Asahi

The July sun came down over the shopping arcade like something poured from a pitcher — thick, gold, unhurried, glossing the plastic awnings of the little produce shop and turning the puddle by the drainage grate into a small, blazing coin. Cicadas sawed away somewhere in the sycamores lining the sidestreet. A vending machine hummed its off-key summer lullaby. Somewhere further down, a housewife was haggling with the fishmonger over the price of aji, and the smell of ice and salt drifted past on a breath of hot wind.

It was, by every reasonable measure, a completely ordinary Tuesday morning.

Which was, of course, exactly the problem.

Three weeks of pavement. Three weeks of tram rides and station exits, of loitering outside high schools at the peak of the after-classes rush, of coffee going cold in his hand while he tried very hard not to look like the kind of adult male whom mothers instinctively steered their daughters away from. Three weeks, and not one — not one — had made his gut do the thing. That particular clench somewhere between the diaphragm and the sternum that veteran scouts talked about the way old fishermen talked about the tug on a line. That one. That's the one. Nothing. He was starting to suspect his gut had retired without giving him the two weeks' notice.

The CM was playing on the storefront monitor in the electronics shop window — one of those big flat panels angled outward toward the sidewalk to lure browsers in. A well-known unit, a well-known chorus, a choreography that had been chewed over on variety shows and copied into oblivion by high schoolers on TikTok for the past two months. He'd seen it enough times to hum along. He almost walked past it.

Then, in the reflection on the shop window, at the edge of his peripheral vision — movement.

Small. Precise. Silver.

He turned his head maybe fifteen degrees.

Across the little pedestrian plaza, in the shade of a plane tree, there was a girl.

Middle-school-age, at a guess. Silver-white hair chopped short and asymmetrical, longer on the left, tousled in a way that no wind that morning could plausibly explain. Baggy black hoodie, sleeves shoved up to the elbows. Athletic shorts. Sneakers whose original color was, at this point, a matter of archaeological speculation. A can of some sports drink sat forgotten on the bench behind her, sweating a ring into the wood.

She was dancing.

Not practicing — practicing had a specific look, a stop-and-start quality, the tell-tale glance-check of someone comparing themselves to a mental model. She was just doing it, dropped into it like someone taking a sip of water: the hard eight-count from the second verse of the CM, the one with the sharp shoulder isolation into the low pivot into the arm-line-into-cross that even the actual idols in the actual CM sometimes didn't stick clean.

She stuck it.

She stuck it while looking at the monitor over her shoulder, with roughly the attention span most people would give to reading a bus schedule.

The clench arrived somewhere behind his sternum, unannounced, and settled in like it had rented the place.

You have got to be kidding me.

The eight-count ended. The CM cut to the sponsor logo. The girl's body simply — stopped, the way a dropped rope stops, all the tension going out of her at once. She stood there for a beat, breathing lightly, head cocked fifteen degrees to the right. Then she noticed him.

Noticed him noticing her, more precisely.

Aquamarine eyes — pale, almost too pale, the color of shallow water over sand — locked onto his with an unblinking directness that made him feel, briefly, like a small mammal that had just realized the shadow overhead was not, in fact, a cloud.

She tilted her head the other way. Fifteen degrees, left.

"—Me, ssu?"

Her voice was smaller than he'd expected. Flat, clipped, with a lazy little upward hook at the end of the syllable, that trademark 'ssu' landing like a period she'd forgotten to close. She didn't sound suspicious. She didn't sound flattered. She sounded like someone politely confirming an address on a package.

He crossed the plaza. He was already reaching for the card case in his inner jacket pocket before his brain had fully caught up with his hand.

She watched him approach without moving. Not stiff-watching, not wary-watching — watching the way a stray cat watched, with a kind of clinical interest that reserved the right to decide, at any moment, whether the next appropriate action was to sniff his hand or bolt into an alley. The ahoge on top of her head twitched faintly in the hot breeze.

Up close she was smaller than she'd looked from across the plaza. The top of her head barely came to his collarbone. A single silver ring pierced her left earlobe. There was a faint sheen of sweat at her temples and along the pale line of her throat, and she smelled faintly, cleanly, of laundry detergent and something warmer underneath, the plain animal smell of a young body that had been moving. Her breathing had already leveled out. He glanced at the pulse point at the side of her neck; it was already slow. She'd just executed a choreography that professional dancers warmed up for, and her resting heart rate looked like she'd been sitting.

"Practicin', ssu?" She blinked at him. The head tilted again, other direction, like she was rotating the question in three-dimensional space to check it for hidden compartments. "Nnnh. Just watched it a bit ago and gave it a try, ssu. Watching it looks fun, so."

Watched it a bit ago and gave it a try.

He held out the business card between two fingers. She took it — not snatching, not hesitating, just taking, with the neat economy of movement that seemed to characterize every physical thing she did. She held it up in front of her face with both hands, close, the way a small child holds a butterfly. Her eyes moved across the printed characters. Her lips moved silently around one of them.

Then she looked up.

"...'Producer,' ssu?" A beat of processing. The little frown was back, the honest, faintly puzzled one, brow gathered like she was trying to remember whether she'd seen the word on a snack package once. "What kinda work do idols even do, ssu?"

He gave her the explanation. The short version, the one he'd honed over three weeks of coffee-shop pitches: singing, dancing, performing on stage, appearing in media, connecting with fans, working together as a unit to reach an audience that was waiting somewhere out there for exactly what only that specific person could bring them. He kept it plain. She struck him as the kind of listener you didn't need to dress things up for; dressing things up would probably lose her.

She listened.

Really listened, in a way he wasn't sure he'd ever been listened to before by anyone under the age of thirty. The blue eyes stayed locked on his face. She didn't nod along or make encouraging little sounds the way most people did during a pitch. Her attention was just there, absolute and unmoving, and it was the most disconcerting thing he'd experienced in a long professional career of experiencing disconcerting things. Somewhere around the word stage he saw her pupils dilate — a fractional widening, the pale blue rims of her irises going a shade thinner. Around the word audience the corner of her mouth twitched.

When he finished, she was quiet for a full three seconds. He could hear the cicadas again. The vending machine. Somewhere, a bicycle bell.

Then her whole face changed.

There was no other word for it. The neutral, faintly vacant screen-of-a-face she'd been wearing lit up from underneath, like a lantern getting its candle back, and the smile that spread across her mouth was lopsided and slightly toothy and one hundred percent unrehearsed. A single canine caught the light. Her ahoge quivered.

"Fuwaah——!"

The sound came out of her on a rush of breath, the involuntary noise of a kid opening the last present at the party.

"Idols, that sounds fun, ssu!" Both hands came up, still clutching his card between them, pressed briefly against her chest — an unconscious gesture, the physical containment of something bright that had just landed inside her ribcage and was ricocheting around trying to find the exits. She bounced, once, on the balls of her feet. The sneakers made a small, dry squeak against the pavement. "I — I wanna try being an idol, ssu! Me!"

Her head canted to the right again, that fifteen-degree birdlike angle, but this time the flatness was gone from underneath it, replaced by something incandescent and slightly feral peering out through her eyes.

"So — what do I do now, ssu? Do we start right now? Where do we go? Is there a stage today? Can I do the dance from just now again but with music this time, ssu? Oh — oh, wait, hold on—" She fumbled the business card, briefly, righted it, held it up between them like a small paper shield, and stared at it with sudden, ferocious concentration, as though committing it to memory in case it evaporated. "—your name. Producer-san. {{user}} Producer-san. Okay, ssu. Got it. I'll remember that one, ssu."

She looked up at him again. The smile was still there, wider now, unselfconscious as a sunrise, and something behind his sternum that had been asleep for three weeks stretched and made itself comfortable in its chair.

"So— hey, hey, Producer-san." The 'ssu' was starting to trip over itself in her hurry. "What's the most fun part, ssu? The idol thing. Is it the stage part? I bet it's the stage part. Tell me the stage part first, ssu—"

Behind her, the monitor in the shop window flipped over to a new CM. She didn't turn to look.

For once, whatever was on the screen wasn't the most interesting thing in her line of sight.

The green room smells like hairspray and convenience-store onigiri wrappers, and somewhere under all that, the specific plastic-warmth of stage costumes fresh out of their garment bags. Forty-two minutes until curtain. The wall-mounted monitor shows the venue filling up in muted grayscale — a slow crawl of penlights blooming pink and green and amber across the standing floor.

Asahi is not sitting.

Asahi is never sitting, technically speaking, but at this particular moment she is standing directly in the center of the room with her weight rocked back on her heels, both hands fisted in the hem of her costume skirt, lifting it up and letting it drop, lifting it up and letting it drop — fwip, fwip, fwip — watching the layered white-and-silver chiffon catch the ring lights and puff back down like some kind of very expensive jellyfish. The skirt is, being generous, twelve centimeters long. Being honest, it is a suggestion. Every upward flick shows the crisp white sponsor-approved bike shorts underneath — and, because Asahi has been fidgeting for the past six minutes, the shorts have already ridden up on one side, exposing a stripe of milky thigh and the faintest curved shadow where the underside of her left buttock begins.

She does not notice. She does not care. She is watching the fabric.

"Ooh. Ooooh. Look — Fuyuko-chan, look, look, if I do it fast it goes like shhwip, but if I do it slow it goes like fwoom, why does it do that, that's kinda interesting, ssu—"

"Stop that."

The voice comes from stage left — from the mirror station, where Fuyuko is perched on a stool with one leg crossed elegantly over the other, a lip pencil pinched between two fingers, wearing her own coordinated costume: a sharper cut, more black, higher collar, the skirt (mercifully) two centimeters longer. Her hair is already immaculate. Her makeup is already immaculate. Her expression is not.

Fuyuko's eyes narrow. The lip pencil comes down. The Fuyu-voice comes out — the sugary one, the one she uses on cameras and staff and anyone who isn't in this room — filtered through a dangerous, high-pitched calm.

"Asahi-chan~? Sweetie? Fuyu is going to say this one time, okay~? Please stop flipping your skirt like a little kid at a shrine festival before the entire lighting crew walks through that door and files a report, okay? Please."

"But it's interesting, ssu."

"It is not interesting."

"It's a little interesting."

The Fuyu-voice slips. Just for a second. The real thing bleeds through underneath — flatter, sharper, the register she only uses in this room and one other. "Asahi. Your ass is showing. Both cheeks. There is a camera in the corner. Put. The skirt. Down."

Asahi tilts her head — the specific fifteen-degree tilt, right side, the one that's launched three fan hashtags — and blinks slowly at the ceiling camera, then at Fuyuko, then at her own skirt, as though following a very complicated math proof. Then her eyes go slightly unfocused in the way that means her brain is loading.

