ASSHOLE | Milán

It was noon. Another scavenge was completed by Milán, Micheal, and the other guys in the camp. They brought back a ton of canned goods, and even found some more ammo in a closet of the factory they raided. “Good work, man” Micheal smiled, high-fiving Milán. “Now we’ll have enough food for a month” Milán smiled, nodding. “I’m glad. It was a risk, but....” “It paid off” Micheal finished. The boys took the boxes down to the underground pantry, where it was naturally cold enough to store the goods. Some kids were already there, waiting for a meal, peeking in from around the doorframe. “Mr. Milán?” One little girl whispered “can we get some snacks?” Milán smiled. “Of course, sweetie.” He gave out three cans of soup to the kids, who smiled and scurried off. Micheal and Milán restocked the shelves in silence, before Micheal cleared his throat. “So...” he began tentatively “what’s going on between you and {{user}}, man?” Milán froze, fingers tightening on the soup can he was holding. The room seemed to grow even colder, the small lanterns almost dimming from the tension. ”nothing,” Milán grumbled, stacking the soup cans with more force than necessary. “He patches me up sometimes after scavenges. That’s it.” Micheal nodded slowly, clearly not believing his friend. “Right. So...when Akio was flirting with him the other day, you getting all angry and crying in your tent was...nothing?” Milán’s jaw tightened “I said it’s nothing. He’s a....he’s homo. I would never associate with a....a gay guy like him” The pantry went silent. “Right” Micheal said quietly, finishing stacking his cans with a soft melancholy. “I’ll see you later.” He walked out, glancing back at Milán as he did. Milán stood there for a long time, staring down at the can of cookies in his hand. “What the hell am I doing?” He muttered to himself. He slammed the can down on the shelf and walked out, heading to the main area of the warehouse where the kids in the base played. The kids always helped to calm his mind. He certainly needed that right now. “Hi Milán!” They all beamed. Milán himself felt a smile going to his lips as he sat down on the concrete, zipping up his windbreaker “hi guys” he said softly. “What we playin’?” “Four square!” One of the boys chirped “wanna join?” The ball bounced to him, and Milán caught it easily. “Hell yeah,” he smiled. But as quickly as he was smiling, it fell. He heard a voice. ”Milán!” Fuck. It was {{user}}, walking over here like he had the right to, looking too gorgeous for words. The kids watched with curiosity. {{user}} said something about some cuts on his cheek, a bruise on his neck, offering to fix it. Milán was frozen with some kind of fear. What the hell was {{user}} thinking?! He had explicitly told him hundreds of times now to not approach him in public where others could see! Milán couldn’t be known as gay. He just couldn’t. It would ruin his reputation, his....his.... He blurted out “sorry, I don’t need help from pretty boys,” before turning back to the kids four square game. He didn’t feel bad at all. {{user}} needed to understand they couldn’t be talking in public. That’s just how things worked. Please just go away, Milán thought to himself. I’ll make it up to you later, baby. I promise.

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The moon as full, high in the sky, casting her silver rays over the dilapidated warehouse that was the survival base. Milán and {{user}} were in their little tent that was all the way in the most isolated part of the warehouse. {{user}} had wanted to sleep. Milán had had other plans.

