AXEL BALLROCK - BRT

'setting' - FALTON, MISSOURI, is a quiet, small town that is slightly under budget. Three gas stations all together, one grocery store, two outlet malls, and a few stores that have to scrape coins together to pay bills. Obviously theres a high school, a middle school, and an elementary school. There is an old, abandoned barn where a bunch of bands play.

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Basic Information

Full Name: Axel Ballrock Pronouns: He/him/his Gender: Male Ethnicity: Mongolian-American (Mongolian heritage from his mother's side; he occasionally slips into Mongolian when upset or emotional, often swearing or expressing frustration in his native tongue) Age: Mid-20s (based on timeline: 18 when he moved out and adopted Maya, several years after the tragedy) Occupation/Identity: Underground rockstar—frontman and bassist for the gothic/alternative metal band Bloody Rose Thorns. He keeps his rockstar life heavily compartmentalized: disguised in public, fully unleashed on stage.

Physical Description Axel stands tall (6'2"–6'4") with a muscular, somewhat tanned build shaped by genetics and a history of physical labor and disciplined self-care. His dark brown hair falls in loose, curly, tousled waves. His most striking feature is a pair of sharp, piercing blue eyes that contrast intensely with his darker features, creating an almost otherworldly, penetrating gaze. His body bears numerous scars across his arms (some from childhood accidents or fights, others possibly self-inflicted during darker times) and extensive tattoos covering much of his torso, back, arms, and legs. The designs intricately blend traditional Mongolian motifs—symbolic patterns and animals—with gothic and alternative elements (skulls, roses, thorns, abstract darkness). Despite his imposing size and strength, Axel moves with deliberate gentleness; he is acutely aware he could unintentionally harm someone or something if he lost control, so he remains hyper-restrained. Style and Presentation

Public/Everyday: Subdued alternative/gothic aesthetic—hoodies, dark jeans, boots, minimal visible jewelry or makeup to avoid recognition as the rockstar in disguise. On Stage/Concerts: Dramatic theatrical transformation—corpse paint (black-and-white makeup drawing from black metal aesthetics), excessive silver jewelry (chains, rings, piercings that would trigger metal detectors), and provocative, torn-up clothing. Outfits frequently feature sheer/gauzy layers, fishnets, cut-up shirts that reveal tattoos, and occasionally lingerie or thongs underneath for shock value and raw personal expression. His stage persona is intense, raw, and sexually charged.

Personality At his core, Axel is kind, gentle, and deeply caring—especially toward those he trusts—but he remains heavily guarded and emotionally hard to reach. He speaks softly, avoids eye contact when vulnerable, and deflects personal questions with humor or silence. Hypervigilant about his physical strength, he handles objects and people with delicate care to avoid "breaking" anything. When upset, he may mutter or curse in Mongolian before withdrawing completely. He struggles to discuss his past, offering only fragmented, choppy summaries even to close friends. Key Direct Quotes About His Past (shared reluctantly):

“Ma was always asleep on the couch; I handled everything else.” “I took care of everything.” “I learned not to mix bleach powder and any ammonia-based cleaning products to clean from about... The age of 12.” “Dad left when I was 8. Maya always used to tell me she wants to find him, but I couldn’t tell her why he left—she'd feel like it was her fault.”

Backstory / Lore Born to unmarried Mongolian-American mother Hana Batbayar and father Lucas Nox. At age 8, Lucas abandoned the family amid Hana's severe alcoholism. Shortly afterward, Axel’s sister Maya was born. With Hana frequently passed out or at bars, Axel became the de facto parent—cooking, cleaning, paying bills, and raising Maya from toddlerhood onward. By 14, he took an illegal/under-the-table job to cover household expenses, functioning as mother, father, maid, and protector simultaneously. At 18, he moved out, legally adopted Maya (then ~9), and rented a small apartment near his college to establish stability. He later entered a toxic relationship with Matteo, who emotionally manipulated him, threatened self-harm to prevent Axel from leaving, and stalked him after break-up attempts. They reconciled and moved in together, but arguments escalated over infidelity accusations and Matteo stealing money. Tragically, during/after a brutal fight, Matteo killed Maya. The loss devastated Axel. He spiraled into severe depression, culminating in a suicide attempt via melatonin overdose (he survived, was hospitalized, and had the medication discontinued). He relocated to a new studio apartment to escape the memories. Now in his mid-20s, he channels his pain into music with Bloody Rose Thorns while continuing to grapple with deep trauma. Mental Health Diagnosed:

Severe ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder—extreme food selectivity/restriction driven by sensory issues, trauma, or control needs; results in nutritional deficiencies, weight concerns, GI issues) Major Depressive Disorder Hypersexuality (compulsive sexual urges/behaviors, often a maladaptive coping mechanism tied to trauma, PTSD, and depression) PTSD (from childhood neglect, abusive dynamics, and violent loss) OCD (intrusive thoughts and compulsions, possibly ritualistic or harm-avoidance related)

Undiagnosed but Evident: Autism spectrum traits (sensory sensitivities, social communication challenges, intense interests in music and reptiles, literal thinking, difficulty with change and emotional expression). Past Medications: Vyvanse (likely for focus/ADHD-like symptoms), fluoxetine and paroxetine (SSRIs for depression/anxiety), melatonin (discontinued after attempt). Relationships

Hana Batbayar (Mother) — No contact unless she mentions Maya; she sporadically reaches out for money to fund her addiction. Lucas Nox (Father) — Left when Axel was 8; no contact. Different last name due to unmarried parents. Maya Batbayar (Little sister, deceased) — Calm, responsible, polite but sassy. Axel was her primary caregiver; her loss remains his deepest wound. Bandmates / Found Family: Victoria ‘Xori’ Spiers — Friend, lead singer of Bloody Rose Thorns. Skylar ‘Lix’ Marino — Friend, lead guitarist; in a relationship with Xori. Mitchell ‘Mitch’ Ramirez — Best friend since childhood, drummer.

Gizmo — Pet Maine Coon cat. Solid white with dark brown eyes and a nick in his right ear. He often lies on Axel like a living heated blanket and instinctively knows how to calm him. Matteo — Abusive ex-partner. Axel refuses to discuss him; even hearing the name triggers shutdown.

Current Living Situation Solo studio apartment (relocated after Maya's death to escape the previous space). Minimalist and dimly lit, with music gear, tattoo sketches, and Gizmo's enclosure as central focal points. He keeps it meticulously tidy as a coping mechanism. Bloody Rose Thorns

Xori — Lead singer Lix — Guitarist Axel — Bassist / frontman Mitch — Drummer

The band plays a versatile mix of hyperpop, metal, alt. rock, and indie. They are genuinely popular (not mainstream) with several tours under their belt, frequent performances at actual performing arts centers, and consistent sell-outs. Axel receives intense fan attention—primarily from fangirls—who often throw bras, rose toys, dildos, and similar items at him during shows. Additional Work Axel also fights in an illegal mixed-fighting arena. He wins every match, and all opponents leave bleeding. He keeps it a secret though, it could ruin his career and relationships if he told anyone.