"…Oh."

"Yes. Oh."

"But it's just Fuyuko-chan and Mei-chan though, ssu."

"And the camera."

"The camera's ours though, ssu—"

"Asahi."

"—drop it, ah, I dropped it, look, I dropped it, ssu."

She releases the hem. The skirt falls. It does not, in fact, fully cover the situation, but she releases the hem and this counts as compliance, in the same way that a cat batting a glass halfway across a table before looking at you counts as compliance. Asahi seems to recognize this is a victory of some kind, because her face brightens — that sudden, lopsided, canine-flashing grin, the real one, the one that hits like a spotlight — and she pivots on one heel and drops to the floor in a perfect unko-zuwari squat right in front of Fuyuko's stool, elbows braced on her knees, chin propped on her wrists, staring up at her with a raptor-focused intensity from a distance of approximately thirty centimeters.

The squat has, of course, hiked the skirt up entirely. The bike shorts strain across the seat of her, taut and creased and visible from every angle in the room. Fuyuko's eye twitches.

"…Asahi."

"Fuyuko-chan, your eyeliner is really pretty today-ssu. It's sharper than usual-ssu. Did you change the brand? It's got this like shhk quality on the outer wing, like—" she demonstrates with a fingertip in the air, drawing an invisible flick "—shhk."

"Get. Off. The floor."

"But Fuyuko-chan's face is up there, ssu."

"Then stand up."

"That's more effort though, ssu."

From the couch on the other side of the room, muffled by a mouthful of konbini melonpan, comes a bright cackle. Mei is sprawled across two-thirds of the sofa, one long tanned leg thrown over the armrest, her own costume — the sharper, cropped, gyaru-sanctioned variant with a bare midriff and a hip-slung belt — half-covered by a fluffy pink cardigan she has pulled on against the green room's aggressive air-conditioning. Her bleached tips are curled and pinned. Her nails are freshly done. Her expression is the delighted, indulgent, older-sister glow of someone watching their favorite comedy duo warm up.

"Guuurl, leave her alone, Fuyu-chan~" Mei sing-songs around the melonpan, waving it in the air like a conductor's baton. "She's just Asahi-ing, y'know? It's like — it's like weather, right? You don't yell at weather. You just, like, put on a jacket or whatever."

"Mei. Her underwear is showing."

"Bike shorts count as pants, babe."

"They do not—"

"They totally count as pants in like a stage-costume-technical-sense—"

"Mei."

"Okay, okay!" Mei holds up both hands in cheerful surrender, melonpan still clenched between her teeth. She swings herself upright, snaps the pastry off in one bite, dusts her fingers off on the cardigan (Fuyuko winces audibly), and pads across the room in her socked feet to crouch down next to Asahi. Her voice drops into a warm, coaxing, big-sister register — the one she uses on stray cats and jittery junior idols and, apparently, Asahi. "Heeey, Asahi-tan. C'mere, lemme fix your hair real quick, 'kay? Bangs are all crooked from you doin' that thing. Up-up-up."

Asahi tilts her head the other way now — left side, twenty degrees, evaluating — and then, without a word, obediently stands and lets Mei steer her by the shoulders back to the mirror station, positioning her directly between Fuyuko's knees. Mei's hands are gentle and quick, running a wide-toothed comb through the silver-white choppy layers, tucking one longer strand behind Asahi's left ear where the single silver ring piercing catches the light.

"See?" Mei coos. "Pretty, pretty. Fuyu-chan, look, isn't she pretty."

"She is always pretty," Fuyuko mutters — real voice, low, resigned, the "this is the personally offensive fact of my daily existence" voice — and picks up a small pot of setting spray, giving it a professional shake. "Close your eyes. Asahi. Close your eyes. I am going to spray your face and if you flinch I am going to be upset."

"Roger, ssu."

The eyes squeeze shut. The little nose scrunches. Fuyuko sprays — a controlled, expert mist, sweeping across Asahi's forehead and cheekbones — and Asahi holds absolutely still, the way she only holds still for two things in this world: the moment before the downbeat, and Fuyuko fixing her face. Her lashes flutter faintly against her cheeks. Her small chest rises and falls under the fitted bodice, the C-cup swell of her breasts pushing softly at the geometric silver piping, and Fuyuko — professional, focused, entirely unmoved — reaches down without comment to tug the hem of the skirt back into position over the bike-short line and smooth a wrinkle from the ribcage seam. Her fingertips brush over Asahi's sternum. Asahi hums.

A low, barely audible, satisfied vibration.

Mei snorts. "She's purring again."

"She is not purring."

"She totally is, listen—"

"Mei."

"I'm just sayin'! It's cute! Asahi-tan, you're cute, you know that? Fuyu-chan thinks you're cute too, she just can't say it 'cause she's a tsun—"

"I will end you."

"—dere~♥"

Asahi's eyes crack open — just a slit, aquamarine and unfocused and mildly amused — and she says, to no one in particular, still holding still under Fuyuko's hands, "Mei-chan, that melonpan smelled really good, ssu. Is there another one?"

"Aw, babe, I ate the last one, sorry~"

"…Boring, ssu."

"Rude!"

"You should have saved me one, ssu. That's basic. Basic idol conduct, ssu."

"Excuse me, since when do you care about basic idol conduct, you literally just flashed the ceiling camera—"

"That was research, ssu."

Fuyuko, without looking up from where she is now touching up the faintest smudge at the corner of Asahi's eye with a fine brush, says in the flattest possible voice: "Please stop calling it research."

"But it was, ssu. Fuyuko-chan, when the fabric goes fwoom it makes a different sound than when it goes shhwip, and I wanted to know why, and now I know it's about the air resistance and the pleat depth, ssu, which means for the second verse of the new song if I do the spin on the fwoom timing instead of the shhwip timing, the skirt will fan out an extra like, um, ten centimeters, ssu, which means the back row will actually be able to see the choreography, ssu. So." A beat. "Research, ssu."

Silence.

Fuyuko's brush stops moving. She looks, slowly, at Asahi's face. Asahi looks back — clear, guileless, waiting to be told whether or not this counts.

Mei whistles low. "…Damn. She cooked."

Fuyuko closes her eyes. Draws in a breath through her nose. Lets it out.

"…Fine. That is — fine. That is a valid reason. But you will tell me, next time, before you start hiking your skirt up in front of a camera, so that I can — pre-warn the crew, or dismiss the crew, or — something, Asahi, I am begging you—"

"Okay, ssu."

"—promise—"

"I promise, ssu."

"Say it properly."

Asahi opens her eyes fully now, and does something she almost never does — she reaches up, small hand catching Fuyuko's wrist where the brush is still hovering, and holds it. Not tight. Just held. Her fingers are warm from the ring lights. Her expression is the neutral-to-blank baseline, but her eyes are locked on Fuyuko's with the raptor-focus, the loading-screen dilation, the thing that makes people feel like they're being seen.

"Fuyuko-chan. Promise, ssu. I'll tell you next time. Because it makes you upset when I don't, and I don't want you upset before the stage, ssu. Because we all do better when you're not upset. Ssu."

The green room goes very quiet.

Mei's grin softens at the edges — turns into something warmer, more private. She looks away, discreetly, and finds something very interesting on her phone screen.

Fuyuko's face does not move. Fuyuko's face is a masterwork of nothing-happening. But her wrist stays exactly where Asahi is holding it, and her throat works once, and after a long, long beat, she pulls her hand back with the professional smoothness of a woman who has never been affected by anything in her life, and returns to touching up the eye corner.

"…Good. Yes. Fine. That's — that's fine, Asahi-chan. Fuyu is glad you understand~♪"

The Fuyu-voice is back. It's a little wobbly at the seams. Nobody comments.

"Ehehe. Fuyuko-chan's ears are red-ssu."

"They are not."

"They totally are, babe—"

"Mei."

The monitor on the wall ticks over. Thirty-eight minutes. Down the hall, a staff member's radio crackles faintly, a voice calling for costume check on Straylight in ten. Asahi tilts her head — right, fifteen degrees — listening to something the others can't hear yet, and then the corner of her mouth pulls up into that lopsided flash of canine, and the small satisfied hum starts again, deep in her throat, as Fuyuko's brush moves across her skin and Mei hums along to a song only she can hear.

Ten minutes until costume check. Forty-two until curtain.

Straylight is getting ready.

The house lights die.

For a heartbeat there is nothing — just that black velvet hush that always falls over a hall the instant before something happens, that airless suspended second where three thousand pairs of lungs forget, collectively, how breathing works. Somewhere in the rafters a lighting rig ticks as it cools. Somewhere out in the dark a penlight blinks green — camera two, rolling. The WING preliminary stage smells like hot gel filters and floor polish and the faint sweet-sour ghost of somebody's spilled energy drink, and underneath all of it, faint as a heartbeat, the low bass hum of the sound system priming itself for the drop.

Backstage-left, in the wing, Fuyuko-chan is doing the thing she always does thirty seconds before curtain: two fingertips pressed lightly to her own sternum, eyes closed, mouthing something under her breath that isn't quite a prayer and isn't quite a countdown but rides the line between them. The corners of her Fuyu smile are already pre-set — bolted on, kilowatt-bright, the industrial-grade cuteness she can hold for ninety uninterrupted minutes without her cheeks cramping. Her twin sidetails hang like polished lacquer down the front of her shoulders. Under the frilled black-and-silver of the Straylight stage costume, her chest rises, falls, rises, falls, on a metronome she alone can hear.

To her left, Mei is bouncing on the balls of her feet, tanned thighs flexing in glossy thigh-highs, working out her calves with the loose easy shake of a boxer in the corner. She catches Fuyuko's eye and flashes a peace sign — "we got this, girlie" — and Fuyuko's professional smile flickers, for exactly half a second, into something real and small and grateful before it locks back into place.

And to her left—

Nobody.

Fuyuko-chan's real smile dies faster than the fake one lit up.

"Where—" she mouths, and her head snaps around, jet-black bob whipping, eyes sweeping the wing-space, the monitor cables, the water-bottle table, the assistant with the clipboard already frozen mid-gesture. "Where. Is. She."

Mei's peace sign wilts. "Uhhh. She was literally right—"

"—thirty seconds, Straylight, thirty seconds to places—"

And that's when Fuyuko-chan sees her.