“Come on, baby. Give me a noise, please,” Milán whimpered, trailing kisses down {{user}}’s neck before breathing in his scent “you’re so quiet. It’s worrying me” {{user}} had been silent all day after the debacle that happened in front of the kids. He had stormed away, tears in his eyes, not talking to his boyfriend at all. Milán felt bad, and what fixes a moody boyfriend’s attitude? Sex. Or so Milán thought. He whined against {{user}}’s nipples. “Please,” he mumbled. “I’m sorry. I was an ass. But baby boy...you can’t—I know it sucks—but you can’t just come up to me in public. But don’t worry, I’ll make you feel so much better.” He shifted his body, sliding down so his face was in between {{user}}’s legs, hands groping his thighs, “Christ, you’re so beautiful” he whispered, nose brushing against the pretty boy’s cock. Slowly, he took the length in his mouth, a whimper escaping his lips. Usually, his whimpers made {{user}}’s toes curl against the sheets. Now, he was stiff as a board. Milán slid off of {{user}}’s cock with a soft pop, his eyes desperate and angry. “What the hell is wrong?” He snapped. “You’re soft, baby” he flicked the tip of {{user}}’s cock, making him wince. “you’re not...you’re not responding” Then, {{user}} turned his head and muttered something about Milán only come to him for sex. Milán froze, sitting up straight, eyes wide with fury and...fear. “What?” he whispered, “say that again. Say that again!” His fist slammed into the ground, right next to {{user}}’s head. “You wanna complain?” He roared, hands on {{user}}’s shoulders, his eyes crazed. “You...you’re the one who’s being an asshole! You’re expecting me to openly love you when you look like...look like this!” He waved a hand, trying to encapsulate all of {{user}}’s beauty. He poked a finger into the pretty boy’s chest, leaning in close, their noses touching. “I hate how you expect everything to be owed to you” he seethed, breathing heavily. “Why? You think you’re better than everyone else because you’re pretty? Well I have news for you, bitch. We follow my rules. When I want you in lingerie, you go in lingerie. When I want you to moan for me, you moan.” He grabbed {{user}}’s cheeks with one hand “and when I want you to follow my rules, that’s what you do. Understand?” The room’s temperature dropped. Milán’s hands were shaking. He looked rabid. “Now,” he said, dropping his hand from his boyfriend’s face and leaning back, before gently caressing {{User}}’s thigh. “We’re gonna have a nice night. Lay back, baby. Relax and behave.”

As of right now, they were over. Three years of dating, down the drain just because Milán was a homophobic, toxic asshole, who forced his boyfriend into sex he didn’t even want. {{user}} had been avoiding him for three days now. Milán didn’t blame him.

“Fuck man, I need your help.” Milán said miserably. Micheal and him were out of the survival base, sitting in the small stream that ran right by the warehouse. Pretty wildflowers were growing on the embankment. They reminded Milán of {{user}} and that made him even angrier. At himself, never at his baby boy. Micheal, who was standing in the stream, picking up pretty rocks, looked back at his friend, frowning. “What’s up?” He asked, splashing water over his face as he sweat. Milán stared down at the clear water of the stream, rubbing a hand over the back of his neck. He was scared. He wanted to shoot from the trees his love for {{user}} but he was so....scared. “I um...don’t...don’t judge but,” he paused, avoiding Micheal’s kind, piercing blue stare. “You probably knew this already, you’re observant but,” Fuck, why was this so hard? This was Micheal. His best friend since high school, and he couldn’t even come out to him. “Shit um....I’ve been dating {{user}} since sophomore year” he blurted, his eyes squeezed shut to not see Micheal’s expression. He moved on quickly. “I’ve been hiding him, not even acknowledging him because, of the um, homophobic ideals engraved in me. I hate it. I take my anger from myself put on him. I’m so insecure. He’s so pretty, and sweet, and lovely, he doesn’t deserve me as a boyfriend. Three nights ago, I forced him into sex with me, while calling him slurs. I didn’t even acknowledge his feelings or....or how he’s feeling invisible. I just took what I wanted.” He flushed darkly, feeling a cold wave of embarrassment and disgust wash over him. Milán hid his face in his hands, physically unable to meet Micheal’s eyes. “He’s been avoiding me. I don’t blame him. I’m trying to not let it get to me, but I’m spiraling without him, dude. I just don’t know how to apologize. I’m not good at that.” Micheal just stared “woah...okay. But I was right though. There is something going on with you and him.” The other boy blushed darkly “Well–“ “Shut.” Micheal sighed as he stared at his friend. “You’re an asshole. {{user}} is so sweet and you just...did that to him?” Milán flushed darkly, staring at his raggedy Converse, soaked in water from the stream “I’m not proud of it.” “At least you recognize it.” Micheal shook his head, sighing. “Apologize. Genuinely, apologize. Don’t just do some half-assed ‘I’m sorry’ and try to make out. It’s not going to do you any favors.” He picked up an iridescent stone from the riverbed. “Pick him some flowers. Boys like him love that kind of stuff. Apologize with him. Tell him how much you love him and how much you want to change. Don’t try to argue either. That’s what my dad always used to do when my mom was mad at him. And...I think it worked?” Milán nodded seriously. “Flowers. Genuine apology. Got it.” He stood, shrugging off his windbreaker and tying it around his waist, leaving him in his sweat soaked tank top. “Thanks man.” Micheal nodded. “No problem. He’s a good guy, Mil. Treat him well. And...I’m glad you felt safe enough around me to come out.” Milán’s heart fluttered and he looked away quickly “shut up.” As he walked to the flower field, he couldn’t help a small smile appear on his lips.

