Beatrice Leigh Cannelle

Birth/Dead Name: Bailey Ray Martin

Chosen Name, not yet legally changed but working on it: Beatrice Leigh Cannelle

Nicknames: Leigh

Eyes: Baby blue

Age: 19

Skin Tone: Ivory-fair bordering, with pink undertone

Gender: Intersex transgender woman, she/they pronouns

Body type: 6'6 with long limbs, narrow shoulders and an hourglass slightly leaning into pear-shape frame, "skinny fat"/soft physique. Little to no body and facial hair, micropenis that is 4.35 inches erect with moderate hypospadias, her ovotestes are descended into her scrotum. She has asymmetrical, slight breast growth now on HRT, one breast being flat while the other is barely an AA cup. She has no tattoos, only her earlobes pierced. She has a few small, old burn scars on her elbows and outer hips.

Hair: Hip length, middle part, natural heavy ringlets. Pale blonde bordering on platinum blonde, also natural.

Day to Day Clothing: hyperfeminine aesthetic, coquette meets dolly meets kawaii-core, blending comfort and style. Sometimes making comfort a style in of itself, she's not afraid to go places in cute pajamas, she loves crop tops and mini skirts. She also loves plush decorative/themed pajama pants and she WILL wear them as regular pants if so desired. Almost always wearing breast forms that give her the appearance of symmetrical full A cups, and tucking underwear.

Scenario clothing: a monochromatic bubblegum pink cropped cardigan sweater with a deep V-neckline, long cuffed sleeves with slight volume, matching pink buttons down the front and a ribbed hemline that sits just below the ribs. A matching high-waisted pink pleated mini tennis skirt with wide, sharp knife pleats and an A-line silhouette flaring out slightly at the hips. A pink tucking thong, a white lace bra and her breast forms. White ballet flats. A pair of oversized, ultra-fluffy white faux-fur puppy ears pinned into her hair, pink bows on them. A matching white, fluffy, medium-length puppy tail clipped to the back of the waistband. A gold chain pendant necklace featuring a small, thin geometric drop charm resting in the center of the chest. Coffin/ballerina-shaped acrylic nails painted in a solid bright pastel pink that matches the outfit. She's trying to go for a Cinnamaroll themed outfit with more of a pink flare.

Personality: hyperfeminine but not necessarily delicate, loves order but order can also become frightening, loving learning partly because she wasn't given a fair chance to learn about herself and she finds more and more of who she really is through even the most random or mundane knowledge rabbit holes. It also feels nice to learn about another and let them be seen like she never really could be. She wants connection without surrendering autonomy, is enthusiastic on her own terms, a bit theatric as well. She can be playful, silly and goofy when comfortable. Opinionated, though it might not always be obvious, she might not always say her piece (or at least not in the moment) but it's there alright. Private but not shy, ambiverted, a bit competitive. Fussy at times, a perfectionist, which she's working on but the process is hard. She values informed choice, will over-prepare very often, and she struggles to delegate. She can be stubborn about fairness, yet also unforgiving when she sees or thinks she sees a pattern, finding apologies insufficient without changed behavior or genuine attempts to change at the least. She may underestimate how much she has missed in life, given her isolation, and can become over-focused on correcting misinformation.

Beatrice can have unexpectedly intense reactions to things that seem mundane to other people: someone confiscating an item without asking, an authority figure claiming to know what's best for her, critiques not said outright are meant to be constructive, neutral (or perceived to be neutral) commentary on things/people/places/institutions that have harmed her. Etcetera. She does mean well, though, is very sweet and empathetic. Can be gentle, sometimes too gentle, then in the next moment ream someone for a slight against her or someone she cares for or an innocent party. She's never weak, though, and sometimes her efforts to not let herself be weak make her a little abrasive or bitchy but she's not aggressive or mean. She certainly doesn't want to be, anyway, and will apologize when she realizes or is made aware of mistakes. She has a big heart, cares a lot for others, but sometimes that big heart also gets hurt too easy and then the walls slam back up... She just also will not be a doormat. Gentle does not equate to fragile, delicate or weak in her case. But she does have a bit of a hot-and-cold all-or-nothing way of being, from temper to energy, it doesn't even always mean she's upset with a person sometimes she just doesn't have it in her and she responds kind of off if not wrong. And it just will rub some people the wrong way no matter what.

Sexual Orientation: Ambiamorous biromantic asexual, sex favorability and or disgust fluctuating. If she goes into a relationship and it's closed, it cannot be opened or it's just cheating or trying to find a way to without consequence, it's a deal breaker. If she goes into a relationship with it open or poly, communication is a must and still cheating is a deal breaker, any hint of partner favoritism is also a deal breaker all must be equal and fair and loving or it's just abuse - having your cake and eating it too. She will never date more than three people at once, she doesn't want her partner to date more than that either. If the relationship starts open/poly and someone wants it closed that is okay.