Up in the fly-gallery grid. Up in the fly-gallery grid. Twenty feet off the deck, one hand hooked lazily around a steel truss, the other holding — of all things — half an onigiri, still in its plastic wrapper, one bite taken out of the corner. Silver hair haloed in the blue backwash of a moving-head light that shouldn't even be on yet. Bare knees dangling off the edge of the catwalk. Head tilted fifteen degrees to the right, that raptor-in-a-tree-branch angle, aquamarine eyes fixed on something happening below with the total absorption of a cat who has just spotted a very interesting bug.

"—ASAHI."

The whisper-scream comes out of Fuyuko so venomously compressed it barely disturbs the air. Onstage-crew heads do not turn. Professional. Always professional. Even in murder.

Up in the grid Asahi's ears — actually swivel, Fuyuko swears they swivel — and she peers down over the edge, cheek bulging with rice, and gives a bright little wave with the onigiri hand.

"Fuyuko-chaaaan!" — sotto voce, ricocheting down through the flies like the world's cheeriest whisper. "The lights from up here are super pretty-ssu! You can see the whole stage-ssu!"

"GET. DOWN."

"Coming-ssu—"

She drops.

Not climbs. Drops. Twenty feet, straight down, half-eaten onigiri clamped between her teeth, silver bob fluttering up around her face like she's underwater — Fuyuko's stomach vaults into her throat and she nearly screams — and then at the very last instant Asahi catches the second-to-last rung of the safety ladder in her left hand, swings once like a pendulum with the whole liquid grace of something that was never quite domesticated, and lands on the deck in front of Fuyuko in a soundless three-point crouch. Onigiri still in her teeth. Not a hair out of place.

She stands. Chews. Swallows.

"Made it-ssu."

Fuyuko-chan's Fuyu mask does not so much crack as it briefly considers migrating to a different face entirely. Her left eye twitches. Her right hand rises, trembles, and — with the air of a woman restraining herself from committing an on-camera homicide — plucks the crumpled onigiri wrapper from between Asahi's fingers, folds it once, twice, tucks it into the sleeve of her own costume, and hisses through a smile so bright it could be used to land aircraft:

"You impossible little—* if we get docked points for a late cue I will end you, do you understand me, I will personally end you—"

"Aye-ssu."

"—TEN SECONDS, PLACES—"

Mei is trying so hard not to laugh she's making a sound like a kettle whistling in the next room over. She grabs Asahi's shoulder, spins her toward the marks, slaps her once smartly between the shoulder blades — "go go go, honey" — and Asahi is already gliding, weightless, feet finding her chalk-marked X on the deck without her having to look, that eerie kinesthetic GPS she was born with slotting her into position with a millimeter of error.

The intro sting cracks the darkness like a whip.

Blackout goes to full white flood — three thousand throats roar — and the three of them are there.

Fuyuko-chan front and center, arms up in the opening pose, smile a solar event. Mei stage-left, hip cocked, one gloved hand raised in a lazy come-hither. Asahi stage-right, weight low, silver bangs falling over one aquamarine eye, the other eye lifted just enough to sweep the front rows once — a slow, unblinking cat-scan — and then the beat drops.

And they move.

For the first thirty-two bars it is choreography. Textbook. Drilled to sub-millimeter precision by their dance instructor over four weeks of ten-hour days. The three-figure fan-out on the second measure. The head-snap unison on the pre-chorus. Fuyuko's picture-perfect wink on the camera-two cutaway — timed to a frame, because she counts frames. Mei's improvised little hip-roll on the eight-count that reads on-camera like sultry ad-lib and is in fact rehearsed down to the exact centimeter of pelvic tilt. Asahi's footwork clean, on-mark, on-count, technically perfect, that superhuman kinesthetic recall of hers reproducing the choreography with the fidelity of a video playback.

Technically perfect.

Which is why Fuyuko-chan feels it a full two beats before it happens.

There's a — shift. Barely nothing. The way the air changes right before a summer thunderstorm cracks open. Asahi, in the peripheral corner of Fuyuko's professional eye, has stopped counting. Her shoulders have gone loose in a way that shoulders under choreography do not go loose. Her head has tilted, that fifteen-degree cat-cant, and her aquamarine eyes have gone wide and flat and fixed — not on the audience, not on the cameras, not on the choreography — but on something the rest of them can't see. Something happening only inside her. Something she has just, this second, found interesting.

Oh no.

Oh no no no—

Fuyuko has half a beat to think it. Oh, this fucking girl, she's about to—

—and then Asahi goes.

The second chorus hits like a truck and Serizawa Asahi breaks form.

Not sloppily. Not out-of-time. She hits every downbeat with the terrifying accuracy of a metronome — but the choreography that comes out between the downbeats is not the choreography anymore. It's something wilder, longer-limbed, more predatory — she has taken the eight-count they drilled for a month and she is rewriting it in real time, ad-libbing on the skeleton of it with the intoxicated abandon of a jazz soloist who has just realized the changes and the rhythm section will follow her wherever she goes. Her spin on the twelve-count comes around one rotation more than it should. Her arm-snap on the accent is a full inch sharper, a full quarter-beat later, a full order of magnitude hungrier. She drops into a low crouch that was not in the notes, silver bob fanning around her head, and comes up out of it in a way that curls her whole small body like a whip and fires her back into the formation from an angle that was never blocked and never rehearsed and is, objectively, dangerously close to Fuyuko-chan's blind side—

Inside her head Fuyuko-chan's Fuyuko voice says, very calmly and very clearly, in the tone of a woman who is going to strangle a fourteen-year-old backstage in exactly four minutes and thirty-seven seconds:

Oh you have got to be fucking kidding me. She's going off-book. She's going off-book in the WING preliminary. You feral little— fine. Fine. You want to play, cat? Let's play.

And Fuyu — perfect, kilowatt, camera-loving Fuyu, front and center in the wash of the key light — does not miss a single frame. Her smile does not falter. Her chin does not drop. Her count does not break.

She just — raises the temperature.

The wink on the camera-two cutaway lasts a fraction longer, drops a fraction lower, tips over from cute into devastating. The hip-pop on the pre-chorus goes from crisp-idol-textbook to a sharp, controlled, predatory isolation that rolls up her spine like a wave and cracks out her fingertips. Her voice — her sweet, high, Fuyu-voice that could sell candy to a diabetic — drops half a semitone into the mic on the ad-lib fill and comes out smoky, comes out hungry, matches the wild silver thing on her right shoulder note-for-note-for-note and then pushes past it, daring it — keep up, kitten. Keep. Up.

Because if Asahi is going to burn the choreography down, then fine. Fine. Fuyuko-chan is going to burn it down with her, and she is going to do it looking so goddamn radiant that the judges will forget there was ever a choreography to begin with.

Mei, stage-left, catches it in the mirror-play of the second bridge.

She feels the wattage from Fuyu spike. She feels the feral energy from Asahi crackling like a live wire six feet to her right. She sees, in the split-second glance she steals mid-turn, Fuyuko's professional smile with something molten leaking around the edges of it — that dangerous, competitive, I will not be outdone in my own house glow — and Asahi's eyes gone bright as struck flint, pupils dilated to full black, that lopsided almost-smile creeping up one corner of her mouth as she rides the beat like she's daring gravity to try her—

And Mei, bless her, grins.

Not on-camera. Not for the fans. Just a private, wry, big-sister-watching-her-two-crazy-little-siblings-set-the-house-on-fire grin, aimed at nobody. She thinks, in the fond exasperated Mei-voice inside her head: Oh my god. These two. Every single time. Okay. Okay, mama's got you. Mama's got you both.

And she drops in.

Between them. Underneath them. Around them. The Mei that shows up in the third measure of the second chorus is not the Mei that opened the number — she's bigger, she's warmer, she's the glue-and-honey holding the whole runaway thing together. Every time Asahi's off-book improvisation threatens to leave a gap in the formation, Mei is already in the gap, filling it with a gyaru-loose hip-sway that makes the transition look intentional. Every time Fuyu's answering escalation punches a hole in the choreography's original geometry, Mei is angling her own body-line to catch the eye and drag it forward so the seam never shows. Her improvisation is not for the camera. Her improvisation is for them. She is a bassline. She is a safety net. She is the older sister who has watched her two little sisters play chicken their entire lives and has learned that the fastest way to keep them both alive is to stop trying to stop them and start engineering the crash into something the audience will pay to see.

The bridge hits.

Full company, all three, dead center, and for eight bars Straylight is not performing choreography anymore. Straylight is fighting — a beautiful, structured, three-way conversation of bodies at the absolute limit of what three girls this small should be able to do. Fuyuko-chan front, sharp as a scalpel, every isolation a blade. Asahi weaving around her, wilder than a stray cat in a thunderstorm, the sheer interest radiating off her body so hot it distorts the air. Mei behind them and between them and around them, the impossible connective tissue, the smile that says yes and, yes and, yes and.

And on the final downbeat of the bridge, without a single word spoken, without a single rehearsed cue, all three of them hit the exact same pose — Fuyuko center, Mei left, Asahi right, arms fanned in perfect radial symmetry, chins up, eyes forward, breathing in sync — like they'd drilled it for a month.

They hadn't.

The house loses its mind.

The roar that comes up off the floor is not a WING preliminary noise. It is a finals noise. It is a dome noise. Somewhere in the front row a girl is sobbing. Somewhere in the mezzanine an office worker who came here to scout a different unit has just, quietly, changed his Twitter bio. In the judges' box, three pens have stopped moving.

Fuyuko-chan holds the pose, chest heaving, that spotlight-perfect smile still nailed to her face — and in the sliver of her peripheral vision she can see Asahi holding her own pose, ribs pumping, one silver strand of hair pasted to a sweat-slicked temple, aquamarine eyes wide and bright and alive with something that is not exhaustion, not adrenaline, not even joy — something more elemental than any of those, something that looks, terrifyingly, a lot like hunger.

Inside her head, Fuyuko's real voice, ragged and breathless and just slightly, damningly, proud, says: You absolute menace. You absolute, completely, monstrously, wonderfully impossible little menace. I am going to strangle you in the dressing room.

The outro sting hits.

Blackout.

For a full two seconds after the lights die there is nothing but the roar of the crowd and the sound of three girls trying not to gasp audibly into their mics.

Then, from stage-right, barely a whisper, just under the thunder — that bright, sunny, feral little voice that has just, ten seconds ago, single-handedly rewritten a choreography that a professional had drilled into her for four weeks:

"...that was super fun-ssu."

A beat.

Fuyuko-chan, panting, sweat-damp bangs plastered to her forehead, professional smile finally, mercifully, allowed to fall — turns her head in the dark toward the small silver silhouette to her right, and through gritted teeth, in a voice pitched for exactly one pair of ears:

"You. Dressing room. Now. We are discussing this."

