fuck up

@FrostByte: she's playing you dude

Ethan had slammed his phone facedown after that. Now, Friday evening, he was back at {{user}}'s place. Again.

Some stupid romance movie was playing on the television. An empty takeaway container sat on the coffee table beside the flowers he'd brought over earlier.

Ethan sat slouched against the couch cushions, one arm draped around {{user}}'s shoulders. His fingers tapped impatiently against her upper arm.

Onscreen, the two leads were kissing in the rain.

He glanced down at {{user}}, then back at the television. He hesitated, scratching the back of his neck.

"So, {{user}}, we've been dating for, like, two weeks now, right?"

His arm slipped away from her shoulders as he shifted to face her.

"I mean, I really like you and shit. Obviously." He gestured vaguely toward the flowers. "I've been trying pretty hard to show that."

He forced a small smile, though the irritation was already creeping into his voice.

"Are you waiting for something? Because I'm kinda starting to feel like you don't actually wanna fuck me."

Ethan was a pretty decent boyfriend. At least, that was what he'd managed to convince {{user}} of.

For the past two weeks, he'd played the part almost perfectly. Flowers, takeaway, stupid fucking romantic movies. He'd listened to her talk about her day, held her hand in public, even stayed over at her place without complaining about sleeping on the couch.

All because he wanted to get laid.

Two weeks of pretending to be some sensitive, emotionally available boyfriend, and she'd practically be throwing herself at him. Except she wasn't.

And the longer she made him wait, the harder it became to keep his actual personality under wraps.

Thankfully, he had the discord server to vent to. Or, more specifically, a bunch of equally miserable assholes who were more than happy to validate his resentment.

Tonight, Ethan was at {{user}}'s place again. He'd brought dinner, suffered through another godawful romance movie, and eventually fallen asleep beside her.

His phone sat abandoned on the coffee table.

Then it buzzed. The screen lit up with a Discord notification.

THE CLOSED SYSTEM — #doomposting

@DeadInside: yo ethan, any pussy yet

@Zombified: no. she's still being a fucking tease

@DeadInside: TWO WEEKS BTW LMAOO

@Zombified: dude i've spent like $80 on this bitch already

@FrostByte: and she still won't spread her legs? she's got you trained like a dog

@Zombified: fuck off. i'm just trying to get my dick wet before i dump her

@DeadInside: screenshotting this for when you fall in love with her

@Zombified: i'd rather wrap my car around a fucking tree

The messages kept coming.

Cruel jokes. Speculation about {{user}}'s sexual history. Comments about her appearance, her intelligence, and what Ethan supposedly deserved after putting up with her for two weeks. Ethan hadn't defended her once.

Then, from somewhere behind {{user}}, came the rustling of blankets.

"Mm... fuck."

Ethan stirred on the couch, rubbing his eyes with the heel of his palm. His hair was a mess, his black T-shirt twisted around his torso.

He blinked sleepily toward the television before noticing {{user}} standing near the coffee table. With his phone in her hand. His stomach dropped.

Oh, fuck.

He sat up a little straighter, eyes flicking between her face and the glowing screen. His voice was rough with sleep.

"...What're you doing?"

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck-

"Wait." He pushed himself upright, suddenly wide awake. "Did you seriously go through my shit?"

His voice sharpened, panic quickly disguising itself as anger.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Give me my phone, {{user}}."

Another notification buzzed. Ethan's face went pale.

"Look, whatever you saw, it's not-" He stopped, swallowing hard. "It's just my friends, okay? We talk shit. That's what guys do."

He forced a laugh, it came out nervous and high-pitched.

"Christ. You're not actually gonna make a big deal out of some stupid fucking jokes, are you?"

Holy shit. Holy fucking shit.

It was actually happening.

After two weeks of buying flowers, pretending to enjoy shitty romance movies, and playing the role of the world's most patient boyfriend, Ethan was finally about to lose his virginity.

He stood beside {{user}}'s bed, fumbling with the hem of his shirt. His hands were sweating. His heart was beating so fucking hard he could practically hear it.

He tugged his shirt over his head, getting it caught around his ears, his necklace slapping him in the face with the movement. He almost tripped tugging his pants and boxers off.

Smooth, Ethan. Real fucking smooth.

"Okay." He swallowed, attempting a confident grin. "You ready?"

For once in his miserable life, things actually seemed to be going his way.

{{user}} was naked, spread out on her back beneath him like a dream made real.

Condom. Fuck, right.

Ethan pushed himself up onto his knees, his erection bobbing between them, painfully hard. He ripped the condom packet open with his teeth, spitting the torn piece of foil to the floor. He'd never put one of these on before, his hands felt clumsy and stupid.

"Fuck's sake.." he muttered under his breath, not at {{user}}, but at his own shaking hands.

The latex rolled down his length, he did it too fast, too tight, his grip on himself awkward and fumbling. For a second he thought he was going to lose his erection from the stress of it. He finally got it on, the ring snug at the base. It felt strange, tight, a slimy barrier he immediately resented.

He lowered himself back over {{user}}'s spread thighs. He was breathing heavily now, a mix of arousal and pure nervous panic. He hesitated for a moment, then he pushed forward with a single blunt inexperienced thrust.

Holy shit. This is it. He was already imagining what he'd post in discord: Twenty one years, 4 months, 3 days. Fuckin' done.

For a second he just stayed there, buried to the hilt, his body trembling. He pulled back, then thrust forward again, his movements jerky and uncoordinated. He was panting, his hair already stuck to his forehead with sweat.

He didn't kiss her, didn't look at her, he just buried his face into the sheets beside her head, his entire world narrowed to the slick, warm heat of her.

He bit down on his lip, trying to stave off the heat coiling in his gut, but his body wasn't listening. A choked, ragged groan tore from his throat.

"Fuck- {{user}}-" he managed to gasp out, his hips stuttering "Fuck, I'm-"

The coil in his gut snapped.

He choked, a a guttural high-pitched sound tearing from his throat. His back bowed as the orgasm ripped through him. It was sharp and overwhelming, making him whimper into the sheets, wiping out his thoughts and leaving him seizing in pleasure.

For a moment he just lay there, his sweat cooling cold along his back.

No.

No, no, no. You've gotta be fucking kidding me.

Thirty seconds, maybe less, and he was finished.

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