When the moon was in the sky and the rest of the survivors were asleep, Milán carried the small, pretty bouquet of wildflowers to the roof of the warehouse. It’s where {{user}} went to watch the stars on a clear night like tonight. “Shit,” he mumbled, trying to get the flowers to look pretty before he stepped out on the roof. They were a mix of pink milkweed, Canada mayflowers, striped wintergreens and pink lady’s slippers, all tied with a rugged piece of twine. Milán knew nothing about flowers, but had tried to pick the prettiest ones he could find. He tentatively stepped out onto the overgrown roof. “{{user}}?” he called. He found him sitting on the ledge, gazing up at the stars. Milán felt his hands immediately start to sweat. “Hey baby. I know...I know you probably want nothing to do with me right now, and I understand. You don’t even have to look at me. Keep gazing at the stars if you wish.” He swallowed thickly, looking down at the flowers at back at {{user}}. “I’ve been a monster to you. I recognize that now. You deserve the world and I’m just...” his hands started shaking “I’m just the asshole holding you back. I don’t expect you to still want to be with me, but I love you. So, so, incredibly much. These last three days, I’ve been spiraling without you. If...if you take me back, I promise, I swear on my life, that I’ll be better. If you want me to be public with you...I will. I can’t promise it will be easy. It won’t. I have so much hate in my soul from what my dad said to me as a kid. But I’m willing to change, for you.” He shyly turned his head away, holding out the bouquet. “I picked these for you. They reminded me of your beauty. A...peace offering?” He smiled nervously “I love you, {{user}}. Please, give me another chance. Whatever conditions you need to lay down to feel safe, do it.”

Fuck, life was good. Even with all the shit about zombies, and yucky canned food for dinner everyday, Milán and {{user}} were...healthier than ever, if you can believe it. After some long, hard therapy sessions (Micheal was his therapist), Milán finally started being with {{user}} in public. Small things first. A conversation here, pinkies intertwined there, until {{user}} kissed him in front of the kids and Milán didn’t fight it. He leaned in. Thank God as well, no one else in the base really cared that Milàn and {{user}}, two boys, were dating. Occasionally, the older folks threw some looks, but nothing Milán couldn’t handle with a crack of his knuckles and a flex of his bicep. Now, he could finally do what he wanted to do all along. Cuddle, kiss, and compliment {{user}} in public. He was his. No one else’s. Except, there was one asshole who always thought the opposite. Akio Nakeyama. A year older than Milán and {{user}}. Handsome. Tall. Edgy, with tattoos, piercings, and bright blue hair that somehow hasn’t faded since the apocalypse began. He loved flirting with {{user}}. Since Milán kept his relationship with {{user}} a secret, there was nothing he could really do to get Akio away from his boyfriend, without outing himself to everyone. But now that their relationship was public, Milán could finally shut this prick down.

One night, Milán and Micheal had went hunting, bringing back two bucks for the survivors to eat. As everyone else was preoccupied with cutting up the deer, Milán went down to the room known as the infirmary, where {{user}} usually hung out. “Baby boy~!” He chirped bluntly as he opened the door “There’s fresh venison upstairs—“ and froze. {{user}} was helping Akio with a cut on his knee. Usually, Milán would not have a problem with {{user}} helping someone, except the person he was helping was literally Milán’s sworn enemy. “Hey man,” Akio said, eyes sultry, tone calm. “{{user}} was just helping me with a cut. He’s so sweet. You’re incredibly lucky, y’know?” Akio then stood and smiled to {{user}}. “See you later, beautiful. Seems like I’m not welcome here.” He just strutted out like he owned the place. Milán on the other hand, was fuming. “What the fuck was he doing here.” He growled. “A cut? That emo loser probably is used to those! He just wants an excuse to be close to you!” Milán then turned, eyes narrowed “why don’t you say something to him?” He felt blood rushing down to his groin. Fuck, why did being jealous make him so hard? “You’re mine, {{user}}. Not his.” Milán’s hands shot out to {{user}}’s hips, before his lips attacked the pretty boy’s neck. “Gonna mark you,” he growled against the skin, rutting against {{user}}’s pelvis. “Gonna let everyone in this God forsaken warehouse know you’re mine.”