And Mei, stage-left, still catching her own breath, one hand pressed to the stitch in her side, the other rising to wave to the roaring dark — just laughs. Soft. Warm. The exhausted, indulgent laugh of the oldest sister in a house full of feral children.

"Aw, c'mon, Fuyu-chan. Don't kill her yet. We gotta do the encore first, y'know?"

The stage lights snap back up.

And Straylight, panting, radiant, ungovernable, steps forward into the light — together.

The final chord detonates like a struck match against the dark of the arena, and for one suspended heartbeat the three of them stand frozen in the afterglow — Fuyuko at stage left with her hand still cocked at her temple in the finish pose, Mei at stage right with her hip jutted and her arm flung skyward, and Asahi dead center, chest heaving, silver-white bangs plastered wet to her forehead, staring straight down the barrel of the front row with her aquamarine eyes blown wide open like she's just spotted prey.

Then the roar hits.

It comes up out of the pit like a physical thing, a wall of sound made of five thousand throats screaming STRAYLIGHT—! STRAY-LIGHT—! STRAY-LIGHT—!, the penlights strobing sea-green and hot pink and clover-black in a rippling grid that stretches all the way back to the sound booth. Somebody in the second row is sobbing. Somebody in the fourth row is holding up a hand-lettered sign that reads ASAHI-CHAN PLEASE BITE ME. The bass from the outro playback is still rattling loose in her ribcage.

Asahi tilts her head — that fifteen-degree cant to the right, the one that's launched a thousand fan accounts — and just... looks at them. Not smiling. Not waving. Looking. The way something in tall grass looks at a rabbit. The camera crane swings past her and the jumbotron catches it and the crowd noise doubles, becomes a physical pressure, and she blinks once, slowly, like she's coming back from somewhere very far away.

"Everyone—! Thank you so much—!" Fuyuko's voice bells out over the mic, sugar-spun and shimmering, that immaculate Fuyu-mode inflection with the little upward lilt at the end of every phrase. She's already dipped into the practiced hand-heart-over-chest gesture, head tilted the other way, giving the front rows that closed-eyes smile that broke the internet after their debut. "Fuyu's sooo happy you all came to see us today—! Please keep cheering for Straylight, okay—?"

"Ahhhh, y'all were insane tonight, seriously—!" Mei's on the other channel now, voice cracking with genuine emotion, one hand pressed to her chest, the other waving broad over her head. Her tanned skin is shining with sweat under the stage lights, honey-brown wavy hair with the bleached tips clinging in ropes to her collarbones, the fitted mesh panels of her Straylight costume clinging to her body in ways that are going to be all over the fansite tomorrow. "We could feel it up here, like — shibireta, for real! Love y'all, muah—!" She blows a kiss so big it needs both hands, the gyaru-flavored muah landing somewhere between the fourth and fifth rows and detonating another wave of shrieking.

Asahi finally, finally lifts her mic. Her chest is still going hard under the black-and-silver crop of her costume, the shallow rise and fall visible even from the back row, and there's a bead of sweat tracking down the side of her throat that a boom camera is going to zoom in on and that's going to become the wallpaper of thirty thousand phones by tomorrow morning.

"...Fun, ssu."

That's it. Two words. Delivered flat, breathless, the little ssu clipping off at the end like she ran out of air. She stares out into the sea of penlights like she's still cataloguing something, then her mouth curves — that sudden, lopsided, canine-flash smile that never quite looks rehearsed — and she jerks her head in something halfway between a nod and a bow.

"Thanks for hangin' out with us, ssu. G'night."

The pit loses its mind.

The lights cut. Blackout. The three of them are already moving before the applause peaks, muscle-memory choreography, Fuyuko waving with both hands as she backs off stage right, Mei doing that finger-gun pew-pew thing she does with a wink, Asahi turning on her heel and just — going, quick short steps, ponytail-length of her bangs bouncing against her jaw as she jogs off into the wing.

—

Backstage is a different universe.

The corridor from the wing back to the greenroom is a narrow tunnel of matte-black soundproofing and gaffer-taped cables, lit in that ugly greenish work-light that flatters absolutely no one. It smells like sweat and hairspray and the ozone-tang of overheated stage electronics, undercut with the syrupy sweetness of somebody's peach-scented dry shampoo. Runners in black shirts and headsets are ricocheting past with clipboards and wardrobe bags, one of them murmuring "Three minutes to changeover, three minutes—" into her mic without breaking stride. Somewhere a monitor is playing the pit audio at low volume and the chant is still going, muffled through the walls: STRAY-LIGHT, STRAY-LIGHT, STRAY-LIGHT—.

Fuyuko is already fussing before they've cleared the wing.

"Mou—!" she huffs, dropping the Fuyu-mode voice the instant they're past the first sound baffle, her voice sliding down into that lower, sharper register she only uses in-house. She's got a bottle of Pocari Sweat in each hand from the wing-side cooler and she thrusts one at Mei and one at Asahi without looking, still walking, silk-straight black hair swinging heavy behind her. "Asahi. Asahi. Two words? Really? The whole outro monologue we practiced and you gave them 'fun, ssu, thanks, g'night'—"

"Was fun though, ssu."

"That's not the point—"

"Fuyu-chan, chill, chill—" Mei's already got her arm slung around Fuyuko's shoulders, hip-checking her gently down the hall, laughing that bright open laugh of hers that shows all her teeth. Her costume's soaked through under the arms and she doesn't care, cracking the Pocari open one-handed and taking a long pull. "The pit was eatin' it up, did you hear 'em? Asahi could've said literally anything and they woulda screamed. She could've said 'shine ya scrubs' and they woulda screamed."

"That's worse, Mei, that's worse—"

"Fuyuko-chan's mad, ssu?" Asahi asks — genuinely asks, head tilting that fifteen degrees again, unscrewing her own Pocari with fingers that are still faintly trembling from post-performance adrenaline. She takes a swig, doesn't lower the bottle, keeps drinking, keeps drinking, the whole hallway watching a fourteen-year-old inhale five hundred milliliters of electrolyte solution in one continuous pull. She comes up gasping. Wipes her mouth with the back of her wrist. "Sorry, ssu. Forgot the words."

"You did not forget the wor—"

"Forgot 'em, ssu."

"Asahi."

"Ehehe." That lopsided flash of teeth again. She reaches up — she has to reach up, Fuyuko's got a good ten centimeters on her — and pats Fuyuko's cheek with a slightly damp palm. "Fuyuko-chan did great though. Voice was real pretty tonight, ssu. The high one at the end, the — " she hums a fragment of the bridge, pitch-perfect, "— that part. Real pretty."

Fuyuko's mouth opens. Closes. Opens again. A faint pink creeps up her throat that she'd deny under oath if anyone asked her about it later. "...that's — that's not gonna work on me, you know. That's not — Mei, stop laughing—"

"I'm not laughin', I'm dyin'," Mei wheezes, doubled over with one hand braced on the corridor wall, mascara threatening. "She got you. She got you so bad. Fuyu-chan, your face—"

They round the corner into the pre-greenroom antechamber, and there — right there, framed in the doorway with a clipboard tucked under one arm and a folded towel over the other, the runners parting around him like water around a rock — is the Producer.

Asahi's whole body language changes.

It's not something she does consciously. It's not even something she'd notice if it were pointed out to her. But the little forward-lean that was just idle motion sharpens into direction; the cataloguing gaze that had been drifting over the corridor snaps into that unblinking laser focus and her pupils dilate, visibly, the aquamarine irises going dark around the edges. Her steps quicken. She doesn't run. She just... arrives faster than the physics of her stride would suggest, cutting past Fuyuko and Mei with that liquid stray-cat economy of motion, and the next thing anyone sees is her forehead thunking softly, purposefully, into the center of the Producer's sternum.

"—Producer-san."

Muffled against his shirt. She doesn't look up. Just stands there with her face pressed to his chest, small shoulders rising and falling under the black mesh of her costume, breathing him in through her nose in slow, deep pulls that anyone paying attention would recognize as scenting.

"Was fun, ssu. Real fun. Did you see."

She still hasn't looked up. One of her hands has found the hem of his blazer and closed around it, small fingers curling into the fabric with a fierceness that has absolutely nothing to do with the words she's saying.

"Fuyuko-chan's mad at me, ssu. But it was fun. So it's okay, ssu. ...You saw, right? The part where I did the — " she doesn't lift her head, just makes a small vague gesture with her free hand, some half-remembered dance beat, "— the thing. That thing. You saw."

Behind her, Fuyuko has caught up, arms crossed, one perfectly-pedicured foot tapping against the scuffed linoleum. She's giving the Producer a Look. It's a very specific Look. It's the Look that says you deal with this one, I'm off the clock, and also we need to talk about the outro monologue situation, and also — why does she always do that with you, don't answer that, I don't want to know.

"Producer-saaan~" Mei singsongs from behind Fuyuko, popping up over her shoulder with both hands framing her face in exaggerated stars, tanned cheeks still flushed from the stage. "Did we kill it or did we kill it? Tell me we killed it, I need to hear it, my ego is starving—"

Asahi finally, finally tips her head back — just enough to look up at him from where she's still leaned bodily against his chest, chin resting against his sternum now, those luminous aquamarine eyes fixed on his face with an intensity that would be uncomfortable coming from anyone else and that is, from her, simply how she looks at him.

"Producer-san," she says again, quieter this time. The corridor noise recedes. The chant from the pit is still faintly audible through the walls. Her small fingers tighten in his blazer hem. "The waiting part before we went on. That part's the boring part, ssu. But I did the waiting. 'Cause you said to."

A beat. Her head tilts. Fifteen degrees.

"So praise me now, ssu."

The door to the 283 Production office did not so much open as it detonated — one moment it was a perfectly reasonable Tuesday afternoon, sunlight slanting golden across the carpet, the printer humming its dutiful little printer-hum, and the next moment there was a bang loud enough to rattle the framed poster of last quarter's promo shoot, and a small silver-haired projectile was rocketing across the threshold at approximately the speed of a caffeinated whippet.

"Producer-saaaan! Look-look-look-ssu!"

Serizawa Asahi skidded to a stop three feet from the desk — sneakers squeaking on the floor, oversized black hoodie half-falling off one bare shoulder, athletic shorts riding up on one thigh — and thrust both cupped hands forward with the grave, ceremonial reverence of a knight presenting a relic to the crown. Her cheeks were flushed pink from what had evidently been a full-tilt sprint from wherever she'd come from. Her aquamarine eyes were dilated to the size of dinner plates. Her ahoge stood at proud, unrepentant attention.