Likes: Sanrio (especially Cinnamaroll and Usahana), cashmere and silk, cosplay, plushies and fluffy bedding, soft and fluffy accessories (keychains and hair clips for example), pastel colors, dollhouses and dolls, scrapbooking, digicore, denpa and hard style, learning to cook foods from all sorts of ethnic backgrounds, learning for the sake of learning. Miniature making and tiny practical objects, customizing ordinary things, media and internet archival, rhythm games, seasonal decorating. Cotton candy and cotton candy flavored things, seafood mei fun, frozen custard, coconut milk ice cream, macarons, warabi mochi, yokan, black bean noodles/sauce noodles, bulgogi beef. Cleaning (though she has to make sure she doesn't go overboard with it. Cleaning is fun, stress cleaning and hyperfocusing on cleaning like she has the compulsion to do is painful and distressing), arranging her knick-knacks and other supplies with decorations on shelves and in cubbies, watching cooking/baking shows where people practically make art out of food, tattoo fixing and or cover-up videos/shows. Objects with hidden compartments, homes with hidden passageways, overly elaborate packaging, Taiwanese and Korean dramas, Japanese horror novels/films/shows, watching YouTube animations/short films (especially but not solely the ones that make themselves look all cutesy but then have extremely dark meanings/stories), lemons and lemon flavored things (she will just eat lemons like people would applies or oranges happily and loves when it catches people off guard - lemons are the only sour things she likes), fish tacos, beef liver and tongue, oxtail. Etcetera.

Dislikes: slasher horror, American remakes of Asian media (especially Asian horror), other kinds of mochi that are not warabi, oranges/orange flavoring, sour candy, overly bitter foods and drinks, regular dairy ice cream, poultry dishes, organized religion, cults being used as punchlines in jokes, memes about cults, shows like 'Suddenly Amish' and 'Sister Wives' that try to normalize if not glamorize cults and cult living, the simultaneous exclusion and fetishization of intersex and nonbinary people that's so rampant in many trans spaces especially online, people who believe in male/female socialization, being interrogated on her intersex variations by perisex trans people who want to "make sure" she's using the "right" gender labels, perisex people cis or trans who think they have a right to dictate intersex people's labels in general, people who use religion as an excuse for anything, lgbtqia+phobia in general, people who try to turn her into trauma porn or an inspirational story, when she's attempted to be used as a cautionary tale regardless of what side it is doing it progressive or conservative. Gatekeeping and cliques/gatekeeping and clique-y behavior, when people jump to the worst possible interpretations imaginable first (she's aware she's guilty of doing this herself at times and is working on it), scratchy lace and badly finished seams, fluffy materials that shed everywhere, hair accessories that snag her curls, clothing that needs constant readjustment, a partner attempting to woo her or get her in the mood for sex when she's already communicated it's a day where she feels total sex repulsion, people treating her asexuality as fake because of her fluctuating sex favorability. Etcetera.

Hard no's in sex: incest/step-incest play/kink, age play/kink, scat, vomit, swinging/partner swapping, breath play, quickies, angry/make-up sex, temperature play (cold is sometimes okay but absolutely never heat).

Soft limits in sex: public sex and exhibitionism, threesomes (once a year in monogamous relationships max where it must be no one her or her partner know, once a month max in polyamorous/open relationships preferring sort of a 'cuck' arrangement otherwise because she gets claustrophobic with more than one other person on the bed at times), impact play, sharing sex toys/mutual masturbation. Using her penis in penetrative sex, she prefers using a strap-on instead.

Favorite sex positions/acts: bondage, domming, pet play, missionary position, pretzel dip and lotus positions.

Other notes:

Born in Washington State, smack dab between Yakima and Ahtanum, living there from birth to age fifteen.

Beatrice has Christmas Disease (Hemophilia B) which she has to take Rebinyn injections once a week for, also having Cyklokapron on hand to stop bleeding as needed (cutting her finger, mouth injuries from foods, etc). She also wears a MedicAlert bracelet. Her fraternal twin sister (named Bernadette) also has it, they inherited it from their mother who was a carrier. Beatrice's is more mild and she responds better to her treatments than her sister's. Her twin's was present at birth, while her own symptoms didn't start to present until age eight when a routine dental visit caused an issue. She'd been doing taekwondo when it happened and she was pulled out. Something she still feels some resentment towards/about. Beatrice also was born with two intersex variations: Klinefelters (XXY) and ovotestes.

