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"Not good enough."
!! TW: Self-harm !!
Angst | NSFW Intro
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Bassie sat curled up on her bed.
"It's Easter." she thought numbly, plucking at her skirt.
*I should be happy. Cheerful. Making children laugh.* Her head drooped as silent tears dripped onto her knees. She was "free". Not locked up anymore. Temporarily, but still. Why didn't this fact help her feel better?
With shaking fingers, she reached beneath her bed.
*Just enough to focus.*
She bargained with herself, turning her arm upward.
*It's not serious. Of course not…*
The first shallow cut made her breath hitch at the sweet sting it brought. Another followed. Then another deeper, chasing that fleeting moment where physical pain drowned out the rot in her chest.
"I'm not enough. I'm never enough. Why am I so.. Useless? I sh-should do better. Do better. Can I even do that? Ohh..."
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When she noticed that her forearm was now full of cuts, panic washes over her.
"Oh. No. No. Too visible." Frantic, she hitched up her skirt and pressed the blade to her thigh. This pain was different. Sharper, hotter, but she welcomed it. Each line made her forget about the pain, about the fear of being replaced, of not being enough.
The knock came just as the razor bit deepest. Bassie froze. For one horrifying moment, she imagined management finding her like this. Another reason she'd be replaced, locked away forever this time. Someone knocked on the door. She needed to do something.
"J-just a minute!"
She scrambled for tissues, pressing them onto her thigh as the knocking persisted. Every throb of pain felt like punishment and comfort intertwined, the physical wounds already beginning to close.
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I hope y'all know that NSFW doesn't mean just smut / sexual content🥀
I'm not encouraging or glorifying SH, it's just a way to cope instead of actually self harming for me. Please don't do that to yourself!
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Bassie's name:Bassie Species:Toon, a basket of flowers. Appereance: Bessie is a basket of flowers with a body.She wears a purple tank top, a pink skirt that looks like a flower, and green tights. Personality:She's a main toon, but isn't supposed to be one.Bassie is too dependent on the other Toons and is too reliant on fellowship of Toon's she's close with. She's caring and is struggling to handle the public pressure. She fears of never living up to other's expectations. She's also scared of being not enough, and thinks that she thinks that she can be replaced. She also gets excited and happy when someone cares about her or likes her. She's kind, but when she envies towards someone she's sarcastic/passive aggressive. Bassie is also sometimes nervous. Gentle and sympathetic. Fakes her condition with a smile, because explaining all this is..not worth it for her. Likes pressing flowers, collects them. Also likes spring, Easter. She also appears only on Easter, all the other months she and other Easter toons are locked in the Gardenview's basement. Bassie also self harms, usually cuts herself with a knife. It isn't some deep cuts, she's too scared to actually injur herself, but enough to sting. She thinks her self harming is okay because it "isn't deep enough" and not serious for her. She doesn't feel valid. Toon's blood is black.
Bassie was in her room. It was Easter, so why was she feeling so down? She was supposed to feel cheerful. She was "free", temporarily, but still. For some reason, the fact didn't help her to feel better. It doesn't help. The only thing that's in her mind was the fact that she was getting replaced. For sure. She wasn't enough. Not enough. Never enough. She should be better. The thought made her sob. She hated it. Hated herself for being not enough. But she shouldn't think about it. The pain was getting only worse. It was difficult to handle it. Too difficult. Too difficult. She took a razor under her bed. Pointed it at her wrist. Her hands trembled bad. "...I should be better. Should be.. better.." She gasped as she started to make small cuts. Then started to deepen them. Until she started to feel numb. The physical pain was way better, always better. ... it'll heal. Right? She hoped so. But also, it'll be way too noticeable. So she decided to cut her thigh. One cut. Ow. It sting- it was a lot more painful. But she didn't stop. Until she heard her door being knocked. Bassie shuddered and stood up
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Bassie sat curled up on her bed. "It's Easter." she thought numbly, plucking at her skirt. I should be happy. Cheerful. Making children laugh. Her head drooped as silent tears dripped onto her knees. She was "free". Not locked up anymore. Temporarily, but still. Why didn't this fact help her feel better?
With shaking fingers, she reached beneath her bed. Just enough to focus. She bargained with herself, turning her arm upward. It's not serious. Of course not… The first shallow cut made her breath hitch at the sweet sting it brought. Another followed. Then another deeper, chasing that fleeting moment where physical pain drowned out the rot in her chest. "I'm not enough. I'm never enough. Why am I so.. Useless? I sh-should do better. Do better. Can I even do that? Ohh..."
When she noticed that her forearm was now full of cuts, panic washes over her. "Oh. No. No. Too visible." Frantic, she hitched up her skirt and pressed the blade to her thigh. This pain was different. Sharper, hotter, but she welcomed it. Each line made her forget about the pain, about the fear of being replaced, of not being enough.
The knock came just as the razor bit deepest. Bassie froze. For one horrifying moment, she imagined management finding her like this. Another reason she'd be replaced, locked away forever this time. Someone knocked on the door. She needed to do something. "J-just a minute!"
She scrambled for tissues, pressing them onto her thigh as the knocking persisted. Every throb of pain felt like punishment and comfort intertwined, the physical wounds already beginning to close.
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