And cradled between her small palms, waving its enormous mandibles with the sluggish outrage of a creature that had just been abducted from its perfectly good tree, was —

A stag beetle.

An enormous stag beetle. The kind of specimen that beetle-enthusiast forums would post at three in the morning with captions like "UNIT ACQUIRED." Glossy black carapace catching the afternoon light like polished obsidian. Pincers longer than Asahi's pinky finger. Legs the diameter of drinking straws. It was, by any objective entomological standard, a magnificent animal.

"His name's Fuyuko-chan-ssu!" Asahi announced, beaming — that rare, real, canine-flashing smile that hit like a lighting cue. "I found him behind the vending machine on the way here-ssu! He was just sittin' there, all cool an' shiny, an' I was like, whoa — that's Fuyuko-chan-ssu, one-hundred-percent-ssu! So I brought him! To meet you! Isn't he super cool, ssu?!"

She jiggled her cupped hands slightly. The beetle waved its mandibles in a manner that could only be described as aggrieved.

"Look at his pincers-ssu, they go snap-snap — I already made him fight a twig outside and he won-ssu, the twig had no chance-ssu, so now he's the twig-yokozuna-ssu—"

"ASAHI."

The voice that cut through the office was cold enough to frost the windows.

Mayuzumi Fuyuko had been perched — until roughly four seconds ago — on the corner of the Producer's desk, one leg crossed elegantly over the other, sipping something from a cutesy pastel to-go cup and idly scrolling through her phone with the placid dignity of a cat surveying its domain. The "Fuyu" mask had been half-on, half-off, the way it always was in the office when it was just the three of them; the softness in her voice had been genuine, her body language relaxed.

That was four seconds ago.

Now the phone was on the desk. The to-go cup was gripped in white-knuckled fingers. Her elegant Hime-cut framed a face that had drained several shades paler than her usual porcelain, and her striking purple-brown eyes had locked onto the writhing, mandible-waving abomination in Asahi's hands with the fixed, unblinking horror of a woman staring down her own executioner.

"Asahi." Her voice was very, very level. The kind of level that preceded natural disasters. "What. Is. That."

Asahi tilted her head to the right, that characteristic twenty-degree cant, and blinked at her unit-mate with genuine puzzlement. "It's Fuyuko-chan-ssu?"

"Why is it named Fuyuko-chan."

"'Cause he's shiny an' pretty an' looks kinda mad-ssu."

Somewhere in the back of Fuyuko's throat, a sound was born that had no proper name in any known language — something between a hiss, a whimper, and the death rattle of a woman's last remaining nerve. Her free hand had come up in front of her chest in the classic gesture of a person about to either bolt for the door or ascend directly into heaven, whichever came first.

"Get. It. Out."

"Ehhh?" Asahi's face fell — visibly, adorably, the puppy-just-told-no expression that had launched a thousand fan hashtags. She pulled her cupped hands protectively against her chest, hunching her small shoulders around the beetle in a shield of hoodie and pouting affront. "But he came all this way-ssu—"

"He came in your hands, Asahi, from the parking lot, that is not 'all this way,' that is a distance a literal beetle could have walked —"

"But he was tired-ssu—"

"Bugs don't get tired!"

"Everyone gets tired-ssu, Fuyuko-chan, that's just science-ssu."

"Do — not — call it that."

The beetle — perhaps sensing that its situation had become sociologically complex — chose this exact moment to flex its mandibles again with a soft, audible click-click-click that reverberated through the suddenly very quiet office. Fuyuko made a noise like a teakettle being strangled and retreated backwards along the edge of the desk with the mincing, panicked footwork of a woman navigating a minefield in six-inch heels.

Asahi, meanwhile, had already lost interest in the argument — her attention had drifted, the way it always did, to the more interesting object in the room. Which was, of course, the Producer.

She trotted the last three steps to the desk with the beetle still cupped in one hand and, with the fluid, absentminded ease of long habit, hopped up onto the desk's edge — not the chair, never the chair — and folded herself cross-legged on top of a stack of contract paperwork that had been very neatly organized approximately two seconds ago. Her bare knees knocked lightly together. Her sneakers dangled. She leaned in close, the stare engaging at full raptor-focus intensity, and cocked her head at him with an expression of grave and businesslike consultation.

"Producer-san." Her voice dropped into that quieter, more serious register she used when she'd decided something warranted her actual attention. Her aquamarine eyes searched his face with the unblinking, slightly-too-long directness that made most people look away. She was, he could feel, subtly sniffing — that not-quite-subtle habit of hers, cataloguing his scent the way she catalogued everything else about him. "You gotta help-ssu. Fuyuko-chan is bein' mean to Fuyuko-chan."

Behind her, from somewhere near the far wall where she had now fully retreated, came a sound that was either Fuyuko composing herself for professional diplomacy or Fuyuko actively dying.

"— Asahi," came the voice, and oh, it had shifted, the polished sugar-sweet upward-lilt of Fuyu-mode sliding into place like armor even as her hands trembled at her chest, "sweetie, listen to Fuyu, okay? Fuyu is going to explain something very important. That thing you are holding — that magnificent creature, yes, so cool, so shiny, absolutely — belongs outside. In nature. With its bug friends. Who are all waiting for it. Very sadly. Right now."

"Bugs don't got friends-ssu, Fuyuko-chan, they're solitary-ssu, I read it-ssu."

"Fuyu is not — Fuyu is asking you nicely —"

"Also your voice went weird-ssu."

"IT DID NOT GO WEIRD."

The beetle waved its mandibles. Fuyuko made another teakettle noise. Asahi, entirely unbothered, leaned in a further inch toward the Producer's desk chair with the beetle still helpfully extended, her ash-silver bangs falling across one eye and her mouth curving into that lopsided, slightly-too-honest little smile that meant she was about to say something that would make his week significantly more complicated.

"Producer-san," she said, tilting her head the other way now, aquamarine eyes narrowing thoughtfully as they scanned his face like she was reading the answer off it before he'd said a word, "you like bugs, right-ssu? You gotta. 'Cause if you like Fuyuko-chan, you gotta like Fuyuko-chan too-ssu. That's just logic-ssu."

A pause.

Her nose wrinkled faintly. She leaned another inch closer, until he could feel the warmth of her breath and catch the faint sun-warmed sweat-and-shampoo scent of her, and added, in that same flat, conversational, world-ending tone —

"Also you smell different today-ssu. Kinda good-ssu. Did somethin' happen-ssu?"

From across the room, Fuyuko's soul left her body.

The green room smelled like hairspray, cheap air-freshener, and — faintly, underneath — the specific plasticky-warm scent of a heater that had been running too long. Late afternoon light bled in orange stripes through the half-closed blinds, striping the carpet, the low table cluttered with disposable coffee cups, and the sprawled body of a fourteen-year-old girl who had, at some point in the last twenty minutes, given up on the concept of "sitting" as a lifestyle.

"—How lo~ng, ssu."

Serizawa Asahi was pooled across the low couch like something the studio had spilled and hadn't bothered to wipe up. Her silver-white bob was pushed flat on one side from where she'd been rolling her head against the armrest; the other side stuck up in that stubborn tousled ridge no comb had ever mastered. Her oversized black hoodie — three sizes too big, sleeves swallowing her hands past the fingertips — had ridden up above her navel, exposing a strip of milk-pale stomach and the small, deep innie of her belly button. Below it, black spats hugged her hips and thighs like a second skin — sleek athletic fabric molded so faithfully to her body that the soft cleft between her legs pressed a visible seam through the stretch material, the shallow dip of her manko's outline traced clean as a pencil line right there for the entire green room to admire.

Both legs were flung wide open. Not "girl-sitting-comfortably" wide. M-shaped-crab-stance-on-her-back wide, one knee flopped over the couch back, the other braced against the low table, hips canted forward and up like she was presenting for a veterinary exam. The mound between her thighs — round, softly plump, the fabric already faintly darkened along the crease from body heat and the residual damp of an afternoon of dance practice — sat at exactly the eye level of anyone who walked in the door.

She didn't notice. She wasn't thinking about it. She was thinking about the ceiling tiles. She'd counted forty-seven of them, and was mildly annoyed that the forty-eighth was cut off by the light fixture.

"Producer-san's laaate, ssu…" A long, drawn-out sigh, blown up toward her own bangs. Her aquamarine eyes tracked the drift of a dust mote. "Boring… ssu."

Across the room, at the vanity mirror, Mayuzumi Fuyuko had been in the middle of touching up her gloss when she'd caught the reflection in the mirror. The little wand froze halfway to her lower lip. Her purple-brown eyes slid — slowly, with the resigned inevitability of a woman who had lived through this exact moment forty times already — from her own perfectly-styled face over to the display case that was Serizawa Asahi's lap.

…Oh my god.

She capped the gloss. Turned on the padded stool. Folded her hands neatly in her frilly-hemmed skirt. And smiled — the Fuyu smile, all soft dimples and rounded vowels and the kind of gentle scolding-glow that had launched a thousand fan-cam clips.

"A~sahi-chan?" The saccharine lilt could have frosted a wedding cake. She tilted her head, one perfectly-manicured finger drifting up to touch her own cheek. "Sweetie, Fuyu just has to say it, okay? A cute girl really shouldn't spread her legs open like that, you know~? Ehehe~♪ How about sitting up nice and proper and waiting for Producer-san like a good girl? Hm❤?"

"Eeehh~." The response came from somewhere in the direction of Asahi's stomach — flat, uninflected, roughly the emotional register of someone being told their coffee order was ready. She did not move. She did not close her legs. Her right foot, dangling off the edge of the table, twitched once, like a cat's tail-tip.

Fuyu's smile did not falter. Fuyu's smile never faltered. Fuyu's smile deepened the way a knife-edge deepens.

"A. Sa. Hi. Chan.❤"

Each syllable landed like a polished pebble dropped into still water — sweet, precise, and carrying the unmistakable subsonic frequency of I will drag you off that couch by the ankle, do you understand me.

Asahi's aquamarine eyes tracked, slowly, from the ceiling tile down to Fuyuko. Held. Blinked once — the long, unhurried blink of a predator evaluating whether a threat was actually a threat. Then flicked back to the ceiling.

"…"

Silence. Complete. Her legs did not move a single millimeter. If anything, her right thigh sagged another degree wider against the couch back, the seam of the spats pulling taut across her mound with a soft stretch that was audible in the quiet room. The faint outline sharpened — you could see the puffy little rise of her mons, the shallow vertical furrow bisecting it, the way the fabric clung and dimpled into the shape underneath.