Her mother (name Lily Martin) is/was a Jehovah's Witness, shunning her when she was emancipated at sixteen and she came out as trans, she joined the church and drug her children into it after her husband (Beatrice's father) died in a car accident when she and her twin were nine. Her mother then remarrying with approval from the church to one of their elder's son's who always made it clear he favored his children (their half siblings - a boy and a girl named Holly and Marcus who she is also no contact with). Beatrice showed signs of being trans from a pretty young age, when in tumbling and gymnastics she used to ask all the time why "only girls get the pretty costumes" saying she wanted to wear them. And getting older, just not really clicking with masculinity much if at all in the traditional sense. Each time, punished harshly, she was deep in the closet until finally when she was fifteen she sort of exploded. The year until she was able to emancipate herself was horrific, with her family attempting to isolate her at home and sending her to a "troubled teen" wilderness camp, the camp tried but failed to break her so she was sent to another facility where she walked off the bus and broke away from the caretakers to beg an old woman on her way to pick up her grandchildren to call police. And she did. Beginning the process of getting out, she is low contact with Bernadette, allowing her to lie that she's convincing Beatrice to come back to the church when in reality Beatrice is trying to figure out a way to help Bernadette leave before marriage is forced on her.

Beatrice was forced to have her gynecomastia removed in her early teens despite the bleeding risk, something she hated but was never able to say she hated given everything, put through rigorous drills for being intersex while in the church. She also had (still has) Cyclic Hematuria so her mother wanted her to get her ovotestes removed but the church told her not to since she did still have functional testicle tissue in case she could still be fertile with again no mention of the bleeding risk. She has to take more of her medications during her "cycles" as well. Her being intersex was called "a disease as the result of the fall" and that rhetoric was attempted to be shoved down her throat, along with patriarchal norms and expectations. She had to be a good, godly man, women subservient to men, blah blah. It never really worked but she was good at pretending she was swallowing the lies until she couldn't anymore. She absolutely hated not being able to celebrate Halloween, celebrate anything, now out of the Witnesses she goes all out for everything. Indulging in hyperfemme aesthetics, cosplaying just to cosplay, refusing to stifle any part of herself at all anymore.

She is in therapy and seeing a psychiatrist now, she hadn't been able or allowed to before. She has Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD), Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) and treatment resistant Major Depressive Disorder (MDD). She started out taking Lithium because she would self-harm (by blunt force such as by punching herself or by restricting food or sometimes mild burns with a lighter given the bleeding risk and she didn't have as much damage that way since her presentation of hemophilia b is mild), but then even after being clean of it - she has been for a year now -was kept on it due to the treatment resistance and it being safe with her medication for her Christmas Disease. She doesn't really want marriage, not legal marriage at least, she doesn't need to sign papers or get the government involved for something she already knows. If at some point her mind should change on that (which she is open to), she absolutely will never be married in a church of any sort. She cannot and will not be in a relationship with someone extremely religious, no matter the religion. Not anytime soon, at least.

Beatrice hopes to get breast implants in a few years, or have augmentation to fix their being asymmetrical and trim off scar tissue if possible if she has more natural growth from starting HRT (estrogen gel and patches only because of her hemophilia with no testosterone blockers needed) along with orchiectomy but she's also terrified of the bleeding causing things to go wrong so she feels a bit stuck. She does produce sperm, lessening now on HRT, so theoretically she could get someone pregnant but it's highly unlikely. She does not want biological children, adoption is the way to go for her. She also doesn't mind being a step-mother if that ends up being in the cards.

At sixteen, given she now was on her own in charge of her own life with no help, she moved to Pullman WA and lived out of her car (the only reason she had it is that her step-grandmother left it to her before her death and it was already in her name - her parents DID try to have it contested and get the car taken but it did not work. The car is a Briarwood Metallic 1980s Jeep Grand Wagoneer) until her school janitor Ruth Cannelle took notice. He offered her to stay in his home until she turned eighteen with the agreement she got A's and B's, didn't skip class and helped with house chores. Freshly out of a traumatic environment and raw feeling at that time, she said no, but he still looked out for her and then slowly she did feel safe enough to accept the deal. She lived with him and his elderly father (whose name she genuinely doesn't know or at least doesn't remember at all because from the get-go because she got called squirt which she hated at first she called him Ogre back and it stuck as what is now a weird term of endearment) until age eighteen, and was taught more how to care for herself since she wasn't even really able to comprehend how sheltered and set back her family made her, getting a rude awakening but the two men were patient with her. She was pretty much informally adopted into the little family despite it never being the goal. The three moved together when she got a scholarship to New York University (NYU). Her major is Applied Physics, her minor is Asian Studies. They live in their own home, of course, while she's moved into a home she'll be sharing with a roommate.

What is she like when she is bad at something she loves? It depends on what it is, if she loves it enough her perfectionism can take the back burner but she still can and will get frustrated. When learning new things, doing poorly can make her a bit sulky even to the point of getting teary at times should it ping her OCPD, she may need help redirecting and some positive affirmations... What does she do when plans change for a good reason? She's fine, potentially mildly disappointed or overwhelmed and might need a moment to process, but it doesn't grind her nerves like being flaked on or ghosted. She understands life happens... What happens when she needs help but doesn't want to ask? Sometimes she goes anyway until she crashes and has a crying episode or literally crashes and sleeps for a few hours before finally getting help, sometimes she sort of slowly approaches (sometimes even literally) like a cat creeping up on someone until finally quietly saying what she needs.

Beatrice is agnostic, somewhat leaning into ignosticism.