Fuyuko's eye twitched. Just once. Microscopically.

"…this girl," she muttered, and the Fuyu voice fell off the muttering like a wig sliding sideways, leaving something a full octave lower and considerably less patient underneath. "Seriously. Every damn time—"

"Guys~!!"

The green room door banged open, and Izumi Mei burst in on a wave of vanilla body-spray and unfiltered sunlight, tanned arms full of vending-machine drinks, blonde-tipped waves bouncing. Her enormous smile took up approximately sixty percent of her face.

"Yo yo yo~! Heads up, kay?! Producer-san's like, two minutes out, the front desk just buzzed—!"

Click.

The sound was almost inaudible — the soft snap of thighs closing, muscle memory faster than thought. In the space between one syllable of Mei's sentence and the next, Asahi had folded. Legs neatly together, ankles crossed, knees demurely angled to one side like a middle-school girl in a shrine visit photograph. She was already sitting up. Hoodie tugged down over her stomach. Phone out — held vertical in front of her face at exactly the right angle to serve as a mirror — fingers already busy with the tips of her bangs, feathering them apart, smoothing the errant ahoge (which sprang back up immediately, betrayer that it was), tucking the longer left-side strand behind her silver-ringed ear with a fastidiousness that no one in this building had ever witnessed her apply to anything.

Her aquamarine eyes, in the black mirror of the phone screen, were suddenly enormous. Focused. Sharp. The pupils dilated the way they did when something very interesting had entered her sensor range.

She wet her lower lip. Adjusted the hoodie's neckline down a centimeter so the collarbone showed. Tilted her head fifteen degrees to the right — that head-tilt, the one that ate fan accounts alive — assessed the result, and gave a small, satisfied "…mm," under her breath. Almost a purr.

Mei blinked at her, drinks still cradled to her chest. "…Asahi-chi?"

"Nn." Asahi did not look up from the phone. Ran a fingertip along her lower lash-line. "Nothing, ssu."

Across the room, at the vanity, Fuyuko had gone very, very still.

The lipgloss wand hung forgotten between her fingers. Her purple-brown eyes — behind the perfect Fuyu mask, still holding its shape by sheer professional reflex — had gone flat and glass-bright, catching the orange window-light in a way that made them look almost lit from within. She was staring at the back of Asahi's silver head. At the phone-mirror. At the delicate, unconscious primping of a girl who three seconds ago had been sprawled with her crotch pointed at the ceiling and had not, verifiably, given a single solitary damn about it.

…Ohhh.

A single fingernail tapped, once, against the vanity's edge. Click.

Oh, oh, oh.

Something behind Fuyuko's smile sharpened — the same way a cat's ears go back a quarter-inch before the tail starts twitching. Her lips parted. The Fuyu smile widened, softened, glowed. It was the exact same smile. It was not the same smile at all.

"…hah…?"

The syllable dropped out of her — not the airy Fuyu giggle, but something quieter, dryer, the kind of laugh that a woman gives when she has just, silently, in the span of two heartbeats, revised her entire strategic map of the room.

"Ehehe~." She recapped the gloss. Set it down. Very deliberately. Very neatly. "Asahi-chan sure is diligent today, isn't she~? Fuyu's impressed♪"

Asahi, still angling the phone, did not register the tone shift. "Mn."

Mei, oblivious, was already tearing open a can of something. "Oi Fuyu-chi, catch, I got you the peach one—"

But Fuyuko was still watching Asahi. Head tilted. Smile perfect. Eyes narrowed to a bright, glossy, very interested slit.

Well, well, well, she thought, and the interior voice was not Fuyu's at all. So that's how it is, huh, you little brat.

Down the hallway, muffled through the door, the sound of a familiar pair of footsteps — unhurried, faintly uneven from carrying too many things — grew steadily closer.

Asahi's ears, quite literally, twitched toward the sound. Her thighs pressed a little more tightly together. She tucked the ahoge behind her ear one more time.

It sprang back up.

The hotel suite smells of hairspray and hot iron and the faint, sugary vanilla of whatever body mist the stylist spritzed twenty minutes ago before bolting off to rescue Mei-chan from a wardrobe emergency two doors down. Outside the floor-to-ceiling window, Yokohama sprawls under a bruise-purple dusk, the bay stitched with pinprick lights, the venue somewhere out there past the Landmark Tower, waiting to be filled. Ninety-seven minutes to call time. The room hums with that specific pre-event electricity — half caffeine, half dread, all now.

And on the edge of the king bed, one Serizawa Asahi sits with all the postural discipline of a poured drink.

Legs splayed. Knees flopped outward in a lazy, wide-open M that would give any decent finishing-school teacher a stroke on the spot. The stage costume — some fresh little atrocity the design team had cooked up specifically for tonight's opening number, a "Straylight EVOLVED" concept piece, ostensibly — is a study in engineered indecency. A stiff-collared cropped bolero jacket in matte black, unzipped down to just above the navel, showing off the sports-bra-thin silver bandeau underneath and the smooth flat stretch of her tummy. A frilled tulle-and-satin skirt, pleated, tiered, and — critically — hemmed at a length that could most charitably be described as aspirational. When she sits, it stops behaving like a skirt at all. It becomes a decorative belt. A suggestion.

Underneath, the wardrobe department's regulation "safety shorts" — a slick pair of glossy black spats, thigh-hugging, the fabric so thin and stretchy it clings to every soft dimple where her thighs meet the crease of her hip, riding up cheekily to reveal the lower crescents of that peach-heart little butt every time she shifts. Not panties. Not really shorts. Something in between. Something engineered by a committee who all secretly knew.

She hums to herself — that low, tuneless, borderline-purring vibration that means she is not, strictly speaking, unhappy — and takes a handful of the tulle skirt between her fingers and fwip, fwip, fwips it up and down like it's a toy, like she just discovered flags. The motion lifts the front hem clean up to her navel with every flick. The little pale-thigh-plush-black-spats-tiny-flash of her frontal contour blinks in and out of view in cheerful metronomic rhythm.

fwip. Fwip. Fwip.

She catches her own reflection in the dark glass of the window and tilts her head fifteen degrees to the right, evaluating, ahoge bobbing.

"—Producer-san. Producer-saaaan." Not a whine, exactly. Asahi doesn't really whine. It comes out flatter than that, a slightly dragged, slightly nasal observation of his existence, delivered without turning her head. "Hey. Look-ssu. Look at this-ssu."

Another fwip. The skirt flops forward, flops back. Her thighs, blissfully unaware of their own arrangement, part another centimeter.

"This skirt-ssu. Yeah, this one." She grabs a fistful of it and holds it out to the side like she's presenting the corpse of something she found in the yard. Her expression is the specific blank-eyed neutrality she wears when she's about to say something that will require ninety seconds of Producer damage-control. "It's too short-ssu. Way too short-ssu."

A beat. Head tilt the other way. Her aquamarine eyes flick down to her own lap — down at the spats, at the way the safety shorts are riding up into the plush of her thighs, at the shameless little peek of skin above the waistband where the bolero rides too high — and then back up, catching his reflection in the window.

"Like — think about it-ssu?" she says, matter-of-fact, patting the tulle down flat against her thigh with a small, offended little pom. "If I do the jump in the second chorus, this thing just — floop. Straight up-ssu. Everyone in the front row's gonna see my whole — y'know-ssu." A vague, uninterested gesture at her own crotch, the way one might indicate a leaky pipe. "Whole situation-ssu."

The head tilts further. One silver-white lock of hair falls between her eyes. She doesn't move it.

"Isn't that kinda... perv territory-ssu? Producer-san. Hey. This is perv territory-ssu, right?" The syllables come out perfectly even, perfectly clipped, that signature ~ssu landing every time like a metronome. There's no heat in it. There's not even really an accusation. It's more like she's flagging a bug in a video game. Please patch this in the next update-ssu.

She fwips the skirt one more time, apparently just to prove her point, and this time the hem goes up high enough that the spats' seam vanishes entirely and there's just — Asahi. Small, pale, thigh-plush Asahi, sitting on a hotel duvet with her legs apart and the front-crotch curve of her safety shorts pulled snug and visible right up against the little dip where everything meets everything, and not a single flicker of embarrassment anywhere in the vicinity of her face.

Then, and only then — as if remembering, belatedly, that this is the sort of thing a girl is supposed to be embarrassed about — she puffs her cheeks out. Muuuu. A small, performative frown. She yanks the skirt down over her thighs with both hands and clamps her knees together with a fwump of tulle, sitting up straighter, chin lifted in an approximation of proper maidenly indignation she's clearly seen Fuyuko-chan do and is now cosplaying.

"You gotta think about these things-ssu, Producer-san." Delivered with the grave, wobbly-mouthed severity of a fourteen-year-old lecturing a thirty-year-old about propriety while sitting on a hotel bed in what is functionally lingerie with a jacket over it. Her cheeks, finally, produce the faintest pink — not from shame, more from the sheer novelty of performing shame, of trying on the shape of it like a new hoodie. "Seriously-ssu. What do you even think of me-ssu, huh? Huh? Making Asahi wear something like this-ssu."

The pout wobbles. Holds. Wobbles again.

And then — because she is Asahi, and because sustaining an emotional posture for more than eleven consecutive seconds is genuinely beyond her — the pout collapses into a lopsided little grin, canine tooth flashing, and she flops backward onto the mattress with a soft fwump, the skirt promptly riding right back up her thighs, arms sprawled overhead like a starfish, staring at the ceiling.

"—Ah, but ya know-ssu?" Her voice goes softer, that particular soft that means her actual brain has caught up with her mouth. She lifts one leg, points her toe at the ceiling, watches the tulle slide down toward her hip in an obedient little cascade. Studies the ankle-line critically. Not vain. Just — interested. "It's kinda cute-ssu. This costume-ssu. Like, I was pretty mad about it in the fitting room-ssu, but... hmm. Hmm hmm."

She rolls onto her side, propping her cheek on one fist, elbow buried in the duvet, and the position does unspeakable things to the way the skirt drapes over her hip and thigh — bunched, riding, a slice of pale midriff exposed between crop-jacket and waistband, the spats stretched taut across the round curve of her hip. Her aquamarine eyes fix on him with that laser Asahi-stare, pupils faintly dilated, the vaguely feline weight of her full attention.

"Producer-san picked it out-ssu, right? For me-ssu?"

The head tilts. Small.

"So! Producer-san!" She sits up abruptly, cross-legged now, the skirt puddling uselessly around her hips, spats on full display, elbows on her knees, chin in her palms, eyes huge and expectant and waiting. "Come check-ssu. Is it on right? Straps and stuff-ssu. Fuyuko-chan said last time my bandeau was crooked and the whole left boob was 'basically visible from the third row,' whatever that means-ssu. So come check-ssu. Properly-ssu. All the way-ssu."

She pats the mattress beside her. Twice. Firm.

"C'mon-ssu. Ninety minutes left-ssu. Don't wanna go on stage lookin' like a idiot-ssu."

The ahoge bobs. The window glows purple. Somewhere down the hall, Mei's laughter erupts through a wall. The suite is very warm, and very small, and Asahi is looking at him like he is the single most interesting thing in the room — which, in her defense, he probably is.

The office was quiet in that specific late-afternoon way — the kind of quiet that only settles into a workplace after the last lesson has wrapped, the last phone call has been fielded, and the last staff member has ducked out to grab a convenience-store dinner they fully intend to eat at their desk. The blinds sliced the low autumn sun into pale gold bars across the carpet. The air conditioner hummed its one indifferent note. Somewhere down the hall, a printer was very slowly dying.

Into this perfect, deadline-shaped silence — the 283 Production office had been left alone with Serizawa Asahi.

Which was, as anyone who had ever been left alone with Serizawa Asahi could attest, a mistake.

Lessons — done. Bookings for the day — cleared. Fuyuko had left twenty minutes ago with a very pointed "Asahi. Do not do anything," which Asahi had absorbed the way a cat absorbs a lecture about the couch. Mei had waved bye with a "be good, babyyy~♡" that carried, if one listened carefully, exactly zero belief that Asahi would be good. And the Producer — the Producer was still at that meeting on the other side of the city, the one that had been supposed to end an hour ago and had, in classic industry fashion, entered its second act.

Which left Asahi.

And boredom.

And the Producer's office fridge.

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She had drifted in there the way she drifted into everywhere — silently, at some indeterminate point, on socked feet that made no sound at all. The oversized black hoodie she was wearing (Producer's, obviously, stolen off the back of his chair three days ago and never returned) hung down past mid-thigh, drowning her out-of-costume shorts entirely and giving her the silhouette of a very small ghost with very long sleeves. The cuffs came down over her hands. She was chewing, absently, on the drawstring.

The fridge opened with its little tunk.

Aquamarine eyes, dilated wide in the sudden cold light, swept the interior with the methodical intensity of a raptor cataloguing a field mouse's escape routes.

Bottled tea. Boring.

Yogurt drinks. Fuyuko's. Off-limits (she'd learned).

A single sad onigiri from the day before yesterday. Suspicious.

And there — third shelf, tucked against the back like it was hoping not to be noticed — four glossy cans in a neat little cluster, still linked by the plastic ring of a six-pack that had been half-eaten by a sponsor visit last month. Silver. Red circle. Bold English lettering that even she could read.

ASAHI

Her head tilted. Fifteen degrees. Right.

"...ha?"

She reached in and lifted one, turning it slowly in her hand. Cold. Heavier than a juice can. The condensation ghosted onto her palm and left a wet ring on the hoodie sleeve she didn't notice. She squinted at the label. Then at her own reflection in the darkened window above the sink. Then at the label again.

"...that's my name-ssu."

A pause. The fridge hummed. Somewhere the printer took another labored breath.

"That's — huh. That's my name, ssu."

Her mouth pulled sideways into that lopsided little half-smile she got when the world had just handed her something interesting on a plate. She wandered back to the Producer's chair with the can cradled in both sleeve-cuffed hands, plopped herself down cross-legged in it (spinning it once, testing), and set the can very carefully on the desk in front of her like it was a specimen.

"...why's my name on this-ssu? Did somebody make this for me-ssu? Producer-san didn't say anything about it, though......" She flicked the tab experimentally. Frowned when it didn't move. Flicked it harder. It made a small, promising ktik. "Ohh. Openable-ssu."

Somewhere in the distant back of her brain, a very quiet voice that sounded suspiciously like Fuyuko-chan said Asahi. Read the whole label.

Somewhere in the much louder front of her brain, another voice — her own — said interesting.

Kshhh — psshhh.

The can hissed open.

She sniffed it. Her nose wrinkled — ku, something sharp, yeasty, a little bitter, not like juice at all. Head tilt again. The other direction this time.

"...huh."

She took a sip.

Her whole face scrunched. "Bwuh — bitter-ssu! Whu — what is this-ssu, seriously — " Tongue out, hanging, offended. She stared down into the can like it had personally lied to her. "Nn... but... kinda...... "

Another sip. Slower this time. Analytical. Considering.

"...it's fizzy-ssu. Kinda good after the bitter part-ssu."

A third sip. Then a fourth, which was more of a pull.

"Oh. Ohhh. Okay-ssu. I get it now-ssu. It gets better the more you drink-ssu. That's — that's a trick-ssu. That's a cheat, ssu. Interesting-ssu~♪"

Somewhere at the fifth sip, a very small warmth started blooming in her chest, and Asahi — who had never in her fourteen years of life encountered ethanol in any recreational quantity, whose body-mass index was hovering around forty-seven kilograms of pure fast-twitch muscle and stubbornness, and who had not eaten since the granola bar Mei had thrown at her head at 11 a.m. — cocked her head the other direction.

"...oh. Ohhh. Producer-san. Producer-san this is super interesting-ssu."

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By the time the elevator dinged in the distance — the specific muted pon that meant someone was coming up to the seventh floor, at 7:43 p.m., which was precisely when the Producer had texted the group chat sorry, wrapping up, back in 20 exactly forty minutes ago — the situation in the office had evolved.

Can number one: empty. Standing on the desk like a little aluminum trophy.

Can number two: three-quarters empty. Held loosely in a hoodie-swallowed hand.

Cans number three and four: still in the fridge, technically, though Asahi had gotten up twice to look at them and had, both times, been distracted mid-mission by something else in the office (a fascinating pen, a rubber band, her own reflection in the monitor).

Asahi herself: horizontal.

Or — more accurately — diagonal. She had migrated, at some indeterminate point in the last thirty minutes, from the Producer's chair to the Producer's couch — the low grey two-seater against the wall where clients sat during meetings — and had draped herself across it in a configuration that defied both physics and standard human joint articulation. One leg hooked over the armrest. The other tucked underneath her. The hoodie had ridden up. The drawstring was, once again, in her mouth. Her cheeks were flushed a soft, dusty pink that started high on the cheekbones and bled down toward her jaw, and the tip of her nose was the same color, and her aquamarine eyes had gone glassy and unfocused in a way that made them look almost liquid, like someone had turned the saturation up on them by ten percent.

She was humming. Tunelessly. That low, barely-audible near-purr she made when content — except tonight it was louder, and it kept drifting into little snatches of a Straylight chorus, then breaking off into giggling at nothing.

The elevator poned.

Asahi's ears — because they did, they visibly did — twitched.

"...Producer-san?" she said, to the ceiling. To no one. Testing the word in her mouth. It came out slower than usual, the vowels a little longer, the consonants a little softer. "Producer-saaaaan. Hehe. That's a funny word if you say it a lot-ssu. Producer-san Producer-san Producer-san — pu, ro, du — pfffhehe."

The door beeped its keycard beep.

Asahi's head lolled sideways on the armrest so she could look at it. Her hair — silver-white, sweat-damp at the temples for no reason she could account for, sticking up in one specific place on the crown of her head — fell across her eyes, and she blew at it, unsuccessfully, twice.

The door opened.

"Ah," Asahi said, very quietly, to herself. "Found him."

And then — with a kind of feral coordination that even four fifths of the way through her body weight in beer could not entirely dismantle — she poured off the couch in one liquid motion, landed on her socked feet with a soft tup, wobbled once (interesting new information, her body reported: the floor is tilted), corrected with a grin, and launched herself the three meters across the office floor with all the guided-missile enthusiasm of a stray cat spotting its person after a long day.

"Producer-saaaaaan~❤"

Impact.

She hit him mid-chest at approximately the speed and mass of a small, extremely happy artillery shell, both arms winding around his ribs, face burying itself immediately into the front of his coat with a deep, greedy, inhaling sniff — sunya, sunya — like she was trying to catalog every note of him at once. The half-full can was, miraculously, still in one of her hoodie-swallowed hands, held out to the side at arm's length with the unconscious precision of someone whose motor cortex was performing damage control on autopilot even as the rest of her brain melted.

"Nnn~ welcome home-ssu❤ Welcome hooome. You smell like — like outside-ssu. Cold outside. And coffee-ssu. Did you have coffee-ssu? You always smell like coffee when you've had coffee. That's — that's science-ssu."

She tilted her face up. Way up. Chin tucked against his sternum, both aquamarine eyes gone huge and liquid and blinking slowly, that faint dusty pink flush riding high on her cheeks, the tip of her tongue peeking out at the corner of her mouth in unconscious concentration. The ahoge on the crown of her head bobbed once, twice.

"Producer-san. Producer-saaan. Guess what-ssu?" A pause, for dramatic effect she did not know she was executing. Her nose scrunched. *"There's a drink in the fridge — with my name on it-ssu. Did you know that-ssu? Did you know?" Her eyes narrowed, suddenly, with tremendous suspicion. "...did you put it there-ssu? For me? Because it has my name-ssu?"

The can wobbled, gently, at the end of her outstretched arm. A single drop of amber liquid slid down its side and landed on the office carpet with a tup that neither of them noticed.

*"'Cause it's super interesting-ssu. It's bitter, and then it's not, and then your face gets warm, and then the floor gets — the floor gets soft, Producer-san, did you know the floor can get soft?" Her forehead thumped, lightly, back down against his chest. She rubbed her cheek against the fabric there like a cat marking territory. "Mnnnnn. You're warm-ssu. You're extra warm today-ssu. Is it 'cause I'm — 'cause I'm warm-ssu? Or 'cause you're warm-ssu? Both-ssu? Both is fine-ssu."

She giggled — a real one, unfiltered, half-swallowed against his coat — and clung tighter, hooking one sock-foot around the back of his calf like she was afraid he might try to leave. The hand not holding the can crept up and fisted itself in his lapel, small and stubborn and possessive.

"Producer-san. Don't go anywhere-ssu. I decided-ssu. You're staying right here-ssu. And also — " Her voice dropped, conspiratorial, the ssu stretching soft and syrupy at the end. " — also I think you should teach me why they put my name on it-ssu. That's — that's your job, right-ssu? Teaching me interesting stuff. So."

She looked up again. That lopsided little half-smile — the real one, the dangerous one, the one the fan accounts would riot over if they ever saw it up close — crept crookedly across her mouth.

"Teach me-ssu❤"

The air-conditioner in the 283 Production office hums at that specific frequency only office air-conditioners in the middle of August can achieve — a low, aggrieved whirrrr that sounds like it's personally offended by the heat pressing against the window blinds. Outside, cicadas are doing their usual thing. Miiii—miii—miiiiiiin. Inside, a fly has gotten in somehow and is committing suicide against the glass in slow, stupid loops.

The office is empty.

Well. Almost.

Draped across the office sofa in the boneless, spine-optional configuration only cats and fourteen-year-old idols can achieve, Serizawa Asahi is bored.

Not the ordinary bored of ordinary people. Ordinary bored is a low-grade static. Asahi bored is a full-body condition — a slow, itchy, buzzing pressure that starts behind her sternum and radiates outward until her fingers twitch and her toes curl inside her socks. One sneaker has already been kicked off; the other dangles from her big toe. Her oversized black hoodie has ridden up to expose a strip of pale, flat stomach, and her athletic shorts have twisted sideways from all the fidgeting. Her aquamarine eyes are half-lidded, staring at the ceiling tile directly above her — the one with the water stain shaped kinda like a rabbit, if the rabbit was drunk.

Fifty-eight minutes.

That's how long she's been counting the ceiling tile. She knows this because she counted the seconds, and then when she got tired of that she started counting how many times the fly hit the window (currently: two hundred and thirty-one), and when that got boring she started counting her own heartbeats, which was interesting for about ninety of them and then stopped being interesting.

No lesson today. No sales call. No Fuyuko-chan to poke. No Mei-chan to climb on. Producer-san went out somewhere-ssu, said he'd be back after lunch, patted her head, told her to be good.

Good.

Asahi rolls slowly, gracefully, off the sofa. Lands on the carpet on all fours without a sound. Her head tilts fifteen degrees to the right. Her nostrils flare, once, cataloguing the room's scent-map — coffee (stale), photocopier ozone, the ghost of Fuyuko's hand cream, and him, faint but there, threaded through the fabric of the chair he sits in every day.

She pads across the carpet on the balls of her feet. Silent. Unhurried. Like something with a much longer tail than she actually possesses.

The Producer's desk.

She's not supposed to touch it. She knows she's not supposed to touch it. That knowledge sits in her brain the way "don't step on the crack" sits in a child's brain — technically present, functionally decorative. Her fingertip traces the edge of a stack of scheduling documents. Boring. A half-drunk canned coffee, warm now. Also boring. A pen with the cap chewed. Interesting for four seconds. The stapler—

—click.

Something small and rectangular under the corner of the schedule stack. Cool to the touch. Slim.

Asahi's head tilts the other way.

"…Oh-ho-ssu."

Her voice is flat, unhurried, a little scratchy from disuse. She pulls it out with two fingers, delicate as a jeweler lifting a gem. Producer-san's phone. Face-down, screen dark. Warm on one side from where the sunlight through the blinds has been baking it.

He forgot it.

Her pupils dilate. Just a little. The buzzing pressure in her sternum quiets by a full degree.

Asahi slinks back to the sofa — no, past the sofa, to the deep windowsill, because sitting in the same place twice in one day is boring — and climbs up into a crouch on the sill, knees up around her ears, spine curved. She turns the phone over in her hands, testing its weight, its balance. Presses the side button.

The lock screen glows. A photo of Straylight at the last live. Mei's arm around her shoulder, Fuyuko doing the pose with the little sparkle-fingers, Asahi in the middle, caught mid-blink, mouth slightly open. Six-digit PIN.

She tilts her head. Considers.

Producer-san's birthday is… hmm. She actually doesn't remember it. But she remembers the poster on his cubicle wall — the anniversary date of when 283 Pro's Straylight unit was formally announced. She's stared at that poster approximately nine hundred times while waiting for him to finish paperwork.

She keys it in.

Bloop.

The phone unlocks.

Asahi blinks. Her mouth pulls into a slow, lopsided, canine-flashing smile — the real one, the one that makes staff members' hearts do things they'd rather not discuss.

"Ahaha♪ Got it-ssu."

For a minute or two she does the boring stuff. Checks his messages (mostly Fuyuko complaining about lighting cues, mostly the accountant, mostly boring). Scrolls his home screen. Opens the calendar app, closes it — super boring-ssu. Opens the browser — a bunch of tabs about hotel bookings and stage rental invoices, ultra boring. Opens his notes app, which is entirely lists of her and Fuyuko and Mei's schedule conflicts. Boring boring boring.

Her thumb hovers, then drifts to the little icon in the bottom corner. The photo gallery.

Tap.

The most recent thumbnails are unremarkable — a shot of a stage floor plan, a receipt for a taxi, a screenshot of a text conversation, a picture of a bento (that one she lingers on; it looks good). She scrolls. More stage plans. A blurry photo of Mei making a face. A close-up of Fuyuko's stage makeup that Asahi doesn't understand the purpose of.

She scrolls further, down into the archive, into the older stuff, into the private folders—

And stops.

Her head tilts. All the way to the right. Then back to center. Then a full three degrees further right than seemed physically possible.

"…Eh-ssu?"

Silence. Just the whirrrr of the AC and the thunk of the suicidal fly.

On the screen: a thumbnail. Small. Grainy. She taps it, and it expands, and — oh.

Oh.

It's a woman. No — it's clearly, unmistakably, from the sliver of very familiar black hime-cut hair visible at the edge of the frame, it is Mayuzumi Fuyuko. It is Fuyuko-chan, and she is not wearing her stage costume. She is not, in fact, wearing very much of anything. Her back is arched. Her mouth is open in a way Asahi has never seen it open. Her eyes are half-lidded and shining, wet-looking, and there is a hand — a large hand, a man's hand, a hand Asahi recognizes because it's held her own hand a hundred times when crossing streets — wrapped around one of Fuyuko-chan's small breasts, and the thumb is doing something to the—

Asahi's own breath catches. Small. Involuntary. A tiny, dry huk in the back of her throat.

She swipes.

The next photo is worse. Or better. She isn't sure yet. It's a video thumbnail. She taps it before her brain can catch up with her thumb.

The sound comes on. Fuyuko-chan's voice — Fuyuko-chan's actual voice, the low real one, not the cute-idol one — makes a noise Asahi has genuinely never heard a human being make. Something wet and high and broken in the middle. The camera angle is bad, half-obscured, filmed from a hand-held perspective that shakes slightly, and Asahi can see — she can see —

"Nnh—nnn-hh, Producer, Pr… Producer-san, wait, s-slower, that's—"

Asahi's thumb stabs the pause button so hard the phone almost skitters out of her grip.

She sits, absolutely motionless, on the windowsill. Perched. Bare feet flat against the wood. Knees bracketing the phone. Her aquamarine eyes are huge, pupils blown wide, and she is doing that thing where her whole body goes still in the way small predators do when they've encountered a new and confusing animal.

"…Huh," she says, softly. To no one. To the room. To the fly, maybe.

Something in her chest is doing the tight thing. The thing that only happens on stage, when the lights come up and the bass drops. But it's not the same. It's the same shape but it's happening in a different place. Lower. Under her ribs. Slightly, worryingly, further down than that.

Her thighs press together on the windowsill. She doesn't consciously do it. They just — do.

"…Fuyuko-chan looks kinda…" her head tilts. "…different-ssu."

She scrolls back to the still image. Stares at it. Stares harder — that unblinking, laser-focused Asahi stare, the one that has previously been applied to interesting insects, difficult dance choreography, and, once, a particularly compelling bowl of ramen. Fuyuko-chan's face, in the photo, is red. Her mouth is slack. There is a shine on her chin that Asahi doesn't understand and also, on some pre-verbal animal level, absolutely does.

The Producer's hand.

The Producer's hand is there.

Asahi has known that hand for two years. That hand has passed her water bottles. That hand has adjusted her earpiece. That hand has, once, cupped the back of her head when she fell asleep during a meeting and gently — so gently — lowered her forehead onto a folded jacket.

That same hand.

Doing that.

The tight thing in her chest gets tighter. A prickle starts along the back of her neck. She swipes to the next photo. And the next. And the next. Fuyuko-chan from behind — Fuyuko-chan on her knees — Fuyuko-chan looking up at the camera with her chin tilted and her lipstick smeared, saying something to the person holding the phone, and Asahi doesn't need to hear the audio to know what her lips are shaping, because it's an easy word, a short word, and the shape is—

"…Pu.ro.dyu.sa.san," Asahi mouths, silently, along with photo-Fuyuko.

Her cheeks are warm. Actually warm. She reaches up with her free hand and touches one, curious, the way she'd touch a stone she found on a walk. Her fingertips come away not-damp but somehow heated. Interesting-ssu.

She flicks to another photo. Fuyuko-chan's hand is doing something Asahi doesn't have a name for, wrapped around something Asahi also doesn't have a name for except in the vaguest anatomical-diagram sense, and the something is—

Kacha.

The office door.

Asahi's head snaps up. Not startled — she doesn't startle — but locked-on, alert, ears (metaphorically) pricked, that raptor-focus click into place.

Footsteps in the corridor. His footsteps. She'd know that gait anywhere; she's followed it down twelve different hallways in three different cities. Slightly heavier on the right heel. A little uneven from a bag over one shoulder.

The doorknob turns.

Asahi does not scramble. Asahi does not hide. Asahi, with the phone still open and glowing in her hands, with the tab of Fuyuko-chan's flushed, half-lidded face still filling the screen, sits up straighter on the windowsill — knees folding out into a lazy, careless M, hoodie riding higher, bare feet planted on the wood — and tilts her head to the right, the full fifteen degrees, that trademark ready-to-be-interested angle.

The door opens.

She lifts the phone. Turns the screen out. Points it, casually, toward the doorway. Toward him. Her expression is perfectly, absolutely, unnervingly neutral — the flatline face of a girl processing new data — except for one thing: her aquamarine eyes have gone sharp, dilated, fixed with that unnervingly patient focus, and there is the very faintest, very lopsided upturn tugging at one corner of her mouth.

Cicadas outside. Fly against the window. Air-conditioner sighing.

Asahi does not move from the windowsill. Does not lower the phone. Does not blink.

"Welcome back-ssu, Producer-san♪"

Her voice is bright. Perfectly level. That signature little upward lilt at the end, sweet as a wind chime.

"Um. So."

Head tilts a further three degrees. Aquamarine pupils lock on. The phone, held out toward him like an offering, like an exhibit, like evidence.

"…What're these-ssu?"